Maya’s POV

“Because I’ve fallen in love with you”

Those words completely threw me off. I knew he meant to say something big, that’s why I interrupted him with a kiss the first time, but I didn’t want to hear those words, didn’t know how to handle a situation like this.

This was making it worse and harder to deal with then before… he wanted to get to know me and I tried to wiggle out of it but he wouldn’t let me. I felt bad for acting this way, but I couldn’t change it, not even if I tried.

I knew he wanted to be my boyfriend and I wanted to be his girl, I didn’t want to share him and wanted to spend time with him, but in love?

Why was he saying that?! He couldn’t mean it, could he?
This was too soon, way too soon… and we knew us for what 1 month and he is in love with me?
Was that a stupid joke? If so it wasn’t funny at all.

My heart was pounding faster, I felt like I would hyperventilate at any time. I heard him say those words and I bet every girl on the fucking planet wanted to hear them but not me… and not now.

I tried to suck air into my lungs but it wasn’t working, I might choke right here… I couldn’t look into his eyes, I tried to move away but he kept a firm hold on my hips.
I would see sadness in his eyes, betrayal… hurt? All things I couldn’t deal with, but this was something I couldn’t handle.

Why would he say that now? Why? I couldn’t give him back what he gave me. I couldn’t tell him the L word… I never said it… well never said it to anyone but Ave… I felt a connection between Matt and me and I did care for him, don’t get me wrong, but… this… this was going too far.

“Maya? Are you okay?” Matt’s concerned voice sounded and I tried to get off him again.
“Wait… stop!” He held on tight and I felt caged.

He put his hands on my cheek making me look at him and I saw exactly what I’d thought to see.
Sadness and hurt, but he quickly tried to mask it and I felt even worse now, knowing I caused that feeling in him.

I knew this was a stupid idea! I should have known better! I shouldn’t have let it come this far, not only I would get hurt in the process of all this, Matt got hurt… and I was the reason.

“Maya, look at me.” Matt’s voice was gentle, making it even harder for me. Why wasn’t he angry?
“You don’t have to say anything back… It’s okay. I just.. I wanted you to know how I feel.” Matt said but he couldn’t keep the disappointment completely out of his voice.

“I’m sorry… I forgot.. I wanted to… to meet with Ave…” I stuttered and Matt frowned, his hands leaving my hips so I could get up finally. I grabbed a long-sleeved shirt from the floor and put it over my head, I needed to get out of here, needed to clear my head, think about all this…

“I’m coming with you.” Matt got up from the bed and put his hand in mine, but I pulled away.
“I need to go alone… I’m sorry Matt. I need some time alone to think…” With that I left him standing there and dashed from our room. I didn’t take anything with me, not my phone, not my keycard, nothing.

I ran down the corridor not even waiting for the elevator, when I turned around a final time I saw Matt in our doorway he rubbed a hand down his face and I knew he was frustrated and hurt and I couldn’t blame him. I wasn’t relationship material, he knew that… I was… alone… always been.
Would Matt finally give up on us? After this? I felt my heart squeeze painfully in my chest at the thought, but then maybe it was for the best, right?

I paced outside of the hotel walking up and down the street, I knew people were staring at me funny. I was wearing a short black skirt and a nearly as long man shirt on top, I took Matt’s before I left, feeling safe and good with his smell surrounding me.

“Knife girl?” Jimmy’s voice sounded behind me, his voice was a little slurred and he had a beer bottle in hand.
“Jimmy?” he walked towards me and set the bottle aside holding his arms open so I could run into.
“Shit, what’s wrong?” He breathed into my ear and I shook my head, he would think I was now completely crazy and maybe I was…

“Should I bring you back to your room?” Jimmy asked and guided me back towards the entrance.
“I don’t have a key.” I whispered and Jimmy grinned.
“I will bring you to my room and then you tell me what’s wrong.” I nodded but knew I wouldn’t and couldn’t tell him what happened not all of it.

“Where have you been anyway?” I asked him while we waited for the elevator to arrive.
“A bar down the street, live music and all. I will take your there sometime, you will love it.” He opened his door and guided me into his room, it was a complete mess, clothes, bottles and drum equipment scattered all over the room.

“Just put the stuff aside and sit.” Jimmy pushed all the clothes from the bed down on the floor and I rolled my eyes.
I had to busy myself anyway…so I grabbed his clothes and began folding it up, while Jimmy watched me with an amused expression.

