I don't belong here.

Matt's P.O.V

I can’t believe I just hit, of all things I could have done, that was the final straw, I just know it, she had never walked out on me like that, the thought of never seeing her again, never holding her in my arms, have nothing of her , crippled me, I couldn’t lose her, I wouldn’t. I chased after her out of the door but she was nowhere to be seen, I ran to her house hoping she'd be inside and we could talk it through, but I kept knocking with no answer, I looked through the window and he light was out and it seemed abandoned. I tried ringing her but all I got was her voicemail so I texted her about 15 different times, but no matter how long I waited, still no reply, I started feeling sick, I hated his, I was truly regretting everything, maybe she was at someone else's, she wouldn’t be at Zacky’s as Alex was not due home till tomorrow morning, but maybe she is at Brian’s.

I ran to Brian’s knowing that it was not far from either of ours, I knocked he door and I heard rustling behind the door, I really kind of hoped Nora wasn’t there, wasn’t there with him. Brian opened the door and I barged my way in "Nora...im sorry pleas just come home" I started walking about the place searching for her.

"Dude she ain’t here...why would she be here anywas"

"Oh don’t play that game with me gates, we both know why'd she be here, do you have any idea where the hell she is?" he just started laughing which annoyed me so I grabbed him by the collar of shirt "Did someone scare their girl away, did little matt have trouble getting up?" he was just laughing , thinking it was joke, he generally had no idea where she was "No hats not why, we had an argument and I need to find her o apologize"

"Bri, babe come to bed" I saw Nikki on the stairs, with a visible bump showing in her nightgown, he nodded o her "I'll be right up, just helping matt find Nora"

"Oh im sure she is fine, after all she is dog, and dogs always find their way home" she smirked at me "Shut the fuck up, stop lingering about like a bad smell Nikki and do something your good at like sucking Brian's dick!"

"Im trying to but he seems more concerned in finding your Bitch than joining me upstairs!"

"Enough!! Nikki go upstairs, I’ll be up in a minute, matt shut it, please don't start on my pregnant girlfriend!" Nikki huffed before stropping off upstairs, Brian was no luck so I said goodnight to him and left him to have fun with his bimbo.

I rang the rest of lads and still no one had heard from her, I was worrying now, was I ever going to see her again, I decided to go home and hope this was all a bad dream and id wake to find her cuddled up next to me like usual, but a sickly feeling was telling me this wasn’t going to happen, I went to my room and just sat on the end of the bed going over and over in my head what had just happened, the fight, me hitting her, everything, maybe I did go overboard, no not might, a definitely did, I was horrible and cruel person, I should have never let my trust issues get between us. I looked at the edge and saw the t-shirt of mine that Nora adopted and wore to bed, I hugged it and it smelt of her, I missed her, I missed her touch, her voice, her presence, her fucking everything , and because I was a prick, I’ve lost it all. I spent the rest of that night cuddling the t-shirt crying to myself on the bed praying for her to walk through that door and back into my life.

Notes

Quick update, thought this was needed, kinda hate doing this too them, feel sorry for matt, but it needed to be donex

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