(Love) Contract

Tara’s POV

We drove to the hotel in silence; Brian didn’t talk to me, just laid his head on my shoulder and let me run my finger through his hair.
When we arrived, I paid the cab and we headed to our room, still without talking, he never let go of my hand and when the door of our room closed, Brian suddenly turned towards me and pushed me against the door, he began to kiss me and tried to undress me.
I was taken completely off guard and tried to push him away.
“Brian?!” He looked confused.
“Come on, Tara… you want it to, I know it.” He sounded eager but I shook my head.
What was he thinking?

I took his hand and a smile crossed over his face, I guided him to the bed and sat him down, he grabbed the hem of his shirt, but before he could pull it up I put my hands on top of his.
“Stop it, Bri.” I smiled and sat down beside him, still holding his hands in mine.
His eyes locked with mine, but they were glazed over, not really focusing.
“Brian, talk to me. What’s wrong with you? Why did you take the pill?” He leaned back on the bed and took me with him, we were both staring at the ceiling.
I didn’t know if he would remember anything we were talking in the morning, but even if he would, I would be honest with him and I would give him something from me.
“Did you ever take Ecstasy?” He asked me and I had to nod.
“Then why ask, you know why…” Brian replied and all the eagerness from earlier gone.
He had a point, why take ecstasy… you took it when you felt down, when you wanted a high…
“Alright, what happened that you needed to feel happier?” I asked him and he didn’t reply.

I pushed myself up on one elbow and looked at him from the side, he didn’t look my way so I put my hand on his cheek and move his head to me.
I stroked his cheek with my thumb and he finally met my eyes.
“I had an argument with Matt. He pisses me off.” Brian sounded angry and I kept on caressing his face to remind him, I wasn’t his enemy.
I snuggled my body closer to his but my hand never left his cheek.
“Why did he piss you off Brian?”
“You tell me Tara!” Brian moved so quickly that I couldn’t react, he suddenly had me pulled underneath him, his nose touching mine.
“I..I?” I stuttered still a little shocked and out of breathe.
“Yes, you. I want the truth… what is going on between him and you, Tara!” He demanded.
I swallowed thickly, didn’t really know how to answer him.
“Ah ah, before you talk again, tell me the truth, don’t even bother lying to me.” This time he put his hand on my cheeks, caressing my face, turning everything around, while he sill lay on top of me.
“Matt and I, we had sex.” I admitted and Brian’s hands stopped caressing me, he stared into my face, not showing any emotion.
“Son of a bitch… I knew it.” Brian began to move his calloused fingers over my lips and further over my cheek.
“He likes you… he is doing it again… he is doing it fucking again!” Brian sounded pissed and I didn’t know why.
“What is he doing again?” I asked quietly.
“Takes what is mine…” Brian says a little absent.
“What do you mean?” I asked and Brian shook his head.
“Brian, talk to me…”
“He will see what this gets him, this time… Jimmy was right… he was right.” Brian didn’t make sense, was it still the drug in his system talking or what was going on?
“Tara, do you like Matt?” Brian asked and I frowned even more, this was a even harder questions, I moved my head to the side, but Brian pulled it back so I had to look at him, my cheeks were hot and he must notice it as well.
“Answer enough.”
Brian moved away from me, still lying on the bed, both in silence again, not talking. Both lost in thoughts…
After a while he began to breathe heavily, it didn’t sound normal.
I sat up and looked at his face, he was pale.
“I’m going to be sick.” Brian swallowed thickly and stood up, swaying on his feet.
I held my hand out and steadied him. I brought him to the bathroom and as soon as he walked towards the toilet, he got on his knees and vomited.
I kneeled down beside him, holding his hair away…

“Sorry…” He mumbled and I just stroked his hair, without saying anything… I still wasn’t really sure what was going on and I had to talk to him tomorrow again, when he was sober and the drug really left his system.
“Tara, will you get me some water from the bar.” Brian asked and I stood up.
“Sure, you need something else?”
He shook his head, I moved to the sink, grabbed a washcloth and handed it to Brian so he could wash his face, he nodded in thanks and I moved out of the room.

I went to the Bar and got a water bottle for Brian, when I arrived back to our room, Brian lay in the middle of our bed already dead asleep. I put the water bottle on the nightstand and put the blanket on top of him.
“Damn Brian, why are you not talking to me…” I murmured and sat beside him for a while. When I was sure he wouldn’t wake up again I moved out of the room. I needed some fresh air and had to think about everything. Does Brian have more feelings towards me? Was that the problem?

Matt’s POV

I paced the lobby of the hotel since I arrived here 30 minutes ago. I wanted to talk to Brian, but knew that it was too late for that.
I couldn’t find Jimmy, he must be in his hotel room as well, and I didn’t know how to ask him about his mysterious words.
The past repeating itself? What past? What does he mean?!
I sighed heavily and sat at the Bar, couldn’t sleep anyway…
“Hey”
My heart skipped a beat at the soft voice.
“Hi” I replied and Tara motioned to the chair beside me, “Can I?”
I stood up and nodded at her, I pulled the chair away and helped her into it.
“You still up? Where is Brian?” She looked a little uncertain and I frowned.
“Are you okay?” She smiled a little and nodded.
“Yeah, Brian is sleeping already, but I couldn’t.” She shrugged, but I had a feeling she wasn’t telling me everything.
“Is he okay? He and I had a little fight earlier today…” I admitted and Tara nodded.
“He said something like that.” Tara said and I met her eyes, her hands lay on the counter of the bar and I felt the need to lay my hand on top of it, feel her smaller one in mine, but I refused to give in.
“Did he act out? He acted strange… even for Gates strange, I mean.” She nodded.
“Yeah, I think he was still a little… hmm… upset because of the argument. But he calmed down. I will talk to him tomorrow.”
“Do you want to go for a walk?” I asked her before thinking better about it.
“Yes, some fresh air would be good.”

We walked around the hotel and found a park in the dark, we talked about everything except Brian, I was glad we had some normal topics.
We even laughed together, after wandering around for a while we sat down on a bench in the park and I took the chance to sit close to her, my arm rested on the back of the bench, some of her hairs were falling over it and I played with the strands.
“I like you, Tara.” I admitted and her face snapped to me.
“I know I shouldn’t… but I can’t help it.”
She smiled and leaned her back against my side, I laid my arm around her, pulling her close and she let me.
“I feel the same.” She said quietly and I breathed deeply in and out.
“That’s good.” I smiled and she looked up to me.
“But we can’t do anything about it.”
“I know.”
“Not yet.” I told her… maybe not ever. But what could I do about my feelings, this night was making me realize just how much I liked her and wanted to spend time with her and made me even more aware and jealous of the fact, that Brian had her around him the entire time…
She turned towards me and I leaned to her, allowing me a kiss, a taste of her perfect lips.
I know I shouldn’t but it was the middle of the night, dark… nobody was around.
Her hands found their way around my neck and I pulled her even closer, until she pulled away.
“We better go back.”
I shook my head, “Not yet.”
I kissed her again and let my hands wander underneath her shirt, stroking her soft skin, she shivered but pulled away from my embrace and shook her head.
“We need to go back.” I closed my eyes and nodded.
That’s all I had, this short moment, and I knew this was only getting worse from now on.
I pulled her into a last hug, kissed the top of her head and then we walked back, side by side… like friends… nothing more.

Notes

Ohhhoooo what will Tara do now?!
How will she handle the whole situation?!

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