Secrets I Have Held In My Heart
This is Hell
Matt
It had been two days since Brian’s birthday, and I hadn’t heard anything from Robyn or Brian, I knew that meant something bad happened. My guess would have to be that Brian cheated on Robyn. If that was the case, I could only imagine what Robyn was going through. I pulled out my phone and messaged Brian to see what was going on. Even though I most likely wouldn’t get a reply. I sighed quietly and decided I was going to go over there. I got up and slipped my shoes on and grabbed my keys before walking out of the house and over to my car. Just as I was about to get in, I saw Robyn’s car pull into my driveway. I stood there for a minute wondering why she looked so...damaged.
“Hey,” I said as I walked over to her, “What happened.” She looked up at me, her eyes were tired, her hair was thrown up in a messy bun, her makeup was smeared, and you could tell that she didn’t really take care of herself. “Robyn?” I asked, seeing tears in her eyes she hugged me tightly, which caught me by surprise, it didn’t take long for me to hug her back. I loved her. I know I shouldn’t but I do. I loved her, not Val, but Brian got her first and I wasn’t going to step in the way of that.
“He cheated on me,” She said softly, her voice cracking slightly. On the inside, I was so happy, because that meant that I had a chance with her. I was angry because Brian got such a beautiful and wonderful woman that loved him with her heart and he broke it. I felt bad, because Robyn never deserved this, and I could have shown her what it was really like to be loved if it was me that she hit with the tennis ball, and not him. “I’m so sorry,” I said softly, rubbing her back.
“If you need a place to stay, You can stay here. If Val has a problem with it, then she can suck it up. Because nobody deserves to go through that and not have a place to stay. “ I said, looking down at her. “My mom and dad said that I could stay with them for a little while..but they think I’m going to fix things with Brian..I don’t want to fix things. I want a divorce” she said softly, as she hugged me tighter. “Do you want to stay here?” I asked her. “If you wouldn’t mind, just for a little while, until I find a place big enough for the kids and me”
Kids? All they had was Alexis. Was she pregnant? “Robyn?” I said, “Are you pregnant?” She nodded her head against my chest and I sighed. “Brian doesn’t know what he’s lost,” I said to her “You’re a good woman and don't deserve anything that he has done to you.” I kissed the top of her head. “Let's go get your stuff,” I said as I led her to my car. I opened the door and waited until she got in before closing it and getting in my side.
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The whole ride there she was quiet, staring out of the window. I had never seen this girl so broken in the five years that I’ve known her. I pulled into the driveway, not seeing Brian’s car, which made me guess that he was probably out fucking someone, or getting shitfaced because he knew he fucked up. I put the car in park and pulled the key out of the ignition, and got out. I walked around the car and opened the door for her.
“What all do you need to get, I can help you grab things” I said to her.
“Just my clothes and all the baby stuff” She whispered quietly
I sighed softly and walked to the bedroom with her. I began to go through the closets and help her get the stuff that was too high for her to reach. I heard a car pull into the driveway. Brian must be home. “I’ll take care of him” I said to her, walking toward the steps. I met him halfway down them.
“What are you doing here?” He said, glaring at him. “I’m helping Robyn get her stuff. She asked me to help. “ I said. “You fucked up big time Brian. You had yourself a beautiful woman, a beautiful daughter, a child on the way, and you cheated on her. You broke her. You knew for a fact that I love her, and you knew that I would’ve gladly made her my wife, but no, you wanted to be selfish. You promised me that you wouldn’t hurt her, or cheat on her, and what did you do? You fucking cheated on her. She doesn’t deserve that.” I snapped at her.
“Don’t you tell me how to live my life and handle my marriage problems Matt” He snapped at me.
“You know that this is hell for me Brian! I love you like a brother and you know I love her.
You’ve got me stretched thin here. I don’t know what to do”
“Stay the hell out of it”
It had been two days since Brian’s birthday, and I hadn’t heard anything from Robyn or Brian, I knew that meant something bad happened. My guess would have to be that Brian cheated on Robyn. If that was the case, I could only imagine what Robyn was going through. I pulled out my phone and messaged Brian to see what was going on. Even though I most likely wouldn’t get a reply. I sighed quietly and decided I was going to go over there. I got up and slipped my shoes on and grabbed my keys before walking out of the house and over to my car. Just as I was about to get in, I saw Robyn’s car pull into my driveway. I stood there for a minute wondering why she looked so...damaged.
“Hey,” I said as I walked over to her, “What happened.” She looked up at me, her eyes were tired, her hair was thrown up in a messy bun, her makeup was smeared, and you could tell that she didn’t really take care of herself. “Robyn?” I asked, seeing tears in her eyes she hugged me tightly, which caught me by surprise, it didn’t take long for me to hug her back. I loved her. I know I shouldn’t but I do. I loved her, not Val, but Brian got her first and I wasn’t going to step in the way of that.
“He cheated on me,” She said softly, her voice cracking slightly. On the inside, I was so happy, because that meant that I had a chance with her. I was angry because Brian got such a beautiful and wonderful woman that loved him with her heart and he broke it. I felt bad, because Robyn never deserved this, and I could have shown her what it was really like to be loved if it was me that she hit with the tennis ball, and not him. “I’m so sorry,” I said softly, rubbing her back.
“If you need a place to stay, You can stay here. If Val has a problem with it, then she can suck it up. Because nobody deserves to go through that and not have a place to stay. “ I said, looking down at her. “My mom and dad said that I could stay with them for a little while..but they think I’m going to fix things with Brian..I don’t want to fix things. I want a divorce” she said softly, as she hugged me tighter. “Do you want to stay here?” I asked her. “If you wouldn’t mind, just for a little while, until I find a place big enough for the kids and me”
Kids? All they had was Alexis. Was she pregnant? “Robyn?” I said, “Are you pregnant?” She nodded her head against my chest and I sighed. “Brian doesn’t know what he’s lost,” I said to her “You’re a good woman and don't deserve anything that he has done to you.” I kissed the top of her head. “Let's go get your stuff,” I said as I led her to my car. I opened the door and waited until she got in before closing it and getting in my side.
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The whole ride there she was quiet, staring out of the window. I had never seen this girl so broken in the five years that I’ve known her. I pulled into the driveway, not seeing Brian’s car, which made me guess that he was probably out fucking someone, or getting shitfaced because he knew he fucked up. I put the car in park and pulled the key out of the ignition, and got out. I walked around the car and opened the door for her.
“What all do you need to get, I can help you grab things” I said to her.
“Just my clothes and all the baby stuff” She whispered quietly
I sighed softly and walked to the bedroom with her. I began to go through the closets and help her get the stuff that was too high for her to reach. I heard a car pull into the driveway. Brian must be home. “I’ll take care of him” I said to her, walking toward the steps. I met him halfway down them.
“What are you doing here?” He said, glaring at him. “I’m helping Robyn get her stuff. She asked me to help. “ I said. “You fucked up big time Brian. You had yourself a beautiful woman, a beautiful daughter, a child on the way, and you cheated on her. You broke her. You knew for a fact that I love her, and you knew that I would’ve gladly made her my wife, but no, you wanted to be selfish. You promised me that you wouldn’t hurt her, or cheat on her, and what did you do? You fucking cheated on her. She doesn’t deserve that.” I snapped at her.
“Don’t you tell me how to live my life and handle my marriage problems Matt” He snapped at me.
“You know that this is hell for me Brian! I love you like a brother and you know I love her.
You’ve got me stretched thin here. I don’t know what to do”
“Stay the hell out of it”
EEEEEEEEEE! She said yes! Yay! I still want to slap this Brian into next week -_-
11/4/17