KAYLA

Holy shit, I look terrible. My eyes are bloodshot and they've swelled up, there's bags under them and what the fuck is wrong with my hair? I look skinnier and weaker, what have I done to myself?!

Fuck, I need to call Hollie. I have to become the old me. I can't let some douche guitarist be the end of me. What does he think, that his silence will break me down forever? Never!

"Pick up," I muttered into the phone, trying to call Hollie. Geez, what's taking her so long? "Ugh, Hols pick up!" I said loudly into the phone, even though I knew she couldn't hear me. I threw the phone on my bed and sighed heavily. Okay, I could do this on my own. It's quite late now and Hollie must've gone to bed. That doesn't mean I'm gonna stop trying to become the old, happy me.

I grabbed my towel and stepped into the shower without thinking twice. I had to wash my hair because there's no way I'll be able to sleep if it's like a fucking bird's nest. After setting the water in the right temperature, I stepped inside the shower. Warm droplets formed steam and I stood there without moving at all.

The hot water stream collided into my skin, instantly releasing the tension from my body. Fuck, this felt so good. After making sure my hair and body were washed properly, I turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around myself.

The first thing that I'm gonna do tomorrow, is call Hollie and ask her to come over. I know she's gonna light up like the fourth of July when she'll see the old me. Even I should try not to think about Brian so much. Maybe, he just wasn't the one for me. Our feelings weren't mutual and well, you don't always get what you expect from life.

I dried my hair and threw on a pair of pajamas and a hoodie. The weather is fucking terrible, I'm surprised that I hadn't caught a cold yet. Thank god it's Sunday tomorrow and I don't have to teach. And that means I can relax and oversleep. I fell back on my bed and curled up into a ball under my comforter, starring blankly up at the ceiling.

How would things be tonight if I hadn't messed up things between Brian and I? He would've been here tonight, beside me or better underneath me. Oh man, I shouldn't think these!

I tried to cloud my mind with other thoughts but unfortunately, I couldn't. I tossed and turned in my bed for a while before I heard the doorbell ring. And that has got to be Hollie or my annoying neighbor, without a fucking doubt. But I'll be more than happy if it's Hols because I'm in need of a company.

I threw the comforter off me and walked out of my room to open the door. And in a split second, I directly came in contact with those familiar brown eyes.

I froze in my spot as I took in his image in my mind. The intoxicating smell of his cologne, his perfectly shaven face except that signature chin hair, the guyliner accentuating his brown orbs; he looked so good and mouthwatering.

But he left me; he didn't say it back.

I regained my posture and cleared my throat before shooting him a slight frown. "What are you doing here?" I asked, clutching tightly at the doorknob to keep myself from not drooling over him. "Kay, I'm really sorry for my stupid behavior. You just caught me off guard that day, I wasn't prepared for it," he explained, looking at me with pleading eyes.

Oh god, he looked so innocent right now and not like some douchebag or asshole.

But he hurt me.

"You know what, you don't have to apologize. Those words came out of my mouth and god knows what made me think you'll say it back. And now I'm just rambling stuff that-"

"I love you too," he blurted out and yet again, his words broke my heart. "No, no, no. Please don't say that 'cause you think you have to or because I said it to you before. Just, don't say anything that you do not mean. Please, Brian," I said, feeling that familiar lump forming in my throat.

"Kay, I mean it. I love you too," Brian said again in a tone that I've never heard him use before. He sounded somewhat like broken and vulnerable. I looked at him for a while, praying mentally that my tears don't fall. "You know what, this isn't really a good time to joke. So just leave," I said, maybe a bit harshly before crossing my arms.

"I'm not joking, Kay! Just hear me out for once, please?" He said before biting on his lip nervously.

"I'll give you exactly two minutes to speak before I shut this door on your face. I don't care if you're finished by then or not," I said bluntly. Acting like I didn't have a heart anymore didn't seem so hard. Because that was kinda true, Brian was the sole reason that made my heart shatter down to pieces.

"Kay, you have no idea how I spent the last few days without you. I was alone the whole time thinking about you and what you had confessed earlier. When you said those words to me, I couldn't think properly. I didn't know if I was ready for something as serious as this," he licked his lips while I looked at him amazed.

I didn't expect him to open up to me like this. He never let me see this side of him, always covering it up with his stage persona.

"But now when I think of it, I know that we're gonna be together in this, just you and I. And I know that I'll have your back through it all. So, you know, you'll also have my back because I love you too. And I can't afford to make the mistake of losing someone as special as you."

I looked at him for a while and for the first time in months, I saw Brian, and not Synyster Gates. And I just blurted out the first thing that came to my mind. "But you hurt me, your silence hurt me a lot Brian!"

"I've realized that, Kay! I know I should've said it back right then. But I think I just needed the time to make a decision," he said. "Please, give me a chance Kay. I promise we'll make this work." My lips were quivering and tears were pooling in my eyes, but somehow I spoke up.

"Haner, if you ever mess with me again, I'll make sure you don't get away without taking a look in Hollie's mind. Because I'm sure, she's killed you more than three times in there," I said, making him chuckle at my choice of words. "So am I forgiven?" He asked sincerely and I couldn't help but nod.

"Thank you so much. And let's leave the brunette out, I just wanna have my crazy redhead all to myself now." He shot me a knee buckling smirk and stepped inside. Without wasting another minute, he pushed me up against the door, closing it in the process behind me.

His hands ran down my sides, resting at my hips. We were so close and I could feel his breath on my face. As usual, he smelled like cigarettes and mint, my favorite scent. "I missed you so much," he growled in my ear before lowering his lips to mine, his tongue pushing it's way into my mouth and entwining with mine.

