I Wish I Could be the One

JOHNNYS POV***

I get back to my room slamming the door and locking it releasing a bit of the anger that has building in me. Kat seemed to change over night. She slept with Matt she was out dressing different she was getting into fights. Did I actually know her? Honestly did I? Or was she just being her shielded self around me and Matt released her true self? Did that even make sense? I thought I loved her... And now I don't know. I feel so damn confused and like a prisoner in my own mind. I hear a hard knocking at the door....
I'm sitting on my bed and I don't feel like getting up to open the door to talk to Matt or Brian or Zacky or anyone.
Three more knocks
I continue to sit there waiting for them to leave
They start knocking continuously not stopping wait are they kicking the door now? What the hell.
I get up annoyed and open the door
"What the hell man!?" I say
Before I can't say anything else I'm abruptly shoved back into my room out of the doorway and the door is slammed behind us....


KATS POV***


Before I knew how to process anything fully I seemed to find myself to be staring into the distance. I finally unglued my feet from the ground and I knew I had to ran after Johnny. I hadn't realized how far we had walked away from the bar. And by the time I got there Johnny was nowhere to be seen. I wasn't that far behind him...was I?
I finally get to the bar and all I could see was Zacky with fistfuls of Matt shirt. I couldn't help but smile to myself at how protective of me he was. I loved my brother so much. And I realized even though I was slightly drunk that I didn't even have a real connection with Matt. He was hott and he was fun and we were having sex pretty often even though it hadn't been that long since he took my virginity. I couldn't really keep my hands off him and he couldn't keep his off me. But as I stood there look at Zacky I saw that my relationship with Matt was based off nothing but our lies. He had Val all along...and the truth is I had Johnny. I wasn't being honest with Matt or myself. It was always Johnny
Even when I was with Brian it knew it wasn't right. Not because Brian was a bad guy but he isn't Johnny.
Johnny.
It's always been Johnny and it's seems like everyone fucking knew it but me. I can't let him slip away from me. I cant let him go. I see now that every mean thing he's said to me was out of the hurt I caused him. I've fucked up so bad. But looking at Matt I can't fathom being with him ever again. All I want is Johnny.
I fucking want Johnny. I want all of him. I want his bleached hair his nose piercing his hypnotizing eyes and his tone body. I want him and every thing about him. And all the while he's been offering it on a silver platter and I've basically spit on it and shoved it away. But not anymore. I can't deal with the guilt I have and I can't wait any longer to be with him. It's always been Johnny. Why have I been so blind? I rush up to Zacky and throw my arms around him forcing him to let go of Matt.
"I love you so much Zacky thank you!" I kiss him on the cheek and Brian and Jimmy. I even plant one on Matts cheek just to piss of Val who's in the corner watching like a hawk, but also because he isn't going to have the last laugh. And it wasn't until now that all this shit went down with him that I've realized how much I genuinely and deeply care about Johnny.
I rush out the bar and go straight back to the dorms where I figure he has to be. Why the fuck won't he answer the damn door?! Is he not here!? Maybe he's sleeping...I start kicking on the door and knocking at the same time.
God damn it come on!!! Open up
"What the hell man?!" He says as he opens the door staring at me wide eyed. I don't think he expected me...
Too bad I don't give a shit I shove him in the room and slam the door behind me. He stared at me like I'm insane and I tear off his jacket he gave me earlier and I'm left in my bra and skirt.
"Kat what the fuck are you doing here and what are you doing??" Johnny says
I don't say a word but dig my nails into his shirt and grabbing fistfuls of fabric making my face inches from his.
"I'm apologizing" I say and slam my lips to his kissing him. God I missed his lips on mine. Why isn't he kissing me back?! He pushes me away
"Kat what are you doing? I'm not your fucking rebound. And I'm not a fucking toy for you to play with. Why don't you get that you broke my fucking heart. You literally took it ripped it in half and lit it on fire. Why can't you get that through your head?!" He shouted at me
"BECAUSE I JUST GOT IT JOHNNY"
He looked at me puzzled
"ITS YOU. ITS ALWAYS BEEN YOU. IVE BEEN HARSH IVE BEEN A BITCH AND TOO DAMN FUCKING BLIND TO SEE WHATS IN FRONT OF ME."
"What are you saying." He said confused
"I FUCKING LOVE YOU JONATHAN SEWARD! I LITERALLY FUCKING LOVE YOU AND IM COMPLETELY INFATUATED WITH YOU"
"Why are you doing this Kat? Don't give me false hope, I honestly can't go through this shit again with you. You were just with Matt and you expect me to believe this?!"
"Look, I've realized now that my time with Matt never felt right and I didn't know why. But the truth is, it's because of you. No matter what I did or who I was with, it wasn't you and I don't feel the same way about Matt That I do with you. I need you Johnny. I need you by My side I need you in my life. I just need you. I don't need Matt. I don't need Brian. All I fucking want is you. It's always been you." I say and I feel the tears streaming down my face and neck I can't help but cry at how fucked up me and Johnny have become. And For what? Matt? Not worth it. I wish it never happened I want Johnny completely and he thinks I'm some lying slut. He's looking at me and I can't read him.
"Johnny please baby please say something"
"Kat...." He says unable to look at me I see a tears beginning to build up "you make me want to scream because of how fucking hot and cold you are! Its not fucking fair!" He yells and I see a tear roll down his cheek as e continues to stare away from me
"Baby please please look at me! Give me another chance please I promise baby!!" I beg and I literally find myself on knees tugging at his jeans wrapping my arms around his legs. How did I even get here? I don't even care because I'll do anything to be with him. I love him so damn much and I can't take us not being together. I don't care how long ago I was with Matt. It Meant nothing at this point. Not when I know I've taken Johnny and his love for granted and I didn't want to loose him.
"Kat stop" he says calmly
"NO" I sob
"Kat please get up."
"NO!! Not until you take me back!!"
"This is ridiculous Kat get up" he says a little louder
"Johnny No! I need you! I need you to say it's going to be okay and take me back"
"KAT GET THE FUCK UP NOW!!" He yells
I look up at him and stare in awe at him. He looks so fucking hott. But at the same time I'm a little frightened at this Angle. I slowly get up and he stares into my eyes
"Baby please..." I say to him
Silence
"Baby please!!" I desperately sob putting my hands on his cheeks letting the tears consistently flow
"Kat I don't want you to think you can walk all over me."
"I don't! I promise I know I fucked up everything. It was never anything you did" I pleaded
"Kat I really don't know if this is a good idea"
"Jonathan Seward I literally can not be without you. I won't sleep I won't eat until you forgive me. I want you. I want all of you Johnny. I love you and I want all of you." I say
I see him crack when I say I want you.
I move to his ear and whisper:
"I want you Johnny" And I slowly feel his hands on the small of my bare back.
"Please baby" I whisper.
"Kat I-" he starts but I don't let him finish.
I slam my lips to his again and he tries to push me away but her finally gives in and let's me in. I swirl my tongue with is and I beat myself up for not recognizing my stupidity earlier. This felt so Damn right. I mussel my hands through his hair and feel his hands on my back slowly unhooking my bra. I lift up his shirt to take it off and he lifts me off my feet
"Johnny I want you" I say as I wrap my legs around him and I can feel his jeans tighten.


