I don't belong here.

Nora's P.O.V

The bottle was spinning. It slowed down and it landed on me. I could everyone's eyes staring at us. Brian looked straight at me and i could see a smile forming at the corner of his lips. My heart raced, why was it racing? Was it the sheer excitement and danger of kissing Syn? Since what i was told about last night and our constant dancing and interaction, Bri seemed more attractive and every word he spoke made me ache in places i hadn't ached in a while. But this wasn't just effecting me, i could see Matt clenching his jaw. What was up with him?? i didn't care , i didn't care for men who wanted to control me, especially since Adam. Since I was sat next to Syn anyway, we just turned to face each other. He leaned in, and i already knew by his body language he was going to take the lead, as if we were to be dancing. He placed his hand around my waist and pulled me close to his chest, and my heart felt like it was to burst out of mine. Our eyes connected, and it felt like we were the only ones in the room, and the others weren't real. It felt like everything had slowed down, and every movement we made were highlighted and exaggerated by the tension between our bodies. He kept looking down at me and smiling, as if he was nervous. It was cute, it showed he still had some innocence left in him and he wasn't always this bad ass walking misery persona he always seemed to play. I couldn't wait any longer, i broke this tension by hungrily placing my lips against his. I had to hold back the urge to push him over and bite his neck whilst running my hand through his hair. This urge was hard to fight. I felt my blood buzzing in my veins and heat gathering in my thighs. His hand stroked my waist whilst the other cupped my cheek. This did not help hunger, my want for him. His mouth slightly opened letting loose his tongue in my mouth, and our tongues started to swirl around each others. Suddenly i felt his mouth rip apart from mine. What the fuck?

I opened my eyes to see Matt had pulled Brian from me by the collar of his shirt and had somehow in that short period of time, got him against the wall and was shouting in his face. "Calm the Fuck down mate!" Brian screamed back. What the fuck just happened? What had i started? I ran up to them trying to peel Matt off of Brian, but his size and mass of muscle was too much for me. Even Zacky and the other boys couldn't get them off of each other. Then the roles reversed and Matt was the one against the wall, and Brian was the interrogator.

"What the fuck is your problem, someone pissed that for once a girl maybe more interested in me than you?! huh?!" By this time Brian had his forehead against Matt's, and i could see the rage building in Matt's eyes, he was ready to blow.

"You know nothing Gates, shut the fuck up and do what you do best and go waste your time with a local piece of flesh, not Nora!!" Steam was now coming out of Matt's ears. Not just this but his fists were clenched and from out of nowhere he punched Syn in the jaw, knocking him to the ground. He went for him again but i ran in front of him i begged him to calm down. But he was determined to make Syn understand and just pushed me out of the way like a piece of paper in the wind.

"That's it Matt, you do what you do every time things don't go your way, use your fists to sought things out, grow the fuck up!!" Syn got off of the ground and the punch had already started to make a bruise appear, his lip was split and dripping blood. I looked to see Alex was scared and standing with Jimmy, as Zacky and Johnny had got past me and each had a lad. Johnny with Syn, and Zacky with Matt. There attempt was working as Syn walked to the kitchen and Zacky was calming Matt down. Matt was now sat on the bottom of my stairs, whilst Syn was in the garden having a fag. I walked over to Matt, but he avoided all eye contact with me.

"Why are you acting like that with me?" I placed my hand on his shoulder.


"Don't be so fucking naive Nora, is this what you do? Is this what you did with Adam, tease him till he blew up?!" Matt raised his voice and pushed my hand off of his shoulder.

How the fuck did he know about Adam, and where was all this coming from?

"Who the fuck told you about Adam?" I was worried now, i didn't want any of them knowing about how shit my life was before, about all my nightmares and fears that were created by him. "Alex told Zacky, and he briefly said some shit to us earlier when we were outside. We don't know everything but if your such a bitch and a tease then maybe you deserved everything you got?"

Did he really just say that? That i deserved everything Adam did to me, no-one deserved what i got. I was beaten, mentally and physically abused. My heart was ripped out and burnt to ashes. Matt knew nothing and how fucking dare he comment on it. My heart felt like it had been ripped out and chucked to the floor. These words he spoke made me recap on everything, sending shivers down my spine and making me sick to my stomach. I thought he was different, guess i was wrong. I couldn't help myself and i slapped him straight across the face. He launched himself to his feet and pushed me against the wall. Now his forehead was against mine, my body was full of fear and i physically and emotionally couldn't do anything, a tear fell from my eye. I felt his grip on my wrists loosen and his stern expression weaken, turning to a 'fuck what have i done' expression, he stepped back and i saw both Zacky and Jimmy grab him and usher him out of the door. Matt's eyes never left mine. As i heard the door slammed shut, i fell to the floor. I saw both Brian and Alex run to my aid, As i slid down the wall, it was obvious that all of my strength had gone.

Notes

sudden chANGE in story ...have fun