“Whatever it was it must be real bad…” Jimmy watched me a couple more minutes when my eyes fell to the clock beside his bed. It was nearly eleven… I must have been outside for quite a while.

He got up from his chair and walked up behind me, his arms slung around my waist and his head rested on my shoulder. “Stop that now. I like my chaos.” He said and I sighed.

He sat back on the bed pulling me with him “What happened? Do I need to kick Shadz ass or what?” I shook my head and my eyes teared up again, I hurt him, when he had been nothing but amazing.
Why couldn’t I be normal and tell him something… not I just ran away…

“Maya, tell me. You scare me if you are not sharing what’s going on in that beautiful head of yours.” Jimmy said and began stroking my arms.
“If I tell you, you will laugh and tell me I’m stupid… again.” I choked out.

“No.. I won’t. Nothing you do is stupid, sweetie… well I did some stupid things but that always depends on who is the judge, you know.”
I sighed “Matt told me he is in love with me.”
“How dare he?! That fucker!” Jimmy laughed and I rolled my eyes feeling even more stupid and a tear finally escaped, but I wouldn’t show Jimmy.

“Oh fuck.. no.. Maya… I was joking. Don’t cry, please… you break my heart.” He pulled me firmer against him, softly rocking me back and forth.

“You don’t know how to handle that, huh? Why? Or you don’t feel that way, what is it?” Jimmy brushed the tear I thought he wouldn’t see away.

“I don’t know… I told you I don’t know how to handle all this. I disappointed him, cause I couldn’t reply. I don’t know how to reply. Never been told anything like that and never felt it. Now, he will over think it and will back out. He will want someone normal, who replies when he says something like that, but I can’t… It would make it more real… If I let him that far in, I know it would be my doom, If he would tell me it’s over… that he would leave, I would be broken beyond repair! He says he won’t do it, he says he will be there for me… but he doesn’t know what will happen… He can’t know, Jimmy! I am not made for a relationship… see this happens and we haven’t been long together… this should have been something I enjoy and right now it’s making me feel like am not enough, not right not fitting to be his girlfriend.” I rushed out and Jimmy sighed.

“I get it, M… I do. But don’t you think it’s worth a shot? I knew Matt’s in love with you… I mean just look at that hunk of a man, he is wax in your small hands, the way he looks at you, treats you… I haven’t seen that before… And you is all he wants Maya. Don’t ever say you are not enough or not right, cause I can easily kick your ass, too. And I can tell, cause I know how amazing you are… I’ve been with you on both sides even though only short but… Friend and Lover, that’s how perfect you are.” Jimmy said and I knew he wanted to cheer me up but in the end it didn’t make me feel any better.

“Maya, just think about it… He won’t back out… he just told you he is in love. He might be disappointed and sad now, because you couldn’t say it, but Matt is a fighter. He will make you love him, and you my dear little knife girl won’t stand a chance against it.” He brushed the hair of my face with his long fingers, looking me in the eye.

“I know it’s hard and I’m glad you talked to me, and if you want I can tell Shadz about this, if you don’t trust yourself with it.” Jimmy asked and I was tempted but knew it wouldn’t help.
“No, thanks Jimmy. But… no.” He nodded with a smile “Knew you would say that.”

“Should I bring you to your room? I bet Matt’s crazy with worry…” Jimmy said and on one hand I really wanted to go back to him, on the other I didn’t want to see the sad look in his eyes… how long would he give me time?

I nodded and Jimmy and I walked towards the corridor “What if he is asleep already?”
“He won’t be” Jimmy sounded sure.

He pushed me forward and I knocked on the door, immediately the door was pulled open and Matt stood there, concern and worry on his face.

“Shit, I couldn’t reach you… you left your phone and…” Matt grabbed me in his arms and then stopped and looked over my shoulder at Jimmy “…I should have known where you are.” He sounded upset and I heard Jimmy’s footsteps disappear slwoly and knew we were alone again and I still had no idea what to say to him.

Brian’s POV

I couldn’t believe that Jimmy was right and she had been with Zack the whole time. The show of our life and he went away early to have a nice private time with my girl.
There I said it, again and again, my girl.

I realized she was mine and I wanted her to be nothing else, then why was it so hard to get the word Girlfriend over my lips?

That’s what she wanted to hear, right? Because yes I wanted her, and I wanted that Zack and Jason and every other guy around us knew, she was mine.
And they better made a huge fucking circle around her!

