Unholy Confessions

During the solo to “Revolution” by Pennywise, a worker from backstage motioned for me to come over.

“What’s up?” I asked breathlessly.

He leaned into my ear and said, “You won’t believe this, but Avenged Sevenfold is here!”

My heart dropped to my stomach. How the fuck did they find out? “How do you know?”

“They’re right over there!” He jerked his head in the direction of a side table barely lit, but I knew it was him. I could see Brian in a pitch black room.

I walked away as the solo ended to get back into the song, but I felt like a huge dark shadow was hanging over me. I didn't want him to ever know about us, I knew it wouldn't go over well because of how he could get.

The song ended and I made the decision to call them out.

"So not to blow up their spot or anything," I said, "but I've just gotten word that Avenged Sevenfold is here tonight."

The crowd screamed and I watched them. Watched him.

"Have fun guys," I said with a small smile. The intro to "Hatefuck" by Motionless In White started and I saw Matt nudged Brian as he leaned in to say something to him. Whatever it was made Brian's face fall and I had to keep myself from laughing.

I was going to have fun with this.

***

"Thank you Shrutty's!" I said into the mic before dropping it and running backstage with everyone else.

"That was the best show we've ever done!" I said to the girls, but then I caught sight of Hollie.

"What the fuck was that?" she yelled with her hands on her hips. "Are you trying to piss him off?"

"Hollie-" I started but she cut me off.

"No, I don't care!" she shouted, running her hands through her hair and grabbing handfuls. She was usually calm, but when she was pissed... it was bad.

"Not now, Halls," I said quietly.

"You purposely chose songs that would piss him off," she murmured. "With how things have been, it's like you're trying to make it worse."

"What is she talking about?" Kayla asked quietly. She looked so upset, like she already knew.

None of us said anything for a solid minute before we heard a knock at the door.

"Yeah?" Hollie yelled, keeping her eyes on me.

The guy that had given me a hard time earlier poked his head in. "You guys have a visitor."

Hollie rolled her eyes. "You mean Courtney has a visitor." She started gathering her stuff before saying, "I'm sure he'll have no problem taking you home."

"Please stop," I murmured. "Please."

She watched me for a moment before sighing. "We'll be outside."

The four of them walked out into the club and Brian walked in, shutting the door behind him. I crossed my arms over my chest.

"We're in a public place," I warned him.

His eyebrows scrunched together before he realized what I meant. "What? Courtney, no, stop."

"Then what do you want?" I asked, feeling tears form in my eyes. I was so frustrated and I couldn't help it. "Can't I have a single night to myself? Can't I do anything-"

"First of all," he started, "we had no idea when we got here."

I pursed my lips and looked away.

He continued, "I figured since you went out with your friends, I would go out with mine. They picked this place because of how popular your band is, Courtney. None of us knew." He laughed as he said, "Hell, I didn't even know it was you until you introduced yourself. That whole first song, we didn't know."

"Aren't you mad?" I asked.

"I mean..." He sighed. "I guess a little, yeah. Like... you're so talented, Courtney," he said with a smile. "I had no idea you could be that way, like you were on stage. I'm upset I didn't know and I couldn't have supported you more, because it was honestly awesome. I'm so proud of you, kid."

Before I even knew what was happening, he embraced me in a tight hug.

"I'm sorry about the way I've been lately," he said into my hair as I hugged him back.

"I know," I whispered.

We stayed like that for about a minute before he pulled back to look at me.

"You really thought I'd be mad?" he asked.

"Well, yeah..." I said. "I kept something from you."

"But this is different, Court. If you guys do this more, I want to know so I can watch you. It was a side of you I had only seen once or twice when you would sing with us, and I love it."

I smiled. "Thanks, Brian."

"So," he said, "what do you say we party a little bit? Did the girls leave?"

"No, I think they're waiting."

He slung an arm around my shoulder and kissed the side of my head. "Then let's go see what they think of that plan."

We walked out from the room and saw the girls waiting right in front of the door with the usher.

Hollie looked from me to Brian, confused by our smiles.

"That was so cool," Brian told them. "I definitely want to see you guys play again."

