I had been awake for probably a good thirty minutes but I stayed laying right where I was pretending to still be asleep as all the memories from last night started to slowly play in my head. I figured the longer I stayed like this the longer I could avoid having to face it. I wondered if they were both even still here. I slowly inched my arms out beside me on the mattress to see if anyone was next to me and I didn't feel a thing.

" maybe it was all a dream?!" I thought to myself as a faint smile of relief spread across my face. I sat up slowly stretching my arms as I opened my eyes. My whole little maybe it was a dream celebration quickly vanished as I looked beside me seeing Brian and zacky snuggled together. I couldn't help but let out a chuckle they looked so cute and I know they had no idea either one of them was even there to begin with. And with that thought my laughter ceased and reality once again snuck its way back in. So number one i felt like the biggest slut ever and not to mention zacky was in the bed when me and Brian were.... Well you know. Not only that but I was drunk and I'm pretty positive that "aspirin" I got from zackys pocket was something completely different. So now I'm not only a huge slut but a drunken pill popping slut. With that realization I smacked my forehead running my hand slowly down my face. I tried to get up as quietly as I could without the bed moving. I didn't know exactly where I was going but i wanted to be anywhere away from them before they woke up. I scooted as gently as I could manage to the edge of the bed lowering my feet down to the floor. But just as they hit the carpet I looked back to see Brian and zacky staring at each other with wide eyes still in their embrace as they both slowly turned their gazes to me. Once again the smirk crept onto my face and a chuckle escaped my lips. Without a word they both jerked away from one another making their way to opposite sides of the bed. They were both speechless just looking to me for some kind of explanation but I didn't know what to say.

" Brian what the fuck are you doing here?" Zacky grumbled keeping his voice low as they both locked stares once again.

" I could ask you the same fucking thing ass!" Brian spit back.

" We'll I had been here since ten o'clock last night and you weren't so where the fuck did you come from???" Zacky smirked as he saw Brian's mouth fall open in defeat.

" he was with you last night? The whole night? In this bed?" Brian looked over to me with hurt clouded eyes. I felt my heart ache. I felt so bad and none of it was intentional at all but I couldn't take it back. I had to look away from him it was too much I couldn't stand the guilt.

" Well?" He questioned me again softly lowering his head to meet my eyes.

" yes" I whispered never looking up from my hands. It was dead silent for a few moments which felt more like years.

" So zacky was in this bed when we had sex?" He said anger starting to build in his voice.

" Wait! You guys fucked too?!" Zacky blurted out in shock. I kept my head down wishing a big black whole would just swallow me up right now. I took in a deep breath and slowly lifted my head. I really didn't want to face this and they probably wouldn't care what I had to say but I atleast had to give my side. As much as it looked like it I wasn't a heartless bitch.

" first of all not that it makes any of it right zack when you came over last night I was extremely drunk. And then I woke upon the middle of the night with a headache and was looking for some aspirin. I thought that's what's was in your pants pocket but now I know it wasn't. It was X and Brian you came over after I had taken it." I blurted out in one breath to get it all out while I had the courage. But as I thought back on what just flew out of my mouth it didn't come out like I hoped. Instead of trying to defend myself I pretty much just put them both down like none of it meant anything with either one of them. I mean dont get me wrong there's tons of girls that would love to be in my shoes right now but I still felt horrible.

" oh........ I see your just a drunken fucking slut! I mean seriously I've been fighting with one of my best friends over you and I've known you for what like three fucking days!" Brian cackled venom dripping from his words as he spat them at me. " and then you fuck the both of us in the same bed on the same fucking night!!!!"

" we'll technically we fucked in the bathroom" zacky pointed out just to earn a evil stare from Brian. " oh excuse me you fucked us within the same three fucking foot "radius" " Brian quipped sarcastically.

" Well Brian lets get the fuck out of here dude. We might want to go stop by the clinic and get checked out, god knows what she has crawling around in there" zacky said throwing his arm around Brian's shoulders as they both left my room completely ignoring me. I just stood there staring at the door for what felt like eternity. Ever word they said was like a dagger in my chest. I mean I had been through a lot of different stuff in my life but I had never had anyone talk to me the way they did especially zacky. I had seriously only been here like three days! Three fucking days and seriously all this has happened already. Three days ago these were two of my favorite men in the world, their music kept me going no matter what and now they were disgusted by me, they hated me. But as much as it hurt I couldn't blame them. I made my bed now I have to lay in it. I walked to my door shutting it and locking it. I flopped down on my bed just staring at the ceiling. I wanted to cry but nothing would come out so I just continued staring wishing this was all just a bad dream once again.