Sam’s POV

Tears were streaming down my face, they wouldn’t stop… even if I tried to will them to, they just wouldn’t stop.
It had been the hardest thing in my life to turn my back on Brian and to tell him those few words that I could choke out.

I even had to turn my back on him or I wouldn’t have been able to say anything. I wanted to throw myself into his arms tell him just how much I loved him, that all his words meant the world to me and that all I wanted was him to stay with me, but that wasn’t an option.

To give him back his freedom I had to let him go, as sad as it was, I would rather have him mad and not loving me anymore, even forgetting about me, than banning him back into that book.

I made a bold move when I walked away from him. I wasn’t even sure if it would work out, but after I spoke those final words to him, I knew I couldn’t stay any longer, he would demand answers, more answer that I didn’t have.
He would want me to explain, explain feelings that I wouldn’t be feeling, so I walked away, first only a couple of steps trying to see if I could walk away, the more steps I made the surer I was that it was over, that the bond was broken.

And then finally the last information that sealed the deal was the woman in my head telling me “You did the right thing, Sam. But I never thought you could succeed and do it, congratulations… Brian is free.”

I had run to the hotel room I had gathered all my things, took my car and drove, I didn’t even know where I was going I just drove on… until I couldn’t see anymore cause the tears still wouldn’t stop.

I rented a room in a small hotel on the road, I would stay the night and early in the morning I would finish my trip back. I thought of calling Selena, but I refused to, it was her choice to stay or go and I didn’t want to tell her everything over the phone, she would hear it soon enough from Brian…

Would she also abandon me? After hearing what I did to Brian? Would she know that it wasn’t me talking? Would she call me, talk to me about it?
What if Brian would call me? Would he want to talk to me ever again? Would he forget about me?
Could I talk to him after all this?
I bet he wouldn’t want to see me ever again, and I couldn’t blame him, not after he bared his soul to me, presented his heart on a silver tablet and I had just stomped on it with my feet.

I finally lay in my bed, alone… in the darkness of this hotel room. Everything was silent, I hated this silence.
I hated to be alone, I felt like I had no one at all… how would Brian feel? Would he be angry? Sad?
Celebrate that he was free? Call his friends? Did he even care that I was gone?

My minds was playing tricks on me yet again and all I wanted was to go right back… or scream at the ceiling why… why me? Why him? Why couldn’t we be together? What have I done wrong to deserve this.. but in the end it wouldn’t change anything.

I cuddled myself deeper into the blanket and tried to close my eyes, would everything be better tomorrow?
Could I even sleep tonight… I wished I could, forget about it… When I had thrown Brian one final glance I had seen the disappointment the sadness and the broken heart… I felt awful and I couldn’t change it… I had no way to make this up to him, or even see him again.

Brian’s POV
I sat in our- no my hotel room, it was close to midnight, I haven’t moved from this position since I was sure Sam had left.
I still had no idea how she could leave me… even though I had a suspicion. She could go and leave me which meant - the curse must be broken, right?

Could someone confirm this? But who? The woman I used to talk to in my dreams only showed up when she wanted to, not when I wanted…
I felt dead tired, but was afraid to go to sleep, afraid of having dreams of Sam and me, of what we had and what I would never have again.

My heart squeezed painfully in my chest and it was hard to breathe, panic was rising inside of me at the thought.
Should I call her? But I didn’t even have her number, would that change anything?
She said it meant nothing to her, why would she pick up when I called?

I let myself fall down on the bed, my eyelids so heavy that I couldn’t keep them open much longer, still I fought against it with all my might, and then when I was sure I couldn’t win, what did I see?

Sam

She was beautiful, as beautiful as ever, then she turned around and walked away, just like a couple of hours ago, she was gone… blackness greeted me and I knew, this wasn’t just a normal dream.

“Aren’t you happy, Brian?” I heard the voice from before, the woman I saw before, the one responsible for all this… and yet for nothing I guess.
“Why should I be happy?” I asked not really feeling like talking to her, but still wanting information.
“You are free. That’s what you wanted and you succeed. It was easier than you thought, huh?” She chuckled and I balled my hands to fists, anger rising in me again.

“Why would you think that?” I gritted my teeth.
“She didn’t even have to say those words, and you know why?” She asked and I shook my head, what was easy about her not saying it back, letting me confess my love, bare everything to her and then being ripped off it all again.
“You know what, Brian? You might have noticed that Sam had left or rather that she could leave, which means that you are not longer banned to the book. My spell is broken, I never thought this is possible but it is… and you know why? Not only your love for Sam broke it, but before the unconditional love from your friends and your love for music broke my spell. You might not have realized it, but I did… you were not supposed to remember those facts and you came close and closer to the ultimate goal until you succeed even before you told those magical words to Sam.” She said and I could only stare in the darkness, what does she mean? That I didn’t even have to talk to her, I didn’t have to pressure her with my speak? And now everything is ruined… and there was no turning back?!

“Did you think about your friends, since the moment Sam left? Try it now… do you remember?” She asked and I frowned, imagining my best friends before me and as if some bubble finally broke all the information, all the memories, just everything came crashing down on me, nearly drowning me with the intensity.

“I-I can remember” That’s all I could get out, and I knew myself, my favorite food, my name, my family, my dog… Everything was back in place… but one thing remained… I knew I never have loved anyone like I did Sam, and she was gone, and wouldn’t come back.

“You learned your lesson, Brian… You loved and lost, now you know how hundredth of women have felt… how they feel… how you made them feel…” She said and I couldn’t really register her words, what did she mean!?

My brain was trying to process everything but had a hard time, it was still overloaded with all the memories that kept surfacing… and they played in my mind like a show, concerts, fans, party’s and then the end was coming and my heart broke again… seeing the same moment again and again, Sam leaving me.

I woke up and knew everything, just like in the dream, I was back… I was back to been Brian Haner jr. aka Syn Gates. I was myself again, I knew everything and it felt good. I knew where I left and the first thing I did was call my parents, I knew their number by heart of cause and when my father picked up making a stupid joke like I never have been away a single silent tear was running down my cheek, I was back… finally back home… I mean Brian was back finally back home!

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