I didn't realize how much I wanted the tests to be positive, until I saw that they weren't. I felt like I'd just wasted this time, my money, my work day, all for one big lie that was leading me on. My boss, and best friend, had even fallen for it. I felt some relief, knowing that I hadn't told the guys about feeling sick, so they had no clue of anything that was going on.

I didn't feel like going back to work. I didn't even feel like calling Amanda back, so I didn't bother to. I felt like I needed some true closure. I drove to the hospital and checked myself in to see a doctor.

It felt like an eternity that I was in the waiting room, but in reality it was only ten minutes, until the nurse came out, and called my name.

"Ms. Cross?" I stood up, and walked towards her.

"Me." I simply said, as I approached her.

"Follow me." She said, turning away, and walking down a hall, as I followed behind her. "In here. Doctor Richards will be in soon to speak with you." She opened the door to a room on the left at the end of the hall.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." She walked away. Within five minutes, the doctor was in.

"Hello, Ms. Cross. I'm Dr. Richards. What brings you in today?"

"I was wondering if I'm pregnant. I know that sounds crazy."

"Not at all."

"Well, I took two tests, and they both came back negative, but I know that those tests can sometimes be off."

"Very true. We will check you, and see what we come up with. Are you the same Ms. Cross that was in several months ago?" She asked me.

"Yes." A look of sadness crossed her face for a mere second, before her smile showed again.

"Okay... I thought you looked familiar." She left the room for a few minutes, and came back with some papers. "Ms. Cross, when you were in a few months ago, did they tell you anything about your pregnancy at the time?"

"They just told me I had lost the baby."

"Well, here in these papers, it says that you are no longer able to get pregnant." Tears started to form in my eyes, as she spoke. "When you were stabbed, it really did some damage, and it definitely took a toll on you. Not only did it put you in the hospital, and cause you to lose your child, it also took away your future of having children."

"No..." I sobbed, putting my head in my hands.

"I'm terribly sorry, Bradley. They should have told you sooner." I tried to dry my tears as best as I could, before leaving the hospital. I got into my car, and started it. Sobs racked through me again, and I put my head on the steering wheel, and let them overtake me.

I cried for a good fifteen minutes, before wiping my eyes, and driving home. I entered the house, trying to hide my face, and hide myself in general from anyone home. I made it to the stairs, before Jimmy, who was sitting on the couch, noticed I was home.

"Hey, B! You're home early! The rest of the guys are out at the beach, if you're looking for them."

"Thanks." I said, trying to sound as normal as possible. It didn't work. The TV was immediately paused, and Jimmy was at my side.

"You've been crying. Are you hurt? Who hurt you?" Jimmy said. He lightly put his hands on either side of my face, making me look up at him.

"No one hurt me." I sobbed out. I couldn't stop the tears from falling, now.

"What's wrong, B?" He said, pulling me into a hug.

"I... I can't get pregnant, Jimmy."

"What?" He said pulling away to look at me, his face showing his sadness at what I had just told him.

"I'll never have children. I'll never have a family. My dreams are ruined."

"Oh, don't say that. You do have a family, they live right here in this house with you. We're you're family."

"You guys are all I have left." Jimmy pulled me in again to hug me. He let me sob into his chest, and just held me as I cried. "Let it all out. It's okay. Everything will be okay. I'll always be here for you."

I heard the door open, and four sets of footsteps rushing towards us.

"What happened?"

"Is she alright?"

"Whose ass am I kicking today?"

I let held my breath, as the pain washed over me. Before I knew it, everything went black.

Notes

What do you guys think?!

I was gonna leave you hanging, after that last chapter, but my urge to write was too hard to ignore. So...

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