Show Me Your Rock Star Life!

Lana's Pov.

After that argument between James and Adam, we all went back in bed. But we couldn't sleep. I was just spooning with James, he was playing with my fingertips and kissing me sometimes on my neck. I didn't know if he wanted to talk about it but I had to know some stuff about it.

"Why is he acting like that to you? What happened?" I asked him.

I saw that he was getting annoyed, he didn't want to talk about it. I could only know it in the
way he reacted. He turned his back to me and sighed.

"Nothing.. It's long time ago." He said.

He was getting pissed, I could hear it when he answered to me. I didn't say anything else and just went into the "livingroom" where Brian and Emily where sitting. Emily was pouring some coffee in a mug. Coffee, my savior!

"Oh Lana! Do you want some?" She asked me as she handed me a cup. I didn't hesitated a second and just took it. Black. That's what I needed.

I sat next to Brian who was drinking a beer, watching in the same time his Iphone.

"Beer?" I asked

"I'm awake since 7 and it's now 11:30, sooo yeah!" He said as he've put his beer up in the air and took a sip.

I didn't say anything else and was just sitting there watching at my mug with back coffee in it,
I got lost in my thoughts. Why did James was hiding stuff from me. If he really did love me with all his heart he should've tell me anything. I wasn't into a hide in seek relationship at all. I didn't good in it..

"Is Jimmy still sleeping?" Brian asked me.

"Oh he isn't sleeping.." I answered, still looking down my mug.

Brian probably saw that I wasn't feeling good about all what happened this morning, he took me by the shoulder and forced me to come closer to him.

"Hey... Don't worry about Adam. Nobody will let him touch you. None of us." He said as he looked at me and gave a little confort smile.

I wasn't really scared of that Adam, I knew that they would all be there for me and not let him touch me... That wasn't the point.

Later that day, we arrived to the first concert place of the tour. I didn't really talked much to James in the morning either. He stayed in his room all the time and when he came out, he just gave me a kiss and went to take a shower. Me and Emily had to fix all the merch so I really didn't have time to see him or talk to him. I didn't see Adam either. Luckily, that bus was big, but not big enough to don't see each others faces.

Emily and I were putting all the t-shirts in size order. It was silence. They only thing we could hear was the techniciens working on the stage. Emily looked very concentrated, a list in hand, looking if all the stuff was there.

"Do you know why they acted like this?" I asked quietly, just in case James or Adam were somewhere near us.

She've put her list down, she knew I was talking about them.

"Yeah, Brian told me..." She said, unconfortable.

She knew and I, James' gilfriend, didn't even know little thing about it. I felt a bit jealous to be honest. She knew much more than I did and it wasn't normal, in my eyes.

"And?" I wanted her to tell me everything she knew.

I saw in her face that she didn't feel quite good to talk about it. But I had to know. I looked at her with big eyes. She had to tell me. She hesitated a moment and then she started.
"Ok, I'll tell you." She said as she sighed and get herself less tensed. "Brian told me that last year, Adam brang a girl with him in tour, at first James didn't care about her at all, but you know when he's drunk.." She've put a sorry face on and continued. "Anyway, Adam was deeply in love with her and James, let's say, fucked with her while he was drunk. She didn't care about Adam anymore, she fell in love with James and yeah..."

She stopped talking but had still her sorry face on. I just wanted to know the rest about it.

"And yeah?" I asked, waiting for more.

"And, James slept with her almost everynight for a month still, making her believe that hewas in love with her too and at the end of the tour, he left her like an old sock under a bed.."

I really couldn't believe that James could have done that. Drunk, ok maybe. But sober.. He just used this poor girl for his own pleasure, during the tour, and then after dumping her like that, without caring about her feelings. I was excepting something like that, at first, but not something that far. it really took me a moment to realize how discusting this was. I totally understood Adam on that point.

"I'm realy sorry to tell you that Lan..." She said as she stood up and sat closer to me.

"Well.. That's okay.. I had to know it from someone.."

She looked confused for a moment but then she realized what I meant.

"Oh.. He didn't want me to tell you?" She asked. Yeah, probably he didn't want me to know it...

"I don't know.. Every time I tried to talk about it, he was getting pissed and annoyed."
She sighed and said nothing else more about it. I continued placing the merch when I heard people coming near us. I instantly recognized James with his nosy voice and off course, he was with Brian, his best friend of all time.

"How's it going here?!" Brian asked as he kissed Emily, on the cheek. He just got ready for the show, wearing his jeans grey coat with studs on it and badge, also his hair were styled spiked up in the air. Kinda cute though!

James came to sit on the counter behind me. He seemed pretty acting normal, I was trying to but I couldn'nt. Ifelt really unconfortable, not because of the story, but just because I was his girlfriend and I almost had to become a Sherlock Holmes to know what happened between him and Adam.. In my eyes, this wasn't right!

"You girls are quiet!" James said as he put his hands on my shoulders. I tensed up. He noticed it, I knew it. I looked at Emily, she instantly tried to change the subject question to not make it to much awkward.

"Yeah! Really busy into the work.. You know!" She laughed nervously.

Brian and Emily started together a conversation about random things, I don't even remember what cause I couldn't feel James not leaving his eyes from me and I really didn't know what to do about it. I just decided to stand up and face him, I gave him one of my weakest, untrue, smile. He didn't gave me one back. I kissed him on the cheek and excused myself that I had to go to the bathroom. 2 minutes later when I came back, the guys were gone. Ready for the show.

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