Two Vibrant Hearts
Chapter Seventy-Three
(So apparently I decided I’m going to use a bunch of ~s and *s in this chapter so…)
“Mm…” I mumbled against Matt’s chest. His hands tightened around my butt as he pulled me closer, his lips kissing around my chest. My hands ran through his shaggy hair, which was longer than usual.
“Kid…” Matt whispered against my skin as his lips lingered over my collar bones and shoulders. His hands slid across my figure, running down my legs and back up, over my hips, waist, and breasts. I sucked in a breath and his lips met mine, taking the air from my body. He played with the clasp of my bra as our tongues intertwined. Matt’s house was silent except for the breaths coming from Matt and I. I hadn’t been in his house for a long time since Gayle had practically moved in without asking, which meant I couldn’t come by as often as I’d have liked. Usually we had to live with him sneaking to my house or having Jimmy loan us his spare room, but luckily Gayle was out with some friends for the day, so we had some time to ourselves.
It had been two weeks since I had forgiven Matt and we continued our little fling. We told Jimmy shortly after it happened, and although he was still keeping our secret, he grew increasingly unsupportive of what we were doing. He constantly begged me to tell Brian, saying that I was digging myself in deep and it’d get worse if I didn’t talk to Brian about it. I knew Jimmy was right and that he was just trying to be a good friend, but things had been going pretty well in the last few weeks that I didn’t want to take the chance of messing it up. We made sure to keep ourselves hidden, and as far as I was concerned I think the only person who was even a little bit onto us was Emma. There were perhaps a few times that I almost had to shove Matt in the closet because Emma was almost home and we were in the midst of hanging out, but he always got out without being caught (I think.) Matt still had his thing with Gayle and I still had my not-a-relationship-but-a-relationship with Brian, and even though it pissed both of us off, neither Matt nor I gave into the other’s wants and kicked our cover ups to the curb. That would also be why Jimmy is irritated with me.
Matt shifted me against his boxers and whimpered, his member rubbing against my underwear. I smiled a little at him and laughed under my breath and he mimicked me. His arms snaked around my waist and kissed my lips gently as though he were holding a piece of glass. The kiss grew rough and we were battling for dominance when he pulled away.
“Let’s go away.” Matt said through breaths. My eyes widened.
“Wait-what?” I stuttered, completely caught off guard. He wanted to run away with me?
“Let’s go away for the weekend. Just us.” Matt announced, his eyes glowing. “We could go to San Francisco, or Las Vegas. But let’s get away from this. Just you and me, a weekend where we didn’t have to sneak behind everyone’s back.” It sounded tempting, it truly did. And Matt looked so excited to get away. But all the way to Las Vegas? “Hell, we could go to Carson City if you really wanted to.”
“Why don’t we just go to San Diego?” I chuckled, rubbing his face with my thumb. He smiled and I tilted my head. “That sounds wonderful, Matty-bear, it really does. But how in the hell are we supposed to get out of the city without our friends getting suspicious?”
“You leave a couple days early and say that you need to get away from the city for a bit so you’re going to San Francisco and after two or three days I’ll say I’m meeting up with a few old friends in Vegas and I’ll be back a few days later. Then you leave a day before me so we don’t raise suspicion.” Matt planned. I chewed on my lip.
“Again, that sounds tempting, but I don’t know.” I said hesitantly. I really wanted this, I really wanted to have some alone time with Matt. But deep inside I felt wrong about this whole thing. It felt as though I knew something was going to go wrong. Only Jimmy knew this, and that’s what got him on attempting to make us admit our mistakes and fix it. If only it were that easy.
“What are you afraid of? Getting caught?” Matt questioned, grabbing under my chin so that I had to look at him. “If you need me to, I can bribe Jimmy to go to Vegas for the weekend so it seems like he went with me.”
“You know how Jimmy feels about this, Matt.” I sighed hopelessly. “I don’t think he’d help plan a secret getaway. I don’t think we can-”
“C’mon Kiddy. Please.” Matt pleaded. His eyes were praying for me to say yes. I was so conflicted. Yet again, my selfish side got the best of me.
“Okay. We’ll go to San Diego this weekend.” I sighed. Matt bounced me happily and let out an adorable noise that sounded almost like a squeal.
“Thank you so much, Kid. You’re going to love it, I promise.” Matt swore. I smiled and he returned it before his eyes turned seductive. “I think this plan deserves a little reward.” With that, he flipped us around so I was lying on his couch, my panties being pulled off my legs. I stared at Matt anxiously as he laid over me, his boxers still on but the buttons undone. “Let’s have a little fun before the police guard get’s home, shall we?” I nodded and he leaned in for a kiss, his member rubbing against my sensitivity a little before slowly sliding in. I gasped and Matt smirked. “You know I make you wanna scream…”
~
“No. No way. I’m not doing it.” Jimmy refused. My body slouched in despair as he turned his back to me, giving me the I-said-no Jimmy posture.
“But Jimmmboooooooooo” I cried, running across his living room over to him. I wrapped my arms tightly around his skinny waist. “This might be the only chance we have at actually getting to be a couple. Please can you do this for us?”
