I don't belong here.

Nora’ P.O.V

After the phone call, I was so paranoid Adam was out there watching me, watching all of us, I decided to go home, we all said goodbye and headed to SUV to drive home. I drove everyone home as everyone else had beers, they thought I did as well but I had a few sips earlier but they made me feel sick so just poured them in the sand when no one was looking. I dropped everyone home, I left Alex with Zacky and the boys as they decided to have a few more when they were at Zacky’s, I would have stayed but my face was in pain and I just wanted to sleep. Matt wouldn’t let me go home alone since I had told him about the phone call, he was the only one who knew about it, so I said he could stay the night. We drove up to mine and saw another car in the driveway, “Who’s at your house Nora?”

“I don’t know, I’ve never seen that car before” Matt held my hand on the gearstick and squeezed “If its Adam, get ready to call an ambulance, he’ll need it”. This made me laugh, we pulled up to my house and headed to the door “I’ll go first, just in case” matt pushed me behind him and opened the door, not ever letting go of me, he swung the door open and there was a man sat on my couch “Umm Nora, who’s the guy?” I moved from behind Matt and saw a tattooed man sat on my couch, must have been early 50’s maybe “Dad?” He stood up and opened his arms to me “Hello Sweetheart!” I hadn’t seen my dad in months, oh god I had missed him, I ran straight in his arms, I had missed these hugs, dads always gave the best hugs. “Dad what you doing here?” he pushed my chin up as he reviewed my face “So She got you proper got you didn’t she” he smiled, how the hell did he know about Nikki, and already? “Care to explain why you know already or is my dad a psychic now?” He smirked “When you’ve known your daughter’s best mate since they were little, you tend to keep their number around, and Alex phoned me earlier, I was heading down anyway to surprise you but she phoned me to let me know who was back in town”. He pulled me in for another hug and sighed “Well he won’t be bothering you whilst im around” this made me smile as all my worries seemed to disappearing with this hug, I felt safer already. “But I guess im not the only one who be protecting you I guess” he whispered as he looked at Matt “Are we gonna get introduce?”

“Oh right yeah, Matt this is my dad, dad this is Matt ”They walked towards each other and shook hands “Nice to meet you sir, I’ve heard a lot about you” “ No need to call me sir, Jack is fine Matt” I stepped back as they spoke, it seemed they hit it off “Well there’s beers in the fridge , I’ll be back im going to chuck some new clothes on, and one more thing dad be nice” as I walked up the stairs I heard them laugh and chatting like teenage girls. I walked upstairs and threw myself on my bed, god it was nice to be home, to feel safe, but even then it wasn’t. I hopped in the shower quickly to rid of the sand I had collected rolling around in it with Nikki earlier, the warm water on my bruises and cuts were like heaven, when I finished I jumped out and towel dried my hair, I looked up in the mirror to see the finished look Nikki had left me with, a split lip and a bruised jaw, god I looked a state, then I noticed the hand print shaped bruise forming on my arm, that was what hurt the most, the fact that Brian was able to do that to me, that stung like a bitch, and to think I was falling for him, as much as I did'nt want to, it was time I let him go. I went back in my room and chucked on some black leggings and avenged t-shirt Zacky had given me to keep after a night at his, it was a male’s t-shirt so it was so much bigger on me, but I loved it that way. I shoved my hair into a scruffy top knot and made my way down stairs.

As I reached the bottom step I saw the pile of empty beer bottles on the kitchen counter, guess matt was drinking quick, that what happens when my dad’s about, an entire crate of beer can be gone in less than an hour and a half when dad’s about, but I was only away for about half an hour, and there was at least 6 each to count, so we were good. I came round the corner and dad and matt were sat opposite each other at the kitchen island talking about god knows what. “There you are, was just telling Matt here about your doom and gloom days in high school, wearing all black and wearing too much eyeliner making you look like Crayola had used your face for a test run!” Oh great, I just shook my head and just watched these two men converse with one another, I had never seen dad like this with anyone, especially a guy I cared for, it was sweet and I could get use to this, maybe going further with matt was what was supposed to happen, maybe this was the guy upstairs’ sign for me to give him a chance. Matt’s phone started to buzz, it was on the coffee table so I picked it up and gave it to him “Its Jimmy” he smiled and nodded and went outside to retrieve the phone call, I sat in his seat and took a swig from his beer, yep still made me feel sick, it was hard to keep it down but I did. “So are you going to get together anytime soon?”

“What?” did my dad really just ask that question, were we really that obvious? “Im just saying I don’t mind being a young granddad as long as I have loads of grandchildren!”

