Not a bad thing

So making out with Brian, who wasn’t single at the time, certainly wasn’t my finest moment. I hated people cheating, my dad did it to my mom, hell, I just got cheated on myself! I couldn’t believe I would do that to somebody, and yet, I did. After Katie caught us, we both came to our senses and run after her. She had become my friend and technically Brian was still with her. I guess we both blew that huh?

We found Katie outside of the house, waiting for someone to take her home. Brian tried to talk to her, but he only got slapped in the face. He was quickly to turn away shamefully. I got a little more time with her, but she didn’t had much patience with me either and I couldn’t blame her really. “Were you planning this all along? Was everything you told me at the mall just a lie? Why now? Why did you do this to me, I trusted you!” I had looked down full of shame. Not able to look her in the eye. “Katie, I’m so sorry. I could just tell you that I never wanted this to happen and it’s true. But it did. I can’t do anything to change it back. I would if I could” Katie had looked at me sad, but there was something else. I couldn’t really put my finger on it, but I think it was pity. “I think you understand I will never ever want to see you or Brian again. I’m glad school’s almost over, so I don’t have to. I hate this you know, we became so close. We could have been friends for a long time.” And with that she had turned around and had gotten in the car with a friend who had looked at me like she could just kill me. I would have too if it had been the other way around.

That was the last we saw of Katie and that was two weeks ago. It was also the last I had seen of Brian. He had called, several times, he had been at our front door a few times too, but I didn’t want to see him. I just didn’t know how to act around him. I didn’t even know if he was still my friend. I didn’t know if I wanted him to be.

I just locked myself in my room and just got out to go to work. I got this internship at my mom’s office before summer started and it was really good preparation for the business school I was attending in almost 2 months. So I got up every morning, went to work, came home, ate and went to my room. I just prepared everything for college and slept a lot. Didn’t want to think about Brian, it was too hard. Even thought I didn’t really know where or what we were, I missed him like crazy. In the 10 years I had known him, we were only separated for long holidays if our parents took us away from each other. Other than that, I saw him almost every day. I missed having him around.

And I’m the only one who could change that. I got a text from him yesterday “Izzie, I miss you. You don’t want to see me apparently. I will give you your time, please let me know if you are ready to see me. Luv you”. I know I should call him, but I just couldn’t. I first needed to find out what I was feeling. I could really use a girl friend right now, but I blew that. A soft knock on my door pulled me out of my memories “Yes?” My mom came in with a worried face “Honey, I don’t know what’s been going on, but I see that you’re hurt. If I look at Brian, he looks hurt too. Were you two in a fight or something?” “No mom, he kissed me” and I just started crying, while my mom held me. I needed my mom, I needed someone to tell me everything was going to be ok. “Ow honey, you two will work it out. I’m sure. You have been friends for so long. Everything will be ok.” There they were, the magic words. I knew she couldn’t promise me that it would be ok, but I felt a little better. She held on to me and I just cried.

Once I started crying, I couldn’t really stop. So I got to work with bloodshot eyes for the next two weeks. Work helped take my mind of things and I actually liked it. Even though my work only consisted of copying things and if I was lucky, bringing around the mail. I had fun again today, my colleagues were nice to me, even though I was only seventeen years old. They asked me to do a movie night very soon, so I felt really accepted there. It was only 6 more weeks till I go off to college.

I got home to a dark house that night, mom must have been working late. I ate something and I was flipping through the channels on tv. When I hit this cartoon channel I came across some Dragonball Z. I hated that show! But that guy reminded me of Brian... I don’t know why. Before I really knew what I was doing, my phone was already ringing in my ear. “Hello?” “Bri?” “Oh Izzie, I missed you so much” I started to cry, I missed him too. I heard him hang up the phone and it seemed only seconds before I heard a knock on the door.

Brian’s POV
As soon as I heard Izzie’s voice I knew it for sure. We past the friends stage and moved on to something else. I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know if I loved her. OK, I did love her, I have been for a long time, but as a friend. Did I love love her? I wanted to find out, as soon as we kissed, but she just wouldn’t see me. Two weeks after the party I send her a text. Telling her that I would give her time, and that I wanted her to call me when she was ready. She didn’t. I saw her mom with my mom, gazing at me silently. They both didn’t know what happened. I hadn’t told my mom and I’m pretty sure Izzie didn’t tell hers.

Graduation came. I tried to catch Izzie’s gaze, but she just avoided me. Izzie was valedictorian, and I just bursted of pride. But I couldn’t tell her, she and her mom left directly after the ceremony. I didn’t even got to congratulate her. I needed her with me, I missed her. I missed my friend. We have always been together.

And now she called me. I had to go over. I hung up the phone and sprinted to her house. She was crying when she opened the door. I pulled her into my arms and hugged her. We must have been standing there for a long time, Izzie felt cold. “Izzie, we have to get inside, you are getting cold”. We moved to her bedroom and lay on her bed. Arms around each other, talking about everything we missed for the past few weeks. Her being all nervous for her valedictorian speech. She had seen me there, watching her, but she wasn’t ready yet. I told her I joined Jimmy’s band and that Jimmy had missed her a lot too.

