After All That We've Been Through

Brian's POV

"Larry, how the hell are we going to fix this?"

"Relax, Matt, I already released a statement saying he had food poisoning from that dive restaurant you all had to go to last night. They are the only ones that canceled so hopefully we stopped the trend before the word spreads."

"Let's hope so or else we will be going broke!"

Fuck these assholes were in my dreams too? What happened to all the hot babes and their naked bodies I always fantasized about? Well, fuck...this blows!

I squinted my eyes, sensing the brightness of the room before I even opened my eyes. I felt like I had been hit by a fucking bus and my mouth was drier than the Grand Cannon. Hell, what did I get myself into now? And then it hits me...all the shit I've done in the last day came flying back into my now throbbing head.

"Will you guys shut up, he's waking up?" Said a sweet melodic voice. Wait a minute, I knew that voice! Those blue eyes came flooding back into my mind at that moment, causing my heart to palpitate. Some machine to the right of me started to beep and instantly sat up, looking around to see what the hell was going on.

"What the fuck?" I asked, before realizing that I had moved way too fast. A wave of dizziness hit be and I fell back against the pillow. "Where the hell am I and what happened?" I asked in a groggy tone which I attributed to my extremely dry throat. I put my arm over my eyes only to see a tube hanging out of me.
"Relax buddy." Those blue eyes turned on me and my heart skipped a beat. Not that I minded waking up to those eyes, but why was she here? Specially after I was such a dick to her. "You're in the hospital."

"Why the hell am I in the hospital?" Before anyone answered I already knew the answer. It was because I felt like death after trying to drink my memories away. Too bad that didn't fucking work!

"You had to get your stomach pumped, asshole," Matt said as he stepped up to the other side of my bed. He was smiling down at me with his stupid dimples. What the hell was wrong with him.

"That explains this feeling of death," I groaned, rolling away from him. It was then that the vision of me diving off the stage to throw up during the press conference came flashing into my mind. Nah...that had to be a dream. "Stop smiling at me, Sanders, your freaking me out! What is your problem?"

"Take a look at this," he chuckled, pushing his phone into my hands. And there it was, that moment of shame that I thought to be a dream. I was so screwed....

"Fuck...I thought that was all some kind of Nightmare!" I rolled over again, only to come face-to-face with those tired blue eyes.

"We wished it was a bad dream too," I heard short shit chuckle from somewhere in the room. Oh great, the gangs all here to see Brian at his worst.

"It certainly was one way to get ride of a relationship scandal." Was that Ryn. I didn't know, it was too entranced by the red headed beauty in front of me. I reached out to take one of her hands but she pulled it away with a look of disgust. Okay, I guess I deserved that.

"It's got over a 300,000 hits on youtube already."

I fucking hated my life. First i turned away the girl i loved and now I've gone and fucking embarrassed myself in front of the entire world. I slowly sat up again to see my best friend, Larry, Ryn, Kady, and the guys from Fatal Facade all standing around the room. What the hell? Did they think I was dying? This wasn't the first time I got my stomach pumped.

I ran my hands over my face before my eyes landed on Larry, begging him to tell me that he fixed this situation. He smiled and gave me a nod and a thumbs up. Oh thank god someone doesn't have their head in their ass.

"Okay, so when do we pack up for the show?" It had to be time to start moving again, right? I think our next show was in Ohio.

It was then that everyone's eyes looked away from me, almost like they didn't want to be the barer of bad news. "Someone better tell me what's going on!" I hissed, staring down Larry. I then looked over to Kady to see her cross her arms and bite her bottom lip. Now I knew something was up.

"Spit it out!" I yelled. "Kady you better fucking tell me cause I know no one else in the room has any balls."

"Well...the show directors in Ohio canceled our show. They didn't want to sell our new 'brand'." She sounded pissed like it was all my fault.

"So they canceled the whole festival?" I asked, my jaw dropped.

"No...they just asked for a new headliner from the Mayhem producers...and they delivered. Asking Alexandria will be going to Ohio instead of us," Zacky sighed.

I pinched the bridge of my nose. This just didn't make any sense! Asking Alexandria did way more drugs and partied more that both of our bands combined. "Larry, I thought you said you fixed this!" I snapped, turning to look at our manger. His head was hung and he refused to look at me.

"They canceled shortly after that press conference went viral and I hadn't had a chance to release a statement. I even tried calling them to explain but they had seen enough," he sighed. "Let's just hope we don't keep losing dates."

"Yeah..." I sighed, watching at the guys started to file out of the room. We all knew we were a little bit guilty and that we needed to be more carful with our actions from now on.

"Listen, Gates, you're stuck here for a couple more hours so we are going to go grab a bite to eat." Matt patted my shoulder with a small frown on his face. "We decided to stay in a small resort and have a little break for a couple days to recuperate. I'll be back to get you shortly. You going to be alright here?"

"I guess I don't have much of a choice." I put my hands over my face and let out a light scream. I wasn't about to sit here and stare at these ugly white walls with the flower wall paper. I didn't want to stay in my own head that long.

"You'll be fine, Gates, take a siesta," Johnny laughed as the started to head out.

As Kady stood up to follow my band mates out the door I grabbed her hand. She turned back around to look at me with pleading hurt eyes. It was then that I noticed that she was still wearing that little black lace dress. My dick twinges with excitement under the blankets.

"What do you want, Gates?" Kady sighed, looking into my eyes. My heart sank into my chest and I quickly dropped her hand. What the hell was I going to say to her that would change anything? She obviously hated my guts and I knew that I didn't deserve her.

"I-I--" I stammered trying to collect my thoughts.

"Listen, I don't have time for your games. I'm exhausted and I honestly can't stand to look at you," she snapped, putting her hands on her hips.

"Then why the hell are you here?" I snapped back, her words cutting like a knife.

"Because Ryn said it would be good publicity after the shit that my brother and Marley pulled." Her eyes flashed me with a warning look and I pinched the bridge of my nose. Well this conversation isn't going at all the way I wanted it to. Why can't I just admit to her what I true lay want?

"Well thanks for caring!" I scoffed.

Kady opened and closed her like she was going to say something but thought better of it. "Fuck you...you're the one who started this!" She hissed, stabbing her finger in my chest before turning and storming out the door.

"Ugh!" I screamed into my hands again. Why couldn't I just apologize?

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