Falling. I'm falling down, away from myself, from my friends and family.... away from everything I hold dear. Away from the drugs and the fugitive life-style; the parties, and the sunlit mornings on a Cali beach. I am alone.....

In this place, there is nothing. It's just you and your memories. The regrets, the guilt, the laughter and tears. And your insanity... the madness that grips you, that drags you further down into hell. That's where I'm stuck.... in my bright darkness, with not a single whisper of anything to pull me out.

And I've never felt more alive.

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"Ms. Smith, your pregnant." I watched as Mari's mouth fell open, a look of absolute horror on her face.

"P-pregnant? I.... I am....? But, how? No, this can't be happening. It just can't..." She dropped her head into her hands and began to sob. The doctor's face showed only pity, as if he understood her pain.

I myself didn't get why she was so upset. I've always wanted a little Jimmy or Jiminia.... jimmaya.... Jimmyette? Whatever a girl Jimmy would be called. Anyways, I've always pictured partying until I was 30 or something, then settling down with a perfect girl. Though Mari was anything from perfect...

"How far along am I?" I started at her question, even though it was directed at the doctor. We had had sex in mid-March, now it was May 12th.... Didn't she remember that? Then again, she did just get into a car wreck.... I wouldn't be surprised if she forgot some things.

"About two and a half months... Your injuries messed with our results so we can't be sure."

"That means it could be either of them...." She whispered to herself. The doctor heard her, and whispered something in her ear. She nodded and he turned back to us.

"Can you two leave for a few minutes? I need a private minute with Ms. Smith." Zacky stood up immediately while I took my time getting up. I leaned over to kiss Mari but I still felt her flinch beneath me.

What had I done to her to make her scared, I thought as I
I walked out and closed the door. Oh yeah.... I had basically told her to fuck off and never expect to see me again. I still hadn't forgiven her yet for abandoning us and taking our guitarist with her. Then there was this whole "wanted by the cops thing".... I still had no idea what they had done that made them want to run away.

It seemed as if we had a lot to talk about...

"Want something to eat?" Zacky interrupted my thoughts. I shook my head "no" in response and he simply shrugged and walked towards the elevator. I watched him as he harshly jabbed the down button before strutting in to it.

I realized with a jolt that he was mad. Probably cause Mari hadn't said a thing to him. In fact, she hadn't acknowledged either of us. This whole pregnancy thing was probably a shock to her... and I wondered what she had meant when she said it could be either of them...

The doctor seemed to know, and he was talking to her about it right now. I stuck my ear to the door and listened to their muffled voices. I could only just make out why they were saying;

"I just don't know what to do. This can't be happening to me..."

"Having kids can be a great thing, I know I've got two myself."

"I don't care about great things! I can't handle this; I've told you what I want to do... Especially now that I don't know who's baby-" I wasn't able to make out what they said last, but now I knew that she hated the baby thing. But why.....?

And what was the "I don't know who's baby" thing? I was the only one she had fucked in a while, unless... As the thought that she may have cheated on me popped up unwelcome in my head, I nearly puked in the hallway then and there.

But it's not like I didn't have it coming. And with what happened to me right before she left... I know she must remember my sudden disappearance. How was I going to explain myself?

I just didn't know anymore...

Notes

Sorry about how short it is, :( . Writers block is a bitch.
And keep these main points in mind over the next few chapters:
•Jimmy's disappearance before Mari left (if my fans remember that)
•Her drug addiction
•Their fugitive status
•Tests say she got pregnant in way early march; she had sex with Zacky in mid Feb. and Jimmy mid. March. Who's the father?
•And finally, her weird dreams... Seems as if she's going crazy again, doesn't it? I wonder how bad that will get...

Tee hee, my precious fans, you have your plates full with this all-over-the-place story!