Denial

When Johnny woke up he was lost for a minute. He wasn’t in his own room, he wasn’t alone in the bed and for a second he was totally confused. But as soon as he opened his eyes, he knew that he was right where he needed to be. Nessa was still sleeping soundly next to him and he couldn’t keep his eyes off her. He turned to his side and just admired her beauty.

Last night had been amazing, no, it had been more than amazing. There wasn’t even a word for what he had experienced last night, what they experienced. He never thought he would have something like this ever again. But it happened. Oh boy did it happen. If he wasn´t sure Izzie would be completely annoying about it, he would thank her. Because he was thankful, this must be the second chance he never thought he would get.

In the back of his head he heard the voices telling him that it was only sex though. That she only let him in because he was there. Those annoying voices, telling him she hadn’t promised him anything, that she never said anything about a future together. But the thing with those voices was…. He could totally shut them out if he wanted to. He knew what he felt when he made love to her. This was already so far beyond sex that he didn’t even know what it was other than that it had to be making love. The voices couldn´t be right, his heart knew exactly what this all was.

He sighed as he saw a small smile pull over Nessa´s face. He didn´t know how he got to this place this fast, but of one thing he was sure. He liked it here and if he was honest, he didn´t want to leave anymore. The only thing he couldn´t deny was the guilt. He shouldn’t have lied to her last night, he should have told the wives to just shove their plan somewhere dark, because he was so so so regretting the whole charade he made up in and about his house.

Johnny didn´t want to leave the bed, but he wanted to make some breakfast for when Nessa woke up. Maybe coming clean over breakfast would make Nessa more willing to forgive him.

He searched the cabinets and found everything he needed to put something nice on the table. Normally he wasn´t one to cook, but he couldn´t risk her waking up when he went out to get something to eat.

Just as he put the coffee in the cups, Nessa walked into the room. She looked all rosy from her sleep, still not fully awake, looking at him a little dazed. Johnny stood still in his spot, keeping the space that she was keeping between them. “Goodmorning” she let out quietly as she looked at him through the hair that had fallen in front of her face. “Goodmorning” he replied just as shyly. He didn’t know what to do, why was everything so damn awkward all of a sudden?
“You made me breakfast?” Nessa slowly inched her way over to Johnny. He was able to produce a half smile when he nodded. She was almost touching him now, and she glanced over the table once again. “You are very cute” she smiled back carefully.

Johnny’s heart stopped when he felt her soft hand touch his cheek, then moving to his neck. His heart restarted as his breath hitched when she let her other hand join. She was so close, he could feel the phantom of her lips already on his, her breath hot on his face, her smell almost intoxicating. “You are very cute too” he could barely let out as he stared at the perfect creature standing so close to him.

“Shut up” she chuckled as she closed the last inch to crash down on his lips. Johnny wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her closer to him. It still didn’t seem to be enough and he clawed her bathrobe to try and have her even closer. Their mouths moved perfectly in sync, having her breath as the only air he could breathe was more than enough. He wanted to stay like this forever, and he would’ve. If it hadn’t been for his heavy heart.

“Nessa…” out of breath he finally pushed out her name. He carefully set her down on the chair and sat down next to her “let’s eat”. Everytime they send each other a look they were smiling at each other goofily, not saying a word. When all the food was gone and they were on their third cup of coffee, Johnny got a hold of Nessa’s hand.

“We need to talk” the look on Nessa’s face in response to those 4 little words coming out of Johnny’s mouth broke his heart. He never wanted to hurt her, but he already knew she was not going to take this well.

Nessa didn’t say anything, but she did feel her heart sink to her toes. Last night had been just as special to her, he was there and she couldn’t help herself. The night had proven to her that there was a reason she felt so drawn to him, he knew the same pain she had. Johnny was so attentive to her, catering to her every need before she even knew that was what she wanted. The sex had been nothing short of amazing, but that was not the most special part. She felt the connection they had, there was no denying anymore. It didn’t matter how hard she was telling herself the feeling wasn’t there, it came right back to her face. She liked Johnny a lot. That was why her heart broke when he spoke the words, nothing good ever came out of those words.

