*Carry On*

***Brian's POV***

"Kaylyn wait!" I call as the door slams in my face. My jaw drops and I stand gaping at the door, trying to figure out what the hell just happened. "Fuck!"

How the hell did she just turn and leave like that? No one ever refuses Synyster Gates! Do I have some unnatural growth? Do I smell? I think as I look down over my body in the mirror and see nothing but muscles and tattoos. Is she partial to monsters? I think while flexing my arms the mirror. And okay fine, maybe I smell a little bit, but the ice water in the bath helped in that regard. And to make matters worse, not only am I freezing, but I now have the worst case of blue balls imaginable. I don't fucking understand!

I hastily pull my clothes back on, not caring that they smell like pot and a bar rag, and begin pacing the foyer. Kaylyn already fled, so who the hell am I trying to impress now? Should I go after her or let the whole thing slide? My hallucination was so vivid and so believable, so why couldn't it be that way now? Why the hell did she run out on me? I can think clearly even though I'm still tipsy! And I may still be coming off my high, but I'm absolutely certain that I want to be laying I my bed with a naked Ms. Rizzo right now! Why did she reject me just like Aubrey?! I think, my breath quickening. But what happens if I start to like her? No, I can't do that! I won't do that again.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" I rage, picking up the vase on the table next to the door and chucking it at the wall. The cloud of glass shards fills the foyer and the post-high insta-rage of Magic E takes over my body.

I my vision turns red and my blood begins to boil. I can't control the rage that is overcoming my body. The next thing I know, I am kicking over end tables, smashing vases and mirrors, flipping the bed, and tipping chairs.

"Why the fuck is this happening to me!" I scream while throwing my boots at the mirror behind the door. The glass smashes before my eyes and I fall to the ground laughing. What the hell is so funny? That I've lost everything I care about...my band mates....Aubrey....and now Kaylyn? Do I care for Kaylyn? God fucking knows I can't! Get that thought out of your head right now, Gates!

"FUCK!" I scream again while blurring my face in my hands. I move my hands through my hair, pull, and scream again. "Why can't one thing fucking go my way?" I sigh, reaching for a bottle of whiskey that had rolled out of the upturned minibar.

I lay down on my back amidst the mess and down half of the small bottle in one gulp. I have hit a new low and it's a lonely one man show. Now selling tickets for the pathetic mess of a show...Brian Haner Jr. the musical. I roll over onto my stomach while finishing the rest of the bottle and just smash my face into the carpet.

"Ugh..." I sigh as my hand touches something cold and plastic. "What the?" I pick up the small piece of plastic and look it over. Its a hotel room key that reads suite 1. "Kaylyn..." I mumble while slowly sitting up and clenching the card in my hand.

A smile pulls at my lips as I picture her sitting out in the hallway in nothing but a hotel towel. This is my chance to get her back, to apologize for whatever I must have said or done while I was passed out. I have to make this up to her! Is it because I like her? I'll never admit it....not even to myself, but maybe she is the first person I feel attracted to since Aubrey....

I open my door and look both ways down the hallway only to find it empty. Where the hell would she go without her room key? Is she ballsy enough to go down to the lobby in only a towel? I think as I start to walk down the hall. It's then that I hear a familiar voice coming from the ice room.

I look inside and see her feet sticking out and can't help but smirk. I lean against the door just as she starts to talk again.

"Stop calling me, Alex! I meant it when I said I was falling for Brian!" Kaylyn huffs and suddenly I can't breath.

What the hell does she mean that she is falling for me? We barely knew each other even though I feel like I've known her for years. Sure Kaylyn is smoking hot and amazing but she couldn't be falling for me. I am not capable of loving or caring for anyone except myself, at least that's what Aubrey told me. Is she fucking insane?! I can't love anybody!

"J-Jimmy?" Kaylyn asks into her phone after having dropped it on the floor.

"I thought we were soul mates?!" Jimmy's voices yells through speaker phone.

"I-I'm sorry....I thought you were my ex calling back..." Kaylyn stammers, trying to cover her tracks. "I had to tell him something to leave me alone."

"So you don't care about, Brian?" Jimmy chuckles. I can see the expression on his face just by the tone of his voice and he is not buying her story. My heart beats faster in my chest at the thought. "No one in their right minds flies across the country to find someone they don't care about."

"I-I don't know...." She sighs and then continues. "I haven't felt the way I do around him in a long time. He's growing on me..."

"Take. It. Back." I hiss, my jaw tight and my breathing staggered. She can't have these feelings! All I will do is hurt her....I am cursed in the romance category. "Take all of it back! You can't seriously mean a damn word your saying!"

Kaylyn sticks her head out from behind the vending machine with a dropped jaw. "I hear you have company....so I'm gonna go...see you in an hour," Jimmy's voice calls before the line goes dead.

"Brian..." She says standing up and looking me with her dark brown eyes. I fight the urge to let my eyes rake over her basically naked body wrapped only in the small towel. "You are the only one who has made me feel alive since..."

"Stop! Just stop!" I yell, cutting her off before she can finish her sentence. I already know what she is going to say and no good can come of it. "I can't..."

"Brian, please just hear me out," she says, stepping towards me. Every nerve ending in my body screams at me to go grab her and whisk her back to my room but I ignore my feelings. I am getting good at forgetting them.

"I said I can't!" I snap and throw her room key at her. "Let's just forget any of this ever happened and go back to our business relationship...it'll be better for both of us this way."

"Brian!" The tone of her voice physically hurts, but I can't let her in. I will only ruin things like I have in every other relationship in my life.

I quickly turn on my heel and walk out into the hallway just as my phone rings. I see Zacky's name pop up on my caller ID and I answer it curtly. "Haner."

Notes

What is Kaylyn going to do now? Is she going to take no for an answer or is she going to go quietly for now? Can't wait to see what @SynysterRyn does next!