BRIAN

Fuck, fuck, fuck! What have I done? She said she loves me and I kept mum like a giant ass! But what would I have said? That I loved her too? Whoa, now that's a big fucking step. As easy as love sounds, it's equally difficult to make it through.

Don't get me wrong, I love it when I'm with Kay. We both seem to be the made-for-each-other type. She knew me like the back of her hand and I, well I also knew her, didn't I? Okay, I admit I may not know her that well but fuck, I did know each and everything about that hot little body of hers. I knew her weakest spots, I knew how to make her go weak in the knees. But that wasn't my point now.

The point was, it's been a week since I last saw her. A whole fucking week! I mean, who the hell was I even kidding?! Kay and I used to meet up every other day! Hell, she was one of a kind and no one actually knew what was going on in that pretty little head of hers.

Oh, she was wild and I loved nothing more than to chase her and have control over her. Ever since I saw her for the first time, I just knew she had to be mine. And I did succeed, after waiting for two fucking months. Damn, I remember the looks we used to exchange before she finally gave in to me. I was like a hungry predator, looking at her like she was my only prey.

I knew I had to make her crave for me first, but it turned out that I was the one dying to have a taste of her. Not that she didn't want me, of course she did. I mean, who doesn't? But Kay was one of those ladies who loved teasing and making everything hot before anything actually happened. She left me hanging thrice before surrendering herself to me. But she was so worth waiting for.

"What happened between you and Kay?" Zacky's voice made me snap out of my thoughts and I shot him a nonchalant look. How the fuck did he know? "What are you talking about?" I asked, cocking an eyebrow and pretending that I knew nothing about what was gonna come out of his mouth. "You can do better, Haner," Zacky said, shaking his head.

"Don't you have anything better to do?" I asked, trying to change the subject. "Not falling for that, speak up," Zacky said. I sighed in frustration and ran my hands over my face. What the fuck was wrong with Baker today? Couldn't he just fucking leave me alone for a while?!
"Why do you think something happened between her and I?" I asked, rolling my eyes. Did Kay tell him anything or was it my behavior?

"Let's put it this way. The hopeless romantic, Jimmy Sullivan finally asked this certain brunette out on a date. Which, by the way, she refused because according to her, you hurt her friend," Zack said, amusement written all over his face and I looked at him in confusion. "Fucking great. Now repeat what you just said in simple english," I muttered. Fuck, this guy made me wanna kick him in the balls at times.

"Ass, listen properly," he muttered, making me flip him off. "Jimmy met Hollie the other day and kinda asked her out. And she said something about you hurting Kay and some other shit, that's why she won't go out with him," Zack enlightened me and I locked my jaw at the mention of Kay's friend, Hollie.. Hell, it was no secret that we were having a cold war ever since we met. She just thought I wasn't right for Kay and all that shit.

God knows how she cast a spell on Jimmy though, who by the way wouldn't shut up at times about how her brown eyes seemed to hypnotize him and how musical her laughter was. Musical my ass.

"Where's Jimmy?" I asked without thinking twice.

"Am I wanted here?" Jimmy's voice reached my ears and the next second, he was sitting beside Zack and in front of me. "What did she tell you?" I asked him, waiting impatiently for an answer.

"Zacky, tell Synyster fucking Gates that he hurt Kay a lot," Jimmy said, looking at Zack. I know that I hurt her and I know that I shouldn't have. I should have acted sensibly. "You heard the Rev," Zacky said in a deep voice. "I know, man. I know I should've said something-"

"Zacky, tell Synyster fucking Gates that he should've said it back. Not just something," Jimmy muttered. "Jesus Christ, fucking enlighten me dickheads," Zacky complained and that made Jimmy open his mouth about how I fucked things up with Kay.

"Geez, you really are an ass," Zacky said after hearing the whole story. "Not just an ass, but the fucking king of asses! Now my brown eyed angel won't even talk to me..."Jimmy trailed off. "Chill, she's not even into you," I muttered and my thoughts drifted back to Kay. Fuck, I miss her. I miss her jokes, the looks she used to shoot me, her being a hopeless romantic at times, her cute little ass....damn.

