Spencer

As the next couple of weeks passed, things between Zack and I seemed to go back to normal again. It was as if we never even had a rough patch. I'm not sure what went through his mind the night I spent away from him and at Matt’s but I was glad he was finally able to forgive me and we could start working on our future together again.

As for me and Matt, things haven't been very good. I tried to avoid him as much as possible without it looking suspicious to the guys but I knew they must have noticed something. I was closest with Matt than I was with the rest of the guys, well, besides Zack. So, I knew someone had to notice the fact that we haven't been very attached at the hip, but thankfully no one has mentioned it - not to me anyways.

Avoiding him was getting old though. He was my best friend and I missed him. I wished I could convince myself that the kiss we shared was a heat of the moment type of thing but something told me that it wasn't. Something told me that the kiss meant something to Matt and I wasn't sure how I felt about that.

For some reason, Warner Brothers and the tour manager decided to give them a week long break when they scheduled the dates for the tour. You didn't hear any of the guys complaining, though and I wasn't complaining either. I couldn’t wait to get back to the beach.

The bands show was in Los Angeles tonight and then we would be hearing back to Huntington Beach which was only about an hour away. The opening band left the stage a few minutes ago and so I knew it was about twenty minutes until show time.

Zack was fixing his hair in the bathroom with Brian while Jimmy terrorized Johnny across the room from where Matt and I sat. I could feel Matt’s eyes on me as I pretended to play on my phone. I knew I needed to talk to him about our kiss before I ruined our friendship but I didn't know what to say to him. Matt hasn't tried to speak to me in a few days and so I knew we were going to have to have that conversation quickly, even though I wholeheartedly dreaded it.
Finally, Brian and Zack walked out of the bathroom together. Zack grabbed his guitar and began to warm up.

"Are you wearing my pants, Synyster Gates?" I joked.

Brian looked down at his black jeans. They were ripped in various places and were tight enough to be mine, but they weren't. I think my jeans would probably come to Brian's knees due to height difference. He chuckled. "Well, Johnny has been slacking on the laundry so it was either wear your pants or no pants."

I laughed. "I think the internet would have loved it if you wore no pants."

"Remember when Matt went nude for the Seize the Day video? It didn't even show anything but a pixelated blur and the fans still went nuts."

"They went nuts for your nuts!" Jimmy laughed as he joined us. He picked up some drum sticks and began drumming on his lap to Zack's strums on his guitar as we all laughed.

"Guys, the stage manager says to get your asses out there," Matt Berry informed as he poked his head in the door.

"Except he wasn't being an asshole about it," came Jason Berry's voice from behind his brother.

"Hell yeah!" Jimmy yelled standing up and then ran towards the door. Zack, Matt and I stood from out seats and we followed Brian out of the room.

Once at the side of the stage, Zack grabbed the guitar that one of the guitar techs handed him. "Have fun," I told him as I straightened out the collar on his shirt.

He pulled the guitar strap over his body and leaned down to kiss me. "I love you, Spence." He tells me.

I smile. "I love you more." He winks at me before he and the rest of the band begin walking out into the stage.

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The concert was simply amazing, but it's not like I expected anything less from the guys. I think if there was any such thing as soulmates, these five guys were definitely that. They belonged together - in a musician-best friend type of anyway. I knew and everyone else knew Avenged Sevenfold wouldn't be the same without any of them. They were a packaged deal. They were meant to play music together.

After the concert, when all the guys when to one side of the stage instead of the other I knew the crowd was going to get an encore if they asked for one. And they did.

Throughout the entire stadium the crown chanted "Sevenfold!" and "one more song!"

A couple minutes later, guitar chords rang out and the crowd cheered while throwing their fists in the air. "You fucking want more?" Matt screamed into the mic.

I turned to Jason who stood beside me with a goofy grin on his face. If anyone was a bigger fan of the guys than I was, it was the roadies.

"Will you let Zack know I went back to the bus?" I asked him.

"Oh, come on you can't miss the encore, Spencer!" He said.

I smiled. "I'm so tired. I could pass out right here."

"Oh, alright fine!" He grinned and I walked away as he patted me on the back.

The warm Los Angeles air hit me as soon as I stepped out of the backstage door along with cheers from fans. Most of them were disappointed when they realized I wasn't Brian, Matt, Johnny, Jimmy or Zack. Others begged me to take them backstage and the few that recognized me as Zack's girlfriend waved and called my name. I waved at all the fans as I walked by.

"The band will be out shortly to sign some stuff for you guys!" I told them as I walked by. I approached the bus and smiled at Dave, the security guard, as he opened the door for me.

"How's it going, Dave?" I asked.

"Great, as always!" He smiled. "You'll never believe how many people get mad because I won't let them on the bus!"

I laughed. "Well I appreciate you for not allowing any of them to enter!"

He winked at me and smiled as I entered the bus. I lay on the couch in the living room and pulled my phone out of my pocket. I instantly checked the twitter tags to see how the fans enjoyed the show tonight. After a few minutes I click off the app and close my eyes. I know the guys will join me soon and they'll want to party back to Huntington Beach so I better get my rest while I can.

