Wherever This Goes

~ Brian's POV~

"I'm sorry. We tried our best, but she lost too much blood. I'm so sorry for your loss." The doctor said, his head hanging low.

That's when I felt my heart physically break. I fell to my knees, clenching my fists. She's gone. The only good thing that has ever happened to me is gone. I finally managed to do something good, which was loving her, but now she's gone.

"Brian?" Jimmy's voice cracked as he kneeled down beside me.

"No! No!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and finally broke into earth shattering sobs. "She can't be gone! She can't be fucking gone!"

I grabbed Jimmy and hugged him, crying hysterically into his shoulder. I never felt this much pain, both physically and mentally. I can feel my heart aching and my chest tightening. It felt like someone shot me and just for fun, they ripped out my heart.

"She's not gone. She left a little piece of her with you. You have Melody, Brian. You have to be strong for your daughter." His voice started cracking again. I lifted my head up and looked at everyone around me. They were all crying and hugging each other.

"I'm going to go see Mel." I mumbled in monotone and walked away. I made my way through the hospital and to the pediatric ward. I stood at the window and I saw her. That's when I felt my knees give out and I fell to the ground, sobs taking over my body.

How can I take care of Melody without Jess? I can't do that all by myself. I don't think I will be able to hold Melody. It's going to be a cruel reminder of Jessica. I can't live without her. She was the sun in my world and now, it will be dark forever.

"Excuse me, sir? Are you okay?" A nurse asked me.

I sniffled and said,"Yeah. I'm fine. Just overwhelmed."

"I know it can be. Which one is yours?" She asked me. I stood up and wiped my cheeks and pointed to Mel. "Would you like to see her?"

At first, I was going to say no. But Jimmy is right. I have to take care of Melody by myself now and I have to be strong for her. I nodded yes and followed her into the room. I walked over to where Melody was and I looked down at her.

She had my nose and my lips. She opened her eyes and looked up at me. I felt my eyes sting with tears once she smiled at me. She looked just like her mom. I picked her up and cradled her.

"Hi, my baby girl. I'm your dad. I've been wanting to meet you for a long time." Melody just smiled again and I felt my tears fall. "God, you look so much like your mom." I kissed her head. Melody just kept smiling at me. She grabbed my finger and looked curiously at me, her brows furrowing, as if she knew something horrible had happened. Melody took my hand again and gave me a wet kiss, almost like she knew I was hurting. I couldn't take it anymore. I put her back in the clear bassinet in and I ran out of the room, back to where Jimmy was.

"I can't do it, Jimmy. I fucking can't do it. She looks so much like her mom. I just want to die. I want to be with Jessica." I screamed at the top of my lungs and started punching the wall. Jimmy restrained me and we fell to the ground. "I can't do it. I want to die. I can't live without her." Jimmy was crying too, trying to soothe me as it felt like my whole world was crashing into a million pieces around me.

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I jolted awake. My heart was racing and I was sweating like crazy. I looked at the clock and saw that it was three in the morning. I looked at the bed beside me and sighed loudly, relieved that I saw Jess sleeping with Melody beside her. I smiled widely.

I got up from the chair and picked up Melody, putting her back the bassinet so I don't crush her. After I did that, I laid beside Jess and kissed her head.

"I love you, Jessica. Thank you so much for my daughter. Thank you." Jess stirred a bit and opened her eyes, smiling lightly. I ran my thumb over her soft, plump bottom lip and kissed her.

"I love you too, Brian." She kissed my nose and snuggled into my arms. I fell into a peaceful sleep, thanking God that he didn't take Jessica from me.

~Jess's POV~

I woke up the next morning, my head throbbing lightly and my throat dry as the desert. I rolled over and saw Brian, gently rocking Mel.

"Hi, my beautiful baby girl." I smiled lightly as Mel gripped Brian's index finger and curled up. Brian smiled and laid her against his chest, her eyes slowly closing.

"Morning, handsome." I whispered lightly. "Can I see her?" I tried to sit up so that I could see them better, but I winced at the pain from my stomach.

"Hey, relax. I'll bring her over." I laid back down and watched as Brian cautiously walked over to me, his brow furrowed in concentration. "Here." He said as he laid her in my arms. I made room for Brian so that he could sit beside me and once he did, he wrapped one arm around me while his other was stroking my arm lightly.

"Wow. We made her, Brian. She's perfect." I kissed her head and she smiled at the both of us. Melody had Brian's lips and his little nose. She also has his black jet black hair. She has hazel colored eyes, just like me. She was the perfect combination of both Brian and I. "When are the guys coming by?"

"They are actually all in the waiting room. They've been here since yesterday. They all told me to come get them as soon as you and Mel wake up." Brian mumbled. "I'll be back." Brian kissed both is us and left the room to go get the guys and girls. While Brain was gone, a nurse came in and examined me.

"Looks like you're good to go home tomorrow, Jessica. And congratulations to you and your fiancée on your beautiful girl." She says sweetly on her way out. I pick Melody back up and cradle her head. All of a sudden, I hear someone cheering, papers flying all over the place, and nurses trying to control whoever was causing a ruckus.

"Sir! You can't be that loud!"A nurse scolded someone, probably Jimmy.

"Great. Your uncles are coming." I laughed and waited for Jimmy to run in. Jimmy ran into the room with two huge teddy bears, his chest heaving up a down. Following him with more teddy bears was poor Johnny. Then came in a calmer Zacky, Matt, and Brian.

"My little niece!" Jimmy yelled, dropping the teddy bears and quickly walked over to me, eager to pick her up. Brian saw Jimmy run over to me with so much excitement that he ran over also, his eyes wide with fear.

"Dude, be careful!" Brian snarled at Jimmy.

"Keep your hair on, Brian. Jesus." Jimmy snapped back at him. At first I was very hesitant to hand him Mel, but he gave me a reassuring smile and I knew that Melody would be fine. I handed her over and Jimmy sat in the bed with me, staring down at his niece. All of the guys huddled around Jimmy, cooing things to Melody. Brian took my hand and smiled, kissing my lips.

"Thank you so much for Melody. I can't thank you enough. I am completely head over heels for you." Brian whispered to me and kissed me once more.

At that moment, I understand the meaning of love. Love is when the other persons happiness is more important than that of your own. I can't wait to marry this man, my man. I can't wait to raise a family with the one person I love the most. I can't wait to grow old and gray haired with him at my side.

"I love you, too, Brian. I can't wait to get married and raise a family." I kissed his lips again and he rested our foreheads against each other.

Notes

A/N:
thoughts? i might just skip ahead to the day they get married idk its going to take forever to write out everything but meh im not sure yet

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