Kady's POV

The walk towards the arena with Brian was very quiet. We both were consumed in our own thoughts and cigarettes, yet the silence between us wasn’t full of tension or awkwardness. We were content with each other's company and we didn’t need to talk to feel comfortable.

Honestly, I couldn't believe how easy it was to be with him; there were no standards or expectations to uphold. I was free to be myself and I didn’t have to worry about labeling what was going on between us. We were just friends with special benefits, though there wasn’t any pressure in that area either. Brian was very easy going and relaxed about the whole thing, making it easy for me to talk to him. His calm demeanor put my senses at ease and knew he'd be a good listener. I felt like I could talk to him openly without backlash I usually received from my band mates.

And as easy as our new friendship was, I knew we would have to be careful. If Caleb caught wind that I was hanging out with Gates, he would flip shit and I would never hear the end of it. Hell, I couldn’t even fathom what he would do when he found out that Marley had kissed me.

That's right, Marley had fucking kissed me! I had been trying to suppress that memory all night but it just kept rearing its ugly little head, like a fucking pimple that just wouldn’t go away. What was I going to do? Sure Marley was my best friend, but did I have feelings for him? His kiss had caught me so off guard that I didn't even register anything except shock. I knew Marley would want some answers and I honestly didn't know what I would tell him. Did I love Marley? Sure I did, as a friend but could I really be in a romantic relationship with him? I didn't know and I didn’t really want to think about it right now. Not to mention that if he ever found out about Brian and I, I would owe him $2000. Mum was the word on that one!

"So how was your show?" I asked, breaking the silence as we took a seat in empty arena. It was dark and I felt at peace for the first time in weeks. Whether it was the quiet and my cigarette, or Brian's company, I wasn't sure.

He took a long drag and then slowly blew it out. "Yeah it was fine. Could have been better," he said with a shrug.

"Why" My eyes met his stunning brown ones, causing him to smile for a moment and then look away. Why was he so damn attractive?

Brian played with his cigarette before he answered. "I guess I was a little bit distracted." He gave me a lopsided grin with those soft and extremely kissable lips. Fuck, why did he keep making me think these things? I swear he was teasing me with every look.

"Distracted? You mean to tell me that the infamous Synyster Gates didn't play a perfect night?! You've got to be kidding me," I teased. "The stars must not be aligned!"

Brian threw his head back and laughed. "Something like that." He shook his head and then looked back into my eyes. "I guess I’ve had some things on my mind since we last 'met'." I blushed at his comment and looked away.

"Yeah, me too.... and thanks for not asking questions." I sighed, looking down at the stage. Damn that had been a good fuck, and I couldn't even talk about it with anyone. Maybe Ryn? Could I trust her?

Brian looked at me with a frown, his eyes darkening every so slightly with a look of sadness. "I know what it's like to have people prod at your personal life. I had a breakup a couple of months ago and I got bombarded with questions and pity. No one deserves to go through that." Brian looked down at his hands and then out in the distance. I followed his gaze to the stage and watched as a small smile fell on his lips.

"Thank you," I said softly, surprised that Brian had actually shared part of his life with me. He really wasn't anything like I expected. I was wrong; Brian Haner Jr. was nothing like his stage persona Synyster Gates.

Suddenly I felt a warm calloused hand on top of mine and I couldn't help but let a smile fall over my lips. The silence that fell between us was comfortable and I knew at that moment that I could really trust Brian.

"I'm just really confused...." I finally open up, breaking the silence between us. Brian turned and looked at me with a raised brow and opened his mouth. "Not about you," I said before he could ask. No, our new friendship was the only I really understood at the moment. He nodded and stayed quiet, his hand still on mine. "My best friend kissed me and-and..."

"I see," Brian said, looking down at our hands with a frown. "And you don't know how you feel about him?"

Just as I opened my mouth to respond, Brian's lips crashed into mine, taking me by surprise. His hands tangled in my hair and I felt an electric shock go through me. His tongue playfully teased my bottom lip and I couldn't help but moan in response. Our tongues danced and I could feel the butterflies swirling in my stomach. I didn't feel like this when Marley kissed me and I instantly knew what Brian was doing. He was helping me find the answer. I didn't have romantic feelings for Marley—I had them for Brian.