“Dad!! Im not having children anytime soon so hold your horses”

“Im joking Nora, but no like seriously he cares for you a lot and he seems genuine, I think he is the first guy I actually get on with, and as a father I wouldn’t have to worry about him not treating you right”

I guess this was dad’s way of saying he approved of Matt, but he did make me think, maybe I should be with matt, there was no denying he loved me and as hard as it is for me to say it but I did too. Matt walked back in and gave me a look “You stole my seat” He said with a jokey sad look on his face “You can have it back so don’t you cry, what did Jimmy want?” He smiled and picked me up and gently placed me down “That’s better” he winked “Oh nothing he was just checking we got home alright, if you were ok and stuff like that” Jimmy was so sweet at times, all the lads were. “Was he drunk?” Matt raised his eyebrow “Bit of a stupid question really isn’t it” he chuckled, his dimples emerged again and they made my knees weak.

“Right im going now; I’ll leave you two with the rest of your evening”

“Dad, are you not staying with me?”

“No im staying in a hotel”

“You sure, you can stay here, I have a spare room”

“Its fine darling, im busy tomorrow but I’ll call you in the evening”

“Okay love you” He gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek, he shook Matt’s hand and whispered something in his ear then was gone. I missed my dad so much at times, sometimes I want to go back to home, but with Adam, I can’t, it’s not safe. I was curious to know what dad whispered to Matt, I turned around and he wasn’t there. He was out in the garden smoking.

“What you doing out here?” Matt was lent against the wall smoking, staring into the sky, wouldn’t make eye contact with me.

“Im just thinking..”

“About what?”

“Us...”

“What about us Matt...”

He chucked his fag end in the bush and pulled me close to his chest and looked me straight. “I want to be yours and you to be mine”.

My heart drop to the pit of my stomach, why did those words make me feels so sick? Was it because I was scared , scared that history would repeat itself, I’ve already seen a dark side to Matt but I have forgiven him, I was naive at the beginning to believe every man was kind, god I thought Brian was but look how he treated me at the beach. This was a big step; if I did there was no going back. There was a part of me who cared for Matt so much, from the minute we first met, I needed him close to me, but then Brian, he was a twat but I couldn’t stop what I felt. This was so hard. It hit me again, the sick feeling I pulled away from Matt and legged it to the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I threw my head down the toilet and spewed everywhere, I started to cry, fuck sake I hated being sick. I heard Matt calling my name and his footsteps got louder as he got closer to the door. The door handle stated wriggling as matt was trying to open the door “Nora opens the door, im sorry, it’s too soon, it’s just…I think I love you...” Those words hit me like a ton of bricks, but then again it made me smile, as much as it could whilst I was throwing my guts up down the toilet. “Nora. Baby…please opens the toilet door…are you ok?” Eventually it stopped and I managed to open the door, the door swung open and Matt was standing in the door way with a worried look on his face.

Matt’s P.O.V

She pulled away from me, her eyes were empty and here face went blank and pale, I watched as I saw this redheaded pixie bolt it up the stairs, I should of kept my mouth shut. It was too soon, not the appropriate time. I ran after her calling out her name, god dammit I should of kept my mouth shut not, not listened to what her dad said to me before he left. I raced upstairs and followed to her bathroom, she locked the door behind her so I couldn’t come in after her. I tried to open the door by messing with the handle, just maybe the lock would give in, it was no use, and it wasn’t budging anytime soon. I put my forehead against the door “Nora opens the door, im sorry, it’s too soon, it’s just…I think I love you...” hopefully she would listen; hopefully she would be happy and not withdraw from me anymore than she had done.

I could he noises, was she being sick? “Nora. Baby…please opens the toilet door…are you ok?” I heard shuffling and muffled cries. The door unlocked and it swung open, Nora was huddled by the toilet with her knees up by her chin and her arms crossed and her head buried in them. What had happened? I was worried, was she being sick, and was everything ok? I walked over and saw the toilet and flushed the contents away, guess she was sick, one thing was going through my head at the moment since I saw that, but it was selfish to bring it up now, but then again was it? I knelt down to her and lifted her head up by her chin, tears fell from her eyes. I felt so guilty. “Im sorry” she smiled and wrapped her arms round mine “It’s me, guess that’s what shock does to me, can you wait in the bedroom whilst I clean myself up” I nodded and left the bathroom and found her bedroom. The last time I was in here, was the party, it brought a smile to my face and a sudden movement in my pants, oh god not now. The memories we shared in here made me smirk, but then the visions of Nora and Brian sent shivers down my spine. I sat on the edge of the bed, facing the window and her purple armchair. I stared at the armchair for a while, looking at the clothing draped over the back of it, underwear, t-shirts, dresses, Syn’s black and purple fedora…huh she still has that, it enraged me that she hadn’t given it back, maybe she didn’t realised he left it here, I swear he didn’t wear it to the party, unless he stayed after we left…oh well, I kicked under the bed, I heard her open the bathroom and jumped back on the bed, forgetting all the issues with the fedora.