“Kid, you know how I feel about this.” Jimmy complained. I nodded and sighed.
“I know. But don’t you think that we deserve to be together?” I whimpered. Jimmy’s body continued to stay tense and I sighed sadly. “You know I feel really bad about keeping Brian in the dark about Matt and I. But it’s not like we’re together anyway, and I doubt he’d be upset by this and you know that as well.”
“Maybe I do, but I still think this is wrong.” Jimmy huffed. I let out a breath of defeat and began to drop my arms from his waist when he stopped me. I looked up and he turned himself around so he was facing me. I straightened myself up and tightened my grip on his waist. “Although I know that you guys should be together and you’re just trying to make the best of a bad situation."
“So…?” I trailed, looking up hopefully at Jimmy. He looked utterly agonized by this conversation and I immediately regretted saying yes to Matt. Jimmy didn’t deserve this weight on him, and I felt like shit for bringing him into this. I let go of his waist and stepped back. “Never mind, Jimbo. You don’t need to do that. I’ll tell Matt it’s off and that I’m going to tell Brian about us. If I’m so positive he won’t be upset than I have nothing to worry about.” Jimmy’s face softened and his lip twitched. I looked down shamefully and shuffled my feet. “I didn’t mean to bring you into this, and I feel like crap for not listening to you when you’re the only one that can help me through this.”
“Kiddy,” Jimmy cooed, opening his arms up. I walked into his embrace and hugged him tightly, my head resting against his chest. Jimmy had his face in my hair and I could feel his warm breaths running down my skull. “Tell Matt that I’ll do it. Leave tomorrow since it’s Thursday and that will give you two days to do what you want and get ready. You both only have until Monday, but you should head back Sunday night. I expect you to tell Brian in the near future or you and Matt with both have a drumstick shoved up your ass. Got it?”
“Got it, Mr. Rev.” I chuckled at the threat. He laughed and pulled away. “You’re the best guy ever, Jimmy. Seriously.” He smiled and nodded.
“I know. Now go home and get packed, I’ll tell everyone else that Matt and I will be meeting up with some old friends in Vegas this weekend.” Jimmy exclaimed. I nodded and hugged Jimmy tightly one more time before skipping out of his house, already dying of excitement for this weekend.
*
I took in a deep breath as I baked under the sun. I had driven to San Diego two days ago and Matt was supposed to get in today. He’s not meant to be here until later tonight, so I had taken the time to go to the beach and chill out. It was really warm for an early November day, so I was able to wear my swimsuit to the beach without freezing. I had found a spot easily and laid myself down, feeling the heat of the sun already taking a toll on my body.
After a while I sat up and held myself up on my arms as I looked around the beach of San Diego. There weren’t a lot of people there, but there was a decent amount of teenagers spending their day playing sports and flirting. I wanted to reminisce about how great it was to be on the beach flirting with guys when I was a teenager, but when I was a teenager I was standing under three feet of snow trying to see if cute boys grew in corn fields. Ah, Nebraska. I pulled out my phone to check if anyone had texted me, and while I did so two teenagers were walking in front of me. Being the nosey person I was, I pretended to text someone while I listened into their conversation.
“I’m not going to do that, Jack.” A feminine voice said. I looked up through my bangs and examined the teenagers. They both looked about seventeen and looked alike but I could tell they weren’t siblings. The girl had light brown hair and dark blue eyes and was wearing a purple swim top and black shorts. She looked nervous and upset about something, and kept looking to the boy who was about three inches taller than her.
“Why not? It’s a brilliant plan.” Jack complained. Jack had sandy blonde hair and brown eyes and was wearing blue and black swim trunks. “C’mon, Cade. That asshole totally broke up with you to get together with his ex-girlfriend. It would be perfect revenge to ‘date’ one of his friends!” I let out a small noise. So it looks like Jimmy and I are not the only idiots after all.
“That is a horrible plan.” Cade scolded. Jack groaned loudly and threw his head back.
“It’s not! I swear let’s—let’s ask that girl over there,” Shit. They noticed me. “Hey, you.” I looked up from my phone, trying to keep composure. “You look about our age. Cade’s boyfriend over here dumped her—”
“Jack.” Cade hissed, obviously hurt that he had said that to me. Jack sent her an apologetic look before looking back at me.
“I’m sorry. Broke up with her just to get back with his ex-girlfriend. So I’m trying to tell her to pretend to date one of his friends to piss him off.” Jack explained. He gave me a hopeful look, signaling for me to tell Cade that he was right. I shook my head.
“Don’t do it. It fucks everything up. Do not do that. Like at all.” I disagreed, shaking my head vigorously. Cade looked pleased, but Jack looked pissed.
“How would you know? Have you done that before?” Jack shot. I felt the blood drain from my face, clearly indicating that I had in fact done that. Of course my body has to abandon me at the most inopportune times. Jack scoffed and sent me a dirty look. “What a fucking slut. C’mon Cadence.” My mouth dropped as Jack began to walk away, grabbing Cade’s arm as he did so. She looked back at me and gave me a sad look before turning around and leaning in towards Jack. Ouch, teenagers are harsh.
