you saved me

After a few hours of swimming we decided to go inside for lunch. We were greeted at the door by a yellow lab. I sat town on the floor and started petting her. "Uh-oh looks like Bella made a new friend!" Matt said with a chuckle. I giggled as I continued to pet the dog. "Come on Jess, lets go eat." Zack said with a grin, "I promise Bella will follow you."
I stood up and followed the guys to a kitchen. Zack and I sat down at the table as Matt dug through the freezer. "Found it!" He exclaimed as he pulled out a frozen pizza. He put it in the oven, set a timer then walked over to join Zack and I.
"So," Matt said as he sat down, "I hear you have some stage fright issues," "did you now." I said, glaring at Zack. "Yes," he continued, ignoring my obvious anger, "he told me because I used to have stage fright and he tought I could help you." I sighed and relaxed, "I appreciate it but I'll never get over it. It's not worth it, I'm not that good anyways." "Well I've also been told that you'd say that and that it's completly untrue." He said with a grin. "Fuck," I mumbled under my breath, "there's no way I'm getting out of this is there?" Matt and Zack wore matching grins as they both shook their heads.
"We have a few minutes before lunch is ready, let's do something to give me an idea how much work needs to be done." Matt said as he got up from the table. When he dissapeared from the room I whirled around to face Zack. "What the hell?" I whispered, not sure if Matt was out of earshot or not. Before Zack could respond Matt was back. I turned to see a black bandana in his hand.
"I'm going to try blind folding you," he bagan to explain, "so we can tell how deep it runs. If it's just seeing people or knowing they're there." I nodded nervously and he tied the bandana around my eyes.
He grabbed my hand and pulled me to my feet. "I want you to sing the first song to pop into your head. Whenever your ready." I took a deep breath and started quietly into gunslinger. My voice shook and my heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. I felt my hands start to tremble the way they always do when I'm nervous. I put my hands behind my back to try to hide it. That's when I gave up.
"I can't do this," I said in defeat. I took off my blind fold to see Matt looking completley shocked. "I have honestly never seen anyone get that nervous over singing infront of only two people." I ploped down in my chair, "I told you I couldn't do it." I folded my arms on the table and rested my head on my arms.
Zack reached over and started to soothingly rub my back. "I still think I can help you if you'll let me," Matt said, grasping one of my hands and giving it a reassuring squeaze. I looked up at Matt, "you think you can help?" I whispered. I've never seen someone look so sad. He nodded, "I wont let you fall."
The timer rang and Matt got up to retrieve the pizza. I leaned over to rest my head on Zacks chest. "You okay?" He said before kissing the top of my head. I nodded and he wrapped an arm around me protectivly. "We're all going to help you. You can conqure this." He whispered. I snuggled further into his chest and he tightened his grip on me.
I sat up when Matt got to the table with the pizza and three plates. He dished himself and Zack two pieces then turned to me and cocked an eyebrow. "Just one," I said. "You sure? There's plenty here." Matt said. I nodded, "one is fine."
After we finished our pizza Matt drove us home. "See you later guys!" He said as we got out. Zack and I both said goodbye and he drove off.
Once we were inside Zack pulled me into the living room. He sat down on the couch and pulled me onto his lap. "Are you mad at me for telling Matt?" He asked warily. I sighed, "no. I was at first but I think I was more scared than mad. I understand that you wanted to help." He smiled, pulled me in tight and gave me a kiss, "I'm glad you understand."
"I'm going to get a shower and get ready for work." I said as he climbed off his lap. "There's a towel in there for you," he said as I headed up the stairs. I gave him a thumbs up over my head as I walked.
I grabbed a wash cloth and hopped in the shower. I slowly drifted to a daydream as I went through my shower routine. I wondered what it felt like to be infront of people and speak or sing and not be terrified. Sure I had no problem dancing half naked infront of people but I couldn' do a speech or sing a song.
I snapped out of my daydream when my water began to turn cold. I stepped out, grabbed my towel, wrapped it around me and headed to my room. I put on all of my uniform except for my white shirt then began to tackle my hair. After a few minutes I finally had all the knots out and it pulled back.
I grabbed my backpack and headed downstairs. "I'm headin to work," I said before giving Zack a kiss, "see you later babe." "Aren't you a little early?" He said looking at the clock. "Boss wants us in early for a meeting." I explained. "Oh, okay," he said, "see you when you get home babe." " love you!" I shouted as I walked out the door.
I started my bike, the roar of the engine helped me to relax. I tore out of the driveway and down the road. Feeling better with every mile.
I got to work to find a full parking lot. Must be big news. I walked in and sat down beside Jamie. "Any clue what's up?" I asked as I sat down. "I was going to ask you the same thing." She said with a shrug. I saw Ian stand up on a chair infront of everyone. He cleared his throat, "looks like everyones here so let's get started. I have some bad news." He paused and took a deep breath, "the city's shutting us down." Everybody bagan to whisper to eachother. "As some of you know," he said loudly to get us to be quiet, "we've been fighting this for a while, and we lost." He trailed off for a few seconds. "Today is your last day, it will be used to clear out any personal belongings. That is all." He climbed off his chair and the crowd dispersed. I walked over to him, "I don't have anything. Am I free to go?" He nodded and shook my hand. "It was a pleasure working with you." I nodded in reply and walked away.
Once I was home what had just happened finally hit me. I walked to the door. Zack was right where I left him and now he looked extremley confused. "Guess who doesn't have a fucking job anymore!" I exclaimed as I dropped my backpack and headed for the living room.

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