"...you're coming on tour with me!"

Me?? Going on tour with my brother... I don't know what to say or feel. Any normal teenager would be excited to take my place without a second thought, but me? I'm not excited at all.

Obviously I missed my big brother like crazy when he was away, and I wished every day he would be here to hold my hand and tell me it will be alright, but he has his own life touring with his best friends, having fun so why would he want me to come with him? I'm just a depressed, suicidal, fucked up teenager...I'm just a burden.

I was pulled away from my thoughts by Zacky waving his hands infront of my face.
"Are you okay? You spaced out for a while." He asked putting his hand on top of mine. He gave me a small weak smile and he looked like he is about to cry any minute now...did I do that? What kind of sister does that to her brother

I tried to give him a reasurring smile back trying to tell him I'm alright but I was too weak..even faking a smile was too hard for me to pull off at the moment. So, instead I let all my emotions take me over and tears started slowly pour down my cheeks.

In no time my face and neck was all wet from my tears and I started to feel like there was nothing inside of me anymore but still the tears kept coming..I couldn't stop them. It was like everything I've kept bottled up inside of me is now breaking out from it's cage.

Suddenly, my brother's comforting and protective arms were wrapped around me. He held me tightly and whispered comforting words to my ear. He was always the only one who knew how to calm me down. Not even my parents could do it the way he does.

"Want to tell me what's going on in that head of yours?" He asked pulling away from our hug so he can see my face.

I want to tell him about my fears about going with him, but part of me just want to stay silent and not say a word but I guess I didn't really have a choice now do I? I took a deep breath,
"I-I'm just scared. I don't want to mess your life and ruin everything like I usually do. You deserve to be happy and enjoy your life and I just don't want to be a burden. I don't want you to think that all of this is your fault and I don't want you to feel like you HAVE to do this cause you don't. You didn't do this to me..I did this to myself and I-" Before I could finish he cut me off.

"You are NOT a burden. You are my little sister and I love you. I don't care about having fun cause right now there's nothing I want more than to get my old little sister back. That girl who's smile could light up the whole room when she walked in, that girl who could always find something positive from negative things. I'm gonna help you through this and show you that there is a reason for everything. Together we can beat any storm that comes to our way. I promise you you don't ever need to feel like being a burden again."

When he was done I had tears falling down my cheeks again..how in the world I got so lucky to have a brother like him? He engulfed me in a big and warm hug and kissed the top of my head. God I missed these moments so bad. After a while of comfortable silence I took a deep breath and opened my mouth.

"So when are we leaving?"

Notes

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