Not a bad thing

Izzie’s POV
“Don’t ever leave me again” Matt whispered against my lips. He kissed me again. I smiled in our kiss “If you promise my mouth is the only one you kiss, I will stay with you forever”. He moved away a little and looked me in my eyes deeply. There was something in his eyes, that I couldn’t really make out.

“Izzie?”
“Yes?”
“You said forever, you mean it?”
“Of course I mean it”
His eyes lit up. “Okay, marry me then” I let go of him and moved away “What?!” He grabbed my hands “Marry me”.
“Matt, I... this is crazy! I just promised you forever, isn’t that enough for now?” His face clouded “You don’t want to marry me?” I looked at his face, he looked hurt “We only know each other for a few months, we are not even dating for 3 months and you want to marry me already? It’s too soon!”
He moved away from me, “Clear” he said abruptly. “Matt, don’t be like this” He paced up and down “Like what?! I just asked you to marry me, and you turned me down. It’s clear to me” He started to walk away from me and I got angry. “Matthew Charles Sanders, don’t you even fucking dare walking away from me! This is going to be a long, long, long and boring relationship, because you surely don’t think it ends with this don’t you?”

He was over on the other side of the room now, but he did stand still. I walked over to him and he stood there with his defensive posture, arms crossed over his chest, feet firmly on the ground and a sturdily look on his face. I stood on my toes to put my arms around his neck, he never even flinched. He just stared me down from up where was. I smiled, oh I can play this game.

“You know I love you, right?” I kissed the corner of his mouth and looked at him .... Nothing
“You know I don’t want to be with anyone else, right?” I kissed the other corner of his mouth.... Still nothing.
“You know I will be with you forever, right?” I pecked his lips... Only one hard mouth,... Nothing else.
“You know I’m going nowhere, right?” I stroke my tongue over his lips.... one big fat nothing... Damn, he was good. I decided a different approach.

I looked him in his eyes, almost drowning in them. Focus Izzie, focus.
“You know I will marry you eventually, right?” He looked at me, surprised. Ha! Now I got him.
“You know I want to have at least 2 kids with you, right?” I gazed into his eyes, not blinking once.

“Why not now?” He asked me quietly. I looked at him, making sure he got my message. “Because it’s not me Matt, I don’t rush into things and when I marry you.... Noticed the word “when”?” He nodded. “When I marry you, it will be forever, because we thought it through. Ask me again in 9 months and I promise you, I will say “yes”, loud and clear” He chuckled “9 months huh, anything you want to tell me?” I shoved his shoulder “No, you dickhead!” I smiled. “9 months, a year, something like that, just give us some time to recover from this, okay?”

I felt his arms snake around my waist “I love you so much”, he kissed me softly. “I love you too” I kissed him again. “Can I ask you something?” I looked up at him “Sure”
“Is it also too soon for you to move in with me?” I tried to gain a serious look on my face “Of course that’s too soon too!” He let go of me immediately “Izzie! What the hell?!” I giggled. “It is too soon, but I would love to” He had me in his arms again in a split second and kissed me hungrily. “One thing though” He looked at me questionably, I felt my cheeks turn pink “I kinda love my house” He shrugged “I’m not really attached to mine, but yours is too small, I need a music room and a game room. And we need the two extra rooms you already have for the kids”

He suddenly let go of me and walked outside. I quickly walked after him, where was he going? He was standing on the beach, looking at my house. “Do you know who owns the land next to your house?” I shook my head “I will ask around, if we can buy it, we can build a kind of pavilion there” He pulled me against him, my back against his chest. He started to point where he wanted what. “We can isolate one room and make it the music room, I can teach our kids to play piano and guitar and the guys can come over and practice so I don’t have to leave you when you carry my twins” I pushed him gently “Twins?! Are you fucking kidding me?!” I smiled “And over there” he pointed to the empty space “Daddy can have his game room” I looked at him “Matt, you are taking the daddy thing too far” I giggled “You think?” he chuckled. I just nodded. He turned towards the empty space again. “We can even build a home theatre there, I mean, I know you love your movies.... Can you see it, can you see it happening?” I nodded with a goofy happy smile on my face.

