Nothing lasts forever
But you're so far away...
"Sully?" I called out as I walked into my best friend's house. "Are you here?"
Nobody replied. He's probably asleep. I walked further into Jimmy's home and walked down the hall. I slowly opened his bedroom door to find it the room empty. I searched further into his home. The harder I looked the more I felt uneasy. Something in the pit of my stomach told me something bad happened. Something really bad. I brushed it off and went to look in the kitchen. The closer I got the more the uneasiness grew. I stepped into his kitchen and saw Jimmy laying face down on the floor. I panicked a little but calmed myself down. He probably got shit faced last night and passed out here. I turned him on his back and tried to wake him up.
"Sullyyyy. Wake uuuuup." I cooed at Jimmy. He looked paler than usual and didn't even stir. "Get your lazy ass up Sully."
He still didn't wake up and that feeling in my stomach sky rocketed. I shooked his shoulders slightly. "Sully."
Still no movement. It was almost as if he wasn't breathing. "Sully?"
Not even a sigh. "J-jimmy?"
I started to freak out. I put my hand under his nose and felt nothing. I felt my eyes tear up as I slowly moved to check his pulse. My shaky hand moved right over his neck and I placed my two fingers right under his jaw. I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I let out a blood curdling scream and burst into tears. Jimmy had no pulse.
"JASON!" I shrieked so loud I felt my vocal chords split.
I buried my face into Jimmy's chest. His body was motionless and his skin ice cold. I heard thedoor swing open and Jason run into my worst nightmare. He stopped in his tracks and gasped lightly.
"No..." He breathed before pulling out his phone.
I kept sobbing into my best friend's chest and I grasped his shirt tightly. I looked up at Jimmy and cried harder. I put my hands on his cheeks.
"JIMMY WAKE UP! PLEASE!" I sobbed while staring at his pale face.
I could hear Jason talking to the police as I screamed for Jimmy to wake up. This felt surreal. Jimmy can't be dead. He can't be. He's only 28. He had so much to live for.
"JIMMY PLEASE! PLEASE, PLEASE WAKE UP!"
I heard sirens blaring in the distance but I still shook his lifeless body.
"DEAR GOD NO." I begged loudly. "PLEASE TAKE ME INSTEAD. JIMMY CAN'T DIE. PLEASE GIVE HIM BACK AND TAKE MY LIFE INSTEAD."
I felt a pair of strong hands try to pry me off of Jimmy's body but I wasn't having it. I wiggled out of their grasp and cried into Jimmy's neck. Somebody grabbed my waist and pulled me away from him. Istruggled for a moment then broke down in their arms. I looked up and Jason was holding me.
"It's okay... Jimmy's in a better place now." Jason tried to soothe me but it didn't work for shit.
I looked behind me and the paramedics were taking Jimmy away. I got up and stopped them.
"Wait... let me say goodbye." The paramedic nodded and I kneeled down next to Jimmy. I leaned down and kissed his lips.
"I love you Sully. Please don't forget us. I'll see you soon buddy." I kissed him one more time and slowly stood up. "Goodbye Jimmy. Rest in peace."
The paramedics whisked Jimmy away to the morgue and I cried even more. I slowly pulled out my phone and dialed the only person I knew would understand me 100% right now.
"Hello?" Brian's gruff voice spoke through the phone.
"Brian." I croaked before crying harder.
"Woah Mo? What's wrong?"
Poor Brian. He has no idea about the tragedy that just occurred.
"B-brian. Something happened. T-to Jimmy." I sobbed into the phone.
"What is it? What happened. Is Jimmy okay?" Brian's voice filled with panic. I could hear him grabbing his keys.
"It's horrible Bri!Jimmy's... he's..." I couldn't say it. No matter how hard I tried. I didn't want to believe it was true, but it was. My worst nightmare has come to life.
"Jimmy's what?! What happened to him?!" I could tell Brian was on the verge of tears.
"Jimmy's.....gone."
