Brian

She was sleeping next to me, her soft breasts moving up and down and she breathed deeply. I couldn’t help but stare, taking in her beauty. The sheet of the bed was lazily draped around her, but still exposed her chest and long, smooth legs. She was so beautiful and looked to peaceful sleeping there, so much different than she had been just a moment before.

When the door finally opened, I let her go for just a moment so we could walk in, but as soon as it was shut again, I was all over her, kissing her hard. I loved feeling her moan against my mouth, feeling her hands in my hair. She was driving me wild and it felt amazing.

She pulled me to her bedroom as we messily kissed on the way, miraculously making it without running into anything. As soon as we entered she slid her hands under my shirt and I let her help me guide it off. She looked at me and I could tell she was nervous then, as if what was happening really hit her. I kissed her more gently then, slowing myself down to calm her. “You sure?” I said, not wanting to push her into anything. I wanted her bad but didn’t want to force anything.

She nodded then, smiling at me and placing her hands on my bare chest. I kissed her again, gently at first, but then with more passion, putting things back into where they were before our pause. Clothes were removed then and soon we were naked, falling to the bed as we continued kissing, hands roaming each other’s bodies.

After the awkwardness of asking for and putting on a condom, I was inside of her, thrusting and moaning through the waves of pleasure. She looked so beautiful under me, eyes shut most of the time, mouth parted as she moaned with each thrust. She made me feel so good because I knew she was in so much pleasure and I could barely last, but I kept going, wanting so badly to please her.

Her hands drove me wild as they roamed my back and landed on my hips as I pushed into her, as if she was guiding me in and out. As I kissed her, I felt her clench around me and I knew she was reaching her peak. She moaned loudly, her back arching slightly as she came, her hands now clenching the bed sheets to steady her. I let myself go then, knowing that she had been satisfied, and came into her.

Afterwards we laid there, panting and sweating. I cleaned up awkwardly, not really knowing what to say. This was always the part that was weird; the passion was gone and now we were left with what just happened. I heard her sigh contently behind me and the rustling of sheets as she got ready for sleep.

Sometimes at this point I leave, especially if I don’t really know the girl, but Liv looked so beautiful; the afterglow of sex suited her. I decided to join her under the sheets then, which made her happy. I pulled her towards me, holding her against me, and we just stayed there in silence, enjoying each other until she fell alseep.

I smiled at the memory, which I usually didn’t do, but I couldn’t help myself. Our moment together wasn’t wild, wasn’t crazy, but it was wonderful. She was so gorgeous and made me feel great. But, I wondered, what more could come of this? As I laid there and watched her sleep I couldn’t think about the repercussions of our night together. What would Olivia expect from this, if anything at all? She had made it clear that she liked me for a while now, but I wasn’t sure what I wanted. I let my emotions take over, my lust. I should’ve thought things through a little more.

I laid down on my back then, not looking at her anymore. Closing my eyes, I sighed. I didn’t regret what happened, not at all. She was amazing, beautiful, and turned me on like crazy. But, I didn’t know if I was ready to commit to a relationship with the girl. I would have to deal with Matt’s protective brother shit, Michelle being jealous and clingy, and Zack. Shit, Zack. I was the biggest ass in the entire world. I didn’t even think about that before I jumped to the chance to have sex with her and that was shitty. He was going to kick my ass.

If I stayed tonight and was here in the morning, that would make it clear to her that I was invested in this, that I wanted to make it into something more than a one night stand. If I left now, it would be clear that I wanted the opposite. I’m not sure if I wanted either things, honestly, but I didn’t feel ready for the morning, for the conversation we would have. So, I got out of bed quietly as to not wake her, and I snuck out, getting dressed on the way. I just hoped she wouldn’t hate me.

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Olivia

I woke up the next morning, headache already pounding from the night before. The sunlight that entered into my room bothered my eyes and I shut them again, flipping over to my back and stretching. That’s what made me realize that I was naked and that my bed was empty.

Brian.

Oh, my GOD! I slept with him last night! I grinned; I couldn’t help myself. Wow, it was so amazing, feeling him in that way. He satisfied me, made my whole body shake. Just thinking about it drove me crazy. But now he was gone.

I wasn’t sure what I expected really. Last night after we had sex, I almost expected him to leave, telling me it was a big mistake and that he should have never come in. But he didn’t, he stayed, cuddling with me even. We didn’t talk, but his hands moved up and down my body gently or played with my hair. It was sweet, honestly, and it ended up lulling me to sleep. It made me think that maybe he was interested in something more than just our moment of passion. But this morning my empty bed made me feel otherwise.

