Confession of a King

"Shit,” I breathed out between whimpers, my head thrown back into the many pillows that sat atop the bed. Matt’s face was buried between my legs, his tongue flicking at my clit as his fingers worked magic inside of me. He had woken me up like this five minutes ago, and I was ready to lose my cool.

My hands embedded themselves in his hair, yanking at it as I bucked my hips against his face. His rough hands removed themselves from my core and were now placed on my hips, holding them firm against the bed. He looked up at me from his position, his hazel eyes meeting mine with a dark gaze. His mouth continued to devour me as I struggled to make eye contact with him, my eyes fluttering closed or rolling back, feeling myself become closer and closer to my release.

I let out a loud moan as his tongue pushed itself inside my slit. He pulled it from me and spoke dominantly, still looking up at me, “Don’t you dare wake up Alec.”

I laughed to myself and rolled my eyes as he went back to business. His right hand left it’s spot on my hip to meet Matt’s mouth, switching back and forth between my clit or inside of me. Soon enough, two of his fingers were inside of me, pounding away at my g-spot as his tongue licked over my everything. I came undone in his hands, whining quietly as he lapped up every drop that released from me.

Matt removed himself from my core and climbed on top of me, resting on his elbows, his chest against mine. I leaned forward and kissed him, pushing my tongue in his mouth and tasting myself on his lips. He let out a low groan as my hands found his shoulders, scratching lightly. It was as if on cue, Alec started crying and Matt chuckled, climbing off of me and grabbing our son out of the crib. Matt held him to his chest and climbed back in bed next to me, the small boy immediately stopped crying and clung to his daddy, looking up at him with twinkling eyes.

It had been six days since he was granted the opportunity of coming home and being a free man. He needed to keep his nose out of trouble for nine months, then the legal system would be off of his case completely. Things had felt like what everyone described as the “honey-moon phase” right now. It was like the world was lifted off my shoulders, everything was stress free, and most importantly, everything was happy. It was an incredible feeling to finally get to fall asleep next to him, wake up with his arm draped over me and watch him interact with our child. Matt had barely put Alec down since he came home, constantly cradling in his arms, always wanting to be the one feeding him, changing him, playing with him. It was like I could barely get enough time with my son, but I didn’t mind. I knew Matt was excited over being a father, but I hadn’t expected him to be like this.

I looked over at him, his lower back resting against the pillows while his head was against the headboard. Alec was against Matt’s chest as he smiled down at him, tickling his belly. A smile widened across my face as I scooted closer to the two of them, placing my head on Matt’s shoulder and pinching Alec’s cheek, a dimpled smile spreading across the little boys face.

“The two of you make me the happiest woman on the planet,” I mumbled, pressing a kiss to Matt’s bare shoulder.

“I love you, Ivy,” Matt said quietly and wrapped an arm around my waist, pulling me tighter to his side. “It still hasn’t set in that this is reality. I can’t believe I’m actually home with you and Alec. It feels so surreal, like I’m going to wake up from a dream sooner or later and be back in that hellhole.”

I laughed and deviated my attention from the small boy, looking up at my beautiful man’s face, “It’s real life, baby. There’s no going back to that place. I’ve actually been wanting to talk to you about, you know, all of that.”

Matt raised an eyebrow at me, looking confused, “What do you mean?”

“Are you going to continue on with being the leader of Avenged now that you’re out? I know there are business deals that you need to close and things of that nature, but is it really in our, as a family’s, best interest for you to have this title?” I bit my lip, not knowing what to expect from him when asking that question. Gang life was all Matt ever knew, and asking him to leave it was probably asking for a lot. I just felt like it would be better to raise Alec in an environment that wasn’t full of guns, drugs and violence.

Matt sighed and leaned his head back, closing his eyes, “I’ve been thinking about it too, babe. I do have business I need to take care of. I still need to set things straight with Behemoth, plus there are a lot of financial fuck-ups that occurred over the last five years that need to be fixed. I don’t want to have a job that puts you or Alec in any kind of danger.” Matt’s hand that was cradling Alec was now held against my cheek, his thumb rubbing over my lips, “That being said, I cannot leave the guys in a position where they will crumble. I think it’s best we move out and I slowly wean myself away from this world, but lift them up to where they can succeed at the same time. Do you know what I mean?”

I nodded, “I’m not asking you to leave this all behind this week…”

“I know, Ivy,” he laughed and flicked me in the nose, causing me to scoff. “Have you been looking at homes?”

I groaned and now tossed my own head back into the pillows, frowning, “There are too many options with the budget you gave me. You can choose the house. I’m too indecisive for that bullshit.”

He rolled his eyes, “You have a million dollars to buy a home and you can’t choose one? You are unreal, woman.”

“Give me my child,” I muttered and scooped Alec from Matt’s arms, sticking my tongue out at him when Alec looked up at me with a grin. I looked down at the little boy with a smile, getting out of bed, “Are you hungry, bubba? Daddy sucks and hasn’t fed you yet, but mommy will. Mommy loves you very much.”

“Daddy was too busy eating something else,” Matt snickered and stood up behind me, smacking my ass lightly and pulling on a pair of sweatpants. “Do you want me to make you breakfast while you feed him?”