"JACQUELINE WAKE UP!" I heard Brian scream. He shook my shoulders and my eyes snapped open.
"Jimmy. Where's Jimmy." I demanded, half-asleep.
I felt an extremely familiar pair of arms wrap around me. I smiled weakly and held onto Jimmy's forearms.
"Don't worry chickadee. I'm not leaving, I promise." He said to me while rubbing my back.
"Good. I don't think I can handle losing you again." I whispered into his chest.
Jimmy pulled away from me and smiled at me. I smiled back and kissed his cheek.
"What time is it?" I asked as I walked into the bathroom.
"6:48 in the morning." I heard Arin say.
"Jesus why so early?"
"You woke us up with your screaming and crying." Brian called out while I washed my face.
"Again?" I sighed.
"Wait again?" Arin asked as I walked back into the room and plopped down on the couch next to him.
"I have that nightmare almost every night. I usually don't have people stay the night but when I do they're used to early wake ups from my nightmares." I explained to him.
"I hated having to watch you cry when I couldn't hold you and tell you it's okay." Jimmy sighed.
"The fact that you were there is what matters." I smiled at him then got up. "I'm gonna get dressed. One thing to learn about me Arin, is that when I wake up I can't go back to sleep."
With that I disappeared into my room and walked to my dresser. Opening it up, I finally decided what to wear. I threw on a blue and white crop top with overalls on top. They stopped mid-thigh and I wore with thigh high socks with it. I slipped on my black high tops and threw my hair into a loose ponytail. I slipped in my favorite gauges and started on my makeup. I did a simple cat wing and put on coral lip gloss. When I was satisfied with my outfit, I walked back out to where the guys were. After we ate cookies, we ended up watching crappy movies until we all passed out. I plopped onto the couch and switched the TV on then gasped dramatically.
"JIMMY! SPONGEBOB'S ON!" I screamed as loud as I could.
"PAUSE THE SHOW I'M COMING." He shouted back. I felt the couch shake and looked over to see Jimmy practically squealing.
"I haven't watched Spongebob in years. Unpause it." He said eagerly.
I pressed play and started the show. We both sang along to the theme song and ignored Brian's remarks about our childish behavior. Me and Jimmy ended up watching 5 episodes before Brian and Arin complained about being late to the studio.
"You guys go ahead. Me and Jimmy are gonna finish watching." I said with my eyes glued to the screen.
"Are you sure? We can always wait for you guys." Arin stated, leaning over the couch.
I moved my gaze to his and smiled. "It's okay. You and Bri can tell the guys about last night then I'll bring the proof." I gestured to Jimmy.
"Matt's gonna shit himself..." Jimmy said nonchalantly.
I stifled a laugh and shook my head. "Alright. I'll see you when you guys get to the studio"
I quickly kissed Arin, completely ignoring Brian's shit-eating grin. "See you later Arin."
Brian cleared his throat. "Alright lovebirds. We gotta get going."
Arin smirked a little and kissed me again. "Later."
I waved at them both and turned back to face the TV. But Jimmy was in my way.
"So Arin huh?" He grinned widely at me and I smacked his arm.
"Oh shush."
We watched 2 more episodes then decided it was time to leave. I got into my car and waited for Jimmy to climb in. I turned on the radio and So Far Away started to play. I looked over to Jimmy and he was staring at the radio with a blank expression.
"Y'know, Brian wrote this about you." I unintentionally whispered.
Jimmy nodded slowly and kept his gaze on the radio. His eyes looked glossy and he was tearing up. I watched him stare at the radio as if he was deep in thought. Then I heard an extremely loud truck horn start to blare. I snapped my head up but was to late. We smashed head on into an eighteen-wheeler. I felt my consciousness start to fade as Jimmy, who was completely unharmed, screamed my name. I felt darkness consume me. The last thing I heard was Matt's voice.
"I have so much to say but you're so far away..."
Then I blacked out completely.
