The next month was more normal, I talked to Jimmy a lot but we didn't really go anywhere or do anything together much. He met Alex, and some days I'd sit with him at lunch instead of Alex, which I felt bad about, but she still had Stef. It was weird sitting with him because he sat with all his friends, Brian, Matt, Val, her twin Michelle, Zacky and Johnny. They eventually became my friends too but I still didn't know them that well. Me and Jimmy became closer I did know a lot more about him. Jimmy and the other guys were all in a band, that had some kick ass music. Like seriously. He played drums, Matt sang, Johnny played bass and Brian and Zacky were the guitarists. They were really good, I'd been to one of their shows. It was Saturday again, finally. I was wearing my blue sundress complete with combat boots and knee socks. Jimmy texted me asking if he could come over, I said yeah because Vicky was at work so I didn't have to worry about her. I waited in my room until I heard something hit my window. I looked out my window to see Jimmy throwing pebbles up at my window and laughing. I couldn't help but laugh back at this. I ran downstairs to open the door and greet him into my house.
"Hey." I greeted.
"Hi!" He yelled and I laughed. He was wearing a black Metallica shirt with a grey hoodie and some ripped jeans and fingerless gloves. He came in and plopped down on the couch and I sat next to him.
"So where's your scary sister?" He asked, grinning.
"At work." I laughed.
"So what do you wish to do today, milady?" He asked in a fake British accent that made me laugh.
"Like I ever know." I joked.
"Wanna go over to Brian's? Him and Michelle are just gonna be hanging out all day." He asked.
"Sure, call him up." I said to him.
He called Brian to let him know we were coming over. Brian's a really cool guy, he had black hair and brown eyes and always seemed to be wearing eyeliner. He was really good looking but not my type, he was Michelle's type. Brian and Michelle are dating which I found weird because Brian and Matt are such good friends and they're dating twins, not bad weird, just weird. We got in Jimmy's truck and drove over to Brian's house. When we got there Brian was outside smoking and greeted us.
"Hey guys!" Brian yelled over to us.
"Hey." Jimmy and I said at the same time.
"Dude, Matt booked Avenged Sevenfold to play at a festival next week!" Brian claimed happily.
"Oh awesome!" Jimmy grinned. I smiled at his happiness.
When we walked inside Michelle was watching TV on the couch, Brian picked up his guitar and started playing a bit as Jimmy went into the fridge to grab a beer. He didn't drink the whole thing, I guess because he knew he had to drive me home. Michelle walked over to me and we started talking, she's pretty cool. The guys went outside to smoke after a little while.
"So are you and Jimmy like a thing?" She questioned.
"No, we're just friends." I replied.
"I think he likes you." She whispered.
"Yeah, right." I said sarcastically.
"He talks about you all the time." She giggled.
"We're really good friends, that's all." I argued.
"Fine... Whatever you say..." Michelle trailed off, and I rolled my eyes at her.
Jimmy and I left after a couple hours. We got in the truck to drive back to my house and enjoy the hour left before my sister came home, I called Alex to come over, she only lived a couple of blocks away. We were driving and saw her walking so we picked her up and drove the rest of the way to my house.
When we got there it was around 2 o'clock, it was sunny but breezy outside. We sat on the couch and watched Spirited Away and talked about stupid things. Jimmy liked Spirited Away, but it freaked Alex out, it was my favorite movie. When my sister came home we didn't move, the movie wasn't over yet and she can't be mad at me for just having friends over.
"Oh hey Alex." Vicky greeted her, she didn't mind Alex so much. I paused the movie for her to talk.
"And you are?" She asked Jimmy.
"Jimmy." He stated happily.
"Oh so you're Jimmy." She said disapprovingly, and walked up stairs. Jimmy gave me a confused look and I just shrugged and pressed play on the movie.
When the movie was over we talked, about the movie and just crazy stupid things.
"Does your sister not like me or something?" Jimmy asked.
"Probably not." I stated. "But to be honest she doesn't like me either." I giggled. He smiled at me and we went back to our conversation.
"My favorite was No Face." I stated, talking about Spirited Away.
"Me too." Jimmy agreed.
"My favorite was Haku." Alex said.
"Yeah he looked so cool as a dragon!" I added.
Alex left before Jimmy did, she had to get home before her parents did. Me and Jimmy continued to talk about our hopes and dreams after she left.
"Man I can't wait until Avenged Sevenfold gets really big." He exclaimed happily.
"I want to be in a band but I can't sing for shit." I laughed.
"You're probably just being too hard on yourself. Sing, I wanna hear." He said.
"No way." I argued.
"Please?" He asked.
"No, no way." I replied. He groaned at my decision and laid down on the couch with his legs on my lap. I giggled at his reaction and he smiled.
We talked and laughed for a while about things we hated before he left. He left around 5 pm and as soon as he left my sister came out to talk to me.
"I ordered pizza for dinner." She stated.
"Cool." I replied.
"So about that Jimmy guy..." She started.
"What Vicky?" I Demanded.
"Are you guys like best friends now?" She asked with a worried look on get face.
"And so what if we are?" I questioned, crossing my arms.