"Zacky, tell Synyster fucking Gates not to judge a book by it's cover," Jimmy said, rolling his eyes dramatically. "Shut up, Jimbo," Zacky said with a laugh and fixed his gaze on me. "What are you thinking, man? We all can tell that you're missing her, just fucking admit it," Zacky said. "Ugh, it's not that easy!" I groaned.

"What the fuck is not easy?! Everything is easy, or at least almost easy," Jimmy said in confusion. I shot him a pointed look before saying, "I can't just...fucking open my heart to her and tell her that I love her too."

"So you do love her," Zacky mused, making me shut my eyes tightly. "I just...fuck, I don't know if we'll be able to make it work," I said rubbing my temples. "Afraid of commitment, eh?" Jimmy asked raising an eyebrow. "I'm not afraid, I'm just....scared," I said. "Afraid and scared hold the same meaning, doofus," Zacky muttered.

"I miss her, a lot," I blurted out without thinking twice. "Zee, you heard what he just said?!" Jimmy whispered, loudly enough for me to hear. "You wanna confess anything else?" Zacky asked and I finally opened my mouth. "I need her, man. Did you fucking see how well we both connected?" I let it out all at once, earning weird looks from Jimmy and Zacky. "The fuck you looking at me like that?" I questioned, feeling uneasy under their stares.

"Do you think what I think it is, ZV?" Jimmy said, eyeing me suspiciously. "I think you and I are thinking the same thing, Rev." Zacky said, shooting me a look similar to Jimmy. "What the fuck are you even thinking?" I questioned, feeling way beyond confused.

"My boy, Synyster fucking Gates is in love," Zacky grinned, making me gape at him. "I thought I was gonna say that," Jimmy complained before smacking Zacky's shoulder. "You could've said it if you had opened your mouth sooner," Zacky grumbled. The two of them were already engaged in an argument and that left me thinking about Kay and I.

Fuck, what was I supposed to do? I pretty much blew up all the chances I ever had to be with Kay. How do I make her see that I needed her too? She's like a part of me, and now that she's gone I realize it. What a perfect fucking timing! I felt vulnerable and lonely without that crazy, little redhead. My crazy, little redhead. Holy shit, I love her. And now that I've fucked up big time, the fucking realization hit me.

So if I did love her, why didn't I say it back? Fuck, I feel terrible for pushing her away. "I want her back, do something," I muttered, making Jimmy and Zack look at me. "And why do you want her back? So that you can act as a bigger asshole this time?" Zacky questioned and Jimmy crossed his arms.

"I love her too," I blurted out, somehow stopping myself from punching the shit out of Zacky and Jimmy right now. "And that's a wrap. I knew it, I fucking knew that you love her too," Jimmy screamed, pointing his index finger at me as if he was accusing me of something. "We
all knew that, lover boy was showing too many signs," Zacky said and my face heated up at the mention of that name. "Now that you're ready to fix the mess you've made, you gotta solve my problem too," Jimmy said and I cocked an eyebrow.

"What the fuck is your problem?" I questioned, absolutely clueless. As far as I know, I only fucked up things between Kay and I. Which, by the way, I'm gonna make right. Fuck, I can't wait to tell her and have her back in my arms. "You give me my brown eyed angel back!" Jimmy shrieked and I knew he was talking about that friend of Kay, Hollie. "How do you even know she has brown eyes? She always wearing those thick framed glasses. And besides, it's not like I locked her up somewhere that I'll just fucking give her to you," I muttered and saw Jimmy's expression change into a pissed look.

"Oh man..." Zacky was laughing already while I shot Jimmy an amused look. I fucking knew it would get him. "Those are her reading glasses and she doesn't wear them always. Reading glasses are meant to be worn while reading and she doesn't read always," Jimmy said in a deadly low tone and I shook my head sideways with a smile. "Just kidding, man." I said, chuckling nervously. I better not mess with Jimmy regarding this.