"There you are.... whoa what are you doing?" Brian and I quickly broke our kiss and turned to see a bright light shining in our faces.

“What the fuck?” I squinted into the distance as the bright light burned my eyes. Who the hell thought it was a good idea to shine an obnoxiously bright light in our face? I quickly raised my hand to shield my eyes from the light, looking at Brian to see if he knew who had found our secret hideout.

Brian let out a sigh and took his arm off my shoulder as I slowly stood up. It was then that I could finally make out a mop of blonde hair. "Ryn? Is that you?" I asked, letting out a small sigh of relief. Thank fucking god it wasn’t any of my band mates. Brian and I would have been dead.

"You bet your sweet ass it is," she said, eyeing Brian and I with a wicked smirk. Fuck she had caught me red handed and now I would have no choice but to talk to her about this. Well, I guess there were worse things, right? "But I came with Marley to find you. You're lucky he’s looking at the lower level."

My heart stopped in my chest at Ryns words. Marley would have flipped shit if found Brian and I kissing, especially after I ran out of the room after her kissed me. He would be furious to see me with another guy, but how was I supposed to know he had feelings for me until now? Ugh, my life was one big cluster fuck after another.

"He was worried about you after your fight with Caleb," Ryn continued. "But should I say you're not up here?" She looked between Brian and I and wagged her eyebrows.

"No, I have to get going anyway," Brian said, giving my hand one last squeeze before getting up. He gave a small smile and headed out the back exit. "See you around, and thanks for the smoke," he said with a wave. I couldn't help but watch him walk away, my heart beating a little faster. I didn’t want him to go but I knew it wasn’t smart for him to stick around.

Once Brian was out of sight, Ryn turned to me and gave me a knowing smile. "So what was that about there being nothing between you two? That kiss didn't look like nothing to me." Ryn put her hands on her hips and waited for me to respond.

"Okay fine, but you can't say anything.... to anyone!" I urged, grabbing Ryn by the arm and pulling her into the corner so no one could see us. "Especially since I don't know what it is yet,” I sighed, running my hands over my face. Why was this all so confusing?

Ryn squealed at my words and clapped and I covered her mouth with my hand. "Shh, Marley could hear and that situation is way to complicated to talk about right now."

"What are you talking about?" Ryn asked with a furred brow. "I thought Marley was your best friend."

"Yeah well so did I," I sighed, sinking down on the wall slightly. "That is until he kissed me earlier today and then Syn kissed me tonight.... I just don't know..." I put my head in my hands as Ryn kneeled down next to me.

"Sucks to be the hottie everyone is pinning after," she said with a smile pulling at her lips. "Told you my new look would work!"

I gave Ryn a pointed look and she laughed musically. "Alright, alright, but did you feel anything? I mean, I've heard Syn is amazing but did one kiss tell you more than the other?"

Just as I opened my mouth to tell Ryn about Brian's amazing kiss, a loud bang echoed from the stairwell to our left. We both turned to look, standing up slowly. Another loud bang erupted followed by a voice yelling, "WHERE THE HELL IS SHE?"

"Shit, Brian went that way," I gasped before racing down the hall and stairs. I ripped the door open and my jaw dropped to the floor. What the hell was going on here? Marley had Gates pinned to the wall by the collar of his shirt and Brian was glaring back at him with balled fists. Oh, no, this wasn’t going to happen on my watch!

"Why the hell are you around every time I go to look for Kady?" Marley growled, pushing him back into the wall. Brian smirked, not really phased by Marley's outburst. I could see his black eye starting to peak out from underneath the makeup from the show. He looked very calm and almost bored by Marley's actions.

"I think someone's jealous," Brian said casually with the same smirk on his lips. Marley let out a snarl before slamming Brian into the wall and getting right in his face.

"Why the hell would I be jealous of you? You're a washed up old dinosaur who's career is on the outs," Marley hissed, his face inches from Brian's. You could cut the tension in the room with a knife.

I watched with a dropped jaw as Brian pushed Marley off of him and turned down the hall. "Then what are you so worried about?"

"Just stay the hell away from her," Marley yelled after him.