We stood there for a while watching the house, dreaming about the possibilities, until I saw the first cars pull up to the house. I saw Brian’s and Zacky’s cars first, figures that they would be here the minute we let them know the coast was clear. We texted all the guys to let them know everything was okay, we both realized they would be waiting to hear something from us. It wasn’t really our intention to let them come over, but what the hell, it was nice to have them here. I felt Matt chest move up and down in sigh “Couldn’t they just leave us alone today?” he mumbled. I turned towards him and kissed him softly “I’m all yours forever, we have plenty of time, but don’t exhaust yourself okay? I will need you later tonight”

I kissed him one last time, before I was pulled out of my embrace with Matt and pulled in to another tight hug. Zack. And then Lizzy, and Leyla, and Rye, and Lynn. Everyone seemed to want a piece of me. I had only been away for a little over a week, but I seemed to have missed so much. Lynn told me her and Brian were moving in together and Liz, well Liz whispered in my ear that she had just thrown her birth control away. She asked me to keep it quiet though, she didn’t want any pressure on it. I kissed her cheek and told her I would be here for her every time she needed me in this journey. In the meantime Arin, Johnny and Nessa arrived too and our little group of friends was together again. I missed them so much.

Matt never moved away from me for more than 10 feet and if he wasn’t close enough to touch me, he kept me in his sight all the time. I felt safe, with him close, I wouldn’t want it any other way. Brian was talking to Matt and the both looked over to me. I motioned my head to the house, and they both pointed at themselves. I smiled, I needed Brian now so that’s what I mouthed to them. Brian padded Matt’s shoulder and walked back to the house with me. He put his arm around me, pulling me close to his side.

“Iz, I’m so glad you came back. I couldn’t bear to lose you again. Please stay with us now, I need you in my life” I giggled. “You have Lynn now Brian, you don’t need me anymore, because I will never ever sniper on her” Brian chuckled and pinched my shoulder softly. “You won’t need to, I will never leave Lynn, I’m crazy about her” I nodded “I know, I can see it in your eyes”. We sat on the porch of my house together, a comfortable silence between us, looking at our friends. I had taken him away for a bit because I needed to ask him something, without everyone freaking out on me. Brian held my hand and looked at me “What is it Izzie? You didn’t separate me from the group to just hold my hand”

“Matt asked me to marry him”

“Oh Izzie! Congratulations!” I heard Nessa’s voice behind me. “Nessa! I didn’t know you were in the house!”
Nessa shrugged “I had to pee”. I looked at her. “Please don’t tell anyone, definitely not Johnny, I said no, it’s too soon”
“Why? Nessa asked. “Johnny and I got married, no big deal”
“YOU TWO DID WHAT?!” Brian and I both snapped our heads at her. Nessa smiled “We did it last week, after you ran away. Johnny didn’t want to waste any time, so we just went to town hall and got married. No big deal” Brian shook his head “I can’t believe short shit beat us all to it and didn’t even mention it” he mumbled. “Everyone was so sad, it didn’t seem appropriate to flaunt our happiness all over the place” Nessa replied “We will give a party, we like parties!” A big smile came across her face. “I have to get back to Johnny now” she said as she started to walk away. “Nessa!” I stopped her “You can’t tell anyone about Matt and me, could you please do that for me?” She nodded “Sure, I hate keeping things from Johnny, but I understand”. Brian and I both watched her walk away in astonishment.... Damn, Johnny and Nessa got married, it was most certainly big news day today.