And the next thing I knew, Jimmy, Zacky and I were standing in front of Hollie's place, ringing her doorbell. "I'm telling you, dude. It's not a good idea. She's gonna throw herself at me the moment she'll see me," I said, nervously. In case anyone's wondering what we were doing here, let me enlighten. Both Jimmy and Zacky got this brilliant idea out of nowhere that Jimmy's angel, or should I say ice queen could help me out in getting Kay back.

"Relax, she's only allowed to herself at me and not at you Gatesypoo," Jimmy grinned and seconds later, the door was opened by Hollie. Geez, if looks could kill then I would have been shredding my guitar in heaven now. "You?!" She sneered at me before noticing the other two guys who brought me here. "Hey, how're you two doing?" She said to them with a friendly smile. Fuck.

"We're good. How're you doin'?" Jimmy replied with a grin before Zacky nudged him slightly. "Oh right. Gatesypoo needs your help, Hollie," Jimmy said. "You need my help? And that too at midnight?" Hollie said and I swallowed hard. "Can we come inside at least...please? It's about Kay," I said, hoping she'd agree. "Don't even utter her name. Are you that heartless that you didn't even tell her you love her back? Do you even love her?" She asked with a frown.

"I do, trust me," I said. She was my only hope and I knew she could help me out of this. She crossed her arms and stared at me for what seemed like an eternity before inviting us in. "Hols..." I began but she shot me the most dangerous glare I received from her. "Sorry, Hollie. I know you must be thinking that I'm an asshole and I made a huge mistake. But I'm willing to rectify it now," I said sincerely. "Brian, I don't think that you're an asshole," she said, pulling her blood red lips up into a smile. She never gave me smiles before.

"You don't?" I asked in confusion. What was going on her head now? "No, I don't think you're an asshole. I know you're one," she said in a deadly tone. Fuck, this woman!

"Now this is where I have to interrupt," Jimmy said, taking a hold of Hollie's hand and walking inside the kitchen with her while Zacky and I stood there in the living room like dummies. She had to help me out because I don't wanna regret any of this in the future. "I bet he's hitting on her," Zacky chuckled and I looked at him. "I'm fine with whatever makes her help me out right now," I said nervously.

About ten minutes later, we heard a squeak from the kitchen and I shared glances with Zacky. What the fuck were they doing in the kitchen?

"Fine, I'll help you," Hollie said emerging from the kitchen, followed by Jimmy who by the way, had the biggest grin planted on his face. "Thanks a lot," I said, trying to think of some more good words. "What the fuck is on your cheek?" I heard Zacky say and shot him a questioning look. "Jimmy..." he muttered and I looked at my best friend who had red lipstick on his left cheek. I'm not even gonna ask what the fuck happened in the kitchen in these ten minutes....

"It's rude to stare," Hollie mumbled before rubbing the mark off Jimmy's cheek with her fingers. "Hey, I was planning to keep that." Jimmy complained, earning a firm look from her.

"So here's the plan. You," Hollie said to me before continuing. "are gonna go to her place and make sure you bring back the old Kay. I don't know how, that's all up to you."
"That's your plan? It's like you're ordering me," I said shooting her a bemused look. "Whatever floats your fucking boat. You made her cry, so you make sure you wipe her tears away," she said and for once, I thought she and I could get along.

"Just fucking listen to her, Haner," I heard Zacky say. "Fine, I'll go see her now." I said, eagerly wanting to see Kay. "Don't you think it's quite late now?" Zacky said, glancing at his watch. "Dude, it's fucking midnight," he said and I looked at Jimmy who was already busy shooting smiles at his brown eyed angel.

"I don't care what time of the day it is, I just want Kay back and that's exactly what I'm gonna do," I said before leaving the house.

Notes

Here's a Brian pov for you, Kay!
Awwh, he's finally realized what a boo boo he made :p
Annnnd, he's on his way to your place :p

Stay tuned for the last chapter of your bday story, and happy birthday in advance!!