Follow The Tides, Wherever You've Been
This Pain You Gave To, Can You Take It All Away
As I slept, all of the memories, mainly the completely terrible ones, came rushing back to me.
"You just what?! You just decided you liked staying with six guys better than one?!" I couldn't stop Aden's hand before it reached out, and hit me across the face. "Don't you ever fucking raise your voice at me! You hear me?!"
"Listen here, you fucking bitch. Did you not learn your lesson the first time? Shall we go over it again? You don't fucking talk to me like that, you don't push me away." He pinned me underneath him, and started working away my clothes. "I'm going to have to teach you a lesson aren't I?" He ripped off my shirt, and shoved it into my mouth. I could feel him repeatedly stabbing me, and the blood oozing out of the cuts all over my body. He then violated me in every way possible. He raped me.
"Brian, please wait! Let me explain."
"No. No explanation needed. You're a slut." He turned to face me. Oh, no. He did not just call me a slut. Before he could turn away to descend the stairs, I reached out, and smacked him right across his face. The sound resonated through the house.
"Everything will be alright, baby girl." Sam said, pulling me in for a hug.
"No, it won't."
"Why do you say that?" Sam pulled away, looking at me questioningly.
"I'm pregnant."
There was a terrible pain in my lower abdomen, all of a sudden. I hurriedly opened my eyes. Aden was standing over me, butcher knife in hand.
"I'm sorry to say, Bradley, but you've lost your child."
"Hello, Bradley. This is Dr. Cowan, from Fairview Southdale Hospital. I'm sorry to bother you, but I have your parents here. They were in a terrible accident, and are in critical condition as we speak. We are doing the best we can to keep them with us, and do what we can do for them, but there is no telling if our procedures will work. If you are able, you may want to come see them very soon, we don't know how much longer they will be with us."
"I love you, pumpkin." He spoke, then his eyes closed, and his heart monitor started beeping loudly, along with my mother's, signaling the doctors, and nurses nearby, and I knew they were both gone. Those were the last words I'd ever hear from my father. I didn't even get to tell him I loved him.
"Time of death 4:37 P.M, the 27th of May, 2013."
That's when it hit me, with all the commotion today, I'd forgotten my own birthday. Today I turned nineteen.
"I guess going out on dates doesn't mean shit to you! I can see why Matt gave you away!"
"Fuck.You." I growled at him, before pulling away, and pushing my way through the crowd.
"Don't talk to me like that you little slut." He grabbed my hair, pulling me back to him. I screeched in pain, and tried to get away, but he was quick to wrap his arms around me. "Don't even, bitch. You deserve this, after the way you treated me." I tried to scream, but he slapped his hand over my mouth, and started shoving me towards his car.
Well, here in these papers, it says that you are no longer able to get pregnant." Tears started to form in my eyes, as she spoke. "When you were stabbed, it really did some damage, and it definitely took a toll on you. Not only did it put you in the hospital, and cause you to lose your child, it also took away your future of having children."
"I... I can't get pregnant, Jimmy."
"What?" He said pulling away to look at me, his face showing his sadness at what I had just told him.
"I'll never have children. I'll never have a family. My dreams are ruined."
"Just what?! Trying to get in my pants! Fuck you, and your stupid fucking vain job offer!" I stormed out of his office, and made my way to the elevator, to go back down to the meeting. Just as the doors on the elevator were about to close, a hand came in between them, and stopped them in their tracks. The doors reopened, revealing the man who had just tried to make a move on me. "I thought I told you to fuck off." I said through gritted teeth.
"You did, but I'm not very good at taking no for an answer..."
"And, of course, he told his boss this lame ass excuse that I was making a move on him, trying to force him into getting me a job there! His boss bought the whole thing, and called Amanda's boss to have me fired immediately, there was nothing Amanda could do about it, even though she knew the truth, after I told her my side."
"We've been together for over seven months... I was waiting for the perfect time. I was going to ask you to marry me." His voice broke a little, as he said the last part. "I guess I waited too long, huh?" He looked back up at me, and I saw tears welling in his eyes, as well.
"Matt, I..." He cut me off.
"No, it's alright. I guess you finally figured out who you really wanted. I'm just sorry it took this long for you to figure it out."
I woke up sometime around eleven, and immediately showered. I got dressed in some jeans and a shirt, complete with a jacket and scarf, because I knew it would be colder where I was going to be going.
After dressing, I didn't even bother to put on any makeup. I pulled out my suitcases, and started packing them full of my belongings.
Once finished, I carried them downstairs, making several trips in the process. I grabbed a granola bar, and ate it quickly. I looked out the back door, and saw the guys sitting around the table. Matt looked sullen, and so did Brian. Jimmy wasn't even talking loudly, and laughing, like he normally did. I could tell they had been talking seriously. I looked over to Zacky and saw him fiddling with the buttons on his shirt, he must be uncomfortable. Johnny was just sitting, with his head laid back, hanging over the chair, looking up at the cloudy sky.