With that, I stood up, packing up for the day. I slid on my white tank top, red shorts, and white flip flops before shoving my towel in my bag. I shook off all the sand on me and tightened my ponytail before heading towards the street. The hotel I had chosen was a few blocks away from the beach, so I didn’t mind walking to it. As I headed that way, I walked through a bunch of little stores, which were catching my interest. There was a bunch of small restaurants and little boutiques, all that looked cute and something to go to in the future. As I continued my walk, trying not to think about Jack’s words, a glint of light caught my eye.
I stopped and looked to my side to see a small jewelry store, but it wasn’t just the store that caught my attention, it was a necklace in the window. I stepped forward and looked at it. It had a small silver chain and at the bottom was a locket. It was in the shape of a heart and had an intricate design carved in the front. A sign in front of it said that on the back of the necklace was a saying engraved: “wherever you go, my love will follow.” I was utterly entranced with the necklace, but knowing how expensive silver was, I had to pull myself from the window and keep walking. I stared down at the concrete, Jack’s words weighing on me. Although he was just some stupid teenager that I didn’t know, it seems as though strangers are the most truthful. Was I a slut? Out of anxiety, I took out my phone and pulled up Brian’s contact.
I have to talk to you when I get home.-K
Why can’t we talk now?-B
Because I need to do this in person. Just me and you.-K
Okay. Monday?-B
Yupp.-K
With that, I put my phone away. I knew Matt would kill me, but I couldn’t hide it anymore. I was almost 100% positive that Brian wouldn’t be hurt by this, but something was nagging at the back of my mind.
Would he be hurt?
*
“I just wanted to say I know I let you down, but I’m ready now,” I sang as I brushed through my wet hair. I stared at my half-naked self in the mirror as I brushed all the curls out of my hair. I heard the door click and I smiled, but I continued to sing as though I didn’t hear it. “And I found a way that I can tell the truth, make it up to you.” Steps were coming towards me and I didn’t suppress my smile as I saw a figure in the mirror. “I left home but there’s one thing that I still know. It’s always summer in my heart and in my soul, it’s always summer in my heart and in my soul.”
“Who sings that?” His voice rang from behind me. I glanced over at him and smiled as he stared at me. Matt walked behind me and wrapped one arm tightly under my bra and the other tightly around my hips, resting his head on my shoulder.
“Yellowcard. My favorite childhood band.” I answered. His mouth dropped and he let go of me, placing a hand on his chest and looking offended.
“What about Avenged?” Matt gasped. I giggled and shrugged.
“You guys are a close second.” I winked. He looked even more offended and turned his back to me, which made me laugh loudly. I went over to him and hugged him tightly around his waist from behind him. “But if it makes you feel better, you guys are way hotter.”
“You think calling me hot is gonna butter me up?” Matt snorted. I snickered and kissed his shoulder blade, my arms slipping under his shirt.
“No. But I think calling you extremely sexy will.” I said innocently. I saw from the mirror that Matt was trying not to smile, which just made me hug him closer. He turned around and smirked at me before kissing me gently.
“You’re right.” Matt mumbled against my lips. I melted into his embrace and he kissed me deeply as his hands ran up and down my spine. He pulled away barely, just so he could speak. “So I think tonight we should go see a movie,” he suggested quietly, although his eyes were smoldering with want. I began to nod when I felt my bra unclip, which made me smirk. “After you make it up to me for betraying Avenged.”
“I didn’t betray Avenged,” I argued, trying not to laugh. He raised an eyebrow as my bra fell off my body and landed at our feet. “My brother showed me Yellowcard in kindergarten. That is a whole eleven years before I even heard of you guys.” Matt smirked, but he was barely paying attention. He kept staring at my almost naked body, which I guess is a reason to not pay attention.
“I guess.” Matt whispered as he played with the band of my underwear. “But I mean you’re best friends with us, so we should just automatically be number one.” At the flick of his wrists, my underwear slid down my legs and hit my ankles. He grabbed me by my thighs and picked me up, leaving my bra and underwear in a pile near the bathroom as he carried me to the bed. Matt set me down on the already stripped bed and crawled over me, purring with excitement as he leaned down to kiss me. I laughed lightly not only at his manly needs but at the fact that I was completely naked whilst he was fully clothed, but my heart wasn’t fully in it. Yes, I wanted him, but I kept thinking about my run-in with a truthful teenager and it was all I could see. I am a slut. I mean not only do I have a friend with freaking benefits but I’m also dating a guy behind his quote-unquote girlfriend’s back. Jack was totally and completely right and I didn’t even want to be in my own skin right now, none-the-less be naked in my skin having sex with someone who is in a relationship.
“H-how about we go to the movies, first?” I suggested, stuttering slightly. Matt pulled away from his kissing around my neck to give me a confused look.
“Why?” He questioned. I chewed on my lip and avoided eye contact with him.
“B-because it’s still day time out and this would be more romantic at night.” I squeaked, praying and hoping I could get out of it now. Matt’s eyebrows knitted together and I laughed awkwardly. “I’m more of a night-sex person.”
“Kid, you’re acting strange, are you okay?” Matt asked. I let out another jittery laugh and nodded.