“Yes, but I want you to make me a pound of bacon naked,” I smirked, walking down the stairs. I heard him grumble something about burning his dick off and laughed to myself.

I was greeted by Corey when I made it into the living room, a smile on his face as he rested on the couch, his feet up on the coffee table, drinking a cup of coffee and watching the news. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of Alec’s formula, taking a seat at the island and cradling the boy in my arms while I fed him. Matt ultimately made his way downstairs, now fully clothed, just so he didn’t burn his poor inked skin with bacon grease. I balanced Alec on my lap as I demolished my breakfast, and some of Matt’s too. He poked at me with his fork as I tried to grab a piece of bacon off his plate; he stuck his tongue out at me when I squealed when the prongs of the fork collided with the back of my hand.

“Don’t touch,” he smirked and pointed his fork at me. I jutted my bottom lip out, pouting like a toddler who just got in trouble, “Fix your mouth unless you’re going to use it on something.”

“Matthew,” I scoffed. “I haven’t heard you say that in ages.” He continued to smirk at me while my jaw was on the floor. I had gotten so wrapped up in sweet, sexual Matt since he had been home, that I felt myself becoming excited from his one, dirty comment. Something he used to say to me prior to our relationship. “Stop smirking at me, freak,” I looked down at my plate, feeling my cheeks heat up.

Matt laughed, “You’re the freak that’s getting turned on because I just said that to you.”

“Uncle Gates wants baby Shadows,” Brian’s voice filled the room. “And didn’t you two horndogs fuck all night? For the last five nights? How the hell are you still talking about sex?” My cheeks were beet red as I placed Alec in Brian’s arms, Matt laughing from the other side of the island. “Ivy, since when are you embarrassed by sex?”

“I’ve had enough of this,” I laughed and stood up from the table. “Don’t talk about the dirty around my little boy. He has innocent ears.”

“His father is Shadows,” Brian laughed while he bounced Alec in his arms. “He’s cursed and will never be innocent.”

I pushed past him, going to put my plate in the sink. Matt snaked an arm around my waist and pulled me to him, “What do you say we get out and do something today?”

“Oh, you mean we’re going to do something other than lay in bed naked or play with our child?” I raised a brow as he nodded furiously. “What do you have in mind, babe?”

“Whatever you want,” he smiled. “I know you haven’t had the opportunity to get out of the house the last couple months because of everything that’s been going on. We can leave Alec with Gates and do something just the two of us.”

“I’d like that a lot,” I smiled and pressed my lips to his softly. It would be nice to get out of the house for once, and having Matt with me, I knew I would be safe no matter what. Behemoth had laid low, as he said he would, but who knew what he was plotting now that Matt was out of jail. I looked over to Brian, “If you’re okay with watching Alec, of course.”

“Absolutely,” he beamed. “You two go out and have a good day together. He’s in good hands here at home. We’re going to watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and play with stuffed monkeys.”

I laughed, Matt letting a chuckle out, too, “I think you enjoy that more than he does, Bri. Matty, do you want to give Alec a bath while I get myself pretty for you then?”

Matt stood up from his seat, putting his plate in the sink, “Absolutely, honey. Go shower and be ready in forty-five.”

I scurried up the steps and toward our bedroom, unlocking the door and stepping inside. I went into the massive bathroom and shed myself of my clothes. I stepped into the walk through shower and let the hot water cascade onto my body. My mind wandered back to what Matt had said earlier in the morning, about how he feels like he’s living a dream right now and is going to wake up, back in the prison. I felt the same way. The feeling of having him home with me was unlike anything I ever expected. I washed my body, making sure not to get my hair wet seeing as I didn’t feel like fooling with it today. I stepped out of the shower, wrapping myself up in a fluffy towel and walking out of the bathroom. Matt hadn’t made it back into our room yet, so I dropped the towel from my body and threw it into the laundry basket, going into the closet and pulling on a bra and pair of underwear.

I felt hands on my ass and nearly screamed, turning around ready to throw a punch and seeing Matt’s smug face looking at me. I let out a huff and smacked him playfully on the cheek, “You scared the shit out of me. I was going to knock you out.”

“I’d like to see you try, little lady,” he muttered lowly, turning me around and pulling my back to his chest. His mouth began to attack my neck as his left hand rested below my breasts, his right trailing down my stomach and into my panties. “I need to teach you things. Anyone could’ve been hiding in here and you wouldn’t know. I was in plain sight and you didn’t see me,” he laughed against my neck.

I tried to free myself from his grasp, sighing when he held me closer to him and started rubbing circles on my clit with his thumb, “We’re never going to get out of the house if you can’t keep your hands to yourself, Matthew.”

“How do you expect me to act when you step out of the shower looking like a snack?” He laughed and pulled his hand from my panties, pushing me away from him, “Get dressed before my dick makes me change my mind.”

I rolled my eyes and pulled on a pair of jeans, then a flowy tank top. I slipped a pair of sandals on my feet and walked into the bathroom, slapping some chapstick on my lips and mascara on my eyelashes. I grabbed my purse off the nightstand and pulled my hair from the bun it was in, my sunglasses pushing the hair out of my face. Matt changed into jeans and a t-shirt, aviators pinned to the neck of the shirt. I sighed with a smile and placed my hand in his, letting him pull me out of the room and down the steps. It felt so good to have him home.

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