I didn't want to have to say goodbye, so I didn't, at least not in person. I grabbed a piece of paper, and a pen, and sat down at the island to write.
Once I was finished, and pleased with what I had written, I left the piece of paper on the table for them to see when they came in. I put the pen away, and went to the door. piled all of my things into Jimmy's SUV. I knew he'd understand if I used his vehicle. And I made for sure I told him I told him in the letter that I would leave it at the airport, and the keys at the customer service station for him, so no one would steal it.
I hopped into the vehicle, and headed to the airport, hurriedly. Once there, I unloaded my things, locked up the car, and turned the keys into customer service for Jimmy to pick up later, once he realized I, along with his car, was missing. I made arrangements to catch the first flight back to Minnesota that I could, and when the time came to leave, my stuff was loaded on the plane, and I found my seat. I was headed back home, finally.
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Jimmy's Point Of View
I thought I had heard a car start up outside earlier, but I had chosen to ignore it. The guys, and myself had been sitting outside talking for several hours.
When we finally decided to return inside, the first thing that caught my eye was a piece of paper, sitting at the kitchen island. I walked over to it, and called the guys over to read it.
Written in Bradley's handwriting, it said:
Dear boys,
I'm sorry I couldn't work up the courage to say Goodbye in person. It kills me, knowing that I'm leaving you, but it helps knowing that you will be better off without me.
To Brian and Matt: I'm sorry I ruined our relationship, and broke your hearts. I know you guys will be better off without me around. I hope both of you can find a wonderful loving woman who will take care of you, and love you like I couldn't. I wish you both the best. I love you.
To Jimmy: You are an amazing guy, and one of my best friends. I'm sorry I'm leaving you like this. I hope you can find a new best friend to take my place, maybe even a special lady friend. ;) I love you, Jim. Thanks for always being there, and never giving up on me.
To Zacky and Johnny: I love you both. You guys are both amazing, and I wish you both the best of luck finding some special women of your own. :) I wish I could be there to meet them, someday when the right ones come along. Thanks for putting up with my shitty jokes, and me.
To everyone: I will always love you. And just know, that I'll miss you all like fucking crazy! Please don't worry about me, I'll be fine. And so will you.
My love and sincerity to you all,
Bradley.
"You just what?! You just decided you liked staying with six guys better than one?!" I couldn't stop Aden's hand before it reached out, and hit me across the face. "Don't you ever fucking raise your voice at me! You hear me?!"
"Listen here, you fucking bitch. Did you not learn your lesson the first time? Shall we go over it again? You don't fucking talk to me like that, you don't push me away." He pinned me underneath him, and started working away my clothes. "I'm going to have to teach you a lesson aren't I?" He ripped off my shirt, and shoved it into my mouth. I could feel him repeatedly stabbing me, and the blood oozing out of the cuts all over my body. He then violated me in every way possible. He raped me.
"Brian, please wait! Let me explain."
"No. No explanation needed. You're a slut." He turned to face me. Oh, no. He did not just call me a slut. Before he could turn away to descend the stairs, I reached out, and smacked him right across his face. The sound resonated through the house.
"Everything will be alright, baby girl." Sam said, pulling me in for a hug.
"No, it won't."
"Why do you say that?" Sam pulled away, looking at me questioningly.
"I'm pregnant."
There was a terrible pain in my lower abdomen, all of a sudden. I hurriedly opened my eyes. Aden was standing over me, butcher knife in hand.
"I'm sorry to say, Bradley, but you've lost your child."
"Hello, Bradley. This is Dr. Cowan, from Fairview Southdale Hospital. I'm sorry to bother you, but I have your parents here. They were in a terrible accident, and are in critical condition as we speak. We are doing the best we can to keep them with us, and do what we can do for them, but there is no telling if our procedures will work. If you are able, you may want to come see them very soon, we don't know how much longer they will be with us."
"I love you, pumpkin." He spoke, then his eyes closed, and his heart monitor started beeping loudly, along with my mother's, signaling the doctors, and nurses nearby, and I knew they were both gone. Those were the last words I'd ever hear from my father. I didn't even get to tell him I loved him.
"Time of death 4:37 P.M, the 27th of May, 2013."
That's when it hit me, with all the commotion today, I'd forgotten my own birthday. Today I turned nineteen.
"I guess going out on dates doesn't mean shit to you! I can see why Matt gave you away!"
"Fuck.You." I growled at him, before pulling away, and pushing my way through the crowd.
