*Jessy's POV*
"So I'm sure you two would like some alone time," Matt said suddenly, "and Chris wanted someone to let them know if everything was alright so we're going to go back over to there bus and let you guys talk or whatever it is you want to do." I stood up and wrapped Matt in a hug, catching him off guard. "Thank you for stopping me," I whispered. He kissed the top of my head, "don't worry about it."
Once the others were gone I returned to my spot on the floor infront of Zack. "Do you want to talk about this baby?" I asked as I grabbed his hand gently. "I was so scared Jessy." He whispered. "I'm sorry baby," the words were bearly audible. "Do you mind me asking why?" He asked, finally looking me in the eye.
"The thing is I don't really know why," I said with a sigh, "I just...... I felt like..... well that't the problem. I felt. I'm just not able to process emotions like most people do. I don't know how to explain it to someone who's never felt it....." He looked at me with so much pity. Almost the way someone would look at a stray dog. The look of 'I want to help you'. I knew the look so well.
I crawled into his lap and curled up against his chest. "I'm sorry Zack," I choked out, "I didn't want to hurt you. I only wanted to hurt myself, I never thought about how much it would hurt you." He didn't respond. "Baby please just say something." I begged, "I don't even care if you yell at me. Just say something!"
"Jessy," he sighed, "I'm not mad at you and I'm not going to yell. I love you Jessy. My love for you includes my love for all your imperfections. I wouldn't have you anyother way." He ran his hand up and down my back, trying to calm me down. "Do you want an asprin or something?" He asked gently, "I saw those cuts, they have to hurt pretty damn bad." I shook my head viciously, "no," I said, "no asprin. I won't take painkillers."
*Zack's POV*
"Baby, do you mind if I ask why you won't take anything for pain?" I asked cautiously. She sighed, "I turned to them for a long time. After he took all my blades and I still needed to have something." "Who exactly is 'he'?" I asked. "Hunter," she replied, "Hunter found out and took them all and gave them to Dan and Dan locked them up. I had no way of getting them untill they both felt I had recovered enough to have them back."
She looked up at me, her face still wet from tears. I wipped away the streaks and kissed her gently on the lips. "No painkillers, I can respect that. Do you want a cigarette? I asked, trying desperatly to help her feel better. She nodded and climbed off my lap so I could grab my pack of cigarettes and find an ash tray.
I handed her a cigarette and the lighter. I watched as she tried a few times to start the lighter, but her hands were shaking too much for her to get it lit. "Here baby," I said, taking the lighter from her and lighting it in one smooth motion. She took a deep breath and visably relaxed as she exhaled. I lit my own cigarette and did the same.
"You can have another one if you want to babe," I said as she dropped the butt into the ashtray. "That'd be great," she said as she took another one, sucsessfully lighting her own this time. She took a few drags before climbing onto my lap with a wide grin. "You know babe," she paused to take another drag and blow the smoke straight into the air, "how about we pretend this whole thing never happened? Let's just act like everythings okay and I didn't hurt myself? I want you in bed, now." She leaned in so she was right beside my ear, "baby please," she whispered.
"Tell you what baby," I said, "I'll get into bed with you on one condition, I get to make love to you. No hitting, no screaming, no begging, just love." She froze and for a second I thought I'd crossed the line, but then she put out her cigarette, wrapped her arms around my neck and started with a slow, pationate kiss.
I grabbed ahold of her thighs and she wrapped her legs around my waist as I stood up. I made my way blindly to the bunks before setting her down long enough for us to get eachothers clothes off. Once we were releaved of our clothes we both clammered rather ungracefully into my bunk. Once in the bunk, our lips connected again with even more passion than before.
"You ready baby?" I asked. She nodded desperatley, cueing me to slide into her. She let out a small sigh of relief as I started to move slowley. I began to gently nibble on her collar bone, making her moan out my name. "You like that baby?" I whispered. She moaned again, I'll assume that's a yes. I sped up my hips slightly, earning a hiss out of the Jessy.
*Jessy's POV*
Zack was driving me insane, and I'm sure he was well aware of it. I never thought that making love would be this good, I'd always thought it'd be dull and boring. I felt like I was floating on cloud nine, I felt nothing but pure pleasure and joy. "Zack," I whined, "I'm so close baby. I can't take this much longer." "Just hold on a little longer baby," he said before our lips connected.
Zack pulled his mouth away from mine, "you can come baby," he whispered. I moaned and gripped the sheets as my orgasm took controll of my body. Zack started to come soon after me. When we both finished Zack dropped ontop of me. "That was......" I trailed off, searching for a word to describe what just happened. "I agree," Zack said as he pulled out of me, rolled me onto my side and laid down behind be so we could spoon.
I felt my eyes growing heavy as he sang to me quietly. "I love you baby," I said before drifting off.

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*Zack's POV*
"Zack, Jess, where you guys at?" Matt's booming voice woke me. I slid out of the bunk as gently as I could manage to, put on my boxers and stumbled out of the bunk area. "Keep it down asshole!" I mumbled Matt, "Jess is sleeping!" "Looks like she wasn't the only one that was sleeping." Matt chuckled, "and it also appears that you two made up." He motioned to my hair, wich I'm sure was sticking in a million different directions.
"Anyway," Matt said, "it's storming so they cancled the rest of the shows for tonight, we won't have to preform untill tomorrow." " Great," I said, "can I go back to bed now?" Matt chuckled, "yes, you're free to return to your bunk. But one thing before you go, if any of us need to go back there will everyone be decent or should we just steer clear?" "I'll close the curtain," I said through a yawn, "but you'll have to just step over the clothes. I don't feel like picking them up." I mumbled before walking away.
Once I returned to the bunk area I slipped off my boxers, climbed back in behind Jessy and closed the curtains. It was only a matter of seconds before I was asleep.

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