Nora came back in look freshened up and smelling pretty, was that perfume? I sat there too scared to say anything; she was in control at this very moment in time, and I was ready when she was, she walked over and straddled me “Okay don’t you want to talk about this Nora?” “No I want you, not later, not in a minute, now” She was boss, but I felt like I was taking advantage, she was just being sick and crying in the toilet, now I was going to fuck her senseless, well what a change in dynamic this was. I felt selfish and confused, she leaned in for a kiss but I pulled away “What the fuck, are you too good for me now?” I couldn’t look at her, it felt too fast. “Matt…Matt?!” She called my name as she kissed my neck, I tried to move away, I knew she would feel weird in the morning, we hadn’t talked about what had just happened downstairs or anything, it felt dirty even though dirty was fun at times, it was hard to resist though I will admit, she was beautiful and she was straddled on me, kissing my neck, playing with the back of my neck, everything she knew that would send me crazy eventually, it was working I could feel it in my crouch and by the way she started grinding on me, Nora did too. “Oh give the game up, I know you want me as much as I want you, I can feel it” She put her hands to the entrance of my jeans and let her hand slip in, she found my cock and grabbed it “I know your enjoying this, I can feel it growing bigger” I couldn’t deal with this anymore, she was right I did want her, but I felt so bad she was upset a minute ago now im going to fuck her, such a gentlemen I turned out to be.

“Do I have to do everything myself?” This time I looked at her, we locked eye contact, never losing it, she pulled at my t-shirt, lifting it above and over my head, I felt her nails glide across my chest as she stared at my tattoos, her touch was sending me insane and I couldn’t restrain myself anymore, I put my hand through her hair and pulled tight “Starting rough are we?” she smirked, our lips crashed fast, heavy and rough, didn’t think sex after me confessing my love for her was going to be rough but she pushed me too far, by now my cock was in pain as it had reached full erection due to her lap dance on my crouch and these jeans were not helping. She opened her mouth slightly allowing me entrance to slip my tongue in , it was hot and busy and I could tell by her increase in heart rate against my chest was a sign she was enjoying this as much as I was. I picked her up and threw her on her back “Strip me…fuck me... Now!!” She panted between breathes, nothing had happened and already she was hot and bothered, a pulled the t-shirt over her head and caressed her breast as I bit her neck over and over again as she moaned louder and louder, her moans and groans made me want her even more, I had turned into a beast and was ready to ravage her and make her scream.

I felt her hand’s find my trousers and pull them down along with my boxers, spring my cock free, I felt her hand wrap around it and start to move up and down. I was ready and by how she was acting so was she, I ripped he leggings clean off of her, taking her thong with them. She was now left in nothing but her purple and black bra, but that was soon gone once I unclipped it with one hand whilst the other played with her clit “Matt for fuck sake stop teasing me!!” She grabbed my cock and squeezed, it hurt but weirdly turned me on as well, she moved my hand away from her clit and guided my cock to her entrance, her arms wrapped around my neck and she pulled me closer to her , she leaned in and whispered in my ear, her hot breath on my neck and ear made me harder “Fuck me shadows, fuck me like there’s no tomorrow” I did as she commanded and pushed myself deeply into her, I was sacred I had hurt her when she dug her nails deep into my back causing me to shout, I stated off with a nice pace but she kept asking for me to get faster, eventually I listened and quickened the pace, with every thrust, she moaned, sending us both closer to the edge. I flipped onto my back so now that she was straddling me, I held onto her hips as I steadied her as she bounced up and down, I had never seen her in this angle and still she was stunning, I sat up ever so slightly, sucking on her breasts “Oh matt im going to cum!!” “Hang on babe!!” We both reached near the edge, she came first , I felt her walls clench and then release, everything when hot as she calmed down , this sent me crazy and over the edge too. She screamed and so did I as she fell on top of me then beside me and cuddled into me. “Whoa…Matt…im sorry”

“Sorry for what that was fucking amazing!!”She giggled, loved the way Nora lit up when she laughed “I know but I went a bit crazy, something came over me”. I looked down at her and pulled the covers over us, her head lay on my chest and she traced my tattoos once again with her small fairy like hands. “I don’t want to ruin things but I still want you to be mine” She sat up and kissed me passionately “What was that for?” “That’s my answer Matt, yes I’ll be yours and you be mine?”

“Always, so you’re my girlfriend then?

“Yes, for as long as you want me to be Matt”

“I’ll always want you, forever I promise”

She smiled and so did I, she nestled into my chest as we fell asleep, not how I planned tonight to go but at least she said yes I guess.

Notes

what do you guys think? did she make the right decision? Why is she feeling sick?