"Mom!" I saw my mother at the coffee shop, two steaming cups of Starbucks coffee in her hand. Her and Jas both looked relieved to see me.

"Maaa-riii! Mari, Mari!!" Jas sang like a child, running from Mom and tackling me in the middle of the airport.

We wrestled for a few seconds before I forced her off me.

"It's good to see you Jas, I've missed you." She flashed her smile, hauling me to my feet.

"That's only cause you know my sexiness is irresistible." My hands covered my mouth to avoid from laughing.

"Your sexiness? Yeah right!"

"Hey, girls calm down, people are staring." I gathered my mom in for a hug, snatching a cup of coffee out of her hands.

After catching up a bit, we gathered all my stuff and left the airport, braced for the February chill. God how I've missed this place. All the busy people and fresh air, how could you go wrong?

We climbed in the car and Jas drove us home. Soon as we got inside, I threw my stuff down and rushed into my dads open arms.

"Hey dad, I've missed you." He tightened his arms around my shoulders, holding in his tears.

"Come on," he chuckled holding me at arms length, "Ya don't want to see your old man cry, do you?"

"The guest room is all made up, go ahead and put your stuff in there."

I acknowledged Dad's order and grabbed my suitcases.

The guest room smelled like ginger, much different than the rest of the house, and I breathed it in before collapsing on the bed.

The next thing I knew, I was deep in sleep, dreaming of endless parties with the guys.

~~Later that night~~

'I'm living one big nightmare
The ugly truth has a model fa-ace'

Motionless in white played over the radio as I floated in the pool.

Taking a deep breath, I dove under the water and settled onto the floor of the pool, and finally allowed myself to relax after a day of activity.

All of a sudden, someone jumped into the pool. It was probably Jas coming to bother me, or one of her friends.

However, imagine my surprise when the face I saw as my head burst to the surface turned out to be Zacky Baker's.

"Zacky?!? What the hell are you doing here?"

"We need to talk."

"So you fly all the way out to Woodstock? Follow me to my house, and jump into my pool? Phones exist for that exact reason Zacky!"

"It's about Jimmy. I didn't want to call, we need to talk about this face to face." I forgave him instantly and climbed out of the pool, wrapping a towel around myself and tossing one to Zacky.

"So, what's going on, what happened?"

"I'll tell you, but not here. Do you know anywhere more private?" My brain wracked itself for a place, a quiet place where we could talk undisturbed.

"I got it, we can walk there. But let's get dressed first."

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"Here we are. Now talk, what's going on?" He glanced around the small glade, a place only I knew about.

I had spent all my time as a kid here, picking flowers, swimming in the streams. It was my safe haven.

Now, it looked dead and lonely, but nonetheless I wasn't going anywhere else. My feet were rooted there until Zacky explained himself.

"Ok, um... Remember the night that we kissed? Well, Jimmy.... he's suspicious."

"He has no reason to be. That was just a
aspired of the moment. We both know that wasn't supposed to happen."

"It wasn't? I thought..."

"Thought what? That I liked you like that? If you'll remember, you're the one who shoved your face into mine!"

"AND WHAT DID YOU DO TO STOP ME?! ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY NOTHING!" I cringed at his screaming and he just sighed in frustration.

"Look, I know you felt like it was an accident, but it wasn't for me. I wanted us to kiss. For so long I wanted that moment..."

"Wha- Why?" He moved closer to me and put his hand on my cheek.

"I love you Mari."

My jaw fell all the way to the grass. Loved me?!? Zacky fucking Baker loved me?!?

"Zacky..."

We stood there, silent and confused. I looked down and thought about everything that had happened between us, it all seeming so clear.

All those times he stared at me, it wasn't hatred. At least not for me. He hated himself for feeling like this, full well knowing I was committed to Jimmy.

He sighed, pulled his hand away, and took a few steps back. And for some reason I will never know and always regret, I moved closer to him and planted my hands behind his head.

Then we were kissing. Completely immobilized by our lip-lock, I pulled him closer, feeling his arms slide around my waist. We sank to the ground, our lips never moving apart.

God, if it was good before, it was a million times better now. He slanted backwards, forcing my body onto his. I knew what I was doing was wrong in every way, but I couldn't stop, couldn't pull myself away.

"You have no idea how much I've wanted this." His whispery voice sent me into a trance. He flipped me over, tearing his shirt off in the process.

Oh god! What am I doing? I'm about to have sex with Zacky, and I'm with Jimmy!

"Don't worry, I'll be gentle." He ripped my blouse open, running his tongue down the length of my body. As he pulled my pants off, I had one last flash of doubt and worry. But it dissipated as he stuck his hand in my panties and rubbed.

A moan escaped my lips and he smiled. I unbuttoned his pants, pushing them off the rest of the way with my feet. In response, he whipped his dick out and pulled my panties off slowly.

"Are you ready for me?" I looked deep into his eyes, nodding like crazy. And he pushed himself into me. As he slowly picked up speed, my moans picked up volume until I was screaming in ecstasy.

My body moved in rhythm with his, us moving closer and closer to a climax.

"Shit Mari, you're so tight, it's amazing." I couldn't help but laugh. He was here complementing me, even though we were doing it. I was getting closer and closer, my body shivering in anticipation.

"ZACKY, I LOVE YOU!" I screamed right when we came. He fell on top of me, breathing heavily before pulling out.

"You just... said you loved me." He gaped at me. I closed my eyes and blocked out his face.

Shameful, deceitful, a liar, a slut. I was all that and more. Even though I was with Jimmy, I had just fucked Zacky.

"I'm sorry." I whispered and turned away.

"No," Zacky turned my face back towards his, planting a kiss on my lips, "It's perfectly fine. I love you too Mari."

I lay there, cuddling with him and thinking about what I'd just done. I had sex with Zacky, I'm such a whore.

A sneaking whore. I'd betrayed the one guy I had ever truly loved, for his best friend.

Thoughts zoomed through my head, yet the one that got to me the most was this:

What if Jimmy finds out?

We got dressed and Zacky walked me back to my house, kissing me goodnight. After taking a shower and crawling into bed, all I could do was cry. Tears soaked my pillow, my vision blurred by the tears.

It took a long time for me to fall asleep but when I did a nightmare ensued. A nightmare were I fell off a cliff, into a bottomless pool. That pool was the pool of despair, and that pool would forever hold my fading soul.

I woke up panting and crying, the blankets completely wrapped around my body. I let myself calm down before attempting sleep again, and even then I was tormented by nightmares.