Seventeen and Pregnant

"Come on baby breathe, breathe and push!"

"Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!" I yell in pain pushing. I fall back not able to push any longer. God this kid is killing me.

"One more push Lexi and your daughter will be her One big push."

I squeeze Jimmys hand hard and push. "AhhhH!!!!!!!! I hate you!!!!!!!"

Everyone in the room laughs. I fall back on the bed crying when I hear my daughter cry. They place her on my stomach I hold her as the cut her cord and fix me up the nurse takes her from me and cleans her up.

She brings her back over and gently hands her to Jimmy.

"Here's your daughter Mr. Sullivan."

He gently takes her and sits down afraid that he might drop her.

"She is so tiny." He plays with her foot. She fusses and kicks her legs.

Everyone is waiting in the waiting room. They switch me into a clean room where I will spend the rest of the night and the next days after that, until Phoenix is ready to go home. Jimmy carrys her out to everyone.

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Jimmys PoV

I can't believe that I am a freaking father. Like holy hell. I knew I would be one day but right now...no. As I walk out to the room I hear everyone talking about their new babys and how happy they are, no words can describe how I am feeling right now.

I am so in love with this little girl that is in front of me. Linda spotted me and smile coming over to us.

"Oh, my gosh. This is my little granddaughter." She takes her as everyone else comes over. The girls 'aw' and touch her hands and feet. When everyone finished passing her around we walked back to Lexis room to see her fast asleep.

No one wanted to wake her so they left and said that they will be back tomorrow, Linda and Tom said they will stop in later tonight when she wakes up.

I sit in the corner of the room in the rocking chair. I rock my daughter back and forth just looking at her.

She looks just like me, I do see Lexi in her...But she has my eyes...My hair, shes long so she is going to be just as tall as me. God...I love this little girl.

*****

I have been home for a week now. Everyone has been very nice with helping with phoenix. I couldn't ask for better friends. The only person that I reall miss is brian. Why isn't he here?

I change her diaper and then put her in her bassinet beside my bed. I lay down and close my eyes hoping to get some sleep.

She fusses so I get up and feed her. My mom told me to try breast feeding so that is just what I am doing. She takes too it really well.

So let me catch you up on some things. I know that I have had everyone so confused lately but you know what. So am I. I have loved Brian from day one. Then he met that crystal chick. There is just something about her that I don't like I am almost sure it has to do with the fact that she was never okay with my friendship with Brian. So I tried to move on...Thats when Matt came into the picture. He picked up all the broken peices. He was so good to me....Then Charles came along.

While he was dating her...we were doing things behind her back. I feel so bad about this. I just want to move on and be happy and that is never going to happen. Charles is going to hate me if she ever finds out that Matt and I slept together. I will keep that a secret and take it to the grave with me.

I burp P and put her back in her bassanet. I look at the clock and decide that I might as well get up for the day.

I quickly take a show to wash away all my sins. I dress in skinny jeans and a tank top and just pull my hair up into a messy wet bun. Who cares.

My mom and dad are going to watch P until Jimmy comes over to take her to his parents for the day. Wednesday and I are going out for the day to talk and catch up on things. I really need this girls day.

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"So girlie tell me..what is bothering you?" W asks after almost three hours of shopping. We decided to get food at the food court.

"Well, I don't want anyone to hate me but I can't take it anymore. I know the things that have happened lately are insane, but I just can't...I'm just so sorry. I mean. Your my best friend in the world, and as much as I love everyone of the other girls. I'd hate to loose you."

"What are you trying to say Lexi?"

"I slept with Matt." Her jaw drops. Her mouth opens and closes a few times. She has no idea what to say.

"Oh..Lexi. How...Why?"

"Well, when Brian broke my heart Matt was there to pick up all the pieces. I..I...I regreat it now. I don't want Charles to know. She will hate me forever."

"Well...I think that you should tell her. She needs to know."

"Why."

"Why what?"

I sigh. "Why would I want to ruin my friendship with her?"

"Because. If you don't tell her she will hate you forever. Is there anything else that I should know. Have you killed any body that I don't know about?" Her tone is increasingly getting louder.

"Fine! Call her! I will fucking tell her okay. I will tell her everything."

Weds pulls out her phone and not to much longer Charles shows up she slides in beside Weds.

"So...Why am I here?"

"Because I slept with Matt."

She doesn't say anything. Then she starts to cry.

"Why? Why Lexi?! Why would you do that to me? How the hell can you call yourself my friend and then hurt me like that?!! I would never fucking do that to you. Your such a bitch you know that?!!!" She stands up and runs off..Weds runs after her.

I can't help but start crying myself.

Well...that just made my decision so much eaiser...

I am leaving...forever..

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