Hush, be careful of what you say

Brian POV

They better have a good goddamn reason for calling me, and for telling me to go to Zacky’s house. Right now, I’d rather stay at Brenda’s place than going to Zacky’s. Don’t get me wrong, I never get bored spending time with the guys. But I just had the best night of my life, I had sex with Brenda, twice! And to top it all off, she is actually a fan of the band and of me! I have to say, I never saw that coming!
And I want some good explanation from her. As she was about to start saying something, my phone went off and it was Arin, telling me to go to Zacky’s immediately. Whatever it is, I hope it doesn’t take long.

Within minutes I arrive at Zacky’s house. I knock on the door and open it: that is my cue of arrival.
“Zacky, it’s me”, I say, just in case. I start walking towards the living room and the kitchen when all of a sudden I feel myself being pulled by the side.
“What the fuck?” I say, surprised to look at Matt. “What are you doing? And what the hell happened to you?!” I ask him. Damn, he looks like shit. It can’t be just from the drinking, he’s everyone’s drinking buddy. But today, today he looks different. He’s pale, sweaty and has red circles under his eyes.
“I fucked up! Badly!” he pants.
“I bet your stomach is churning after last night” I chuckle.
“Besides that. I fucked up Brian!” he whispers as he turns around.
“Brian?! Come into the kitchen!” Zacky yells from afar.
“What did you do Matt?” I tell him. Now I’m a bit concerned cos he truly doesn’t look good and he seems to be worried.
“Yesterday night, in the car, I….” Matt starts but is soon interrupted by Arin.
“There you are. Come over here, we need to talk Brian” Arin tells me as he comes next to me and shoves me inside.

“Can you stop shoving me, both of you?! Christ!” I say as I get away from Arin’s grip and adjust my shirt.
“You seem like you had a good night last night”, Zacky tells me with a smirk on his face.
“Oh yeah I did. I had different plans for today and your call ruined everything. So you better have a good excuse or else I won’t talk to you for years!”
“Wow. You’re so lame!” Zacky continues as he drinks some water.
“Let’s cut the chase, shall we?!” Arin starts, looking dead serious. I have a bad feeling about this.
“Did you know about the female trying to spike my drink?” he asks me, all of a sudden.
At that instance I look towards Matt. “You fucking told him?! Couldn’t keep it to yourself?!”
“If you remember I was drunk. You know what happens when I’m drunk, I don’t have control of what I would be saying!” he says in protest.
“Oh good, another one who didn’t want to tell me!” Arin yells.
“You should have told us guys!” Zacky says, agreeing with Arin.
“We didn’t want to ruin your night! You looked like you were having so much fun at the bar, after all the shit with the hacker. We didn’t want to ruin your night!” I try to explain.
“And to be fair, it was his idea not to tell you, not mine!” Matt blur out.
“Thank for your support dude!” I tell him, pissed off.

“What do you expect?! That I get the full blame?!”
“No, but still you fucking agreed not to tell him. You agreed that you’d tell him if there is something suspicious. And as far as I know, there wasn’t any suspicious female body after you left from the bar or in the car!” I say angrily.
“Didn’t you fucking hear me?! I told you I was drunk!” he yells as he stand up from the chair and comes towards me.
“I was drunk, I take the blame for that. But you were the one who told me not to say anything, I told you that we should!
“Well, it’s useless to argue about that now, since it went to the opposite direction!” I shoot back.
“Fucking hell Brian! You make me so mad, and I already have a splitting headache and a horrible stomach ache!”

“Can you both quit it?! You’re acting like kids, for Christ’s sake!” Zacky says, trying to get involved.
“Both of you made a mistake to decide not to tell me. My life was in danger, I should know about that! I don’t care if the night would have got ruined, but at least I would have known what is going on!” Arin explains himself.
I do get his message, and I understand. It’s just, truthfully, I didn’t want him to worry about this as well.
“If you think that if this would happen another time I would make a different decision, you’re half wrong. I would decide not to say anything to blabber mouth over here, and not to tell you” I risk to say, and I did. And the looks on the faces in front of me are not pleasant to look at right now.
“Unbelievable!” Arin says. “What if this happened the other way round, you wouldn’t want us to tell you about it?”
“Nope. I would want you to let me enjoy my night. I trust you enough that you’d be on the look-out for me, and that you’d tell me if the situation got worse!”
“So you’re saying that I don’t trust you, since we’re not on the same page?” Arin says with a dead look on his face.
“I did not say that!”
“It seems like you did! You said that you wouldn’t want to know cos you trust us. I am telling you I wanted to get to know about this. That means that according to you I don’t trust you!”

“I don’t know how you feel! Maybe it’s true, you don’t trust us enough as you’re still new to the band!” I burst. This is ridiculous.
“And I’m always going to be the newbie of the band! I’m out of here, I need to re-think everything! I’ll text you later Zack!”
And with that, Arin was out of the room and soon after out of the house.
“What the fuck just happened?” I say, still astonished with everything that just went down in this room.
“Not cool bro, not cool!” Zacky says, as Matt sighs and rests over the table.

I sure was hoping for a different kind of morning.
I wish I hadn’t agreed to pick up my phone.


Arin POV

I can’t believe this right now. It’s not just that both Brian and Matt didn’t tell me about this female, or the actual threat, but that they still aren’t seeing my point of view. They can’t understand how I’m feeling right now! Especially Brian, god he made me so mad right now! Accusing me of not trusting them… Of course I do! If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have agreed to be part of the band!

I need to settle this rage that I have right now! So after leaving Zacky’s house, I had to come to my own home. I go upstairs, change into working out attire and head back downstairs. I have a small room with some gym equipment, but right now, all I need is the freaking punching bag.
I find some good music and put it on full volume on the speakers and I start putting on the boxing gloves. I don’t usually box, but whenever I’m agree, boxing and kickboxing helps me to feel better.
A lot better.

I start punching the punching bag hard: a right swing, than a left swing. One after the other, with the beat of the loud music.
As I am punching the bag, I couldn’t help but think about all the shit that has been going on in my life: being away from Niall, Niall telling me that she loves me, a hacker posting bad stuff about me, some of the fans already hate me, and a person trying to spike my drink, which is probably the hacker.
What the hell did I do wrong?! What the fuck did I do to deserve all this negativity in my life?!
I didn’t think that my life was going to be like this. I was expecting to be accepted in a band, having the fans adore me, having a good friendship with Niall with no complications and finding myself a lovely girl from here.
As I’m thinking about all this I keep hitting and punching hard the punching bag, with both hands and legs. I need to get it out of my system.

I am drenched in my own sweat, when I look at the clock. Damn, I have been in here for an hour! No wonder I feel exhausted right now, and feeling like I have just got out from a swimming pool.
I turn the volume down, and go to the bathroom to clean myself.
As I am in the shower, I continue thinking about all of this stuff. I don’t think I should deal with all of this bullshit. I remember that once, the hacker had written on the van that if I quit the band, she’d leave me alone.
I thought I was strong enough to ignore her, to ignore her messages and continue living my own life. But lately this has been different. I don’t feel strong, I feel rather weak.

Maybe she was telling the truth, maybe if I quit the band she’d stop harassing me and bothering me.
Maybe I should do that. Maybe I should quit the band and get back to my old lifestyle.

Notes

Another chapter added! Hope you'' like it! Comments please :D <3

So....the guys had just fought :/ Damn it! Do you agree with how Arin reacted towards them?! What about the ending....will he quit the band for some time..should he do that?! If he does, will the hacker quit bothering him?!