Hush, be careful of what you say

Brian POV

We are done from the auditions, and to tell you the truth I never thought I was going to feel like this. The band together with the manager have come to conclusion that Arin should be the “chosen one”. And honestly, he is good and was the best from all the guys that we have seen yesterday during the auditions. But I feel choked up. I feel truly angry. Why the hell am I feeling like this?!
Is it something about Jimmy? About the fact that we are going to have a new drummer? About the fact that now, when we play live and I go to look backwards, I’m going to see Arin instead of my childhood best friend?

Oh fuck me. Too many thoughts this early in the morning, this is not good for me. And to make things worse, Matt had sent me a text during the night telling me we are going to have a party at his place, welcoming Arin into the band.
Well, if you ask me what are my thoughts on this, I’d say FUCK THAT and I don’t want to go the party. But I can’t. Zacky is already on my ass, making sure that I am fine after Jimmy’s death. And yesterday evening he had this kind of attitude again: asking me how I was feeling and shit. But let’s face it, I don’t like talking about my feelings. That’s it. Quite simple! I’d rather pick a pretty lady and fuck her senselessly to forget my problems and my sorrows than sitting down talking about how I am feeling.

And that is what I did last night.

After the auditions, I went for a smoke and found myself in front of this massive club. I thought I’d check it out and after a couple of minutes I found my company for the night. A blonde, beautiful girl, looking like a model. I know how to seduce women and make them fall for my tricks, I have a specialty in doing so. First, I’d offer them a drink by whispering in their ears as well as complementing them on how they look. Then, I stand near, my eyes locked on them until eventually we start talking again. Saying the right words, and touching in the right places, I always manage to find a way to get in their panties.

I drink some water as I look at the naked woman still sleeping in my bed. I don’t remember her name or what we did last night. But I know how to wake her up, make her feel good and get her the hell out of here.

I put one of my hands in her hair, gently stroking some streaks off of her face. Gently, I start stroking her inner thigh with my other hand, always getting closer to my target. She starts smiling and softly moaning, her eyes still closed. I start to nibble her ear lobe as gently I caress her clit with my middle finger. She grants me access immediately, as she open her thighs wider, making it easier for me to start doing my magic with my own finger. Within few minutes I hear her breathing quickening, so I insert two fingers into her entrance and start fucking her with them until I throw her over the edge.
“GODDAMN SO GOOD BRIAN! AHHHH”, she screams at the top of her lungs. Wow, she still remembers my name and she is a screamer. I totally forgot about that from last night.

“Wow. That is one way to wake up in the morning, perfect!”, she says as she turns to face me, opening her eyes revealing her deep brown eyes, quite similar to mine.
“I’m glad you liked that. But someone else is in need as well right now”, I wink at her as she glances to see my hard rod, fully erected.
“I know how to handle that babe. Sit tight” seductively she tells me.
I lay on my back and let her have total control, at least for now. Immediately she wraps her mouth around my cock, bobbing her head up and down, up and down, at a steady pace. I have to say, she is good with her mouth. I put my hands in her hair, slowly making her go down further until she started to gag.
At that instant I shove her off of me and make her stand on her fours. I go behind her and I enter her in one go, making her gasp. Well, that should have surprised her even more!
Tightly I grab her hips and I start fucking her without giving a goddamn care to the world. She starts screaming with enjoyment within seconds. As I feel myself getting closer, I make her bend down further onto the bed.
“Ahhh so tight now!” I hiss under my breath. She clenches onto the sheets, still moaning my name.
I decide to spice things up so I slap her hard on her ass. At that instant her orgasm hits her as she gets back up onto her hands. With one hand I hold tight to her hips and with the other I start touching her back, going across the sweat trail that has formed.
“AHHH FUCK! SHITTT!!!” I yell as my orgasm hits me, as well as another one hits the woman.

Both of us collapse on the bed, satisfied from what just hit us. Now I am satisfied. And so is she!
“Brian, that was….wow. I mean…wow! That was something else!” she says, totally out of breath. Well, I get that a lot lady, nothing new there.
“What time is it?” she asks, as I get out of bed and look at the clock.
“Ten” I say in short.
“Shit! I have to go! My boss is going to kill me!” she says as she hurriedly gets out of bed and gets dressed. Calmly I sit down on my bed, waiting for her to get dressed and go out.
“Will we meet another time? I truly enjoyed your company?” she asks me as she flutters her eye lids.
“I enjoyed your company as well honey. The thing is that, right now, I’m not looking for commitment or anything. I hope you understand”.
She looks sad, but honestly, I don’t care. She quickly nods and after some goodbyes and light kisses she was out.

I am still laying in my bed, looking at some photos that I have in my own room. I have a lot with the guys and then I have some with him. The person whom I miss the most. I sigh as I start to think about some of our great stories: from going around the streets knocking down trash cans, to actually being the one waiting for him when he got out of rehab and did one last line of cocaine. I miss him, deeply.
And now, he is going to get replaced by some skinny kid. He has no muscles, just bones, and is younger than us. I am not ready for the change, I never thought that this will get to happen to us. But now it did. And I know that if we need to continue as a band, we need a drummer. He was the best from all the drummers that came to auditions, but I don’t know if he fits into our band and our lifestyles.

My phone starts ringing, bringing me back to my senses. It’s Matt.
“Yeah?”
“Well good morning to you to Gates. Had a good night?” he asks. Well someone is in a fucking good mood this morning.
“You have no idea, and neither do I. But I sure had a good morning” I sigh as I rest back.
“You’re the man! Listen I wanted to tell you something”
“Let me guess, it’s about tonight’s get-together and the new guy” I say immediately.
“Exactly. It’s like you read my mind. Listen, I know it must be tough for you, but remember that it isn’t easy for us either!”
“It didn’t seem like that yesterday Matt, if you ask me”
“Brian don’t be like that. We all miss him, but if we need to continue we need a new drummer and Arin is the one. He has potential and energy. He is good!” he reasons out to me.
“I don’t know…” I say, not sounding too sure.
“Oh come on. You’re going to say that about every other drummer that tries for our band, because none of them is Jimmy! Admit it Gates!” he says.
I sigh and wait for a bit, “Yeah you’re right!”
“Just give Arin a chance. Let’s have some fun tonight, get to know him better. And Brian, don’t give him a hard time! I know you have a habit of being protective and shit, just don’t take it too extreme. Understood?” he says in a serious tone.
“Yes dad, I understand and I will obey you!”
“Dickhead! I need to go to buy some booze. See you later dude” he says before he eventually hangs up.

Let’s see what the night is going to bring.

Notes

So, what do you think about Brian's attitude? Will he give Arin a chance or is he going to remain hard-headed?

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