“I really like you Nessa, I have been since the first moment you came into the venue and I pretended to set something on my bass that was already set. And then we had those amazing days, us eating together, and then the furniture shopping. And let’s not forget the kissing, never forget the kissing, the kisses were amazing. ARE amazing.” He held on to her hand even more tightly, squeezing it even more. He bowed his head, not looking at her anymore, his gaze glued to their locked hands.

“Then you started pushing me away, and I couldn’t believe you could deny us like that. So I went to ask for advice” a deep blush came over his cheeks. She wanted to tell him that everything scared her to death and that he was so right in everything he said, but something told her this wasn’t all of it and she wasn’t sure if she still wanted him to know her feelings when he finished his story.

“The plan… the plan was..” he paused and seemed to need to regain himself before he finally continued “The plan was that I would paint my house. That I would hang out with you and you feel pity at me and invite me to stay over and then you wouldn’t be able to deny us anymore” His words flew out as the sentence got further and further.

“You aren’t painting your house?” Nessa let out quietly, not able to process what Johnny just said. “I am painting my house, but..”
“It was all a setup to get into my bed?” She let out in disbelieve, the words sinking in now, the feeling of hurt coming over her in a greatness she had barely experienced before.
“No! It’s not like that! I just wanted to spend time with you! I just wanted you to realize that we have something good together. I just..”

“Get out of my house” her voice was soft, but clear.

“But Nessa… Let me explain” Johnny tried, but Nessa just shook her head. She could have lived with him pushing her to spend time together, but the fact that he lied was too much. She had enough of that in her life. And he didn’t only lie. He also made up this whole plan of lies and deceit just to … just to what… put another notch on his bed? To add her to his list? Was everything she felt last night a lie too? How could she had been so foolish?

“Go away Johnny”

Johnny watched her walk for the stairs, not able to move at all. Only when he heard the door close upstairs, he was able to drag himself up, walking for the door, sending one more look up the stairs, debating if he should go after her. But he decided against it, it was too late. He blew it.

Completely unaware of what was going on at the other side of town, Matt woke up to the sound of Izzie mumbling in her sleep. He couldn’t suppress the smile. She always did that when she had a busy day and with all the plan making she had been doing for Johnny yesterday, it was no surprise he heard her say “Johnny, just go with the plan” a few times. He chuckled when he turned to her and pushed his nose in her hair. There was no smell better than Izzie’s, he thought, as he inhaled deeply one more time.

Izzie stirred in her sleep and Matt put his arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him. He put a kiss on her bare shoulder and then put her hair aside to softly kiss her neck.
“Goodmorning handsome” Izzie let out groggy as she turned on her back to look back at her husband.
“Goodmorning sweetie” Matt bend over and kissed Izzie’s lips “were you dreaming about Johnny again?” Izzie raised her brows in question
“I’m thinking about kicking Johnny’s ass, seeing how many times you call his name during your sleep… ‘Oh Johnny, yes Johnny, please Johnny’” Matt let out in a high pinched voice as he tried to imitate Izzie’s voice.
Izzie pounced on Matt “I didn’t do that!”

Matt let out a groan as Izzie landed on him a little too hard “You know I adore you, but if you ever want to have kids with me, you need to be careful, sweetheart” Izzie suddenly stopped her assault, and stared at him, her mouth a little agape.
“Why are you starting about kids now? I thought….” Izzie was stopped midsentence as Matt kissed her hard.
“I know what I said, but I don’t know… I can’t wait to see you pregnant, I can’t wait to see mini usses walking around here, don’t you?” Matt blushed as he looked at Izzie with expecting eyes.

When Matt and Izzie got married they decided they wanted to be with the two of them for a while, get settled in their marriage, solidify their relationship even more. After a few years Matt’s career really took a flight and Izzie landed one big assignment after the other, and again… kids were moved to the back of their lives. It came as a surprise to both of them that Matt started the conversation again.

“Izzie?” Matt’s eyes were full of fear now, as Izzie had taken too long to answer him.
“Yes! Of course I still want kids with you, I just never thought….” Again the sentence couldn’t be finished as the couple engaged in a sensual kiss.

