A Lifeless Dream

The next day I woke up and the first thing I saw was Brian's beautiful face. It all came back to me, the shopping trip and seeing David, when I came back to the house and he called me wanting to threaten me again and the most important thing I remembered was that when I turned to go to the bathroom I saw Brian standing by the door. His golden brown eyes were angry but they softened when he saw the look on my face. I told him everything and I’m not regretting it.

I watch him sleeping...I wish I could wake up every day and the first thing I saw was him. I wish I could fall asleep everyday in his arms but that's not going to happen. As soon as he woke up he will say goodbye and go back to his girlfriend but I have bigger problems right now I can't think of that stuff. I noticed Brian has now begun to open his eyes and I really didn't want to because that will mean that he'll leave and I was so damn comfortable and safe in his arms.

"Morning" he said in a groggy voice when his eyes opened.

"Good morning" I gave him a light smile.

"How did you sleep" he put a lock of hair behind my ear.

"Surprisingly good" I chuckled to lighten up the mood.

"I'm glad" he kissed my forehead "Now get up we're going to have breakfast" he said and got up from bed.

"Brian...I don't want to go out. What if he's following me" I said as I got out of bed and I was now standing in front of him.

"No one, I repeat no one is going to harm you if I have a say in this" he said taking a step closer to me.

"It's not for me that I'm worried. He knows about you and the guys. He threatened me that if I don't do as he says he is going to harm you. I don't want anything happen to you because of me" I said and lowered my head. He wrapped me into a hug and I instantly wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Nothing is going to happen. I'm a big boy I can handle myself and so does the guys. As for Lucy she has Matt and Matt turns into hulk if you touch one of his loved ones" he chuckled and pushed me back so he could look at my face.

"Alright, I gonna go get ready" I smiled to him and turned to go to the bathroom.

"I'm going to wait downstairs" he said and I nodded my head before he opened the door and left my bedroom.

I got into the shower and turned on the hot water. As soon as I stepped under it my muscles relaxed and I seemed to forget about everything except one thing. Brian. He was still stuck in my head like glue I was worried about him because of David. He thinks he is my boyfriend and he wants to harm him the most. I must do something I can’t let him violent my life like this. I must take things to my own hands.

After my hot shower was over I got dressed in a pair of jeans and a simple t-shirt, grabbed my hair into a pony tail, wore my black converse and I was good to go. I made my way downstairs and my eyes searched for Brian, he was standing with a picture in his hands and when I moved closer I saw that it was a picture of my sister and I. He didn't seem to acknowledge my presence so I cleared my throat to get his attention.

"Sorry I was just looking around and found this" he said nervous.

"It's alright. Don't worry" I sent him a smile and he relaxed a smirk forming in his face.

"Is this you and your sister?" his gaze fell to the picture for a moment before he turned to look at me again.

"Yeah, it's me and Alexis" I said with a proud smile.

"You look beautiful here" he said.

"Do you mean that I'm not beautiful now?" I said in a playful tone.

"No it's not that" he chuckled. I mean that you are different" he was looking straight into my eyes.

"I was happy...I thought everything was perfect and nothing could go wrong. How did everything go so wrong Brian? I mean I'm happy that I came here and met you and the guys and I found Lucy again but...FUCK" I yelled and sat down on the couch placing my face between my hands.

He didn't say anything he just sat down next to me and rubbed circles to my back. How could everything go wrong I had a family. David will eventually show his true self but still I would have my family. Now my mother is dead, I have a father that I don't ever want to see again and my sister is miles away.

"I miss them" I said holding the tears back.

«I know you do Lissa but you have to be strong" he said and he wrapped his arm around my shoulders he pulled me to him and I rested my head to his chest.

«How am I going to do that? My mom was always there for me so was my sister and now she is dead and Alexis is miles away. I miss them so fucking much" I muttered and let a few tears fall from my eyes.

"I will help you baby girl. I am always going to be here" he kissed the top of my head and I nodded.

We just sat there in silence not saying a word. I felt safe in his arms and I didn't want to let go, I wanted to stay with him forever just the two of us. He said he was going to be here and for a moment I believed him but I doubted. He is not going to be always here he has someone else that she needs to be there for her but I shook that thought out of my head immediately.

