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I'm Not Insane (I'm Just A Natural Born Killer)

How Matt Sees The World

Quick reminder - parts in italics are how Matt sees the world. Normal text is 3rd person and shows what Matt actually does.

*** Matt's POV ***


While Brian's gone, I decide that, to keep myself occupied and distracted from demons, I should make some art. The table is the perfect canvas and this knife's a great pencil. It really works well. Johnny keeps giving me evil looks as if I'm his next meal and it's making me really uncomfortable. I'm begging that Bri will come back soon to stop Johnny from hurting me...

I begin drawing out a simple skull. I've seen them plenty of times before and it just so happens that Zacky has one on his shirt, so I draw that one. Dust keeps getting in the way and it pisses me off, so I try remove it by scraping the knife-pencil across the table like a brush.
Zacky groans loudly at me in particular and I stab the pencil down by his hand. From there, I begin tracing around his hand until he moves. When he does move, I whine out loudly for Brian to tell these guys to stop being such jerks. He's not coming... The demons must have gotten him... OH FUCK!

Johnny then playfully shoves me down to the floor, showing off his pearly white teeth. I grin up at him and he lightly bats me around the head.


"Matt, you're a fucking idiot" Johnny blurts out, and I assume he doesn't mean it.

"Awww thanks Johnny" I smile up at him, only for him to slam his fist into my jaw. I whimper out in agony as I fumble for the pencil to try fix things by doing a nice little drawing on his hand.I grab it and push Johnny down onto the table, holding his hand out so I can begin drawing. He gives me a fearful look but I guess he's not keen on sharp pencil drawing. I begin by drawing out the same skull as earlier and I watch as ink floods out from the marks, but I'm unable to finish as Zacky drags me away.
I cry in protest but I'm quietened by Zacky's hand to my mouth, muffling my cries. The door then bursts open and BriBri and Jimmy run in.

"Zacky, bring him here! Jimmy, you go see Johnny!
" He orders. Zacky leads me to Brian, where I playfully tackle him to the floor and lick his face like a dog. He laughs and harmlessly retaliates by slapping my chest and telling me to move. I refuse and wrap my legs around his body and lean forward to cuddle him, not giving a shit about anyone else.

"Matt, stop.."
Syn orders, not strictly at first.

"Whyyyyy?" I whine out.

"Because we're in public!" Syn hisses, "Besides, I'm taking you home. You've done enough damage today and I trusted you to behave."

"I'm sorry..." I apologize, frowning hard. Syn moves me off of his body and helps me to my feet before apologizing to the guys and then dragging me out of the bar.


(3rd person)


While Jimmy and Syn were discussing issues outside, Matt needed something to occupy himself. The guys knew it was barely a matter of time before Matt convinced himself of demons, and they all mentally begged for the frontman to find something to do. They all sighed a heavy sigh or relief once Matt became occupied in carving skulls on the table. Johnny was barely impressed, but interested. He watched carefully how Matt scratched the table up and attempted to make an image of what appeared to be heads of demons. During his drawing session, it became apparent that the dust from carving the table was causing him some issues, so Matt decided to use his knife as a brush and scrape away the particles. The majority of them landed on Zacky, causing him to loudly groan in irritation. On top of that, half the table's paint was coming off and the guys knew they'd have to pay for it.

Noticing Zacky's irritation, Matt decided to try something to cheer him up. He violently stabbed the knife down by the guitarist's hand, narrowly missing his thumb and he began to trace around it. The knife scraped against Zacky's skin several times, one part almost took the skin off his finger. Not wanting to risk any more damage, the guitarist removed his hand, much to Matt's irritation. The vocalist cried out for his lover, but there was no response.

Suddenly, Johnny couldn't take it any longer. He violently tacked the older man to the ground and slapped him around the head. Matt just giggled and smiled up at Johnny, gazing at his teeth.

"You're a fucking idiot, Matt! Get it into your fucking head!" Johnny roared. Matt didn't take the comment seriously.

"Thanks Johnny!" He smiled in response. Anger built up quickly in Johnny's body and he aggressively smashed his fist into Matt's jaw, almost snapping it completely. The loud cry of agony from the vocalist attracted the peering eyes of other attendees, but neither man cared. Matt eventually picked himself up, fumbled around for his knife, locking it in his grip once he found it. He then smashed Johnny's head against the table and locked the bassist's wrist in his iron grip. The older man then began carving a skull into Johnny's hand, causing a flood of blood and Johnny to scream in agony. Zacky then grabbed Matt from behind in a desperate attempt to separate the pair. The cries caused Syn and Jimmy to abandon their conversation and march into the bar.

"Zacky, bring Matt to me! Jimmy, you go check on Johnny!" Syn barked, watching as the younger guitarist struggled to drag Matt over. Matt then slipped out of Zee's grip and smiles brightly before hooting the name of his lover and tackling him to the floor. Syn let out a groan as his body collided with the floor. and as his boyfriend fell on top of him. Once Matt had quickly recovered from the event, he then wrapped his legs around Syn's waist and tried humping him, much to Syn's disapproval. The guitarist tried hard to shove Matt off of his body so he could take him home, but there was no moving him. It was just a good thing that Matt hadn't figured out he was still wearing pants. The pair then began making out, Matt still not caring about everyone watching. Eventually, enough was enough. Syn slapped Matt's bare chest and pleaded for him to stop, which eventually got through to his lover.

"Matt, Stop" Syn ordered, hoping he'd follow.

"But whyyyyy?" Matt whined out, sounding like a 4 year old.

""Because we're in public and you're humping me!" Syn hissed, "Besides, you've really hurt Johnny and you've damaged a table. I'm taking you home. I thought I could trust you..."

Matt let out a disappointed whine, quickly apologized and eventually got up. Syn followed suit, flashing other attendees an embarrassed smile before he and the vocalist quickly headed out the bar.

Notes

Hey guys! hope you like this chapter!
This one was super hard to write, a lot harder than I thought XD
Feedback appreciated!

Comments

I feel so bad to see Matt in this state :(

DaphneG DaphneG
7/27/16

It breaks my heart to see Matt so helpless. The doctors at the hospital never should have let him out. He clearly needs assistance with his mental illness.

@SHADOWS COURTESAN

You will find out in the next chapter

Matt's out. He caught a ride with a friend. What the hell? And Brian had no clue about Matt leaving? What kind of hospital just lets a crazy person leave without consulting their family first?!?! Who is this new friend of Matt's?

@SHADOWS COURTESAN
I'm writing the next chapter tomorrow morning expect some twist and surprises