CAT'S POV

They drew blood from all of us. I'm scared of needles, but for Jimmy, I would have literally given an arm. When Jimmy's heart started beating again, I knew I was the happiest girl in the world. My best friend had a chance of making it, even if I had to give him a kidney. I'd do it in a heartbeat.

I glanced over to Matt, who was looking handsome as ever, even though he was wearing sweatpants and some hooded jacket. He had this incredibly concentrated look when he saw me talking to Jimmy, and I thought that made him look extremely hot.

What am I getting myself into anyway? I have no clue, I thought, but I was certain I'd find out one way or another. After Jimmy said he'd give his dick for me, we all laughed and he smiled at me before closing his eyes again. We were sent outside since he needed rest. It would take ten minutes or less, the doctor had announced, to determine if anyone of us could donate. Where's Matt by the way? Well, whatever.

I played with my scarf absentmindedly, and suddenly, Syn's eyes widened. Oh no. Does he...? Do they see...? "Holy fuck!" Zack screamed, and after he remembered we were still in the ICU section of a hospital, he refrained to whispering excitedly. "You gotta be fucking kidding me, did you guys fuck?"

Syn threw me a dirty grin and Johnny just stared at the wall awkwardly, not knowing what to say. "Well Cat, you like to go back to old lovers, huh? Why not try new territory for once? I asked you like seven times," Syn chuckled. Not the right time for one of your jokes. Fuck! Why did I play with the scarf again? I glared at Zack for pointing it out.

As I thought things couldn't possibly get any worse, they once again proved me wrong when Matt stepped out of some door with a nurse, all while zipping up his pants and grinning widely. What the fuck, Matt? I felt my stomach painfully twist with anger, with jealousy.

I wanted to scream at him, wanted to smash in his face with a chair, but on the other hand, I wanted to crawl under his skin and calm down and know that this all was a misunderstanding. "Well, I guess not," Johnny grinned as he saw Matt, but soon realized it, too, when he saw my look.

Shut up now, Fucktard McMidgedshit. Don't say anything more. "So you guys fucked and now Matt fucked the nurse, dude, solid!" It wasn't Johnny who spoke it out. It was Syn. Damn you for your lacking sense of appropriate and inappropriate. Matt's eyes widened as he saw me, and I just showed the round my middle finger and left, ignoring both Matt's and Zack's calls to come back.


When I got home, I started crying for the very first time after a long time of managing. My mom, thankfully, left me alone. She thought it was only about Jimmy, which would have been bad enough, but no, it was Matt who broke my heart, too.

Two days ago he said those three words like he knew what they meant and he wasn't even ashamed to grin openly when he saw us standing there right after he... and that nurse... Wow. You know, right at the first occasion he got. Not even waiting for one more day. Not even caring who it was he did it with.

And then, too, I felt terrible for even thinking about it, for letting it impact me when Jimmy was in a very bad condition. I should be making him my priority, I thought, but instead, I'm whining over Shads, my stupid ex, getting laid.

I picked up my phone and was surpirised to see 5 hours had almost passed after I fled the hospital. I must have fallen asleep. I had countless messages from Matt, all either "let me explain"-ish or insults for even thinking he'd lay someone else. Yep, the heat is on, the Matt fire is burning, but the gasoline is weak. I didn't have the energy to fight anymore, I just didn't.

I dialed the hospital's number and after someone picked up, I said, "Good evening, this is Caitlin Anderson, I'm calling to ask about your patient Sullivan, James."
"One minute," the girl at the end of the line said, and I wondered if she was the one Matt parked his dick in. "James Owen that is, right?" she asked. "Yes."

"Mr Sullivan is awake and could have a visitor tonight. We are preparing him for his new kidney."
"Did you find a donor?"
"Well, obviously. But we're not allowed to tell you the name or anything."
I mushed a quick thank you before I hurriedly packed a couple of things into my handbag, excited to go to the hospital to talk to Jimmy.

In that exact moment, a car pulled up in my driveway. Please God. Let this be Johnny.


MATT'S POV

"Mr Sanders?" I heard a female voice from behind me. A nurse was standing there, the one who just drew blood from all of us. Which kinda hurt. She didn't find my fucking vein and had to poke her needle through my skin three times. That bitch is probably new to the team. "Yeah?"
"We just discovered that you're the only person with the same blood type as Mr. Sullivan's, A negative."

Holy fuck! Can I...? "That's great news," I said as a wide smile spread on my face. Would I? I was hoping it wouldn't come down to me. But then again, everyone did. The only person who loves Jimmy more than herself is Cat. I think she was the only one who hoped she'd fit.

"Now we need a urine sample to determine if you could be a donor if you're still willing." Am I? I mean, having only one kidney is going to impair me, right? But it's Jimmy! I shoved my thoughts aside. He was my best friend. He was everyone's best friend. It was his only chance to survive. I would not be the guy who killed Jimmy. "Absolutely," I said.


The nurse led me to a room and gave me one of those cups to pee in. There was a bathroom accessible from this very room, so I went there and did my business. When I left the room, I started smiling.
After all, maybe I would be able to save Jimmy, and Cat would certainly like that. I noticed that my pants were not zipped properly, so I fixed that and approached the group. They seemed to be discussing some important matter. Syn said something and the guys looked embarrassed. Cat showed us her middle finger and stormed off. Wait? Baby?

"The hell was that about?" I demanded to know. I felt the anger rise inside me. What did they do to upset her? "Dude," Syn said between laughters, "You fucked Cat like, yesterday, and today that nurse? Single life is good for you, huh?"
What the hell is he talking about? How does he even know Cat and I...? That bitch! Did she already tell Jimmy? Or Syn?

But then it dawned on me. I ran out that room, grinned and zipped my pants. Of course that's what she thinks... While I listened to Zack lecturing me about the dangers of sleeping with your best friend, I simply turned off the outside world for a while.

Cat thinks I slept with that nurse, when all I want is her. When all I smiled about was the thought of making her happy. And, of course, saving Jimmy.
Zacky took me home. I didn't think I was ready to go home into the empty house I used to live in with Val, but then again, I had to.

I called her and texted her a lot. I needed to talk to her. But she was stubborn, she didn't pick up. It was always like that when we fought. She was the only fucking person on this planet I knew who liked to fight harder and longer than even I wanted to. I mean, everyone always gave in when they fought with me. But with Cat, I was the one to give in, just because I started to grow tired of fighting.

I knew I had to set this straight immediately. After hours, I couldn't take it anymore. I drove to her place and when I saw the light was on in her room, I was happy. I would simply reason with her, maybe kiss her and things would go back to normal, or to whatever this strange thing between us is right now. I wanted nothing more than to hold her, to comfort her in this ugly time and to be comforted and held by her.

"Matt, go away," she mushed as she opened the door, but since she didn't slam it right into my face, I knew I had a slim chance to reason with her, I just had to use it wisely.

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