“Mhm. Never better.” I said quickly, looking at anything and everything that wasn’t Matt. I felt a hand go on my chin and I glanced at him. Matt’s eyes were soft and full of worry.
“Kid…” He whispered. I sighed and closed my eyes. After a few seconds, I shook my head and looked at the window. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m just… this teenage boy called me a slut today… and I kind of believe him.” I admitted, too scared of Matt’s reaction to look at him. I could see out of the corner of my eye, though, that his mouth had dropped, and he sat himself up.
“Wh-what? Why?” Matt stammered, sounding both upset and pissed. I chewed on my lip; to truth or not to truth? That was the question.
“I don’t know.” I shrugged. Not to truth was the answer. Matt placed his hand gently on my cheek, causing me to look at him. His eyes were soft and he let out a small sigh.
“Kid, you are not a slut. Don’t believe some dumb teenager because he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.” Matt assured me. I nodded, but it was weak. Jack did know what he was talking about, and I felt dirty just thinking about it. Matt let out another deep breath before sitting up, initiating that we weren’t going to have sex at that moment. “Let’s go to a movie. Maybe later we can do this again.” I nodded and slid out of the bed, quickly walking over to grab my clothes and get dressed.
~
“Ah, fuck.” Matt moaned through his teeth as his nails dug into my hips. He guided my body for a few more thrusts before he shuddered and I collapsed onto his chest. His arms wrapped around my back as I laid on top of him, both of us trying to control our breathing. It was the last night in San Diego together, and let’s just say we made sure we spent enough time together before we went back. The two days went by too fast and I didn’t want to go home. I mean, I wanted to go home, but I wanted to go home to Gayle being gone… or dead. Either worked. But I knew I’d go home to waiting by the phone for Matt to say he has thirty minutes to see me and spending all of my time at home or at Jimmy’s while I wait. So in a way I really didn’t want to go home.
“What a nice way to end the weekend.” Matt whispered, his fingers running up and down my bare spine. I nodded against his chest, listening to his heartbeat and breaths. I didn’t want to move, but I knew I had to leave either late tonight or really early tomorrow so no one would be suspicious that Matt was returning a day later than me. If I left tomorrow I’d have to text Jimmy and tell them they’d have to go home on Tuesday because Matt and I had lost track of time and didn’t realize how late it was until it was too late. I sighed against Matt’s chest as he buried his face in my hair, his arms tightening around me.
“Do we have to go home?” I said quietly. I could feel Matt’s body slump a little and I closed my eyes.
“I wish we didn’t have to.” Matt mumbled quietly. I nodded in agreement, feeling drained of the short amount of happiness I had attained this weekend. Now that is was gone, I just wanted to go to sleep. I began to pull myself from Matt’s grip when he grabbed my shoulders. I looked at him and his eyes were both sad and bright at the same time. “Don’t move, I have something for you.” He leaned over the bed and I had no choice but to move with him since part of him was still inserted in me and he hadn’t given me a chance to change that. He shuffled around in his bag a little bit, straining to find something. As he did so, I stared at the dull pattern of brown vines and leaves on a slightly-less brown background of the wallpaper. For a really nice hotel, they could have picked a more stylish wallpaper to plaster on the wall of an expensive suite that Matt had chosen for our two days together and my two days alone.
“Are you digging for Alice in the freaking rabbit hole?” I exclaimed after about two minutes of Matt jolting me and him to try to find something in his suitcase. Matt just laughed and sent me a look before finally opening a pocket and grabbing something else. He sat back up and grinned widely, but I just stared at him in bafflement. “Wha… you… you took all that time just to open a fucking pocket and pull something out?”
“I was trying to stall.” Matt shrugged. I raised an eyebrow and he smiled softly, taking his hand from behind his back. I watched intently as he pulled out a somewhat familiar red velvet box and hand it to me. I glanced up at him and his smile grew softer. “I saw you looking at this while we were checking out the small shops yesterday so I bought it for you while you were showering.” I stared at him for a long moment before turning my attention to the box. I cautiously opened it, almost afraid that it would be a bomb. But it was the complete opposite; it was absolutely perfect.
“Holy shit…” I croaked, my finger gently touching the silver chain of the locket I admired earlier this week. I can’t believe he had gotten it for me; it made me feel bad about rethinking our relationship. But this was absolutely perfect and it made me realize that Matt was serious about liking me and wasn’t just having his cake and eating it, too.
“I know you’ve been worried that I’m just playing you, but I hope that this shows that I’m not.” Matt added, his hand rubbing my arm. I leaned down and kissed him passionately, almost in tears over the gift. I pulled away and blinked back tears, grinning widely at Matt. He smiled hopefully. “So you like it?” I nodded vigorously and his smile widened. “good.” With that, he took the box from my hands and took out the necklace. He maneuvered it through my hair and clipped it. I sat up so that the heart rested right in the middle of my chest, looking shiny and beautiful. I looked at Matt who was staring at me with pure love in his eyes. “So now you know, Kid. Wherever you go, my love will follow. I love you, Kid.”
(If I’m thinking correctly, I think this is the first chapter I had Matt tell Kid he loves her. Eeek!!!!)
