I sat on the sand and ran my fingers into the it. It was warm, I looked further at the sea and sighed. I couldn't help myself but think about what happened the night before. I haven't talk to Brian since then. I just went to sleep, Val tried to talk but I didn't want to, she understood me at least. The first thing I did when I woke up was to go at the beach. I knew I would received fast a phone call from Brian, since we were supposed to start in Math together. I looked around me, no one around. It was way to early for people to show up. I looked at my cellphone, 5 minutes since the class had started. I felt the phone buzz into my hand.

Where are you?

I didn't answer. He would know soon or later. I laid down onto the sand and closed my eyes. I maybe laid there for about 10 minutes, I opened my eyes when I heard someone's footsteps coming closer to me. It was Brian, I sat down and look over at him. He looked angry but desesparated in the same time, he stopped next to me and took a cigarette into his mouth and lit it. He smoked some of it and sighed.

“Where's the Hayley I used to know?..” He sat next to me.

I looked in front of me. I didn't what to answer to that, whatever I was saying to him, he would never understand me.

“You know, if you do that every day, they're gonna kick you out.”

I nodded still not looking at him. I took my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them.

“And that's really what you want.” Brian said as he sighed again.

Yes, that's what I want. I thought in my head, I wasn't going to say it cause I knew he would get angry at me.

“It's been only one fucking day we're back, please try to think before you ta..”

“I thought a lot. I know what I want.” I said cutting him and looked back into his eyes. His eyes were red and he had dark circles under them, probably from the lack of sleep.

“Think further, have you thought about me too? What are you going to do, leave me too?!” Brian said with pain in his heart. His voice was trembling. He smoked the last bit of his cigarette left and threw it on the sand.

I looked back in front of me, I haven't really think about those things. I couldn't answer. I felt my throat getting tighter, I couldn't keep my tears in anymore. I didn't want to leave him, I just wanted to be clear in my head for a while and I knew this couldn't happen there. Brian sighed and took his hand in his face.

“Will you fucking talk too please?! I need to know! Are you going to leave me?!” He said as he became really irritated. Pushing me to talk.

“I don't know!” I said as I cried into my knees. Brian stood up and started somehow panicking. He really wanted an answer, and I didn't have an answer. “I just need to have some time!” I said still sobbing into my knees, I didn't want to look at him, I knew he was really annoyed and on the edge of crying.

“Fuck it! I don't wanna play anymore! I've had enough!” He turned his back at me and started walking away. I stood up and watched him walking further.

“Brian! Don't go please!” I said as I ran over him. I didn't want him to run away like this. I grabbed his arm and tried to touch him but at the last moment he pushed me away.

“Just get out Hayley. Do whatever you want, I don't give a shit anymore!” He yelled at me, and he was serious, his eyes were teary, I couldn't see straight because of all the sobbing. I let him go. I let myself fall onto the sand and looked at him walking away.

“I love you..” I tried to say out loud but I was too much in schock for it.

Notes

Almost the Final! DOn't worry guys I will write a sequel ;) and sorry about the waiting, I will try to update more often ! I hope you enjoy xx