A few years later…

Matt’s POV

“Really?” I looked at Zacky sitting across from me in my living room.
“Yeah, really.” I nodded and buried my face into my hands.
“What happened?” Zacky asked and opened another beer bottle.
“It just doesn’t feel right anymore.. since..” I swallowed, it’s been years now still it hurts to think about it and say it aloud was even harder.
“Since Jimmy died… we weren’t the same…” I finished finally.
“Fuck man, I know… but you and Val… when I thought about a couple which fits perfectly together, it were you two… she was always there…” Zack said and sighed loudly.
“I know… believe me I know. We talked about it and I know that Val still wants to try but…” I shook my head.
“Is it over for good.. I mean no way back?” Zack asked and I took a big gulp from my beer.
“I mean.. yeah I thought so… but we agreed on having a break.. maybe the time apart will change something… I don’t know…” I shrugged my shoulders.
“Hmm.. I’m sorry man.”
“Thanks… Now, I don’t even have the tour to concentrate on…” I finished the beer and grabbed another one from the table.
“If you are feeling bad on anything you can always come over, Matt. No matter when or what’s going on, you know that right?!”
“I know and I appreciate that.” I clapped him on the back.
“Now get the hell out of here.”
“You really alright?”
“Yes, now leave.”
Zacky got up and reluctantly walked to my front door but finally left.

My phone rang and I looked at the caller and sighed.
“Val? What’s going on?”
“Just wanted to know if you arrived home safely.”
“Val a break and getting distance is only possible if we are not talking to each other every single day and you if you keep calling me.” I told her and was a little annoyed.
How could I find out if my feelings for her are still there when she wouldn’t even give me a chance to figure it out?!
I didn’t even get the chance to miss her because either she called me or she just stood at my door.
“I know… but you didn’t reply to my message, so I just wanted to hear if you are alright.”
“I’m alright. Thanks… now please don’t call me again. If I got something to talk about I will call you.”
I hung up.
Wasn’t the nicest ways I knew that but she had to give me some space to make up my mind.

Alicia’s POV

“Don’t forget, I will pick you up at 7, you can’t back out on the date.” Gary smiled and I replied the smile. He was one of my colleagues and I knew this rule about you shouldn’t start something with a guy from your work but we are not really working together as in one office.
We were just working in one company.
And he tried a long time to get me on a date and now I finally told him I would.
He was nice and I think I deserved something nice and when Gary could offer that to me, why the hell not.
“Yes, I won’t forget. Thank you.” I smiled and waved when I grabbed my back and walked out of the office.
I would head to the gym do some sports, then back home get ready for the date and have a wonderful evening with Gary.
And tomorrow, yeah.. tomorrow would be totally different.
I had an appointment with my doc, we had to talk about my past… again… I knew this chapter wasn’t done… but I hoped it wouldn’t get back to me so soon.
But I wouldn’t think about this now… I couldn’t… I wanted to enjoy the time.
I went home grabbed my sports bag and went to my gym, I have been here two times a week.
Mostly in the evening like now after work but today I would only make a small routine and then had to get ready for my date.
I smiled at the thought, a date… finally after such a long time…

After one hour of working out in the gym I went home and took a shower right away.
When I was done I walked with a towel around my body to my bedroom and picked out a nice dress from my date.
He didn’t tell me where we were going but he said he knew a nice restaurant, so let’s see.
I dropped the towel and let my hand move over my lower belly, my past - I wouldn’t get back the time I had lost during my hospital stays in the past… and wished I never had to think about it again…
I quickly dressed and went to the bathroom to dry my hair and put on a little make-up.
At point seven my doorbell rang and I smiled, he was on time.
I liked that…
I walked down and opened the door with a smile.
Gary covered half of his face with a bunch of flowers.
“Hey Alicia, you look fantastic.”
“Thank you.” He held the flowers out for me to take.
“For you.”
I took the flowers, “Oh wow, thanks, these are beautiful.”
I put the flowers into a vase with water then I grabbed my purse and walked back to Gary.
“You ready?”Gary asked with a smile.
“Yes, we can go.”
Gary held the car door open for me and the whole evening he was a complete gentleman.
He had chosen a nice Italian restaurant and he had ordered some wine for us and after the main menu we even ate a little dessert.
It wasn’t that late so we decided to have a small walk on the beach.
Gary laid his jacket around my shoulder and we talked about everything, about the job since we both had this in common but also about private things.
When it was well past midnight Gary drove me back home.
He brought me back to my front door and we stood before each other.
We really had fun and he was an amazing guy, but the whole time I didn’t feel this spark between us.
“I had a wonderful evening.” Gary said and smiled.
“Yes, it was really nice. Thank you.” I smiled back at him.
“I would like to repeat this, what do you think?” Gary asked hopeful.
I wanted to be honest with him, so I wasn’t sure about how to say this.
“I really had fun Gary and I would want to go out with you again, I just…” Before I could finish my sentence Gary leaned forward and captured my lips with his.
I was perplexed at his move but soon he moved back and looked at me with a half smile.
“Sorry.. I didn’t mean to.. I mean..” Gary looked a little embarrassed.
“No.. I..” Now this really way embarrassing.
“What did you want to say?” Gary started again.
“I mean… Gary I would like to go out with you again, but as a friend… I think you noticed this as well… there is no spark…” I tried to describe.
“Yes, I think so, too. I am sorry… I shouldn’t have kissed you, but I just had to try it…”
“No problem. So again, thank you for the evening.” I moved towards him and kissed his cheek.
“Thank you. We will see us tomorrow at work?” Gary asked.
“No, I got a day off tomorrow. But next week… Bye Gary.”
“Bye Alicia, have a nice weekend.”
“You too.”
With that I opened my door and went inside.

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