"Well somebody is a tad possessive," Ryn muttered to me just as Brian flipped Marley the bird.

I quickly wiped away my shocked and darted out the door after Marley. "What the hell is your problem?" I yelled, jumping over the railing down the stairs to stop him from chasing after Brian.

Marley whipped around to look at me with a concerned look on his face. His eyes met mine and I instantly knew I was more confused than ever. What the hell was I going to do? I couldn't crush my best friend when I didn't know if there was anything there and I didn't even know if Brian actually liked me. Hell I didn't even really know how I felt about either of them. Why was my life like a twisted merry-go-round of shit?

“Kady,” he breathed, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me into a hug. “Did that asshole hurt you?”

“No he didn’t fucking hurt me!” I snapped, pushing him away. “I didn’t even see him,” I lied, hoping my face didn’t give me away. “What the hell were you thinking?”

“I-I—” Marley stammered and I didn’t really want to hear it. “Save it!” I quickly turned and started back toward the bus, feeling utterly confused. What the hell was I going to do?

The walk back to the tour bus was a blur and the only thing that pulled me back was Marley taking my hand. "I'm sorry..." He said softly, not looking at me. I shrugged, not really sure how I felt about anything. He pulled me in for a hug and kissed my head before he continued, "Listen about earlier, I-I—"

"You know what, I'm really tired and I should be getting to bed," I said, forcing a yawn and pulling away from Marley. I quickly fled to the master suite, dove into the bed, covered my head with a pillow, and screamed.

"He that bad of a kisser?" A voice chuckled from the doorway.

Matt's POV

"Round of shots and beers for the table," I said as I slapped some money down on the counter. We played extremely well tonight and I wanted to make sure the guys had a night of fun before we headed out on the road again.

I look behind me to Jimmy dancing provocatively around Johnny who sat with his face in his hands. Jimmy was not going to stop until he got a rise out of both Johnny and Zacky. I laughed lightly as Zacky turned away from Jimmy and lit up a cigarette. I don't know what I'd do without my best friends; they made this whole adventure worthwhile.

I just wish I knew what was up with Brian, he had been acting funny for the past few days, but then again, maybe he was just hiding talking to Michelle again until they were official. Val did seem pretty excited about her sister being happy again and I couldn't blame her. I was happy to see Brian coming around too.

Suddenly a pair of arms grabbed me around the waist and I turned to see Eli in my arms. I gave her a smile as she pressed herself against me. "Hey Matty, what's taking so long? Jimmy is gyrating and he hasn't even had a drink yet.... we're in for a long night."

I threw my head back with a laugh as I looked over to see Jimmy harassing Zack. "Yeah, he does this after a good show," I chuckled. “Gates is usually the buffer, but since he pussed out, we all get the brunt of his craziness.”

Eli looked up at me with a wicked smirk on her face. "Ohh I remember what happens on good show nights," she said in a smug tone before wagging her eyebrows at me. "I wouldn't mind reliving those nights."

Eli pressed herself even close to me, her large breasts pushing firmly against my chest. I sucked in a sharp breath as I tried to control myself. Eli and I used to have a pretty amazing sex life and I would be significantly rewarded after each good show. Damn, her tits looked great in that tank top and her warm breath on my neck was making me hard.

Control yourself, Sanders, you have a girlfriend, I reminded myself as I fought to control my breathing. I was thankful when the bartender came over and set a tray of drinks in front of us. Thank god, I needed to get a few feet away from Eli or else I would do something I would regret.

"Let me help you with those," Eli said as she turned away from me and slowly bent down to grab the tray. I couldn't help but notice how good her ass looked in those skintight black jeans. Damn I wanted her and I didn’t know if I could control myself around her with a few drinks in my system.

I followed Eli back to our table, careful to keep my distance. However, the only thing on my mind was bending Eli over the sink in the bathroom and making her beg for more. But what about Val? I knew she would never forgive me, and I couldn't do that to her. I would have to keep my wits about myself.

"Thank fucking god," Zacky said, grabbing two shots off the tray and pushing one at Jimmy. "Back off Jimbo! Have a shot and fucking relax!"

I chuckle and took a seat, raising a glass. "Cheers boys! Here is to a great tour!"