When I laid her on our bed while she was still asleep I had watched her for a couple of minutes, she was smiling and I kissed her soft lips, I just couldn’t help it. Had to get a sweet sample and remind her she was mine and she shouldn’t run away from me.

I couldn’t take my eyes of her if I was honest, not the whole day when she was with us, not when we had our show and I had no idea how I would react when she was awake and I could finally man up and show some balls and tell her how I felt.
I couldn’t let her over think everything we had, she was too precious to me to let her go again. I mean I just had her for what a couple of days?
That wouldn’t be the end, it couldn’t be!

I woke up the next morning and felt Ave shift next to me, it felt like she had a restless sleep, so I pulled her closer to my body, wanted to calm her down but then she opened her eyes and they stared directly into mine.

“Goodmorning, love” I whispered and she blinked a couple more times.
“Hi” Her soft reply, she looked around the room frowning and I bet she was confused why she was here now. I mean I did bring her to our bed while she was asleep, but I couldn’t leave her with Zack, that wouldn’t have sat well with me.
Even though Zack said he would take the couch, but hell no. I admitted finally she was mine, then I wouldn’t let her sleep in another guys bed, that was for sure.

“How… when…” Ave eye’s met mine and I smiled “Yesterday night, I went to Zack. I wanted to talk to you, but you were sound asleep.” I told her and put my hand on her cheek, letting my thumb softly run over it.

“Ave?” I asked again when she didn’t say anything, her eyes were directed everywhere but at my eyes.
“Hmm…” She replied without looking up.
“Why did you leave yesterday? I was going crazy not seeing you during the show, and afterwards no one knew where you were… don’t do that again, love. Don’t!” I felt like a complete mess when she was gone and I wasn’t able to talk to her.

“I had to think about certain things… I didn’t want you to worry, and don’t be mad at Zack. He just did what I asked him for.” She said quietly and I leaned forward pressing my lips to her forehead, a little contact, little but yet again so intense that a spark hit me, making me aware just how right it was what I wanted to say.

“I also thought about something important. And I wanted to tell you about it…” I said and Ave sighed.
Shit, was that a bad sign? Did she already rethink everything? Am I too late again?“Ave, listen. I talked to Maya… and Jimmy, but that’s beside the point. I could feel you putting a distance between us. You built up this wall brick by brick wanting to back out, right?” I asked and Ave stared into my eyes, her blue one nearly making me drown in them.

She didn’t say anything but I could see in her eyes the uncertainty and the hurt that I caused and I felt like an ass all over again for not getting the situation before.
I laid my hand on her hip pulling her forward, needing her closeness, now more than ever.
“I told you we tried and I thought that would be enough… you must understand I don’t know the rules we play by here. Normally I don’t play by any rules… I just… damn it… I feel a little helpless sometimes, especially when it comes to you. I didn’t want to make you feel sad. I want to see your smile, hear your laugh… and I want you by my side. I want everyone around us to know you are mine, because that’s what I feel… and seeing you yesterday in Zack’s bed… knowing you rather been with him, rather talked to him then me… Fuck, that hurt like a bitch, but made me aware… That I have to tell you something.” I breathed deeply in and out “Ave, will you be mine? I mean… as official as we can be in a situation like this, but will you be my girlfriend? And then we will see where this leads us… all of it, for real?” My heart stopped right there, I guess those words had never left my mouth before and now I knew why.

My whole body was feeling like being pulled like a string, only waiting to be held or let down, what would she say? Did she already decide against me?

But she didn’t say anything, she just crashed her lips down on mine and I sighed into our kiss, this was the best answer I could get.
“Yes… damn it!” Ave said before her lips crashed into mine again and I felt like the luckiest motherfucker on earth right now!

“Thank god” I breathed out and quickly turned Ave onto her back and moved between her legs, my cock was perfectly resting on her crotch and I moved back and forth making Ave moan.
“Brian… oh my…” She moaned and I groaned out when her hands slung around my neck while her fingers were tugging on my hair slightly.

“I wanted you so bad yesterday, but you were gone… don’t go away like that again… don’t..” I whispered into her ear and Ave arched her back, “I won’t”
“Are you wet for me, Ave?” I groaned and put small kisses onto her throat before biting softly and she put her hips up even firmer to meet my straining erection, only covered by my boxers.

Only a second and I would be inside her, finally having her again… damn I needed her bad. I was about to pull my boxers down when suddenly a phone started to blast from somewhere beside the bed.