Nobody replied. He's probably asleep. I walked further into Jimmy's home and walked down the hall. I slowly opened his bedroom door to find it the room empty. I searched further into his home. The harder I looked the more I felt uneasy. Something in the pit of my stomach told me something bad happened. Something really bad. I brushed it off and went to look in the kitchen. The closer I got the more the uneasiness grew. I stepped into his kitchen and saw Jimmy laying face down on the floor. I panicked a little but calmed myself down. He probably got shit faced last night and passed out here. I turned him on his back and tried to wake him up.
"Sullyyyy. Wake uuuuup." I cooed at Jimmy. He looked paler than usual and didn't even stir. "Get your lazy ass up Sully."
He still didn't wake up and that feeling in my stomach sky rocketed. I shooked his shoulders slightly. "Sully."
Still no movement. It was almost as if he wasn't breathing. "Sully?"
Not even a sigh. "J-jimmy?"
I started to freak out. I put my hand under his nose and felt nothing. I felt my eyes tear up as I slowly moved to check his pulse. My shaky hand moved right over his neck and I placed my two fingers right under his jaw. I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I let out a blood curdling scream and burst into tears. Jimmy had no pulse.
"JASON!" I shrieked so loud I felt my vocal chords split.
I buried my face into Jimmy's chest. His body was motionless and his skin ice cold. I heard thedoor swing open and Jason run into my worst nightmare. He stopped in his tracks and gasped lightly.
"No..." He breathed before pulling out his phone.
I kept sobbing into my best friend's chest and I grasped his shirt tightly. I looked up at Jimmy and cried harder. I put my hands on his cheeks.
"JIMMY WAKE UP! PLEASE!" I sobbed while staring at his pale face.
I could hear Jason talking to the police as I screamed for Jimmy to wake up. This felt surreal. Jimmy can't be dead. He can't be. He's only 28. He had so much to live for.
"JIMMY PLEASE! PLEASE, PLEASE WAKE UP!"
I heard sirens blaring in the distance but I still shook his lifeless body.
"DEAR GOD NO." I begged loudly. "PLEASE TAKE ME INSTEAD. JIMMY CAN'T DIE. PLEASE GIVE HIM BACK AND TAKE MY LIFE INSTEAD."
I felt a pair of strong hands try to pry me off of Jimmy's body but I wasn't having it. I wiggled out of their grasp and cried into Jimmy's neck. Somebody grabbed my waist and pulled me away from him. Istruggled for a moment then broke down in their arms. I looked up and Jason was holding me.
"It's okay... Jimmy's in a better place now." Jason tried to soothe me but it didn't work for shit.
I looked behind me and the paramedics were taking Jimmy away. I got up and stopped them.
"Wait... let me say goodbye." The paramedic nodded and I kneeled down next to Jimmy. I leaned down and kissed his lips.
"I love you Sully. Please don't forget us. I'll see you soon buddy." I kissed him one more time and slowly stood up. "Goodbye Jimmy. Rest in peace."
The paramedics whisked Jimmy away to the morgue and I cried even more. I slowly pulled out my phone and dialed the only person I knew would understand me 100% right now.
"Hello?" Brian's gruff voice spoke through the phone.
"Brian." I croaked before crying harder.
"Woah Mo? What's wrong?"
Poor Brian. He has no idea about the tragedy that just occurred.
"B-brian. Something happened. T-to Jimmy." I sobbed into the phone.
"What is it? What happened. Is Jimmy okay?" Brian's voice filled with panic. I could hear him grabbing his keys.
"It's horrible Bri!Jimmy's... he's..." I couldn't say it. No matter how hard I tried. I didn't want to believe it was true, but it was. My worst nightmare has come to life.
"Jimmy's what?! What happened to him?!" I could tell Brian was on the verge of tears.
"Jimmy's.....gone."
"JACQUELINE WAKE UP!" I heard Brian scream. He shook my shoulders and my eyes snapped open.
"Jimmy. Where's Jimmy." I demanded, half-asleep.
