MAKE SURE YOU READ CHAPTER 6. I UPDATED LATE LAST NIGHT. :)

~Jess's POV~

"Ow!" I said as I grabbed my face where I was hit. "Mel..." I groaned. "Baby girl..." I opened my eyes to find my baby girl sitting up, her hair a mess, and with the biggest smile on her face. "Where's your daddy, hmm?"

"Let's go find daddy." I picked her up and walked downstairs with her. "It's really early. You wake up too early, Mel." I quickly made a bottle for her and set her in her play pen so that she could eat and play while I looked for her dad. "Alright, I'll be back mammas. I gotta find daddy and feed Pinks." Just then, Pinkly ran up to me, jumping at my legs, a clear sign that she was hungry. I fed her in the laundry room and went outside to see if Brian was outside.

With no luck of finding Brian outside, I walked down to the basement. Sure enough, Brian was sitting in the chair, facing the recording room.

I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around him, noticing that he had earbuds in. He was listening to something. I looked around the room and felt my heart sink. One of his guitars were broken, there were empty beer bottles everywhere, and there were bottles of Bacardi that were empty. He had been drinking.

"Babe..." I trailed off. "Brian..." I nudged him to get his attention. He still didn't say anything, just stared blankly at the recording studio still listening to music. Brian tipped his head black and downed the rest of his Heineken. I took out one of his earbuds, finally getting him to look at me.

His eyes were red. There were huge, dark bags under his eyes.

"Can you get me the other case of beer that's in the fridge? I ran out." Brian slurred, clearly out of it.

"What? Brian, no." I said, puzzled.

"Just fucking get it!" Brian yelled, throwing his empty bottle at the wall. I jumped back, swallowing the lump that was forming in my throat. Brian stuck his earbuds back in his ears and stomped up the stairs. I wiped my tears, hearing Melody crying upstairs, probably because of hearing Brian yell.

"You need to calm the fuck down, Haner." I seethed at him, feeling my eyes tear up.

I walked up the stairs and over to Melody. She saw me and while still crying, she stood up and reached towards me. I picked her up and soothed her, finally getting her to stop crying.

"Da..." She mumbled. My breathing stopped. She was about to say her first word. "Da...da." My heart broke as I saw Melody reach out towards her dad who was getting a case of beer out of the refrigerator at 8 in the morning. Brian just looked at her, his eyes tearing, and made his way back down to the basement.

"Dada." Melody said again. I laughed and smiled through my tears, hugging her.

"Come here, baby. Daddy isn't feeling well. He misses Uncle Jimmy. We all do." I kissed her head and walked up to the bathroom so that I could bathe her.

It was mid afternoon, when Brian finally emerged from the basement, completely hungover. Melody and I were sitting in the living room, watching Winnie the Pooh.

"Hey, baby." Brian said to me and kissed my cheek. I grimaced, pulling my face away, ignoring his affection.

"Ugh, Brian, you reek. Go shower." I said, pushing him away from me. Brian just walked away and walked towards Melody, ready to pick her up.

"Um, no. You are or going to touch my daughter when you reek of alcohol and cigarettes." I stopped Brian by grabbing Melody before he could.

"What the fuck, she's my daughter too!" Brian said, raising his tone.

"Brian, you've been drinking and smoking all morning! You smell like garbage! She doesn't need to see you like this!" I said sternly.

"Jess, stop being crazy. Just let me hold my daughter for fucks sake!" He yelled.

"Do you even remember what you did this morning?" I questioned Brian. He looked confused, clearly not remembering.

"You threw a fucking bottle at a wall when I refused to get you another drink because you were already so drunk this morning!" I sighed, trying to calm myself down so that Melody wouldn't start crying. "Just go shower." I pushed past Brian and made my way up the stairs.

"I just lost my best fucking friend! I lost my brother not even 36 hours ago! I'm sorry Im not all smiles like you are!" Brian said, following me up the stairs.

"I'm hurting too, Brian. Don't you dare say that I'm happy." I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "I'm not going to argue with you when your hungover and when I'm holding our daughter." I whispered eerily low. "Go shower and then we'll talk. Now, I need to put her down for a nap."

Brian threw his hands up in the air and groaned loudly, and walked off from us.

I looked down at Melody when I walked into her room and started crying, holding her close to me. I sniffles, "We'll be okay, baby. Daddy is just hurting, we both are. But you're the reason why we smile." Melody just started fussing, wanting to get out of my lap. I put her down on the floor and hugged my legs, letting tears fall from my eyes.

Losing Jimmy has to be the hardest thing for the Avenged family, and it has to be the hardest thing for Brian. I've known Jimmy since I moved to Huntington when I was a kid, he was basically my older brother growing up. Jimmy and Brian were two peas in a pod, one wouldn't go anywhere without the other. Jimmy is the reason why Brian and I are together and married. He has been the one that has held our group of friends together. He was there to help the guys through their relationships when things started to get rough, maybe that's why everyone has been dating the same person since they were teenagers. He was the glue.


"Dada" Melody said as she grabbed my leg, trying to stand. "Daaada."

"I know, baby. Daddy is showering. Now, come on, it's time for you nap."

~Normal POV~
Jess sat back on the couch in the living room, the baby monitor right beside her so that she would hear Melody whenever she woke up. Jess stared blankly at the tv, not even paying attention to what was showing because she was so mad at Brian.

Brian walked down stairs with a towel around his neck because his hair was still dripping wet. Brian knew that what he did wasn't right and he did not need to throw a bottle at the wall, but he couldn't help it. He was hurting from losing his brother. It pissed him off that Jess was all smiles and rainbows. It was like she didn't even care.

"You wanted to talk, about what? I'm showered now, or whatever." Brian said with sarcasm more than evident in his voice as he threw his self onto the couch.