Brian turned to face me again “Where were we? Oh yes, Matt asked you to marry him and you said no” He slapped the back of my head “Ouch! What are you doing that for!” “Because you are stupid Ismay! He loves you, you love him, why don’t you want to marry him?” I sighed “Bri, you know me, I don’t jump into things, this is too soon, I need more time. I will marry him eventually, I know I will, but not now, I’m not ready” Brian looked at me questionably. “Yes! I will! That is why I need your help anyways. I want to ask you something, even though it’s too early now, but I need this from you and I need to know it has been taken care of so I don’t have to worry about it anymore and I will be ready when Matt asks me again.” Brian looked at me with sorrow in his eyes “No, don’t worry, it’s just a little thing, but I need to get a grip on the situation, it’s scaring me too much” Brian took my hands in his again and looked at me “Anything Iz, you know I do anything for you”

“When we get married, even though it probably will be years before it comes to it, could you please give me away?” Brian looked at me with so much love in his eyes, that I knew I made the right decision. I needed to let go of my dad and this was the only thing that could connect me to him in the future, I needed that connection gone. “Of course I will, it will be the greatest honour ever” He pulled me into a hug and kissed my temple.

In the distance we saw everyone getting up, it was getting late and it has been a rough couple of days. I think everyone needed to get back to their normal lives again. Matt was the first to arrive at the house, pulling me up to him, holding me close as we said goodbye to all our friends. When we saw the last car drive off, Matt picked me up from the ground and carried me to our bedroom, kissing me with every step he took.

“I want you Izzie, I want you now” Matt said to me in a husky voice “I need you too, I thought they were never going to leave” Matt chuckled “I think they needed to get used to the fact that they didn’t have to look after me anymore” I pulled his shirt over his head as he took mine off too, walking to the bed “We don’t need any other guards, I will be watching you very closely, I’m never letting you out of my sight” I pulled his shorts down and pushed him back on the bed and let myself fall on top of him. I attacked his mouth as I felt his hands impatiently roam my body.

Kissing him, feeling him, it made me whole again, I never wanted to be anywhere else than in his arms. I sighed into our kiss, Matt put his arms around me and rolled us over, putting him on top of me. His hands moved down pulling my panties with him, his hand was fastly moving to my core, I gasped when he let a finger slide in. “So wet already” He groaned to my lips. “Matt, cut the crap, we have forever to make slow love, I just need to feel you in me now” I demanded. Matt chuckled as he kissed me again “You got demanding while you were away, sweetie?” He kissed my neck as he slowly pushed inside me. His thrusts began slowly, but picked up in speed quickly. I wasn’t the only one who needed this huh?! His pace got quicker and quicker and I was panting heavily, feeling my orgasm build up with every thrust I felt of him in me. “Matt, I can’t hold it much longer” Matt held me close, pushing in me a few hard times. “Let go then” he groaned in my ear. His breath on my skin made me fall apart in a thousand pieces, I screamed his name, digging my nails into his back, as I felt him unload in me.

My head lay on Matt’s chest, his hands was absently stroking my back as we both tried to come to ourselves. Since I flew back to Huntington I had this song in my head, at least I thought it was still in my head, that was until I heard Matt ask me “What is that song you are humming?”. I giggled “You wouldn’t know it, it’s a Justin Timberlake song” “Sing it to me” I laughed “You know I can’t sing!” “Come on Izzie, I want to know what’s so special to this song”

I sang softly...

“Now how about I’d be the last voice you hear tonight?
And every other night for the rest of the night that there are?
Every morning I just wanna see you staring back at me
‘Cause I know that’s a good place to start

I know people make promises all the time
Then turn right around and break them
Then someone cuts your heart open with a knife
Now you’re bleeding
Don’t you know that I could be that guy to heal it over time
And I won’t stop until you believe it
Cause baby you’re worth it

So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me
Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out my love was free
So don’t act like it’s a bad thing to fall in love with me”

Notes

My lovelies! This is it... The last chapter, I hope you all like it, I had very much fun writing it... There will be an epilogue over the weekend, but I stil have to write it, so please be patient...

Or you must say "We don't really need the epilogue", Then I won't even bother ;-)

Love you guys! <3