A Little Pain Is Worth The Pleasure

"SHORT SHIT WAKE UP!"
Brian yelled at my front door it was already 10:00am this was way to early for me to even be awake I drug my sleepless body to my front door the sun shined brightly in my eyes I saw Brian and Jessica standing at my door the look on their faces told me something was wrong I had no idea what happened but I'm intrigued to find out this wasn't like Brian to have this problem I stepped aside to let them in we all sat down on the couch this wasn't going to be a friendly visit I just knew it so I prepared myself for the worst outcome watching Brian's body language I was clearly in for something big.


Jessica and Brian both gave me a sympathic look and I could see tears in their eyes Brian held Jessica's hand can Brian just tell me what's going on I will just get a better understanding of what's going on I saw that Matt and Zacky were now standing at my front door this must be a serious matter and I had two cops show up at my door everyone looked around the corner waiting for my reaction but I just stood there not a single word came out of my mouth.


"Are you Johnathan Seward ?" The cop asked.

"Yes what is this about ?" I asked.

"It's about your mother sir." The cop sighed.

"What happened to her?" tears began to well up in my eyes.

"I'm afraid she's gone." The cop gave me a sulken look.

I dropped down to my knees clearly this news has shattered me I silently closed the door isolating myself from everyone the only way I could deal with this is to drink but I made myself a promise that I would stop drinking right now I'm just an emotional wreck that needs everyone to leave I would like to be alone right now






Two weeks later

"Johnny where have you been ?" my new girlfriend Macy asked.

"I had to meet with the family attorney to make funeral arrangements." I replied,

"Oh how are you holding up ?" Macy drapped her arm over my shoulder.

"It's going to be hard but I'll make through. I kissed her cheek.


I wanted to introduce Macy to the guys but I just wanted to have her to myself first knowing the guys they would be all over her and I now have to be the protective one as every hour ticked by all I thought about was my mother what really happened ? Why weren't the cops telling me everything ? those two questions ran through my mind throughout the day I wanted answers and I wanted them now.


January 22, 2009
2:00pm
Hour 1

Today I will document everything before and after my mother's funeral yeah I sound like a crazy person but I wanted answers and this was my only way to get them so I'll be making a video diary I suppose so this is day one.



Jimmy and Faye were off on a "secret" vacation I guess they wanted their privacy from everyone so I get why it was a secret Zacky had stopped by to check up on me which was really nice and all but I just wanted my privacy I didn't want to see anyone right now except Macy and my father.

Notes

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