“OH SHIT!” Ave pushed me off her and I frowned, how could this be so important?
“Love, what the-” I said but she held up her hand to silence me “My dad!”

She grabbed the phone and picked up and I groaned, perfect timing Larry, really.

“Hey Dad…” Ave said and then she listened and went completely white.
“You stand before Maya and my door?” She breathed out and I swallowed, oh shit, that’s just two doors away from mine.

“I..I.. No, I actually can’t open the door… cause… well, I am not in the room.” She said and god she was a bad liar.
“I am already down for breakfast” Ave lied and quickly got up and tried to get dressed while still being on the phone and I did the same.
If Larry was here, we had a problem… we had to warn Maya and Matt… and the others…

“Yes, just come down to the Lobby, I’ll get you a coffee and we see us there, okay. See you in a few, bye Daddy!” She hung up and stared at me wide eyed.

“He is here, at the door!” Avery looked sick. “Calm down, we will manage. Get dressed… I’ll tell Jimmy to distract him so we have time to go down and grab him a coffee and us something to eat. Hurry…!” I pulled my shirt and pants on, put a beanie on my head and grabbed my phone, while Ave was already running out the door.

“Jimmy? Where are you?” I nearly yelled into the phone. “Breakfast, why?” He replied annoyed.
“Larry is coming downstairs. Warn Maya and Matt and distract him. He is thinking Ave is already down for breakfast. Set some plates up… shit do something!” I hung up and knew Jimmy would manage, at least… something.

I made my way downstairs and ran after Ave. I planned to walk around the buffet area and saw Jimmy still talking to Larry in the hallway of the lobby, good job Jimbo.
I walked unseen past them and grabbed two plates, and coffee cups and set them on the table where a complete chaos was, must be Jimmy’s mess.

Ave came with another coffee taking not the seat next to me but opposite and I wanted to tell her to change so she would be sittting next to me but knew, we couldn’t give him any wrong ideas, not when we still didn’t know what this meeting was about.

Avery put the coffee next to her seat when Larry and Jimmy came walking towards us. Ave stood up and greeted her Dad, signing to the coffee “Hey Daddy. I didn’t know you would be this early. Jimmy, Brian and I were just starting our breakfast.”
“Where is Maya? She also didn’t open up when I knocked on your door.” Larry asked and narrowed his eyes.

“You know Maya’s deep sleep right? She didn’t even realize that I got up… But she must be down in a bit or should I get her and the others?” Avery asked and her Dad smiled “Yes, why don’t we all have breakfast together, afterwards I wanted to have the meeting I told you about Brian.” Larry turned to me and I nodded.

“Sure, sure.” I replied and Ave got up, kissing her Dad’s cheek. “I’ll get them real quick.”
She went away and Larry sat with us at the table “Some schedules changes or something?” I asked getting a bite of the croissant I had quickly thrown onto my plate.

“Not really, but we will talk about that again later, now let’s have breakfast.” Larry got up and took a plate. I looked at Jimmy and waited before Larry was out of hearing range “FUCK! That was close!”
“He doesn’t know… I don’t think he knows…” Jimmy shook his head but I wasn’t too sure anymore.
He was looking at us with something in his eyes that tells me he at least was suspecting something, or was I now imagining things?

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Johnny, Zack, Ave, Matt and Maya approach. They were also walking in a good distance and they weren’t looking too happy. Were they also interrupted by Larry this morning or was it something else?

Larry came back to our table hugging Maya to his side and smiling “Ahh my girls… glad to see you again even though I am a bit surprised you are not on vacation in the Bahamas.” Larry said and Maya gave him a smile “You know, we couldn’t let a chance of TRL slip through our fingers… I mean Ave and I planned to go there for sooo long… and they needed our help so we couldn’t really let them down, or you, right?”

And I felt all of us sigh in relief that Maya was such a good liar even though I could see Matt grab the table hard, was he that nervous?

The breakfast was now in full throttle and at some times I let my eyes move back to Avery and she was sipping on her coffee and her eyes landed everywhere but on me, was she afraid that she would give us away? Damn because I felt like on a high, just knowing she agreed to be mine… after all… and later on, when all this was over... I planned to make her mine and make her scream, so everyone around us would know it, too.

Notes

Comments lovely readers!

So Matt and Maya still have some trouble, while Ave and Brian could solve them ;)
What does Larry really want?! Why is he there!!

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