“Mm…” I mumbled against Matt’s chest. His hands tightened around my butt as he pulled me closer, his lips kissing around my chest. My hands ran through his shaggy hair, which was longer than usual.
“Kid…” Matt whispered against my skin as his lips lingered over my collar bones and shoulders. His hands slid across my figure, running down my legs and back up, over my hips, waist, and breasts. I sucked in a breath and his lips met mine, taking the air from my body. He played with the clasp of my bra as our tongues intertwined. Matt’s house was silent except for the breaths coming from Matt and I. I hadn’t been in his house for a long time since Gayle had practically moved in without asking, which meant I couldn’t come by as often as I’d have liked. Usually we had to live with him sneaking to my house or having Jimmy loan us his spare room, but luckily Gayle was out with some friends for the day, so we had some time to ourselves.
It had been two weeks since I had forgiven Matt and we continued our little fling. We told Jimmy shortly after it happened, and although he was still keeping our secret, he grew increasingly unsupportive of what we were doing. He constantly begged me to tell Brian, saying that I was digging myself in deep and it’d get worse if I didn’t talk to Brian about it. I knew Jimmy was right and that he was just trying to be a good friend, but things had been going pretty well in the last few weeks that I didn’t want to take the chance of messing it up. We made sure to keep ourselves hidden, and as far as I was concerned I think the only person who was even a little bit onto us was Emma. There were perhaps a few times that I almost had to shove Matt in the closet because Emma was almost home and we were in the midst of hanging out, but he always got out without being caught (I think.) Matt still had his thing with Gayle and I still had my not-a-relationship-but-a-relationship with Brian, and even though it pissed both of us off, neither Matt nor I gave into the other’s wants and kicked our cover ups to the curb. That would also be why Jimmy is irritated with me.
Matt shifted me against his boxers and whimpered, his member rubbing against my underwear. I smiled a little at him and laughed under my breath and he mimicked me. His arms snaked around my waist and kissed my lips gently as though he were holding a piece of glass. The kiss grew rough and we were battling for dominance when he pulled away.
“Let’s go away.” Matt said through breaths. My eyes widened.
“Wait-what?” I stuttered, completely caught off guard. He wanted to run away with me?
“Let’s go away for the weekend. Just us.” Matt announced, his eyes glowing. “We could go to San Francisco, or Las Vegas. But let’s get away from this. Just you and me, a weekend where we didn’t have to sneak behind everyone’s back.” It sounded tempting, it truly did. And Matt looked so excited to get away. But all the way to Las Vegas? “Hell, we could go to Carson City if you really wanted to.”
“Why don’t we just go to San Diego?” I chuckled, rubbing his face with my thumb. He smiled and I tilted my head. “That sounds wonderful, Matty-bear, it really does. But how in the hell are we supposed to get out of the city without our friends getting suspicious?”
“You leave a couple days early and say that you need to get away from the city for a bit so you’re going to San Francisco and after two or three days I’ll say I’m meeting up with a few old friends in Vegas and I’ll be back a few days later. Then you leave a day before me so we don’t raise suspicion.” Matt planned. I chewed on my lip.
“Again, that sounds tempting, but I don’t know.” I said hesitantly. I really wanted this, I really wanted to have some alone time with Matt. But deep inside I felt wrong about this whole thing. It felt as though I knew something was going to go wrong. Only Jimmy knew this, and that’s what got him on attempting to make us admit our mistakes and fix it. If only it were that easy.
“What are you afraid of? Getting caught?” Matt questioned, grabbing under my chin so that I had to look at him. “If you need me to, I can bribe Jimmy to go to Vegas for the weekend so it seems like he went with me.”
“You know how Jimmy feels about this, Matt.” I sighed hopelessly. “I don’t think he’d help plan a secret getaway. I don’t think we can-”
“C’mon Kiddy. Please.” Matt pleaded. His eyes were praying for me to say yes. I was so conflicted. Yet again, my selfish side got the best of me.
“Okay. We’ll go to San Diego this weekend.” I sighed. Matt bounced me happily and let out an adorable noise that sounded almost like a squeal.
“Thank you so much, Kid. You’re going to love it, I promise.” Matt swore. I smiled and he returned it before his eyes turned seductive. “I think this plan deserves a little reward.” With that, he flipped us around so I was lying on his couch, my panties being pulled off my legs. I stared at Matt anxiously as he laid over me, his boxers still on but the buttons undone. “Let’s have a little fun before the police guard get’s home, shall we?” I nodded and he leaned in for a kiss, his member rubbing against my sensitivity a little before slowly sliding in. I gasped and Matt smirked. “You know I make you wanna scream…”
~
“No. No way. I’m not doing it.” Jimmy refused. My body slouched in despair as he turned his back to me, giving me the I-said-no Jimmy posture.
“But Jimmmboooooooooo” I cried, running across his living room over to him. I wrapped my arms tightly around his skinny waist. “This might be the only chance we have at actually getting to be a couple. Please can you do this for us?”
“Kid, you know how I feel about this.” Jimmy complained. I nodded and sighed.
