Change My Ways

"So you stayed at her place last night?" Matt asks me, as the guys all gather closer, as if we're teenage girls gossiping in the locker room.

"I didn't stay there all night, no. I just fell asleep with her on the couch, while we were watching a movie." I respond.

"Yeah, just like you fell asleep on your couch." Zach winks at me.

"It's not like that."

"What is it like, Brian? Are you going to ask her out, or what? What do you even consider you guys, just friends? You guys talk all the time, you've went on dates, you've slept together, in more ways than one, but seriously, where is this going?"

"I- I don't know. I thought I wanted to be with her."

"Thought? So you don't think like that now?" Jimmy asks.

"What the fuck is this, guys, twenty questions?"

"We're just trying to help you figure this stuff out. We don't want you to screw things up, but we also don't want you to lead her on, if you're not serious about things."

"I don't know what I am!" I stand up, and pace back and forth in front of the couch. "I can't decide what I want. The other night was great, but I just can't stop thinking about her past."

"Like yours is any better." Johnny scoffs, and I stare at him coldly.

"You're in no position to talk, short shit. I just can't figure it out." I stop pacing, and turn to them.

"Hey, if you're not going to go for it, I will." Zach grins.

"Can you not be serious for five minutes?"

"I was being serious."

"You're sick."

"If you only knew."

"I can't decide if I want to be with her or not. I want to be, but I also don't know if I'm ready for a relationship with her. She seems like a lot of work. There's just a lot of drama there, and I don't know if I really want that in my relationship. I don't know if it's worth it."

"How was the sex?" Johnny asks.

"Seriously?!"

"What?!"

"You guys suck. You bring up this serious subject, but can't even be serious enough to let me speak my peace."

"We apologize for Johnny's outburst..." Zach elbows him in the side. "But I think we can all SERIOUSLY agree that we want to know what the sex was like." Matt scowls at Zach, and punches him in the shoulder. "Ouch. What? You can't say you're not curious." Matt roles his eyes, but doesn't disagree.

"You really want to know how the sex was? It was fine."

"Fine?"

"Fine."

"Just fine?"

"It was fine. Don't think I'm going to give you all the details. We were sorta drunk, and it just sorta happened. She asked to stay at my place, because her roommate is apparently a loud, obnoxious sex addict."

"That's always nice."

"Maybe for you, Zach, but some of us may want more than just a meaningless hookup."

"Ouch." He rubs his chest, as if I hurt him somehow.

"I feel like I sort of took advantage of her drunken state, but I was drunk, too, and I guess things just got away from us. I regret it. I don't really know if I can trust her, after the way she was dancing on you at the bar. I just don't want to give myself to someone who is giving hand outs to everyone else."

"I thought you had said you guys talked about that over... Oh, shit..." Matt says, as he looks over at the door. I look over as well, to see Elody standing there in the doorway, looking devastated.

"I was going to knock, but the door was open." She says.

"Oh. How long have you been standing there exactly?" I ask, rubbing the back of my neck, nervously.

"Long enough. Don't worry, though, I'm leaving." She turns to walk out.

"Elody..."

"No, Brian. I thought things were okay between us, but apparently I was wrong. I was wrong about a lot of things, I guess, but worst of all, I was wrong about you. I may not have the greatest track record with relationships, and what not, but I'm not some slut who 'gives handouts to everyone else.'"

"Elody... I'm sorry."

"You're not sorry." She starts to walk out the door, but then turns back to look at me. "Fuck you, Brian." She walks out, slamming the door behind her.

"Wow, on that note, I think I'm going to go home." Zach says, getting up from the couch. "I'll see you guys later." He walks out.

"Well, maybe now your decision will be easier." Johnny says, and I shoot him a death glare.

Elody's POV

I'm walking home from Brian's house, when a car pulls up to the curb next to me.

"Hey, do you need a ride?" The window rolls down, revealing Zach.

"Thanks, but no thanks." I say.

"C'mon, I don't bite." He smiles, and I somehow can't look away from those damn green eyes.

"Why the Hell not?" I say, getting in the car. A part of me says this is completely wrong, but the other part of me doesn't ever want this ride to end. Zach smiles at me again, as we pull away from the curb.

Notes

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Jacq.