I didn’t really know what to feel. Part of me was still so happy over last night and so satisfied. But part of me way sad, because of course I want more than just a one night stand. Especially when it was as good as it was! I couldn’t help but feel upset thinking about seeing him again and having to deal with the awkwardness. I definitely didn’t regret sleeping with him; it was probably one of the best moments of my life. But, thinking about seeing him again made me nervous. What did I say? Did I just act like nothing happened? I didn’t think I could do that.

And of course there was Zack. Oh shit, what would he say? Maybe it would be best to keep this whole thing a secret after all, just to avoid Zack finding out and getting hurt. I felt like an ass, but at the same time, I was going to have to deal with this no matter what. Zack was great, and his kiss was amazing, but I just didn’t think I could be with him like I just was with Brian.

Maybe I was delusional, thinking like this. If Brian just used me for sex, how could I still let myself pine over him? I wasn’t a weak girl who let guys get to me like this usually, but I knew Brian would always have some sort of pull over me, whether I wanted him to or not. I was probably being an idiot for still choosing Brian over Zack, but I couldn’t force feelings that I didn’t have.

My phone buzzed then and I got out of bed, looking all over to find it. It was in my shorts pocket from the night before. It was a text from Val.

*Ur probs still asleep and or hung over but call me when you can.*

I chuckled at her text, but then felt worried. I wondered if this was about Zack. I decided to wait a moment to call her and took a shower, brushed my teeth, took some Advil, and got dressed. My headache was just a dull throb at least, so I thought I could handle the call then. I sat on my couch, towel wrapped around my wet hair, and called her.

“Hey, it’s Liv,” I said when she answered the phone.

“Hey, girl. I just wanted to call and see what happened last night. You make it home OK?”

I smiled, “Oh yeah, I made it home just fine.”

“Brian walked you?”

“Yep.” I didn’t want to say anything more.

“Ah ok, we weren’t sure where he ended up going. He never came back last night and all the guys ended up spending the night because they were too drunk to drive. Did Brian stay with you?”

I couldn’t lie and say he went home because he lived way too far away and didn’t have a car with him to drive. “Yeah, he ended up just staying here.”

“Hm.” Val acknowledged, but even though she didn’t say anything, I could tell she was putting two and two together. “So Zack told me what happened. Well, Johnny told everyone, but yeah.”

I sighed. “I feel bad about leaving him there like that, I just didn’t know what else to do. Was he upset?”

“He acted cool about it, but he didn’t look happy. Johnny made it seem like he’s liked you for a long time, Liv.”

“It was bad timing, Val,” I said, not knowing what else to say.

“Because of Brian? Was dancing all you did with him last night?”

I put my head in my hands. “I feel like I shouldn’t talk about it since he’s your friend too.”

“Fine. Let’s just put it this way: if I told Michelle about it, would she want to murder you?”

“Yes,” I said, sighing. She certainly would.

“Look, Liv. I know you’ve liked Brian for a long time, but I would be cautious. Whatever happened last night happened, that can’t change, but Brian isn’t the type of guy to stick around. Just look at him and Michelle. I love my sister, but I don’t like how she is with him and I don’t want you to do the same thing. It’s not fair.”

“I know,” I admitted. “Honestly I had an amazing night with him, but I don’t know where I stand now. All I know is that it’s either going to be a one night thing or a long term thing, nothing in between. I guess I’ll have to talk to him about it.”

“Did he stay all night?”

“No, he didn’t. He must have gotten a cab. He stayed with me until I fell asleep, but I’m not sure how long he stayed after.”

“Well, you’re right. You’ll have to talk to him. But, Liv, just be prepared. I feel like if he wanted more he would’ve been there in the morning,” she said gently, not wanting to hurt my feelings.

“Yeah, I know that. I’m going to be realistic. If a one night stand is all he wanted, then fine. I don’t regret it and won’t regret it at all, but if that’s all he wants, I’ll know that it didn’t mean much to him, and I’ll have to move on.”

“Good for you! And Zack?”

“Yeah, that’s the part I don’t know what to do about. I don’t want to hurt his feelings.”

“Well, I wouldn’t necessarily tell him about your hookup, but I wouldn’t leave the guy hanging. Just think: if you kissed Brian and he just walked away from you and left with another girl, how would you feel?”

“Probably pissed off and really stupid,” I said, sighing. I was such a bitch.

“Probably. Call him at least,” she said.

“OK, I will. Thanks, Val, for being on my side.”

“Of course! Talk to you later.”

I knew I would have to call Zack and probably talk to him in person at some point today. But, for now, I was going to avoid my issues, just a little while longer.

Notes

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