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I wake an hour later as the guys climb into the bus. They're still hyped from the show and fans. I sit up as Johnny begins to grab beers for everyone. He hands me one but before I can take a sip I realize we're missing a member.

"Where's Zack?" I ask. Johnny, Jimmy, Matt and Brian shoot me a synchronized confused expression.

"We thought that asshole came back to the bus early!"

"He's not here?"

I shake my head and begin to call him. I groan when it goes straight to voicemail. "And his phone is dead."

"Chill, Spencer. I'm sure he's just off chitchatting with fans or one of the roadies," one of them say as I start to get worried.

"I'm going to go look for him," I slipped my shoes back on and stood up. None of the guys offered to go with me and I didn't expect them to. They were done for the night; they were ready to drunk and go home.

I jumped from the last step of the bus and onto the ground and then made my way back to the venue. Some fans were still waiting at the back door but not near as many as before.

"Tell Zacky to come out," one of the fans call as I flash the security guard my "backstage permitted" bracelet and he opens the door. Okay, so that means he hasn't come out yet. Not this way anyway.

I begin to get frustrated once everyone I ask doesn't know where he is. "Well, he didn't just fucking vanish," I numbed to myself as I opened another door to another room. "Zack?" I called. No answer.

I groaned before turning down a few hallways. I walked a little ways before turning another corner. My heart fell into my toes.

Zack was pressed against the wall with his hand in the hips of a blonde woman. Her mouth was attached his and the earth seemed to fall away from my feet. Zack pushed her way from him before he noticed me, but it didn't take long for both of them to realize they were no longer alone.

"Spencer it's not what it looks like," Zack says as he pushes the blonde woman further from him.

I felt as though I was stabbed in the gut when I instantly recognized her. "With her of all people?" I ask. My voice comes out stronger than I thought it would. Gena smirks at me from behind Zack.

Zack began walking towards me and slung Gena off his arm as she made a grab for him. Before he could get too close I turned around and began to run from him. I knew the tears were going to fall soon and I didn't want to cry - not in front of Gena.

I ignored Zack's pleas for me to stop and was only a few feet from the front entrance when he finally caught up with me. He grabbed my arm and stopped me. "Spencer, listen to me, please!"

I yank my arm away from him and slap him across the face so hard he spits a bit of blood onto the tile next to us. "Stay the fun away from me!" I cry.

"Spence, I swear it wasn't what I looked like! You have to believe me!" Zack made a grab for me again but I stepped away from him.

"I'm pretty sure that's the same fucking line I used with you with you caught me with the bartender!"

Zack sighed. "Okay but this really wasn't what it looked like. If you'd just listen to me..."

I shook my head as the tears began to stop momentarily. "Is that what this is? You're still trying to get back at me for cheating on you? Because trust me Zack you've already hurt me enough!"

"Spencer, stop!" Zack grabbed me and pulled me into him. I sobbed into his chest as my heart continued to break. "Fuck. I'm going to tell you something. I need you to know that I'm not telling you to hurt you. I thought I could fix it without anyone finding out but apparently I was wrong." He took a deep breath and held me tightly into his chest. "Gena and I aren't divorced. We both signed the divorce papers and sent them off but something happened. I don’t know what but I found out that were still married and I immediately filed again but now she won't sign. She thinks it's a sign that we're supposed to be together. That's why you caught me texting her a while back, baby. I was trying to meet up with her to get her to sign the papers so I can finally end that shitty marriage. I don't want to be with her. I want to be with you. I love you. I want to marry you. She kissed me. It didn't mean anything and I pulled away as soon as I realized what was happening. Baby, please..."

I pushed myself away from him hard and stared at him. This wasn't actually happening. I wasn't hearing this correctly. He couldn't still be married. He just couldn't be. "You're still married," I whispered.

"I don't want to be. I'm not supposed to be. I thought I divorced her five years ago." His voice was calm and I knew it was to try and keep my calm but I could already feel the hurt, anger, disbelief and disappointment begin to swell inside me. Suddenly it exploded and I started to cry again. Zack tried to pull me back into him.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I tell. "Are you fucking happy now, Zack? You finally fucking broke me. Are you done hurting me? Are you?" I slapped at his arms and chest as he tried to comfort me.

I turned from him and began making my way to the front entrance doors. I run out and kept my head down once I realized there were still fans hanging out outside. I didn't turn around until I heard cheers. I looked back not surprised to see Zack had followed me and was now surrounded by fans. We locked eyes for a moment as he tried to fight the crowd but it overwhelmed him. Eventually he stopped and watched as I disappeared onto the Los Angeles streets.

Notes

Ah shit. Spencer's happiness couldn't last long! More drama to follow, y'all! Thank you so, so much for the comments, votes and subscriptions! Keep the comments up and don't forget to vote/subscribe if you haven't already!!

Title credit: Mest "Cursed"