Don't Respect the Words You're Speaking
You stand infront of me and Bite the hand that feeds
Zacky was pulled off me right then in there, which i was thankful for and yet disappointed. Jimmy had Zacky pinned against the fridge, yelling at him for being stupid and needed to leave this instant. Zacky looked at me begging for help with the green eyes that haunted me everyday.
" I will set up a meeting for us so you can get some answer's. But that is IT. NOTHING ELSE, no more no less" I told him he sighed as he closed his eyes and rubbed them as he was still pint up against the fridge by Jimmy who refused to move.
" Fine, just call me then to tell me when" He said Jimmy let loose as everyone in the room stepped back a bit and watched as he walked to the door. I heard the door shut and then a car start, it went quiet after that, quiet and black.
I looked around the room, people were crowding around me whispering and all marked with a worried face. " Do you think she is prego again. I mean i read this story that a girl got pregnant from just a kiss. Maybe Zacky got her pregnant again just by a look" I laughed.
" That's impossible Michelle. Nice to see you again, honestly this isn't how i imagined it" I told her as i sat up. the all got closer to me bringing me ice, blankets, food, and water. " Chill, I'm fine. Just overwhelmed. I wasn't expecting him" I grunted through my teeth. I stood up taking the advil and water. They all looked at me with pity eyes. " STOP IT, I DON'T NEED YOUR DAMN PITY. I DIDN'T NEED IT WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH OLIVER AND I DON'T NEED IT KNOW" I stomped off like my four year old did when making a point.
" Silv, were sorry. He isn't stupid, he found out someway." Syn ( calling him that because i prefer that over having to spell his other name). said as he came up to me and gave me a hug. " It's good to see you" I just gave him a grin. As i looked around i noticed my son was no were in sight.
" Where did Johnny take Oli" I asked sitting down on Jimmy's lap and stretched out. He petted my head and laughed.
" To my place. That's how i found out about Zacky" He lifted me up and walked me to the guest room. He tossed me onto the bed and laughed as i just let my self plop on it. " What are you going to tell him" I covered my eyes and sighed.
" I'm not. I'll leave tonight with Oli and life will be normal again" I said thinking which person i wanted to bring me back to my house. That was till Jimmy blew up.
" NO!!! You know what, you are my best friend Silver but Zacky is my Best Friend too. All of us that new about you and Oliver promised not to tell him and promised not to tell you about what kind of shit he's been going through sense you left. But I don't give a flying monkeys but anymore." He pulled my hands away from my eyes and forced me to sit up and look at him.
" He drank sooooo much after you left, and he was getting better. He was dating this chic name Gena after you left. One day though, out of no where he blew up and cussed her out cussed me out broke stuff. and you want to know why" I had tears welling up in my eyes.
" I know you don't want to hear this but your going to" He grabbed my hands and rubbed them. " He got a package in the mail. this was about the time Oli was 11 months and Syn and Michelle had sent out their wedding invitation's. Your name was at the bottom under brides maids... he got rid of everything he had that he knew you wouldn't like."
" Why"
" He thought he had a chance. But he saw you for the ceremony and then you just disappeared. Remember that, he meant Oliver that day and you had non-stop panic attacks, one after another. I thought you were going to die. Zacky even held him, God Zachary is a Dumbass, he held his own son not knowing it. I mean its like you took a picture of Zacky when he was a baby and fucking photocopied it." He laughed. I thought about it and laughed. I remember seeing him hold Oli in his hands and playing with him right after the Ceromony.... for a slight moment i thought that we could make it, as a family.
" Then a chic came in and started to mac lips with him and i left" I said knowing how it went.
" That was Gena" It all came together then. I was beyond pissed, knowing that i meant her and didnt do shit.
" Gena... Genell" I asked and he nodded. " THATS THE DUMBASS WHORE HE CHEATED ON ME WITH" I Yelled pushing away from him. " you know what she did before i left. she came up to me and told me they were getting married" Jimmy looked beyond shocked.
" Well i see why your pissed.... but my whole point here was that you both went through major shit. You don't need to tell him about Oli, but at least give him some answer's and i think it would be better if you got answers too" He stood up,kissed me on the cheek and looked me in the eyes " I love you, you know that right"
" Love you too, Jim Jim" i told him as he walked out of the room.