“Wanna start practicing?” Matt panted with a smirk on his face. Izzie got a facewide grin and wanted to get out of Matt’s grip “I should throw out my birthcontrol”
“Not now, Iz” Matt whispered as he stared into her eyes, locking his arms around her even closer.

They got caught up in their stare, while Matt moved his fingers down her spine, pushing down the only piece of clothing Izzie was wearing… her panties. He turned them around, and broke the stare by kissing his wife softly, and again, and again, until he deepened the kiss, letting his tongue roam her mouth, exploring everything that was so known to him, but yet so new every time. Every little thing about Izzie was worth rediscovering every single time he got the chance.

Matt kissed his way down, giving his full attention to the hard nubs that were gracing Izzie’s breasts and got a satisfied smile on his face as he heard Izzie’s moan. Sometimes he was baffled by how amazed he still was by everything that was his wife, how in love he still was with her.

He found her lips again, as he placed his cock in front of her entrance.
“Are we really doing this?” Izzie whispered to Matt’s lips
“Oh yes we are” he grinned as he pushed himself in slowly, catching Izzie’s gasp in his open mouth.

Matt’s hips started moving in a slow, but steady rhythm as he was making love to her. They only stopped the kissing to stare into each other’s eyes. Both feeling the importance of their decision, both of them realizing that their lives would change drastically if they would be blessed enough to get pregnant, get a kid of their own. Matt´s hips were moving on their own accord, encouraged by Izzie´s hips, meeting his every thrust.

They slowly made love, kissing each other, making sure they found each other´s eyes when they weren´t closing them in ecstasy. Their lovemaking was definitely coming to a highpoint. They could both feel the end nearing as the passion built between them.
“Matt” Izzie let out on a breath. She could feel the tingle coming over her body, her womb starting to contract, that all so familiar feeling of her orgasm coming over her “I love you so much”
Matt wasn’t able to return the sentiment, seeing only a groan was escaping his lips as he hips pushed forward, looking for even more connection as he came too with everything he had. He held Izzie close as he waited to come down from the orgasm of his own.

“I just can’t get over how much I still love you” he whispered as he laid down next to her, his body not leaving an inch between Izzie’s. “I don’t ever want that to change, even if I will have to leave my number one spot to the kids”.
Izzie smiled as she settled into the little nape of Matt’s body that was especially made for her “There is enough love around for all of us”. They laid there, enjoying each other’s company, knowing that they both didn’t need to be anywhere else but here. The silence didn’t last long though.

“I keep thinking about Johnny. How do you think things went last night? Do you think the plan worked?”
“Iz..” Matt’s voice had warning in it. “You know I love you, but don’t you think it’s time to butt out now? You saw how it ended the last time. Your friend had a panic attack and I’m pretty sure Johnny would have tried to kill you if I would have left you alone for half a day and he could’ve executed his plan.” Izzie frowned at him “oh yes, I’m pretty sure he made a plan to kill you after everything that happened at the concert” Matt continued “So please baby, I know you mean well, but just leave this up to Johnny and Nessa, if they work out, it’s nice and if they don’t, it’s just not meant to be”. Izzie shrugged and made a mental note to call Nessa later.

But Izzie didn’t have to wait that long, even though it was not the answer she had hoped for. Both her and Matt’s phone buzzed, and Matt reached for the nightstand to grab his phone.
“Uh oh”
“What?!”
Matt turned his phone towards her to show her the text that Johnny send

I screwed up. This has been a bad plan from the beginning. I’m never ever doing this again.

Notes

Hi guys,

I'm so sorry for letting you all wait for this for a year (not that I believe you are still waiting for this story, maybe you even ended the subscription... I wouldn't blame ya) but I hope you guys still find interest in it.
Because of all the writing I have to do for work I have a bit of a rough time concentrating on my stories on here, but I definitely plan on finishing this... don't know how long it will take though.

If you are still reading, leave me a comment, so I can tell you how grateful I am... And I really want to know what you think about this chapter....

Old readers that stuck... Thank you so much. New readers... welcome! :)

Ps... Couldn't not let Matt and Izzie have their sweet, smutty moment too, seeing all the other couples in this story already had... Let's just say seeing all the videos of Matt performing got me inspired again.