I felt an extremely familiar pair of arms wrap around me. I smiled weakly and held onto Jimmy's forearms.
"Don't worry chickadee. I'm not leaving, I promise." He said to me while rubbing my back.
"Good. I don't think I can handle losing you again." I whispered into his chest.
Jimmy pulled away from me and smiled at me. I smiled back and kissed his cheek.
"What time is it?" I asked as I walked into the bathroom.
"6:48 in the morning." I heard Arin say.
"Jesus why so early?"
"You woke us up with your screaming and crying." Brian called out while I washed my face.
"Again?" I sighed.
"Wait again?" Arin asked as I walked back into the room and plopped down on the couch next to him.
"I have that nightmare almost every night. I usually don't have people stay the night but when I do they're used to early wake ups from my nightmares." I explained to him.
"I hated having to watch you cry when I couldn't hold you and tell you it's okay." Jimmy sighed.
"The fact that you were there is what matters." I smiled at him then got up. "I'm gonna get dressed. One thing to learn about me Arin, is that when I wake up I can't go back to sleep."
With that I disappeared into my room and walked to my dresser. Opening it up, I finally decided what to wear. I threw on a blue and white crop top with overalls on top. They stopped mid-thigh and I wore with thigh high socks with it. I slipped on my black high tops and threw my hair into a loose ponytail. I slipped in my favorite gauges and started on my makeup. I did a simple cat wing and put on coral lip gloss. When I was satisfied with my outfit, I walked back out to where the guys were. After we ate cookies, we ended up watching crappy movies until we all passed out. I plopped onto the couch and switched the TV on then gasped dramatically.
"JIMMY! SPONGEBOB'S ON!" I screamed as loud as I could.
"PAUSE THE SHOW I'M COMING." He shouted back. I felt the couch shake and looked over to see Jimmy practically squealing.
"I haven't watched Spongebob in years. Unpause it." He said eagerly.
I pressed play and started the show. We both sang along to the theme song and ignored Brian's remarks about our childish behavior. Me and Jimmy ended up watching 5 episodes before Brian and Arin complained about being late to the studio.
"You guys go ahead. Me and Jimmy are gonna finish watching." I said with my eyes glued to the screen.
"Are you sure? We can always wait for you guys." Arin stated, leaning over the couch.
I moved my gaze to his and smiled. "It's okay. You and Bri can tell the guys about last night then I'll bring the proof." I gestured to Jimmy.
"Matt's gonna shit himself..." Jimmy said nonchalantly.
I stifled a laugh and shook my head. "Alright. I'll see you when you guys get to the studio"
I quickly kissed Arin, completely ignoring Brian's shit-eating grin. "See you later Arin."
Brian cleared his throat. "Alright lovebirds. We gotta get going."
Arin smirked a little and kissed me again. "Later."
I waved at them both and turned back to face the TV. But Jimmy was in my way.
"So Arin huh?" He grinned widely at me and I smacked his arm.
"Oh shush."
We watched 2 more episodes then decided it was time to leave. I got into my car and waited for Jimmy to climb in. I turned on the radio and So Far Away started to play. I looked over to Jimmy and he was staring at the radio with a blank expression.
"Y'know, Brian wrote this about you." I unintentionally whispered.
Jimmy nodded slowly and kept his gaze on the radio. His eyes looked glossy and he was tearing up. I watched him stare at the radio as if he was deep in thought. Then I heard an extremely loud truck horn start to blare. I snapped my head up but was to late. We smashed head on into an eighteen-wheeler. I felt my consciousness start to fade as Jimmy, who was completely unharmed, screamed my name. I felt darkness consume me. The last thing I heard was Matt's voice.
"I have so much to say but you're so far away..."
Then I blacked out completely.
Notes
Oh shit...
Her nightmare was so hard to write I literally cried the whole time.
But what's gonna happen to Jacqueline?
What'll happen when the guys find out? (Especially Arin)
Fair warning: The next chapter is gonna have a shit ton of drama.
Stay tuned and enjoy<3
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