Holding On To You

Matt walked up to the white coffin, Sadie coming into view over the edge. She wore a white lace dress, her nails painted a pale pink.
An organ played and soft sniffles came from everyone around him.

“He could have saved her.”
A whisper came from behind him, Jennifer stood close casting a disgusted look at him.

He quickly sat up, the sheet pooled at his waist. A sheen of sweat covered his body as he peered around the darkened bedroom.
Reaching over, the other side of the bed was cold and empty.

“Sadie?”

No response.
Throwing his legs to the side of the bed he rubbed the sleep from his eyes and threw on a pair of pj pants.
He walked through the house. She wasn't in the bathroom...the extra bedrooms...living room….kitchen. Then he heard it, guitar music coming from the basement. Walking down Sadie was sitting in the recording booth of the studio he had built down there. A notebook perched on the music stand and a guitar in her lap. Her voice was smooth and full of feeling, kind of mesmerized Matt to the spot he stood.

“Pain that I remember, is the pain that makes me stronger. I've had to look at life that wayI've learned to rise above it, to keep from going underWell I take it step by step, day by day”

She quickly wiped a tear away before continuing to the next line of the song.

“I'm not ashamed of what you see,'cause every single scar has become a part of meAnd all I know, is here and now, yesterday's gone, but we made it through somehow. Looking back I'm glad I took my chances,'cause they were worth at least enough to leave a mark.Baby I'm not sure where we're going, but it means a lot to know just where we'll start. With these scars”

The music faded out. Sadie looked up and saw Matt standing just behind the soundboard, hitting the button to end the recording.
Walking out her tummy did that flip flop thing as it did every time she laid eyes on her Fiance.
The black pj bottoms hung low on his hips exposing the notched V he got from working out so much, his tattoos in full display.

“I'm sorry baby, did I wake you?”
She asked wrapping her arms around him

“No Honey, that was beautiful.”

“Thank-you it's something I've been working on, but I'm not sure if I'm going to release it.”

“Why wouldn't you?”

“It's just kind of a song I wrote for me...for us... I have a lot of songs I've never released because I didn't write them for an album or for other people to hear, I wrote them for me, it's a therapy.”

He held her and totally understood her reasoning, he has a few songs like that himself, even some the guys have never heard or read.
Leaning down his lips caught hers, she deepened the kiss running her tongue along his.
Reaching around he grabbed below her ass and lifted her, wrapping her legs around him he moved to the sofa in the corner.

“I love you baby”
She whispered as she reached into the waistband of his pants finding an already hard dick.
He groaned under her touch as she rubbed she moved her hand up and down. Pulling her shirt up he exposed her perky nipples and took one into his mouth.
Flipping her so she was laying on her back he climbed on top, running his fingers through her hair deepening the kiss.
Reaching into her purple pj bottoms he ran a finger across her already wet opening. Pulling down his pants his hard clock sprung from behind the fabric

“Woah Shadz! Put the horse cock away!”
Brian's voice interrupted the moment. Matt quickly laid on top of Sadie, hiding her exposed chest.

“What the fuck man?!”

“What?! We said we were going to meet in the studio at 6! Its 6!”

He buried his head in the crook of Sadie's neck with a groan, he had totally forgot, plus he didn't even look at the clock when he woke up.
Brian stood there with a smirk on his face

“Well can you at least turn around so I can cover up Syn?”
She laughed as he covered his eyes like a child and turned around. He chuckled
“Do you need help?”

A month later Sadie was helping Matt carry his bags onto their tour bus. He was nervous about leaving her, but they both knew it would come eventually.
Placing them on his bunk a sudden sadness came over her. This was going to be the longest they have been apart since they officially started dating.

“It’s going to be ok Sades.”

Matt came up behind her, he always seemed to be able to read her mind.

“I know, and it's not like I'm not about to start my own tour next week...I'm going to miss you.”

“And you know I'm going to miss you.”

She turned into his embrace

“I'm going to miss you too”

Zack cooed wrapping his arms around the both of them, earning a giggle from Sadie.

“But seriously Sade, you've have become a part of our fucked up little family. Just stay away from the crazies ok? We won't be around the save the day.”

“Thanks Z, I don't think I could be asked for a better family.”

“I would have asked for one that didn't have a homicidal fan trying to kill us.”

“God Dammit Johnny!”

She watched as the bus pulled away, puffing a haze of black smoke as it made its way down the road.

“Dude you can’t get all mopey yet, we just left!”
Brian flopped down on the couch next to Matt, who gave him a playful shove.

“I’m not mopey, just worried.”

“Worried? There's nothing to be worried about! That loon is locked up for God knows how long, Sadie’s security team is top notch.”

“Yeah, but it’s not about that. This is the longest we’ve been away from each other, what if…”
“Look I’ll take a hit for the team if the Groupies want to jump your bones ok? Since me and Michelle broke up I could use some distraction.”

“Thanks?”

“Not a problem man”
Brian laughed clapping a hand on Matt’s shoulder as he got up and walked towards the back bunks.

“And if Sadie breaks your heart she’ll have to deal with me!”
Johnny spoke up, Zacky laughed

“What all five foot of you Johnny?”

“Five five thank you!”

Notes

"Scars": https://youtu.be/vOVq_KCATkM

The part Sadie sings stars at the 2:15 mark.