"I just want to know who my little sister is hanging around." She hissed
"Why do you even care?" I asked.
"Because you're my sister!" She exclaimed.
"Well Jimmy's awesome so you don't have to worry." I replied and she rolled her eyes at me.
I ate the pizza in my room, like I usually do. I ate two slices and watched TV in my room until I had to go to sleep. My phone vibrated as I was chewing on a pepperoni, I wiped off my hands before I even touched my phone. Alex had texted me.
Alex: Jimmy seems really cool ^.^
Shauni: yeah, he's a great friend.
Alex: that all?
Shauni: yes! Why do people keep thinking we're a thing
Alex: because you should be, lol.
Shauni: gtg
Alex: kk byyeee
I groaned at her assumptions and laid down on my bed. I don't think I even wanted a relationship with Jimmy, he'd just see how fucked up I was and break up with me, and then we wouldn't even be friends anymore, and I really need a friend like him.
I took off my clothes and changed into something to sleep in, it was around 1 am before I even tried to sleep. I sat up in my bed thinking for a while, thoughts that made me so angry and sad and upset. This always happened late at night when I couldn't sleep because all my thoughts kept hurting me. 'I'm so fucking ugly.' I thought to myself. 'I ruin everything. My own sister hates me.' I started to tear up. 'Jimmy probably just feels bad for me.' I thought. I started crying and hitting everything that was near me, including my legs and my arms. I was crying silently, so no one would hear me, only making noise to breathe. I laid down on my bed and continued to cry, as ever self hating thought in my head ate me apart. 'He just feels bad for me.' I repeated in my head. As I cried and hid under the covers from my problems.
I woke up the next morning, and didn't want to get out of bed. I pulled the covers over my head to shield myself from the sun coming through my window. I laid there for about an hour because I didn't want to face the day. I rolled out of bed and walked to the bathroom only to be disgusted with the image in the mirror. My hair was all over the place and my eyeliner was smeared all over my face from crying. I splashed some water on my face to wash off the eyeliner and the tears. I stared at my wet face in the mirror and tried to see the beauty in my face but it was really hard. I looked down at my legs to see a bruise on my thigh from last night, I usually don't bruise. I had a small bruise on my arm too but it wasn't noticeable. I brushed my teeth and used the bathroom before I left.
I just got back into bed, I didn't want to change out of my PJ's. 'Today's gonna be a lazy day.' I thought to myself and smiled. I got out my laptop to surf the Internet as I proceeded to be lazy as fuck. I looked through my tumblr dashboard and reblogged about 10 things before ventured out of my room for some cereal. I got out to the kitchen and looked through the cabinets for some cereal, I found some lucky charms and lets just say I was pretty damn happy about it. I poured myself some cereal and walked back to my room, setting it on the little table by my bed. My phone vibrated as I was shoveling the cereal into my mouth.
Jimmy: hey u busy?
Shauni: well just being a lazy fucker today if that's what you meant
Jimmy: xD lol can I come over?
I thought about it for a second before I answered, I looked like crap so I would have to change, but misery loves company.
Shauni: sure ^.^
I finished my cereal and went over to my closet to pick out some clothes. I put on my Slipknot shirt with my black shorts, knee socks and put on my glasses.
I knew Jimmy was here by the sound of pebbles hitting my window. I ran downstairs to open the door for him, I opened it to see his smug grinning face looking down at me.
"Hey!" He yelled, it made me jump slightly but laugh. "So whatcha doin?" He asked playfully fell onto the couch.
"Nothing." I laughed and he pulled me onto the couch. I sat down next to him and he gave me a really mischievous smile that made me confused.
"Hey Shauni?" He asked.
"Are you ticklish?" He grinned.
"No..." I lied.
"You're a bad liar." He stated and then started tickling me on my stomach. I laughed uncontrollably.
"Ah! JIMMY!" I shrieked at him. He just laughed. "Stop it!" I laughed as I fell off the couch. Jimmy laughed at me falling but suddenly his expression changed.
"What's that from?!" He asked, pointing at the bruise on my leg.
"Oh, I ran into a table." I lied.
"You're lousy at lying shortcake." He said to me, hurt glimmering in his eyes. "Now what's it from?" He questioned sadly. "Did someone hit you?" He asked.
"No! It was me." I said truthfully.
"Why would you do that?!" He asked fearfully.
"I was just mad, it's not like I cut myself. I'm sorry don't be upset." I pleaded as my breathing started to quicken.
"You still got hurt, that bruise is huge." He asked me.
"I just got mad, it's not that bad, it didn't even hurt, it was just an impulse." I stated.
"Why take that out on yourself?" He asked.
"Because I don't care anymore! I don't care if I get hurt." I exclaimed as my lip started to quiver.
"I do." Jimmy said as he hugged me tightly, and for once I hugged him back just as tight as my tears started coming out on his shoulder. I pulled away from him and wiped my tears off and hid my face in my hands.
"I'm sorry." I apologized.
"Don't be." He replied. He hugged me again as I tried to catch my breath and stop crying around him. But he actually made me feel safe for once.

Notes

Sorry if it was kinda lame...