Carry On

I tightly tied a towel around my body before rejoining the bedroom with a pot of lavender body creme. I sat on the bed, with my legs lifted and I started to rub in the moisturiser, while Brian watched biting his nails.

"I'm mad at you Renee"

"I know," I sighed with guilt. "Everybody is. I get what I did ok? It was shitty of me. But no one has given me any chance to explain myself"

"Yeah I understand" He nodded sitting next to me, but opposite. He flicked his finger inside the pot, and took my leg doing it for me. "I just, can't watch you get so down"

"It's my fault"

"I know it is, but you're my wife. And no matter how mad I am at you, it hurts me to see you like this" his eyes glued to my legs as he started to massage them comfortingly. "You have a lot of explaining, making up and apologising to do"

"Will you let me explain?" I asked.

"You may as well"

"Thank you.." I cleared my throat and laid out flst on my back, just enjoying the simple touch Brian was giving me. It had been so long since any sign of love or comfort from him. "I just, loved spending so much time with Zack you know? Since our wedding he'd, distanced himself from me. Pretty bad. I just, got worried that maybe it would go back to the way it was"

"Whether I believe you or not, doesn't matter. But you have to tell the truth to Zack" Brian was being harsh to me, but it was what I needed in all honesty. Just some brutal home truths.

"That is the truth Brian. And as if he'd believe me if I simply told him I woke up and remembered everything. I just, enjoyed everyone being close to me again. Everyone. They seemed to, worry more, and, want to see me more. Even dad, Brian. Dad calls me alot now"

"If all you wanted was attention--"

"No!" I interrupted. "Not attention. I just, loved having my family and friends around me more. God, Brian. I know this isn't sounding great and I know I iv have no excuse"

"Sweetie, if a bit of love was all you needed you just had to speak up. Not lie to everyone you're close to. And me, you lied to me Ren and I can't forget that"

"I didn't mean to hurt you. Or anyone"

"I know Ren. But, you do know it's not as easy as that right? I mean, Zack is -heartbroken. Absolutely heartbroken,"

"Brian you don't have to tell me that, I already know. He won't let me in to talk, or anything" I sighed into my hands. Brian stopped on my legs, and laid next to me. "I just, need you so bad right now"

"I'm here" he said quietly, flipping himself over onto his stomach. "I'm sorry for not speaking you for a while but, you had to understand what you did"

"I get it" I shouted. "My husband, my best friend, my mom, friends and even my own fucking daughter have made me understand what I did"

"Tomorrow, we'll go to Zacks. He will talk to you"

"Kay," I sighed. Brian sat up and started walking away.

"Need anything? Just gonna go check Gray"

"I need a hug," I sniggered again stopping my cries.

Brian let out a huge sigh before rushing over to me. He pulled me up and dragged me inside of his arms.

"I love you Renee. But you can't play the victim in this"

"I know. Just, thank you for sticking by me. I love you too Bri"

"Now, I think you deserve you're present now"

Notes

As usual, comments please. Do you think Brians being reasonable? Do any of you feel sorry for Ren??