Banned in a book

Brian’s POV

I turned towards the voice and a small figure came walking towards me. I wasn’t sure if this was real or if I was actually dreaming?
Didn’t I wake up and go downstairs?
Was I still asleep?

“What did you just say?” I finally said and then I heard a female chuckle.
“I think you heard me pretty good, Brian…” She walked closer to me and I could finally see her.
She was pretty, but I didn’t know if I have seen her before. I mean her face was pretty but nothing out of the ordinary that I knew I would I recognize her again.

“You don’t know me, do you?” She asked and I shook my head “Should I? Because in my state of mind I don’t know anybody, not even my own father or silblings, so this is nothing new.” I said and didn’t know why this came out of my mouth right away, but apparently it had been stuck there for a while and I needed to get it out.

Another chuckle “Right, I sometimes forget that it’s not the old you I am speaking to.”
“You knew me before this? Are you responsible for this? How do I get out of it?” I asked desperately and wanted to take a step towards her but I couldn’t.
Sam was in her bedroom sleeping, and my area was ending right before the door.

“Well, you could say that yes. I already told you the only way to get out of this, but I don’t really know if you deserve it. I mean… love is the key, you know that, right?” She asked and I nodded “That was you in my dream, yes you told me… but how do I get out of this curse… do I have to tell her I love her, does she have to love me? Is it done when we just say it, how does it work?” I asked and she laughed loudly all of a sudden, making me even more annoyed and angry then before.

“Brian, do you really think I would give anything of that away? I banned you to that book, do you really think I will give you a free ticket out of it?” She asked and I wanted to strangle her right now.

“Why? Why the hell did you do that? What did I do to derseve all this?” I asked and she shook her head “You got some memories back do you?” She asked not answering my question and I nodded “Yes, but not enough… I don’t know any of my friends, I don’t know what happened, I just can’t remember!” I nearly yelled and tried to calm my voice down again, knowing Selena was inside and Sam was upstairs sleeping.

“Look… if you you can figure that out, within the week, my dear Brian… and find out how love can be the key to your freedom, you are not going back into the book. But I just came here, to give you something more to consider… I know you are thinking more and more lately about the dream you had. About the fact that you have deeper feelings for Samantha, but I have to warn you if you just tell Sam about this talk or about the dream you had, it won’t be working.
If you plan to just tell her she should say she loves you and you do the same, but you don’t mean it, you will be send right back into that book. It’s not working based on a lie or on a trick… It must be the real thing… and if its not… it will be another journey waiting for you… however long it will take… you need to learn your lesson Brian… and this time for real!”

With that the woman was gone and I stood outside alone, “WAIT!” I looked panicked around, I couldn’t run after her, I didn’t have a chance to find her again, but I had so many questions.

So I couldn’t tell Sam about all this… I had to wait for her to tell me? And what if that won’t happen?
What if she is not in love with me, even though I might be in love with her?

I fell down on my knees burying my face in my hands, how am I supposed to do this? How can I know if she is in love with me? How can I make her love me?

I tried not to let my feelings for her overwhelm me, because I always thought I had to leave her in the end anyway… and now… now I should do the opposite, should let the feeling show, should let her know just how I felt about her, even though I might leave her in the end too?!

“Brian?” I heard a voice behind me and saw Selena in the doorway. “Are you alright?”
“No” I crooked finally, I couldn’t hold it together anymore… I don’t know how often I had this moment before, but never had it been so bad as it was now.

“Oh Brian..” I felt her warm arms around me and she pulled me in a hug, I let her hold me. I didn’t want her to see me like that, but I didn’t have a choice anymore… I just couldn’t hold up the armor… it cracked and it might crumble completely.

Selena’s POV

I heard a male voice outside, I didn’t know what to think about it, I was a little scared to go looking outside but when I neared the door and saw it was only ajar and I realized it was Brian’s voice, I bridged the last distance and saw how he fell to his knees.

He looked devasted and like he gave up, but why? And what was he doing here?
With whom had he been talking?

I pulled him into a hug and he let me hold him, after a while I tried to get up and dragged him along with me…
We sat down on the couch in silence, we didn’t have a light on so I couldn’t see his face, couldn’t look at his features.

“Did you have a fight with Sammy?” I asked softly but didn’t get a reply.
“Brian? Did you?” I asked again and then saw him shake his head.
“What happened? What were you doing outside? I want to help you? Will you let me?” I asked and heard a heavy sigh.

“No one can help me, sweetie. I’m alone… and I might always be.” Brian whispered and I shook my head. I laid my hand on his cheeks and directed his face to me, he was so close now that I could finally make out his features.

I never saw him look so sad, his eyes dull… no playfulness, no fun, no energy left in them.
“What happened? We are here for you, Sam and I… We will do everything to help you, you know that, right?” I told him and he just lifted his lips to give me a quick smile, but it didn’t reach his eyes.

“I know… I really know, but that might not be enough… not enough.” Brian was talking like in trance, maybe he had been sleepwalking?

“With who did you talk outside, Brian? Was there someone? Were you dreaming?” I asked and he shook his head.
“I wished I were…” He said and then his eyes snapped up to me “Selena, did Sam talk to you about me?”
He asked and I frowned what was he talking about now?
“I.. well sure… we do talk about you… but not lately… what’s going on Brian? So you really had a fight?” I asked again and he shook his head.

“No, the opposite… Selena, I think I am in love with her. Like really in love… I don’t think I could handle it if I had to leave her… I don’t think I could handle not seeing her again. I don’t want to leave both of you alone, I love you… both of you, I don’t wanna go… I don’t wanna leave… I am just afraid shitless that it’s not enough, because believe me… I never loved like this before in my entire life, I just don’t know if that’s enough!” Brian yelled nearly and I tried to calm him down.

This was the sweetest and most adoreable thing that I ever heard and he looked so desperate while saying but still full of love that I wished Sam had heard him, did he tell her that? And she didn’t say it back? Was that was upset him so much? Or was it something else?!

I just couldn’t figure out what Brian meant, he seemed completely out of his mind tonight and I didn’t know how to help him…

“Should I talk to Sam? Brian, do you want me to talk to her about it? Did you say this to her? I bet she wished you would tell that to her…” I said but Brian shook his head.
“I cant… I really cant.. she needs to say this… don’t tell her… don’t tell her I said anything.. not yet. Not now!” With that Brian got up and paced before the stairs, I wanted to say something more but he finally got upstairs and vanished from my view…

I really didn’t know what this was all about, but I needed to figure it out!

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