"Brian?" I asked still in his arms.

"Yes?" his voice was low identical to mine.

"Can we go have breakfast? I'm kind of starving" I said with a smile on my face when he pulled me away to look at me.

«Are you sure? Are you alright?" he asked concerned.

"I'm going to be" I nodded and smiled and returned the smile.

He got up giving me his hand to take I placed my hand in his and got up from the couch. I got my bag and wore my black rayban wayfarer before leaving my house with Brian’s hand still holding mine. He unlocked his car and we both got in. The drive was silent except from the music that was coming from the radio. Finally we arrived at the small restaurant that we had our first lunch, as friends of course.

He got out of the car and came to my side waiting for me to get out. As soon as I got out he placed his hands around my shoulders while we were walking towards the restaurant. When we entered I saw the last person I wanted to see...well after David of course. For one moment I thought it was going to be good morning.

"Brian! What are you doing here?" Cynthia said eyeing me up and down «With her?" she pointed her finger at me while making a face.

"Her" he pointed at me “is my friend and WE came here to have breakfast" he started walking again but she got in front of us again.

I just stood there, I was pretty uncomfortable. I didn't want to fight with her and I didn't want them to fight because of me but clearly I was not the reason they were fighting at least not the whole reason.

"What do you want?" he groaned in frustration.

"I want to talk to you. I didn't mean what I said yesterday" she said stepping closer to him.

"I'm pretty sure you did and really right now I don't want to talk to you...you are the one who got up and left the house" he said his voice hard.

"Brian it's ok. I can just go back home" I said and looked at him.

"No. We are going to have breakfast" he shook his head.

"Come on Brian...really now? Are you going to leave me for her? Just look at her. She is just a low life " her face turned into disgust and even the little sympathy I had for her was now gone. Brian was going to speak when I cut him off by smacking my hand across her face.

"Never talk about me like that! You got it bitch?" she just stood there with her mouth open her hand covering her swollen cheek.

I turned around and left walking towards the beach. I was so angry. My nerves about the whole David situation were really starting to get to me. I was never the person to hit someone and yet I did it. Brian is going to be mad that I hit her and I can't stand the thought of him be mad at me. I was walking too fast that I finally made it to the beach I saw an empty bench and I sat down pulling my legs up and resting my chin on them.

"Why did you walk so fast? Jesus woman...I thought my tongue was going to jump from my mouth" I turned my head and saw Brian standing next to me.

"Why did you follow me? Aren't you mad at me?" I asked him my eyes locked to the ocean.

"Why would I be mad at you? She had it coming" he said and I gave him a confused look.

"Because even if she had it coming she is your girlfriend" he shook his head.

"I don't know for much longer. We keep fighting and fighting and I'm just tired of this shit" he got out a pack of marlboro got one cigarette out and placed it between his thin lips. He found his lighter and light it. I watch him for a moment inhaling and exhaling the smoke.

"It's going to be ok. I'm sorry if I caused you any problems" I slightly rubbed his shoulder.

"You didn't cause me anything Lissa" he smiled and I just nodded.

"Can you take me home?" I said after a few moments of silence.

"Of course" he got up and I repeated his actions.

We walked to his car not saying a word but there weren't words needed to be said. When we reached his car he unlocked it and we got in. During the ride we made small talk and it seemed to get our minds off of things and I was glad about it. I couldn't think about David or Cynthia or anyone else anymore. I was tired.

"You coming in?" I asked when he stopped the car to my drive way.

“If you want me to" he shrugged.

"I want you to" he smiled and nodded.

He locked his car and we walked to my front door. When we opened it I saw people sitting on my living room and I moved closer curious to see who it was. I grabbed Brian’s arm as we moved closer but when I saw who was at my living room I left a sigh of relief. Lucy, Jimmy, Matt, Zacky and Johnny were sitting there having a deep conversation. I cleared my throat and they turned to look at us their faces changed when they saw me. Jimmy got up and came to give me a hug while he whispered in my ear.

"You need to tell them Lissa they're getting unknown phone-calls"

My heart drobbed. I couldn't tell them the truth. But they are in danger they must know. I took a deep breath and sat between Brian and Jimmy. Lucy, Matt, Zacky and Johnny were sat on the couch opposite from us...And here we go.