"I don't know if we will," Kayla said nicely. Ava had a slight glare that I'm hoping Brian didn't notice. He knew she wasn't too fond of him, though.

"Please think about it," Brian said. "Seriously, that was great. I'm gonna go find the guys, you know where our table is." He kissed me quickly before walking away, and Hollie still looked confused.

"Did you blow him so he wasn't mad anymore?" Hollie asked.

My eyes widened. "Oh my god, no! Like... ew, no," I chuckled. "He wasn't mad. He was upset I kept it from him because he wanted to have supported us more, but that's it. He wants all of us to hang out for a bit, with the guys and everything."

"Sounds good to me," Cheyenne said, grinning. She was always up for a party.

"Same," Kayla said, and they both took off toward the bar.

Ava and Hollie looked at each other.

"Maybe I can meet some hot groupie," Ava said, shrugging.

Hollie sighed. "I guess I'll stay then, too."

"I'm gonna go talk to the guys for a bit," I said with a smile.

We split off and as I approached the table, Zack, Johnny and Brooks all clapped and cheered. I felt myself blush and I rolled my eyes.

"Pretty sure I don't do that every time you guys perform," I joked.

"Wish you would," Zack muttered.

"Now I will, smartass!" I caught Matt's eyes and he looked annoyed. "What's wrong?"

"Brian may not be pissed, but I am," he said.

I glanced at Brian, who was looking down. Shit. "Why, Matt?"

"How long have you known me?" he asked.

"My whole life...?"

"I thought my experiences would tell you screaming really isn't a good idea," he said, a smirk forming.

"Jesus Christ, Matt, you scared the shit out of me!"

Brian chuckled and the others full out laughed.

"But it's true," Matt said. "I don't want to see you ruin your voice."

"I'll be fine, Matt," I said, my smile returning. "I promise."

"So are we partying or what?" Zacky asked.

I rolled my eyes. "Of course we are!"

A waitress brought a bunch of drinks over and Brian handed one to me as I looked at it suspiciously.

"I ordered for you," he said, resting his arm around my shoulder. He was so relaxed, I wondered if this whole night changed things in his head.

It was really fruity, but I down it in five minutes. Being on stage, running around, made me really thirsty.

"Come dance, Courtney!" Kayla shrieked, running over with Ava. I'm not sure how, but they were both smashed. They grabbed my arm and started pulling me to the dance floor and I looked to Brian, pleading.

"Go have fun!" Brian called with a smirk as they dragged me away. I managed to flip him off before the crowd enveloped me.

The bass was heavy and I could feel it reverberate through my legs to my chest. A waitress brought around shots, and we took them without question. We jumped and moved with everyone else, and we saw Hollie with a guy, making us scream in excitement. She laughed and ignored us, which we expected. More shots and more dancing, it went on for at least a dozen songs. Finally, hands snaked around my waist and I was about to pull my fist back to hit.

"You're looking good out here," Brian murmured in my ear.

I relaxed my hand. "I was about to hit you!" I yelled over the music, turning to him but still swaying.

"I'm glad you had a plan in case it wasn't me," he said, leaning to my ear.

I laughed and swayed against him as he kept his hands on my hips and watched me. I know dance clubs aren't his scene, but he seemed to be enjoying himself.

CC found us after a while and the five of us danced in a circle before a song started that made all of us, except for Brian, scream.

"Holy shit, I haven't heard this song in so long!" Ava exclaimed, dancing even harder than before.

I turned back to Brian and grinded my pelvis against his, wrapping my arms around his neck. His hands made their way to my ass, squeezing me harder against him.

At the end of the song, he leaned down to my ear again, saying, "Did I tell you how insanely hot you look right now?"

I shook my head, making the room spin a little bit. "I don't believe so, no."

He pressed his lips to mine and my fingers tangled in his hair. I felt him grow stiff.

"I'm ready to go whenever you are," he whispered.

"What does that mean?" I asked with a smirk.

He winked and my insides exploded. "Whatever you want it to mean, babe."

I took his hand and led him through the crowd to the backstage room, which was no longer being guarded. We went in and I locked the door behind us.