“Here! Here!” they cheered before throwing their drinks back.

An hour later the four of us were scattered around the bar, feeling the affect of alcohol that was polluting our systems. My head was spinning as I leaned back in my chair, casually sipping on my beer as I watched Jimmy and Johnny try to pick up some chick on the other end of the bar.

“And what are you doing, big guy?” Eli purred as she slowly climbed onto my lap. She pressed her large tits against my chest and I swallowed thickly, feeling my dick spring to life in my pants. Fuck, what the hell was she doing to me? I was convinced she was trying to kill me as she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me close.

"Whoa, check out the blondes at the end of the bar," Zack said, nudging me in the side. “Shads?” He turned to look at me and slowly shook his head, giving me a stern look. What? I didn’t put her there! Well, I guess I didn’t really stop her either. “Well, I’m going to get a drink,” he said, leaving me alone in the booth.

Fuck! No come back here! Why the hell would they leave me alone with Eli? They knew how was when I was drunk, and my self-control was slowly slipping away with each beer. Fuck, I had to do something! I quickly finish the drink in my hand before pulling another off the tray. Maybe if I drank enough I would pass out and not hook up with Eli.

"Slow down killer," Eli laughed. "If I didn't know better, I would say that you were nervous around me." She smirked down at me before grabbing her own beer, taking a long sip.

"No, no I'm fine," I lied, though I was sure she could feel my hard member pulsing underneath her. "I’m just—" I had to tell her about Val so she didn’t get the wrong idea. That was the right thing to do.

"Excited?" Eli laughed, turning around to look in my eyes. She slowly leaned forward and whispered in my ear. "I can fix that problem for you and no one will have to know about it... you know a one time deal." Her breath tickled my skin, causing my already hard member to throb. Why did she have this effect on me?

I opened my mouth to answer but my lips were suddenly taken over by Eli's lips. It was then that I lost all self-control. I grabbed her hair and pulled her lips tightly to mine, my tongue dancing around her lower lip. Eli giggled and moaned lightly, giving me access to her mouth before fully straddling me. My member throbbed in my pants as she clawed at my shoulders.

"Let's get out of here," she whispered in my ear, her lips trailing down my neck. I was on a euphoric high and there was no turning back now.

Eli grabbed my hand and lead me towards the back room. She tried multiple doors before one opened and we found ourselves in a dark storeroom. As soon as the door was shut, I grabbed Eli and pushed her against the door, lifting her off the ground.

"Oh fuck Matt," she moaned in my ear as she pulled off my shirt. "I have missed this."

I growled and bit her shoulder as her hips need idly worked against my bulging pants. She was so fucking hot and I couldn't help but kiss down her tattooed neck after pulling her shirt off. My hands quickly moved to her bra clasp and freed her large breast from their captor.

"Oh suck on them," she moaned throwing her head back as my lips reached her nipples. "Ohh god Matt..."

I moan against her nipples as I sucked them, her hand messaging my crotch. "I can't fucking take it anymore," I growled, ripping off both of our pants and bending her over the side counter. I quickly pull a condom out of my wallet and slip it on.

"Oh, you've gotten naughtier since our last meeting," Eli taunted, her voice full of lust.

"You've been a very bad girl," I say before roughly penetrating her. She let out a loud moan as I started to fuck her hard.

"Ohh... ohh... fuck yes!" Eli yelled as I pulled her hair, feeling her tight walls throb around me. She felt so fucking good and I couldn't stop though I knew how wrong it was. "Oh...I'm so close..."

The next thing I knew, I felt her walls clamp down around me, causing me to explode into her. "Ohhh fuck...." I moaned, feeling the euphoric bliss shoot through my body. I slowly pull out and braced myself against the counter. That was so fucking hot.

"Haven't lost your touch, Sanders," Eli said in a very pleased and tired tone. "Maybe it was fate having us meet again."

I didn’t say anything as I pulled my pants back on and pull out my phone. Fuck! This wasn’t happening! I had three missed calls from Val and I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. What the hell had I just done?

Notes

There is the next chapter loves! I hope you like it! Unfortunately it will take me a little longer to get a new chapter out because my job starts back up full time next week. I will try my best though! :)