After talking for what felt for hours silence fell. We both knew the moment had come to talk about the party. I felt her tense up in my arms a little. “Bri, we have to talk about it”. I sighed “I know, I don’t really know what to say. I’m just... “ Izzie got up a little and looked at my face. “Ok, I’ll start. I don’t know what I feel. I’m so scared to lose you as my friend. I felt what it was like to not have you around the past few weeks and I hated it. But I can’t deny it. You weren’t just kissing me, I kissed you back. And truth be told, it did feel good. We fit so well, I know everything about you. It was so easy.” I looked at her face, my eyes moving to her lips, which she was licking now. I couldn’t wait anymore, I needed to know if it had been just a onetime thing or if there was really more between us. She was so right, we fitted really well, I know her by heart, just as she knows me. I moved my head down and kissed her, I felt Izzie curl up to my body, kissing me back, quickly deepening the kiss. Woah, this was really happening. I was kissing my best friend and it felt good. I wanted her. “Izzie. Izzie wait. Are you sure this is what we want?” Izzie was out of breath, so was I. Why was I pushing her away again?

Izzie’s POV
Kissing Brian was driving me crazy. It felt so good, but that little voice in my head kept saying “Izzie, he is your friend, you are going to lose him”. How can something so amazing be wrong? I couldn’t find any reason why we shouldn’t be doing this. He was mine. Why not take him? I wanted to, he wanted to. I told him how I felt, and he kissed me. Was that how he felt? Why didn’t he tell me? Ow god, his kisses were so amazing. “Izzie. Izzie wait. Are you sure this is what we want?” I heard Brian talk, but I wasn’t really listening. I was out of my mind. I looked at Brian “What do you want?” I asked him. He took a deep breath. “I wanna know what this...” he was waving his hand from me to him and back “...is”. I tilted my head with a questioning look. “I don’t know. You know I love you, but you’ve always been my friend and I want to find out if there is more. Being with you is so comfortable. There is no drama. We get along so great, we fit real great. Kissing you is great and let’s be honest, at this moment I really want you” I did feel something grow in his pants, I chuckled a little. “So conclusion, everything with you and me is great and we both want to find out if we could work. It would be amazing, don’t you think?”. I lay there on my bed, my head on his chest. Thinking about what he just said. I couldn’t say I didn’t want him, I felt all heated and I reallllyyyy wanted to continue what we were doing just now. I sat up on my bed. Brian also got up and sat across from me.

“So, we are going to do this?” I asked him. He stared into my eyes and nodded carefully. As I looked back into his beautiful brown eyes, I felt his hands slowly moving up my legs, putting them around my waist, pulling me back on the bed. He kissed me again. Was this normal? I never ever felt like this before. Brian pulled me against him, his hands moving all over my body, slowly moving under my shirt. Our legs were strangled together. I felt Brian pulling up my shirt. He’s not the only one who could do that. I started pulling his shirt too. We were disconnected for a second or two. Brian looked at me as if he wanted to know if it was still okay what we were doing. I assured him it was by unbuttoning his pants. Suddenly we both rushed into getting each other naked as if we realized that it was really going to happen and that we had no time to lose. I was lying on top of him, in just my underwear and I felt him grow in his boxers. Brian undid my bra and softly stroked my back. His hands on me felt amazing. Even though this would only be the second time I was going to do this, I didn’t feel uncertain for a moment. This was my Brian, he would take care of me. I moved my hand in between us, moving it into his boxer, stroking his length. Brian moaned my name and moved his hands to pull down my panties. He grabbed my ass as I was slowly starting move my hand around his erection. Brian pulled me on top of him and kissed my neck. “Oh Izzie, I really want you, are you sure?” I held on to his body “Yes, I know for sure, please show me that it can be different Bri” He turned me over to lay me on the bed. He got of me, I felt cold as his heated body moved away from mine. He grabbed his pants and got a condom out of his wallet. I saw him looking at me. He had so much love in his eyes. I watched him put on the condom and lay back next to me. He pulled me close, gently guiding his erection into me. I held my breath. Brian was bigger than Chris. His brown eyes stared at me “Are you okay baby?” “Just do it Brian, I can’t take it any longer, just make love to me”. I felt complete the moment Brian entered me, he slowly began to move. I was so hot, I wanted him closer, I wanted him to move faster. “Brian” I whispered as I started to move my hips against his. He moved faster against my body, kissing me hard. “Brian, I’m so close” Brian’s kisses got deeper, he pulled me even closer and stroked my back. I fell apart, holding on to his body as if it was my last rescue. This pushed Brian over the edge too, I heard him whisper my name over and over again. “Izzie, I love you so much”.

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I migggghhttt do two chapters today, just because it's mothers day and because I'm fucking excited about next chapter :D But only if you want me to ;)