Jess scoffed, "You're not going to throw a bottle at the wall?"

"Can you quit with the fucking bottle already?! Can I not mourn the death of my best fucking friend?!" Brian said, raising his voice. It hurt him that Jess couldn't see how bad he really was hurting. "At least I'm mourning him and remembering his life. You're acting like he didn't even fucking exist! His death doesn't even fucking phase you, jesus christ." Brian seethed. His anger and pain was getting the best of him, but at this point, he didn't even care. He wanted Jess to hurt like he was hurting.

"Don't you fucking say that! Don't you dare say that I'm not mourning Jimmy. He was my brother too!" Jessica said angrily. "I know you're hurting, Brian. I am too. But that doesn't give you the right to get drunk off your ass and throw bottles at fucking walls because I refused to help you drink more. You can't escape while I'm the one that has to watch two kids." Brian knew she was implying that he was the other kid.

"I'm going to drink if i want to fucking drink. We've been through so much together! We created so many fucking memories! He helped me through so much shit! He helped me through dealing with your shit." Brian yelled, finally realizing what he said. He didn't mean it. He knew he went too far.

"Wow. You mean when you decided to fucking skip out as soon as you find out I was pregnant? You mean when that little girl upstairs was still in my belly? You mean when I was crying in my apartment for hours because you pushed me aside like I was nothing. You mean when-" Jess stopped herself and took a breath, calming herself. "-You know what? Fuck you, Brian." Jess threw a pillow at him and stomped upstairs into Melody's room.

Brian followed close behind her. He let his pain get the best of him and the huge hangover he had wasn't helping.

"Baby, Jess, love. I'm sorry. I went too far, I know that. I left my pain get the best of me. I didn't mean it. I'm so sorry." Brian begged, knowing that he really hurt Jessica. As much as he fucked up today and earlier this morning, he didn't want to push Jess away. That was the last thing that he wanted to happen.

While Jess was reaching for the, door knob, Brian grabbed her hand, stopping her.

"Let her sleep, please. She's napping." Brian said quietly. Jess was trying so hard to not slap him. She turned around and stomped off into their bedroom, fighting back tears.

"Jess...I-" Jess cut Brian off before he could finish.

"No, fuck you, Brian. How could you say that? You're the one that left when it got tough-" Brian stopped her, trying to defend himself.

"I was fucking-" Brian was cut off.

Jess continued, "-so don't you dare say that you had to put up with my shit. I've had to deal with your shit ever since we were kids, Bri." Jess was so angry. "When you left on tour and your drinking got really bad. When Matt and Jimmy used to call me while I was asleep saying that you were blackout drunk and that they were so worried about you. Or all of the shit you went through with Michelle and how toxic your relationship was with her but you were too stupid to see it. So I should be the one saying that I had shit to deal with." Jess said, exhaling loudly.

"Are you done now? Can I speak or are you just going to cut me off?" Brian said.

"Oh my fucking god, Brian. Just- just get out. I can't be near you right now." Jess ran her fingers through he hair. "This is getting no where."

"What do you mean? You said you wanted to talk but instead you just started throwing all of that shit from the past in my face." Brian said, laughing a bit. "I thought you were over that? I came back for fucks sake."

That was it, Jess had enough. "You came back because Jimmy fucking forced you to!" The tears started flowing out of Jess' eyes. "Brian, look me in the eye and tell me that you would've came back even if Jimmy didn't punch the shit out of you."

Brian hesitated, wondering why she was asking. It hurt him. He thought she knew him better than to believe that they're only together because he was forced to come back. He loved Jessica and Melody more than anything.

"Wow, fucking wow. So why the fuck are we even married? Why the fuck am I even here?" Jess could feel her heart aching. Was everything they had a lie? Was everything Brian promised just a lie?

"Jess, for fucks sake, you know I would have come back. I'm in love with you. I always have been since I was a fucking teenager. Why would you ask such a stupid question? Do you doubt us?" Brian questioned, starting to panic. This argument was getting out of hand. He never wanted to give Jess a reason to doubt their relationship.

"At this point, I don't know anymore, Brian." Jess whispered. The hesitation and apprehension in Brian's voice made her question everything.

"Jess, come on. After everything we've been through, you're really going to doubt my love for you? I thought you knew me better. Do I not tell you how much I love you? Am I not showing you enough love?" Brian questioned, slowly walking towards her.

"This ring on my finger shows how much I love you, Jess. The babies we created shows how much I love you. I'm in love with you, Jessica. I have been in love with you since I was 15 and I'm not stopping anytime soon." Brian reached Jessica, holding her hand in his, intertwining their hands. Jessica's small hand fit perfectly into Brian's hand. It was as if the two were made for each other.

"I'm sorry for being such a fucking asshole and saying all of those hurtful things to you, love. I'm so sorry." Brian wiped her tear away, looking into her golden brown eyes. Jess fell into his touch. "I can be such a fucking asshole and I'm so sorry for making you hurt."

"I know and I'm sorry for acting so batshit crazy this morning. And I know you're hurting, I'm sorry, I was being inconsiderate." Jess ran her fingers through Brian's hair, pulling him down to kiss her. That familiar spark and butterflies erupted in both of their stomachs, the kiss sending chills down each of their spines.

"For better or for worse right?" Brian sighed, pulling Jess close to him so that he could rest his chin on top of her head.

"I love you, Bri. I appreciate everything you do." Jess kissed his jaw. "I'm here for you." Jessica kissed his chest, snuggling into his embrace.

Notes

a/n:
im actually editing the next chapter right now. i kinda had this story planned out but i scrapped the whole idea so im still in the process of deciding where this story will go. i do have an idea though. so i might be updating either tomorrow or the next day. just depends on how fast i edit the next chapter.

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