“I know. But don’t you think that we deserve to be together?” I whimpered. Jimmy’s body continued to stay tense and I sighed sadly. “You know I feel really bad about keeping Brian in the dark about Matt and I. But it’s not like we’re together anyway, and I doubt he’d be upset by this and you know that as well.”
“Maybe I do, but I still think this is wrong.” Jimmy huffed. I let out a breath of defeat and began to drop my arms from his waist when he stopped me. I looked up and he turned himself around so he was facing me. I straightened myself up and tightened my grip on his waist. “Although I know that you guys should be together and you’re just trying to make the best of a bad situation."
“So…?” I trailed, looking up hopefully at Jimmy. He looked utterly agonized by this conversation and I immediately regretted saying yes to Matt. Jimmy didn’t deserve this weight on him, and I felt like shit for bringing him into this. I let go of his waist and stepped back. “Never mind, Jimbo. You don’t need to do that. I’ll tell Matt it’s off and that I’m going to tell Brian about us. If I’m so positive he won’t be upset than I have nothing to worry about.” Jimmy’s face softened and his lip twitched. I looked down shamefully and shuffled my feet. “I didn’t mean to bring you into this, and I feel like crap for not listening to you when you’re the only one that can help me through this.”
“Kiddy,” Jimmy cooed, opening his arms up. I walked into his embrace and hugged him tightly, my head resting against his chest. Jimmy had his face in my hair and I could feel his warm breaths running down my skull. “Tell Matt that I’ll do it. Leave tomorrow since it’s Thursday and that will give you two days to do what you want and get ready. You both only have until Monday, but you should head back Sunday night. I expect you to tell Brian in the near future or you and Matt with both have a drumstick shoved up your ass. Got it?”
“Got it, Mr. Rev.” I chuckled at the threat. He laughed and pulled away. “You’re the best guy ever, Jimmy. Seriously.” He smiled and nodded.
“I know. Now go home and get packed, I’ll tell everyone else that Matt and I will be meeting up with some old friends in Vegas this weekend.” Jimmy exclaimed. I nodded and hugged Jimmy tightly one more time before skipping out of his house, already dying of excitement for this weekend.
*
I took in a deep breath as I baked under the sun. I had driven to San Diego two days ago and Matt was supposed to get in today. He’s not meant to be here until later tonight, so I had taken the time to go to the beach and chill out. It was really warm for an early November day, so I was able to wear my swimsuit to the beach without freezing. I had found a spot easily and laid myself down, feeling the heat of the sun already taking a toll on my body.
After a while I sat up and held myself up on my arms as I looked around the beach of San Diego. There weren’t a lot of people there, but there was a decent amount of teenagers spending their day playing sports and flirting. I wanted to reminisce about how great it was to be on the beach flirting with guys when I was a teenager, but when I was a teenager I was standing under three feet of snow trying to see if cute boys grew in corn fields. Ah, Nebraska. I pulled out my phone to check if anyone had texted me, and while I did so two teenagers were walking in front of me. Being the nosey person I was, I pretended to text someone while I listened into their conversation.
“I’m not going to do that, Jack.” A feminine voice said. I looked up through my bangs and examined the teenagers. They both looked about seventeen and looked alike but I could tell they weren’t siblings. The girl had light brown hair and dark blue eyes and was wearing a purple swim top and black shorts. She looked nervous and upset about something, and kept looking to the boy who was about three inches taller than her.
“Why not? It’s a brilliant plan.” Jack complained. Jack had sandy blonde hair and brown eyes and was wearing blue and black swim trunks. “C’mon, Cade. That asshole totally broke up with you to get together with his ex-girlfriend. It would be perfect revenge to ‘date’ one of his friends!” I let out a small noise. So it looks like Jimmy and I are not the only idiots after all.
“That is a horrible plan.” Cade scolded. Jack groaned loudly and threw his head back.
“It’s not! I swear let’s—let’s ask that girl over there,” Shit. They noticed me. “Hey, you.” I looked up from my phone, trying to keep composure. “You look about our age. Cade’s boyfriend over here dumped her—”
“Jack.” Cade hissed, obviously hurt that he had said that to me. Jack sent her an apologetic look before looking back at me.
“I’m sorry. Broke up with her just to get back with his ex-girlfriend. So I’m trying to tell her to pretend to date one of his friends to piss him off.” Jack explained. He gave me a hopeful look, signaling for me to tell Cade that he was right. I shook my head.
“Don’t do it. It fucks everything up. Do not do that. Like at all.” I disagreed, shaking my head vigorously. Cade looked pleased, but Jack looked pissed.
“How would you know? Have you done that before?” Jack shot. I felt the blood drain from my face, clearly indicating that I had in fact done that. Of course my body has to abandon me at the most inopportune times. Jack scoffed and sent me a dirty look. “What a fucking slut. C’mon Cadence.” My mouth dropped as Jack began to walk away, grabbing Cade’s arm as he did so. She looked back at me and gave me a sad look before turning around and leaning in towards Jack. Ouch, teenagers are harsh.
