Banned in a book

Sam’s POV

When I woke up I stretched myself and slowly opened my eyes. The sun was shining through my window and the curtains weren’t pulled before them.
Just 10 more minutes… just 10 more…

I opened my eyes wide, when I felt small kisses being placed all over my shoulder and then moving up my throat.
“Wake up, Sammy…” I heard the smooth voice from Brian next to my ear and I realized why I had been so tired when I woke up.
The sex had been fantastic and I must have fallen asleep right after.
“Brian..” I whisper and feel his smile against my naked skin.
“What time is it?” I ask and Brian turned around then back to me his expression unreadable.
“You don’t wanna know.”
“Wait… don’t tell me it’s late… please don’t…” I had planned to work from my home, but I still had work to be done and call’s to make.
“It’s ten.” He said carefully and I sighed, shit!
“That’s not bad… if you need something to be done, you can start now, maybe you can show me something.. I could help you.” Brian said and I smiled, still trying to hide my face in my pillow.
“I don’t think you can..” I murmured and when Brian didn’t reply I finally peeked at him and he looked offended, and not the fake offended but the real one.
“Why would you think that?” Brian snapped when he met my eyes.
“I just meant because you don’t know what I am doing, what my job is about… I didn’t mean you are not capable of doing it.” I tried to clarify but Brian didn’t look happy.
“Alright, let’s just get up and start… it’s important that I get some work done now. Maybe Ethan already tried to call me.” I said and pushed myself out of the bed and walked into the bathroom.

About 1 hour later I sat in my living room laptop open and tried to get as much paperwork done as possible. Brian was flipping through the tv, driving me nuts.
He couldn’t watch just one program, he was flipping through the channels without a break.
“Brian.. Brian… could you please just watch one program, I can’t concentrate like that.” I sighed and he shut of the TV sitting down next to me.
“I think I am not used not to do anything… can’t you just give me something to do. I really wanna help… do something… anything, please?” He looked so helpless that I couldn’t say no to that.

“Alright, let me see…” I looked through my files and picked some out where he just had to call the other department and remind them to send in the missing information, so I could start my calculations.
“Here, contact information and here is the project number, just call and ask when I get the missing information, that’s all… I’m sorry it’s not really an important task, but has to be done as well.. sorry… I wish I could give you something more…” I shrugg but Brian took all the papers and shook his head.
“That’s okay… feeling young again, calling possible labels.” Brian said and frowned.
I guess he was gaining more information “Labels?” I ask with a smile and Brian shook his head as if he was confused and nothing made sense.
“Forget it.. I don’t know where that came from.” Brian took the papers and my phone and walked into the kitchen already starting to call the first person on the list.

Brian’s POV

This morning was strange, I had this dream… when I woke I could recall it, but now it was gone again. But I knew it was important… but what was it about?
I knew this dream and these memories I had last night, were because of the amazing sex Sam and I had before, I was pretty sure every memory that was revealed had something to do with my emotions.
But how am I supposed to remember my life and everything that happens when the memories and dreams vanished again.

Fuck this… I hated these memories that show up and were gone the next moment, my brain felt scrambled.
Nothing made sense and I knew I couldn’t bother Sam with all this, she had her own life, her work, her friends just other obligations she doesn’t need me and my problems added to that.

I called all the people from her list, it was good having something to do, the label thought bothered me… what label did I mean?
What was this about?
God damn… I would go insane if this would go on like that.

I leaned my head forward until my forehead met the desk and closed my eyes, I sighed and didn’t know how the hell I should go on like this, could go on like this.
This never happened before, only since I stayed with Sam… since then… everything changed… but why… why here and now?

Two arms sneaked around my waist and I felt a warm breath on my ear “Thank you” Sam’s voice was quiet but I smiled, that was besides her undressing in front of me yesterday the first move she made towards me and damn it felt good, all the negative emotion were gone, just like a snap with your fingers.

“Will you tell me what’s bothering you? Did I do something? I really didn’t mean to hurt you…” Her voice sounded sad and I shook my head. When she didn’t say anything else I lifted my head up and turned around, surprising her with my sudden move and quickly pulling her onto my lap.
“I was just wondering, why am I having this memories coming back… these small little pieces… that doesn’t make sense to me.. nothing of it.” I finally said even though I didn’t want to overload her with my problems, here I was and did it anyway.

“Maybe they are all pieces to a puzzle you have to solve… have you thought about it like that? Have you ever written them down and tried to find a connection?” Sam asked and I was debating with myself to tell her the truth or not.
“It never happened before… these pieces… just… with you.” There again, I didn’t mean to say shit and here I puked my heart out, excellent Gates.
Gates?

I widened my eyes, Gates… that name… written in the book, that also had something to do with me, I never knew what, but now I thought like it was my name.
“Brian? Are you okay?” Sam asked softly and I shook my head.
“I don’t know.. I don’t think I’m okay…” I closed my eyes for a second and swallowed, why did this woman make me admit to things and say things I didn’t want to, why does she triggers memories from me, memories that rouse hope… and hope that will be crushed at the end of the month!

I felt a cold hand against my cheek, rousing me from my dark thoughts.
“Brian, I can help you. I mean at least I can try. I want to help you, maybe we can figure something out. Wait a second.” Sam got of my lap and I sighed, I liked to have her near me, feel her close to me.

It took her a few minutes to come back but when she did she had a flip-chart with her and I had to chuckle, she really meant it, god this woman was amazing.
“Alright, here tell me all you remember, and here. I give you a small notebook you can lay next to our bed… there you can write down what you remember, if something will appear in your dreams, alright?” Sam said and damn she hit the right route again without even knowing.
I nodded, not really knowing what to say.

“Then let’s start. We know your name is Brian.” She wrote down Brian in the middle of the blank page.
“In the book is written Synyster Gates.” I add and she wrote that underneath the Brian.
“We know you lived near the beach.” She wrote beach to the left.
“I like pancakes?” I asked with a half smile and she laughed at that, making me laugh with her.
“Okay, maybe that’s a detail for later… something else.. you said something about Reverends?”
“Yes… I mean no. Just Reverend, one not many.“ She nodded writing it down.
“And Vengeance.” I added.
“I had a melody in my head, and words… I don’t know if it’s a song or if it has anything to do with me, but just write Scream down, I think I can remember then what it was.” She did as I ordered, so we added every little detail we had found during the last days and looking at it now… it made no sense at all.

“We will add more and more details, just write it in the notepad when we are not at home… We can figure this out, I’m sure.” Sam walked back to me, putting the marker away.
“I hope.” There it was again, the word hope, I hated that word… because I knew it would lead me to nothing.

I opened my arms and Sam walked right into them, sitting back down on my lap while still staring at the page.
“Brian?” She asked and I looked down into her face, her dark eyes, they looked nearly black now.
“Yeah?”
“How often have you been… called?” Sam asked and I didn’t know how to answer that.
“I.. I can’t tell you a number if that’s what you wanna hear.” I said truthfully.
“Often?” She pressed on and I nodded, burying my face in her neck.
“Will you tell me what happened then?” Sam asked and I shook my head, not wanting to talk about it.
“Later?” She asked again and I kept quiet for a while.
“Will you tell me about your ex-husband?” I asked to distract the attention from me and answer her question with one of my own.
This time she shook her head.
“Later?” I pressed on.
“Maybe…”
“Then my answer is maybe as well.” I answered finally.

Notes

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