Before he shut the door he popped his head back in. " Silly" I looked up to see what he wanted.
" I wont let him hurt you"
" I will set up a meeting for us so you can get some answer's. But that is IT. NOTHING ELSE, no more no less" I told him he sighed as he closed his eyes and rubbed them as he was still pint up against the fridge by Jimmy who refused to move.
" Fine, just call me then to tell me when" He said Jimmy let loose as everyone in the room stepped back a bit and watched as he walked to the door. I heard the door shut and then a car start, it went quiet after that, quiet and black.
I looked around the room, people were crowding around me whispering and all marked with a worried face. " Do you think she is prego again. I mean i read this story that a girl got pregnant from just a kiss. Maybe Zacky got her pregnant again just by a look" I laughed.
" That's impossible Michelle. Nice to see you again, honestly this isn't how i imagined it" I told her as i sat up. the all got closer to me bringing me ice, blankets, food, and water. " Chill, I'm fine. Just overwhelmed. I wasn't expecting him" I grunted through my teeth. I stood up taking the advil and water. They all looked at me with pity eyes. " STOP IT, I DON'T NEED YOUR DAMN PITY. I DIDN'T NEED IT WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH OLIVER AND I DON'T NEED IT KNOW" I stomped off like my four year old did when making a point.
" Silv, were sorry. He isn't stupid, he found out someway." Syn ( calling him that because i prefer that over having to spell his other name). said as he came up to me and gave me a hug. " It's good to see you" I just gave him a grin. As i looked around i noticed my son was no were in sight.
" Where did Johnny take Oli" I asked sitting down on Jimmy's lap and stretched out. He petted my head and laughed.
" To my place. That's how i found out about Zacky" He lifted me up and walked me to the guest room. He tossed me onto the bed and laughed as i just let my self plop on it. " What are you going to tell him" I covered my eyes and sighed.
" I'm not. I'll leave tonight with Oli and life will be normal again" I said thinking which person i wanted to bring me back to my house. That was till Jimmy blew up.
" NO!!! You know what, you are my best friend Silver but Zacky is my Best Friend too. All of us that new about you and Oliver promised not to tell him and promised not to tell you about what kind of shit he's been going through sense you left. But I don't give a flying monkeys but anymore." He pulled my hands away from my eyes and forced me to sit up and look at him.
" He drank sooooo much after you left, and he was getting better. He was dating this chic name Gena after you left. One day though, out of no where he blew up and cussed her out cussed me out broke stuff. and you want to know why" I had tears welling up in my eyes.
" I know you don't want to hear this but your going to" He grabbed my hands and rubbed them. " He got a package in the mail. this was about the time Oli was 11 months and Syn and Michelle had sent out their wedding invitation's. Your name was at the bottom under brides maids... he got rid of everything he had that he knew you wouldn't like."
" Why"
" He thought he had a chance. But he saw you for the ceremony and then you just disappeared. Remember that, he meant Oliver that day and you had non-stop panic attacks, one after another. I thought you were going to die. Zacky even held him, God Zachary is a Dumbass, he held his own son not knowing it. I mean its like you took a picture of Zacky when he was a baby and fucking photocopied it." He laughed. I thought about it and laughed. I remember seeing him hold Oli in his hands and playing with him right after the Ceromony.... for a slight moment i thought that we could make it, as a family.
" Then a chic came in and started to mac lips with him and i left" I said knowing how it went.
" That was Gena" It all came together then. I was beyond pissed, knowing that i meant her and didnt do shit.
" Gena... Genell" I asked and he nodded. " THATS THE DUMBASS WHORE HE CHEATED ON ME WITH" I Yelled pushing away from him. " you know what she did before i left. she came up to me and told me they were getting married" Jimmy looked beyond shocked.
" Well i see why your pissed.... but my whole point here was that you both went through major shit. You don't need to tell him about Oli, but at least give him some answer's and i think it would be better if you got answers too" He stood up,kissed me on the cheek and looked me in the eyes " I love you, you know that right"
" Love you too, Jim Jim" i told him as he walked out of the room.
Before he shut the door he popped his head back in. " Silly" I looked up to see what he wanted.
" I wont let him hurt you"
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Please post the 2nd part soon!
5/25/14