With that, I stood up, packing up for the day. I slid on my white tank top, red shorts, and white flip flops before shoving my towel in my bag. I shook off all the sand on me and tightened my ponytail before heading towards the street. The hotel I had chosen was a few blocks away from the beach, so I didn’t mind walking to it. As I headed that way, I walked through a bunch of little stores, which were catching my interest. There was a bunch of small restaurants and little boutiques, all that looked cute and something to go to in the future. As I continued my walk, trying not to think about Jack’s words, a glint of light caught my eye.
I stopped and looked to my side to see a small jewelry store, but it wasn’t just the store that caught my attention, it was a necklace in the window. I stepped forward and looked at it. It had a small silver chain and at the bottom was a locket. It was in the shape of a heart and had an intricate design carved in the front. A sign in front of it said that on the back of the necklace was a saying engraved: “wherever you go, my love will follow.” I was utterly entranced with the necklace, but knowing how expensive silver was, I had to pull myself from the window and keep walking. I stared down at the concrete, Jack’s words weighing on me. Although he was just some stupid teenager that I didn’t know, it seems as though strangers are the most truthful. Was I a slut? Out of anxiety, I took out my phone and pulled up Brian’s contact.
I have to talk to you when I get home.-K
Why can’t we talk now?-B
Because I need to do this in person. Just me and you.-K
Okay. Monday?-B
Yupp.-K
With that, I put my phone away. I knew Matt would kill me, but I couldn’t hide it anymore. I was almost 100% positive that Brian wouldn’t be hurt by this, but something was nagging at the back of my mind.
Would he be hurt?
*
“I just wanted to say I know I let you down, but I’m ready now,” I sang as I brushed through my wet hair. I stared at my half-naked self in the mirror as I brushed all the curls out of my hair. I heard the door click and I smiled, but I continued to sing as though I didn’t hear it. “And I found a way that I can tell the truth, make it up to you.” Steps were coming towards me and I didn’t suppress my smile as I saw a figure in the mirror. “I left home but there’s one thing that I still know. It’s always summer in my heart and in my soul, it’s always summer in my heart and in my soul.”
“Who sings that?” His voice rang from behind me. I glanced over at him and smiled as he stared at me. Matt walked behind me and wrapped one arm tightly under my bra and the other tightly around my hips, resting his head on my shoulder.
“Yellowcard. My favorite childhood band.” I answered. His mouth dropped and he let go of me, placing a hand on his chest and looking offended.
“What about Avenged?” Matt gasped. I giggled and shrugged.
“You guys are a close second.” I winked. He looked even more offended and turned his back to me, which made me laugh loudly. I went over to him and hugged him tightly around his waist from behind him. “But if it makes you feel better, you guys are way hotter.”
“You think calling me hot is gonna butter me up?” Matt snorted. I snickered and kissed his shoulder blade, my arms slipping under his shirt.
“No. But I think calling you extremely sexy will.” I said innocently. I saw from the mirror that Matt was trying not to smile, which just made me hug him closer. He turned around and smirked at me before kissing me gently.
“You’re right.” Matt mumbled against my lips. I melted into his embrace and he kissed me deeply as his hands ran up and down my spine. He pulled away barely, just so he could speak. “So I think tonight we should go see a movie,” he suggested quietly, although his eyes were smoldering with want. I began to nod when I felt my bra unclip, which made me smirk. “After you make it up to me for betraying Avenged.”
“I didn’t betray Avenged,” I argued, trying not to laugh. He raised an eyebrow as my bra fell off my body and landed at our feet. “My brother showed me Yellowcard in kindergarten. That is a whole eleven years before I even heard of you guys.” Matt smirked, but he was barely paying attention. He kept staring at my almost naked body, which I guess is a reason to not pay attention.
“I guess.” Matt whispered as he played with the band of my underwear. “But I mean you’re best friends with us, so we should just automatically be number one.” At the flick of his wrists, my underwear slid down my legs and hit my ankles. He grabbed me by my thighs and picked me up, leaving my bra and underwear in a pile near the bathroom as he carried me to the bed. Matt set me down on the already stripped bed and crawled over me, purring with excitement as he leaned down to kiss me. I laughed lightly not only at his manly needs but at the fact that I was completely naked whilst he was fully clothed, but my heart wasn’t fully in it. Yes, I wanted him, but I kept thinking about my run-in with a truthful teenager and it was all I could see. I am a slut. I mean not only do I have a friend with freaking benefits but I’m also dating a guy behind his quote-unquote girlfriend’s back. Jack was totally and completely right and I didn’t even want to be in my own skin right now, none-the-less be naked in my skin having sex with someone who is in a relationship.
“H-how about we go to the movies, first?” I suggested, stuttering slightly. Matt pulled away from his kissing around my neck to give me a confused look.
“Why?” He questioned. I chewed on my lip and avoided eye contact with him.
“B-because it’s still day time out and this would be more romantic at night.” I squeaked, praying and hoping I could get out of it now. Matt’s eyebrows knitted together and I laughed awkwardly. “I’m more of a night-sex person.”
“Kid, you’re acting strange, are you okay?” Matt asked. I let out another jittery laugh and nodded.
“Mhm. Never better.” I said quickly, looking at anything and everything that wasn’t Matt. I felt a hand go on my chin and I glanced at him. Matt’s eyes were soft and full of worry.