I pulled my shirt off and threw myself at Brian practically, but all that mattered was he caught me.

We kissed as we tried to undress each other, but my hands got confused when it came to his pants for some reason.

He picked me up and set me on the table on the side of the room, pulling my panties off. He let his jeans and boxers fall to the floor around his feet.

He looked me over, sitting there for him naked.

"Shit," he hissed under his breath before his lips crashed into mine. One hand held me as his other hand helped guide himself into me, and once he was in, we both sighed in ecstasy. I clawed in his skin as he pumped with the beat of whatever was playing outside the room.

"Fuck," I said, "right there, Bri."

He kept up exactly what he was doing and I came right before he did.

He covered my mouth to minimize my screaming, and he slammed into my unevenly before coming to a gradual stop.

I sat back and breathed as he pulled out and found a box of tissues for me. He got dressed as I cleaned myself up.

"How much have you had to drink?" he asked suddenly.

"I lost track," I chuckled, pulling my bra and shirt back on. "We can go home if you want."

"It's up to you."

Once I was done with my clothes, he pulled me to his chest for a hug.

"I love you," he said.

"And I love you," I said, looking up at him.

He smiled and kissed my forehead.

"But I wanna drink some more," I said.

He rolled his eyes playfully. "Of course you do. Let's go, then."

We walked back out into public and luckily no one saw us. We walked to the bar and Brian ordered another fruity drink for me.

Brian pulled out his phone and read a text. "They're wondering where we are," he said. "I'll be right back." He walked back to where ever the guys' table was and I sipped at my drink.

"Hey," a voice said. I turned and saw it was the asshole bouncer from before.

"Friendly now?" I asked.

"I'm sorry about that," he said with a small grin. "But it was an attempt at flirting."

"Well, I'm taken, so-"

"I know, I figured that out when I saw you with Synyster Gates," he said. "I really liked your set, though, and I was hoping you'd let me know when you're playing again."

"We have a Facebook page," I said nonchalantly. "We'll start posting on there, you can give it a follow."

"I'll have to," he said. "By the way, my name's Travis."

I watched him for a second before I stuck my hand out. "Nice to meet you."

He shook it softly, holding on slightly longer than most people would. "It's a pleasure." He let go and smiled warmly. "I'll definitely be at your next show, whether I'm working or not."

"Glad to hear it," I said, picking up my drink. "I'm gonna go find Syn, he must've gotten lost."

He chuckled. "I think they're over by the gate."

"Thanks." I smiled one last time before turning and walking away. I felt his eyes on me and it made my confidence burst. I found the guys exactly where Travis had said they'd be.

"I was just about to come back," Brian said when he saw me.

I shrugged. "What's going on?"

"They're heading out, and Matt kinda brought me."

"And Hollie brought me," I said. "I'm tired anyway, we can go."

"Are you sure?"

I nodded. "Yeah, I just have to get my stuff and find Hollie. I'll be right back."

He kissed me before I walked away, and luckily Hollie and the girls were in the backstage room where Brian and I had been not too long ago.

"It smells like sex in here," Kayla muttered.

I stifled a laugh and disguised it as a cough. "I'm gonna head out with Matt and Brian, we're gonna have to do this again."

"People have been asking me all night when we're playing again," Cheyenne said, looking through our stuff to make sure we had it all. I grabbed my other clothes.

"We will," I said. "We'll talk tomorrow, okay?"

We all said our goodbyes and I found Brian with Matt where I left them before. We walked out to his car and I climbed into the back while Brian sat in the front. Before we were even out of the parking lot, I fell asleep.

Notes

Chapter title credit: Fall Out Boy
Pretty sure words can't express how sorry I am I haven't posted. Life has been crazy busy with school and I signed up for a writing contest (no results yet) and work and life. Just life, lol. But hopefully this sets me on a better path by bringing in a new character and we're getting closer to the wedding!
I need your help! I can't decide what Brian's and Courtney's song is, so I set up a little poll here for y'all to vote!
I've been posting a lot of life updates here so that might give indication for when an update is on the way.