JOHNNYS POV***


"Let me help you with that baby" she says and I can't help but be excited. It's been a fucking weirdass day. And how I got here I don't know. But I know Kat is being genuine her tears and eyes say it all. But I really want this to work. I can't help but feel a little weird about it. But I know she willing to really give us a shot so I will too again... Am I a dumbass for giving in? Or would I be a dumbass to say no right now? I don't care how much of a push over I look like I love this girl. And right now it sure isn't feeling bad.
"Please baby, I'm want to help" she says as I sit her down on my bed and she pokes at my jeans zipper, fuck I'm already pretty hard staring at her completely exposed tits that are so fucking perfect. I gently slap her hand away. Oh if she wants to make it up to me we are going to have some fun now.
"Sorry babe, you've been naughty, and naughty girls have to wait" damn I put the babe in there, she knows it's on now, and Johnny is coming out to play. She wets her lips and stares at me in awe with her eyes consistently filling up with lust and she backs her self up to my pillow leaning on her elbows.
"Are you going to punish me?" She says seductively.
"Babe you have no idea" I says as I drag her by the ankles and flip her over. I spank her ass and she lets out a squeal. I put my hand up her skirt and start squeezing her cheeks feeling up her perfect ass until I reach the top of her panties and yank them off. I toss them across the room somewhere and pull her up so she's on all fours.
"Baby what are you going to do?" She says excitedly and I can tell she really does "want me" like she says
I throw my jeans and boxers across the floor releasing my throbbing boner and pull her close to me. I grab my dick and guide it up letting it brush over her entrance
"Mmm Johnny" she starts to say
"Oh babe we haven't even gotten started" I tell her as I continue rubbing my dick against her shes already wet and I can't help but get more excited. I place my hands on her hips and pull her closer.
"Ready babe?" I say
"Please fuck me" she says ha I like the sound of that
"What was that?" I say
"Please baby fuck me!!" She says louder
"If you insist babe" I say and I give her no warning but slam into her and she yells with excitement I give her a second to adjust by starting off slow
"Fastterrr Johnny!!" She says and I start speeding up my thrusts slamming into her over and over again. She moans with pleasure and fuck she feels so good as she starts to match my movement with her ass
"Fuck babe you're so tight!! I fucking love it!!" I say shaking with pleasure as I continuously slap her ass
"I'm going to cum pleaseeee don't stop harder!!!!" She manages to get out and I don't stop I speed up and grab a fistful of her hair pulling it as she lets out moans and I can't help but feel it coming
"Fuck fuck fuck Kat!!!" I say as I'm about to cum.
"OH MY FUCKING GOD AH! JOHHN--YY" she says as I feel her tighten around me and she cums and I feel myself explode in her.
"FUCCCK!!!" I yell
I hear her panting out of breath and I pull out of her and collapse on the bed beside her
"Fuck" she says through her heavy breaths

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!" I hear across the room

Oh this can't be happening right now. And then it hits me. Kat slammed the door. But she didn't lock it...and neither did I....

Notes

No Knock? Who do we think it is my friends?!
How do we feel about Johnny's turnaround attitude and giving in to Kat? Is he really that head over heals for her?
Please excuse spelling and grammar in this post. Just wanted to get this chapter up ASAP!
Much Love~