I moaned softly against his mouth and my hands shot up to his neck, pulling him closer as his hands slipped under my hoodie. I let one of my hands travel down to his jeans, brushing the v-shaped trail that let his abs to his manhood. I felt him squeeze my breasts through my bra and that almost sent me towards the edge.

Running my hand down his zipper, I caressed the bulge in his pants, making him buck his hips. "I don't wanna break your door," he said breathlessly, pulling away from me briefly. I smirked as my lips attached themselves to his neck and I felt him lift my legs, allowing me to wrap them around his waist.

Brian turned us and walked into my room. He sat down on the bed, before pulling me into his lap. Locking his brown eyes with my blue orbs, he took hold of the zipper of my hoodie and pulled it down. Removing it from my body, I felt him eye up the purple bra I was wearing. "Lucky me," he mumbled as my hands trailed down his sculptured torso over his t shirt, taking the hem in my hand and pulling it over his head.

My bra and his t shirt were thrown on the floor and I moved to loosen his belt as his hands pushed down my pajamas and made sure it was piling with our clothes on the floor. "Oh god," I breathed as he pushed the material of my panties down my legs and slipped two of his long fingers into me, distracting me from removing his belt further.

"Fuck!" Minutes later, my eyes hit the back of my head as I felt heat wash over myself as my body clamped over his fingers. "Do you need a little help with that?" Brian asked me and I could feel the smirk on his face as he whispered into my ear. His hand joined mine where they were still trying undo his belt. I nodded in haze and felt my back hit the mattress with a light bounce as he threw me off him playfully.

Before I knew it, he had removed his belt and unbuttoned his jeans, letting it fall onto the floor along with his boxers. I subconsciously licked my lips and in the blink of an eye, he was hovering over me. Taking a hold of my hips, he leaned down to mark my neck as his territory. I moaned uncontrollably as he nipped the skin of my neck.

"You smell so good," he moaned against my skin before biting down on it, making my toes curl. The room was silent, except our moans which heightened as we groped each other like teenagers. He slowly raised himself up on his elbows and loud moans of pleasure escaped our mouths as he slowly lowered himself down and filled me upto the brim.

Once again, my eyes hit the back of my head and I clawed his back with my fingers as an attempt to make him move. Clutching at my hips tightly, Brian started to move at a slow pace, making me want for more.

I gasped loudly, biting down a scream when he suddenly started thrusting at a faster pace. He groaned deeply before leaning down and licking the shell of my ear as I put my arms around his neck. He moved his hands down, making my legs wrap around his hips when he propped himself up on an elbow while he sucked and nibbled on one of my breasts.

My legs squeezed his waist, causing him to slip deeper and not hurt me. "So beautiful and all mine," he moaned and placed a wet kiss on my neck. I moaned when the thickness of his member put delicious pressure on my walls, causing him to be coated in the wetness that I already had from the foreplay and heavenly orgasm his fingers had given me.

"Fuck yes, ugh, Brian!" My mind couldn't decide on the words it wanted my mouth to say. "Oh fuck!" Brian growled and the delicious friction of heat made the ball in my belly expand. I screamed as I came again, my walls milking him, but he didn't let up. He showed no sign of release.

Once again, Brian's fingers twisted and tugged at my nipple, his teeth digging into the other. There was moments of silence with only his grunts and my moans filling the air. My nerves were sizzling at the ends and I didn't know how much longer I could hold out. He's thick and hard and hot. There's friction that made my head spin. His hands are strong but smooth on my skin. He's the perfect balance of a perfect man and he's all mine.

"I love you. Cum for me, Kay," he moans in a deep voice and it's just enough to make me go crazy. My muscles are so tight and milking him to where it's starting to hurt me a little. But he continues to thrust, making the weird cramps stop.

And then Brian is rigid, his breathing is quick and in harsh pants before he lets out one long groan. His cum shoots into my hot core and I've never felt this complete before.

He leans down and presses a sloppy kiss on my mouth before pulling out and collapsing beside me. "I love you too," I said gasping for air, making him turn his head at me. And there's that beautiful smile adorning his face as beads of sweat glisten on his forehead. Draping his muscular arm around me, he pulls me closer, tangling our legs together as he pulls up the comforter over us.

I buried my face in his neck, inhaling his intoxincating cologne that I had badly missed over the past few days, and wrapped an arm around his torso. After moments of silence and Brian stroking my back gently with his long, exquisite fingers, I looked up at him.

"I'm gonna have to take a shower, again," I muttered, not too happy about the fact. Hello, it's the month of fucking December!

"Again? I see," Brian smirked, his face about just an inch away from mine. "Aha," I smirked back before placing a kiss on his lips. "Did you know that women shouldn't- let me rephrase that. Smoking hot women," Brian said, wiggling his eyebrows, making me laugh slightly.

"...shouldn't shower alone, especially when their boyfriend's over." He said, shooting me the fakest innocent look ever. "So you're my boyfriend now?" I asked, unable to hide my smile. "Of course," he said softly and I placed a kiss on his cheek.

"So you still up for that shower?" Brian asked, looking at me way too innocently.

"Oh god, just wipe that fake look off your face," I said with a laugh and before I knew it, Brian had me in his arms and was on his way to the bathroom. Damn, could my life get any better?

Notes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Kay!!!

Here's the last chapter of your story, and I hope this was good *fingers crossed* :D
Wish u all the best in life and hope u have another joyful year!!

<3 Hollie