"Don't talk to me like that you little slut." He grabbed my hair, pulling me back to him. I screeched in pain, and tried to get away, but he was quick to wrap his arms around me. "Don't even, bitch. You deserve this, after the way you treated me." I tried to scream, but he slapped his hand over my mouth, and started shoving me towards his car.
Well, here in these papers, it says that you are no longer able to get pregnant." Tears started to form in my eyes, as she spoke. "When you were stabbed, it really did some damage, and it definitely took a toll on you. Not only did it put you in the hospital, and cause you to lose your child, it also took away your future of having children."
"I... I can't get pregnant, Jimmy."
"What?" He said pulling away to look at me, his face showing his sadness at what I had just told him.
"I'll never have children. I'll never have a family. My dreams are ruined."
"Just what?! Trying to get in my pants! Fuck you, and your stupid fucking vain job offer!" I stormed out of his office, and made my way to the elevator, to go back down to the meeting. Just as the doors on the elevator were about to close, a hand came in between them, and stopped them in their tracks. The doors reopened, revealing the man who had just tried to make a move on me. "I thought I told you to fuck off." I said through gritted teeth.
"You did, but I'm not very good at taking no for an answer..."
"And, of course, he told his boss this lame ass excuse that I was making a move on him, trying to force him into getting me a job there! His boss bought the whole thing, and called Amanda's boss to have me fired immediately, there was nothing Amanda could do about it, even though she knew the truth, after I told her my side."
"We've been together for over seven months... I was waiting for the perfect time. I was going to ask you to marry me." His voice broke a little, as he said the last part. "I guess I waited too long, huh?" He looked back up at me, and I saw tears welling in his eyes, as well.
"Matt, I..." He cut me off.
"No, it's alright. I guess you finally figured out who you really wanted. I'm just sorry it took this long for you to figure it out."
I woke up sometime around eleven, and immediately showered. I got dressed in some jeans and a shirt, complete with a jacket and scarf, because I knew it would be colder where I was going to be going.
After dressing, I didn't even bother to put on any makeup. I pulled out my suitcases, and started packing them full of my belongings.
Once finished, I carried them downstairs, making several trips in the process. I grabbed a granola bar, and ate it quickly. I looked out the back door, and saw the guys sitting around the table. Matt looked sullen, and so did Brian. Jimmy wasn't even talking loudly, and laughing, like he normally did. I could tell they had been talking seriously. I looked over to Zacky and saw him fiddling with the buttons on his shirt, he must be uncomfortable. Johnny was just sitting, with his head laid back, hanging over the chair, looking up at the cloudy sky.
I didn't want to have to say goodbye, so I didn't, at least not in person. I grabbed a piece of paper, and a pen, and sat down at the island to write.
Once I was finished, and pleased with what I had written, I left the piece of paper on the table for them to see when they came in. I put the pen away, and went to the door. piled all of my things into Jimmy's SUV. I knew he'd understand if I used his vehicle. And I made for sure I told him I told him in the letter that I would leave it at the airport, and the keys at the customer service station for him, so no one would steal it.
I hopped into the vehicle, and headed to the airport, hurriedly. Once there, I unloaded my things, locked up the car, and turned the keys into customer service for Jimmy to pick up later, once he realized I, along with his car, was missing. I made arrangements to catch the first flight back to Minnesota that I could, and when the time came to leave, my stuff was loaded on the plane, and I found my seat. I was headed back home, finally.
--
Jimmy's Point Of View
I thought I had heard a car start up outside earlier, but I had chosen to ignore it. The guys, and myself had been sitting outside talking for several hours.
When we finally decided to return inside, the first thing that caught my eye was a piece of paper, sitting at the kitchen island. I walked over to it, and called the guys over to read it.
Written in Bradley's handwriting, it said:
Dear boys,
I'm sorry I couldn't work up the courage to say Goodbye in person. It kills me, knowing that I'm leaving you, but it helps knowing that you will be better off without me.
To Brian and Matt: I'm sorry I ruined our relationship, and broke your hearts. I know you guys will be better off without me around. I hope both of you can find a wonderful loving woman who will take care of you, and love you like I couldn't. I wish you both the best. I love you.
To Jimmy: You are an amazing guy, and one of my best friends. I'm sorry I'm leaving you like this. I hope you can find a new best friend to take my place, maybe even a special lady friend. ;) I love you, Jim. Thanks for always being there, and never giving up on me.
To Zacky and Johnny: I love you both. You guys are both amazing, and I wish you both the best of luck finding some special women of your own. :) I wish I could be there to meet them, someday when the right ones come along. Thanks for putting up with my shitty jokes, and me.
To everyone: I will always love you. And just know, that I'll miss you all like fucking crazy! Please don't worry about me, I'll be fine. And so will you.
My love and sincerity to you all,
Bradley.
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