“Kid…” He whispered. I sighed and closed my eyes. After a few seconds, I shook my head and looked at the window. “What’s wrong?”
“I’m just… this teenage boy called me a slut today… and I kind of believe him.” I admitted, too scared of Matt’s reaction to look at him. I could see out of the corner of my eye, though, that his mouth had dropped, and he sat himself up.
“Wh-what? Why?” Matt stammered, sounding both upset and pissed. I chewed on my lip; to truth or not to truth? That was the question.
“I don’t know.” I shrugged. Not to truth was the answer. Matt placed his hand gently on my cheek, causing me to look at him. His eyes were soft and he let out a small sigh.
“Kid, you are not a slut. Don’t believe some dumb teenager because he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.” Matt assured me. I nodded, but it was weak. Jack did know what he was talking about, and I felt dirty just thinking about it. Matt let out another deep breath before sitting up, initiating that we weren’t going to have sex at that moment. “Let’s go to a movie. Maybe later we can do this again.” I nodded and slid out of the bed, quickly walking over to grab my clothes and get dressed.
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“Ah, fuck.” Matt moaned through his teeth as his nails dug into my hips. He guided my body for a few more thrusts before he shuddered and I collapsed onto his chest. His arms wrapped around my back as I laid on top of him, both of us trying to control our breathing. It was the last night in San Diego together, and let’s just say we made sure we spent enough time together before we went back. The two days went by too fast and I didn’t want to go home. I mean, I wanted to go home, but I wanted to go home to Gayle being gone… or dead. Either worked. But I knew I’d go home to waiting by the phone for Matt to say he has thirty minutes to see me and spending all of my time at home or at Jimmy’s while I wait. So in a way I really didn’t want to go home.
“What a nice way to end the weekend.” Matt whispered, his fingers running up and down my bare spine. I nodded against his chest, listening to his heartbeat and breaths. I didn’t want to move, but I knew I had to leave either late tonight or really early tomorrow so no one would be suspicious that Matt was returning a day later than me. If I left tomorrow I’d have to text Jimmy and tell them they’d have to go home on Tuesday because Matt and I had lost track of time and didn’t realize how late it was until it was too late. I sighed against Matt’s chest as he buried his face in my hair, his arms tightening around me.
“Do we have to go home?” I said quietly. I could feel Matt’s body slump a little and I closed my eyes.
“I wish we didn’t have to.” Matt mumbled quietly. I nodded in agreement, feeling drained of the short amount of happiness I had attained this weekend. Now that is was gone, I just wanted to go to sleep. I began to pull myself from Matt’s grip when he grabbed my shoulders. I looked at him and his eyes were both sad and bright at the same time. “Don’t move, I have something for you.” He leaned over the bed and I had no choice but to move with him since part of him was still inserted in me and he hadn’t given me a chance to change that. He shuffled around in his bag a little bit, straining to find something. As he did so, I stared at the dull pattern of brown vines and leaves on a slightly-less brown background of the wallpaper. For a really nice hotel, they could have picked a more stylish wallpaper to plaster on the wall of an expensive suite that Matt had chosen for our two days together and my two days alone.
“Are you digging for Alice in the freaking rabbit hole?” I exclaimed after about two minutes of Matt jolting me and him to try to find something in his suitcase. Matt just laughed and sent me a look before finally opening a pocket and grabbing something else. He sat back up and grinned widely, but I just stared at him in bafflement. “Wha… you… you took all that time just to open a fucking pocket and pull something out?”
“I was trying to stall.” Matt shrugged. I raised an eyebrow and he smiled softly, taking his hand from behind his back. I watched intently as he pulled out a somewhat familiar red velvet box and hand it to me. I glanced up at him and his smile grew softer. “I saw you looking at this while we were checking out the small shops yesterday so I bought it for you while you were showering.” I stared at him for a long moment before turning my attention to the box. I cautiously opened it, almost afraid that it would be a bomb. But it was the complete opposite; it was absolutely perfect.
“Holy shit…” I croaked, my finger gently touching the silver chain of the locket I admired earlier this week. I can’t believe he had gotten it for me; it made me feel bad about rethinking our relationship. But this was absolutely perfect and it made me realize that Matt was serious about liking me and wasn’t just having his cake and eating it, too.
“I know you’ve been worried that I’m just playing you, but I hope that this shows that I’m not.” Matt added, his hand rubbing my arm. I leaned down and kissed him passionately, almost in tears over the gift. I pulled away and blinked back tears, grinning widely at Matt. He smiled hopefully. “So you like it?” I nodded vigorously and his smile widened. “good.” With that, he took the box from my hands and took out the necklace. He maneuvered it through my hair and clipped it. I sat up so that the heart rested right in the middle of my chest, looking shiny and beautiful. I looked at Matt who was staring at me with pure love in his eyes. “So now you know, Kid. Wherever you go, my love will follow. I love you, Kid.”
(If I’m thinking correctly, I think this is the first chapter I had Matt tell Kid he loves her. Eeek!!!!)
Ohhhh, I love this!!!
12/13/16