Vanessa's POV*

The bus pulled up in front of our house. It looked so empty and cold there but at the same time very inviting. I couldn't wait to walk through the doors. I picked up Jaymee and got off the bus. Zacky and the guys were grabbing all of our stuff and bringing it towards the door. I rushed to go unlock it so they could put the stuff inside. The moment I opened the door I felt a strong sense of relief. Finally, we're home and I can relax for a while. I walked over to the couch and sighed heavily. It wasn't a bad kind of sigh, just the kind thats relaxing. The guys piled through the door bringing in all the stuff we had. We had so much, of course it doesn't help when everytime we had a moment we were buying stuff that got Jaymee's attention. I laughed quietly and sat there watching the boys. Jaymee was fast asleep in my arms. She definitely has the right idea. I got up and walked into her room to lay her down in her bed. Everything was the same in her room but she was definitely bigger than she was last time she was home. I tucked her in and then went back out into the livingroom. The guys finished bringing the last of the stuff in and then said their goodbyes to Zacky and I.

I don't even remember the last time we were actually alone cause we either shared a room with the boys or Jaymee was awake and wild.

Zacky came and sat down next me and i rested my head on his shoulder.

"Tired babe?" He asked.

"More like exhausted but its been a while since we were home. I just want to ease back into it. Vacation is over now." I laughed. The tour was more work than my actual job was to be honest.

"Well, I'm going to start a bath for you so you can relax. I'll pick you up some Carl's Jr as well and then we'll go to bed. How's that sound?" Zacky asked me.

"This is why I said yes." I giggled. He gave me a kiss and then ventured off into the room.

I got up off the couch and took a look around the house. Making sure everything was where I had left it. Of course at the time of us leaving I was still resting and healing. That thought shooked me and I looked into the kitchen where the incident happened. I will never forget that day for as long as I live. She won't either. But now, its time to refresh and live happily. Speaking of which, I've been starting to plan my dream wedding. I can't wait for plans to go into motion though. I've always pictured this day, and crazy enough I always pictured it with Zack.

"Nessa, it's ready!" Zack yelled from the bedroom.

"Coming." I half ran to the bedroom.

"So the usual from Carl's?" He asked.

"Of course. And hurry back Zacky." I winked at him as I started to take my shirt off. He got the hint quickly and bolted out the door.

He deserved it to be honest. We hadn't really been that intimate since everything happened. We cuddled and "spooned," but that was as far as that goes besides kissing of course. But I've been afraid because the whole losing the baby thing and Im afraid to risk that happening again but I need to get over this fear and remind myself that it genuinely wasn't my fault. Zacky's been a gentleman about it too. I know he has needs and so do I but not once has he begged or really asked for it. Which was good. So he deserves to have a good night.

I sat down in the tub and let the warm water relieve any stress in my back that had built up. The privacy alone was great but this was an amazing feeling. The bubbles surrounded me and my body felt at ease. I hummed some songs that had been stuck in my head and just let the water soak me. The next thing I knew, Zacky had come back home. He came into the bathroom and smiled at me with his adorable smile.

"Wanna soak more or eat?" he asked.

"Can I do both?" I said with a grin.

"If you wanna bathe with your food be my guest." He laughed.

"Okay, I'll get out. You talked me into it." I smiled. "Can you hand me a towel?" I asked.

He grabbed one for me and then I stood up exposing my naked wet body and he just stared at me. I smiled. Well, like I said he definitely deserves it. I walked over to him and gave him a kiss. Then slowly pushed him out to the bedroom. I kissed him passionately. Both of us were fierce with each kiss though. He moved to the bed and sat down. I sat down on top of him.

"Nessa?" He questioned.

"It's been a while Zack. I miss this." I said. That was all he needed to hear. He laid me down and well you know what happens next.

His touch was always perfect. He was always careful not to go too hard or anything. A part of me thought he'd be rough, especially since its been a while. He wasn't rough at all. More like passionate. It wasn't sex. He was making love to me and I have no idea why I let it take this long for it to happen. We're getting married soon, I shouldn't be selfish about it.

After a few hours of Zacky making love to me, I fell asleep. I hadn't even ate yet. But let me assure you, I no longer had any stress in my body. He just held me and I was comfortable. This let me know I was actually home.

Zacky's POV*

I took my time with Nessa. I had waited patiently for a while but now I was finally able to give her what she and I needed. I know she's probably going to be mad but a part of me is trying to get her pregnant again. She was devastated when we lost the baby, of course neither of us even knew she was pregnant. But I know it hurts her. So why not give her that missing piece right?

Once Nessa fell deep into her sleep, I got up and went to check on Jaymee. She was snoring lightly in her bed that was getting too small for her. She's so precious and also growing up too fast. She looks more and more like Nessa each day though. I can't wait to see how she's going to look when she gets older. I gave her a kiss on her forehead and then headed out into the backyard. I sat down in my chair and pulled out a cigarette. Felt good to be home. But now the guys want to write a new album. I just haven't told Nessa that yet. She wants to do wedding planning. Guess its gonna end up coming out sooner or later. I just hope its later. I don't want to put her in more stress right now.

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